How many use or have used meth?

babylove · #1 08-20-2004, 10:08 PM

I am a recovering meth user. I have been clean from meth for almost 3 months. The withdrawl symptoms are getting worse now then in the begining. My drug nightmares are worse. MY mental health has gotten 10 times worse than it used to be. There is no joy in this world anymore for me. Will I ever get that feeling back? I hope so. I had only been doing meth since March this year. If the after effects are so bad from just doing it that amount of time, what are the after effects after a year or more of using? These are all retorhical questions but everyones knows the answers. I was 3 months pregnant already by the time I became unselfish and realized my baby was more important then getting high. Meth is one of the worse drugs in this world. My opinion anyways. I watched my friends do it and the way they acted and treated me while I wasnt using and also realized What the hell was Wrong with me??? How could I let myself be invoved with such an addicting and deadly drug. I will tell you my experience wasnt the greatest, I watched my fiancee turn from a sweet angel to a psychotic demon just from being on it. Hearing voices that told him to do bad things, not thinking he was good enough for me. Suspicious and jealous all the time, accusing that went to far. No one is ever their self afterwards. I dont know if I will ever recover from the drug, but I do know I will NEVER touch it again and thats a promise.
Tana

Dixie_sweetie · #2 08-20-2004, 10:22 PM

Tana, I have not used Meth, but sister did and from what she has said she used for a while too like a couple of years. She did change a lot, she lived with my mom and by the time she was 17 was living with her bofriend we didn't know what was going on withher she wanst her self at all. We figured drugs but didn't think it would be crank. She is just now adimitting to us she used and is clean now. After she got away from all those people inculding her husband who used crank too. But she seems to be doing good she is more like old self.but in some ways she is differnt. She hasnt said anything about the nightmares or cravings but I will ask her for you.
I hate that you are going through this and having such a hard time with it. I am very glad you decided your unborn child was more important than the drugs. I hope you can find out the answers you want and are able to stay clean for good. I have heard it is a horrible drug to come clean from. I wish you luck and you (and all addicts) are in my prayers. God bless you.
Brandi

Dre's Lady · #3 08-20-2004, 10:23 PM

Tana, I really hope that you stay away from meth. I'm praying for your recovery.
I've never used meth or any drugs.

Ebony's spice · #4 08-20-2004, 11:37 PM

You said you've been clean for 3 months (a BIG congratulations!!) and you started using in March of this year. So does that mean you were only using for two and 1/2 months? (I don't mean "only" like it sounds). That is such a destructive drug, but I didn't realize it could grab you by the "cahonies" (sp - LOL) that quickly and cause you that much pain - physical and mental. Please keep us posted. I'm/we're here to listen and support you. Please give yourself a huge pat on the back for what you've done to improve your life for you AND the baby! Good girl!!

Ban5354 · #5 08-20-2004, 11:47 PM

That is good that you only used for months, some people go for years and still don't stop. I believe that if you are experiencing pain maybe a counselor would be helpful. There could be underlying issues here which is in my opinion why people even turn to drugs. Once the pain killer is removed you must deal with yourself and that means dealing with whatever it is that caused you to continue to use in the first place.Good Luck on you journey.

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Originally Posted by Ebony's spice

You said you've been clean for 3 months (a BIG congratulations!!) and you started using in March of this year. So does that mean you were only using for two and 1/2 months? (I don't mean "only" like it sounds). That is such a destructive drug, but I didn't realize it could grab you by the "cahonies" (sp - LOL) that quickly and cause you that much pain - physical and mental. Please keep us posted. I'm/we're here to listen and support you. Please give yourself a huge pat on the back for what you've done to improve your life for you AND the baby! Good girl!!

praizewarrior · #6 08-21-2004, 12:15 AM

Great!!!!!!! Good for you!!!! I have not used meth, but I have experiences with people on it. It is a hard drug to get off. I have seen the devastation that it has wrought in people's lives and it will age you real fast as well as the people you love as they stand helplessly by and watch it take it's toll on you. It is an addiction that is hard to break, but, it can be done. Sounds like you are on the road to doing just that! Best wishes and prayers out to you!

Wingy · #7 08-21-2004, 03:21 AM

I was doing crstal before crystal was even known...I am and was a speed freak for more years than i care to count and meth was my drug of choice...it took me years and years to get clean and more years after that to recover...I hope you have yourself a good support system,...as much as i hated "meetings" they and the people there are what got me thru. Its going to get better...you gotta hang tuff and stay close to the people who love you no matter what...i still have a drug induced nightmare now and then...and i have been clean for over 10 years...pm me if you need to talk...keeping you in my prayers

**Patty** · #8 08-21-2004, 07:53 AM

Congratulations on getting clean I really truly hope you stay that way. I was a speed queen from way back when. It consumed my life and I thought I'd never get out from under it. It is such a destructive thing to do your mind, body and soul. I will never ever be the same from my many years of use. After using pretty steadily for about 10 years I finally laid it down about 7 years ago with a short relapse about 4 years ago. It is so strange to me to know I once liked the feeling it brought me. I am so glad that feeling that way is behind me. It is a one day at a time thing. If you ever need to talk feel free to PM me...

Stay Strong,
Patty

cinderella2004 · #9 08-21-2004, 09:11 AM

Its been about 15 yrs. since I snorted my last line of crank. That's when I moved outta state and away from it. We never bought big quantities and I remember we used it all up until it was gone. I remember force feeding, and hoping and praying to go to sleep. I also remember the urges - they were strong, if there was any more meth in the bag I had to do it until it was gone. It kept calling me, we would search the bars for more. Anyhow since I've been away from it if someone offered it to me now I would turn it down. But that's what worked for me - to move away from my drug infested neighborhood. It was everywhere and that was too much temptation for me. I moved outta state to a little country town where the worst they do is smoke a little home grown pot. Best wishes and keep strong, you can do it.

babylove · #10 08-21-2004, 06:17 PM

everyday is a struggle to get through because I cant focus on things for long periods of time like I used to. The drug gives you all this energy and ability to get things done a lot faster and easier. MY mind is so messed up, its will take years to repair the damage thsts done and the nightmares and sleepless nights are the worst part. Its hard and embarressing to talk about but I feel like I can be myself here and no one will judge me because there are people who have been through it either themselves or your man or family or friends. A good support system is always the best.

bopnomo · #11 08-21-2004, 07:39 PM

SPEED KILLS "DONT METH WITH IT"

asweetangel99 · #12 08-21-2004, 08:03 PM

My ex just got busted for running a meth lab. HELLO, can we say STUPID! I guess he also was using. I havent seen him since then since he is in TX and i am in WI. But my friends have been telling me that he constantly looks "geeked" and shakes. Also, I should mention that he got blown up in the meth lab. (Somone enter with a lit cig so I am told) and he had second and third degree burns, he also had his lungs burned internally from the ether that was being used. I cannot understand why people could stand to use something that contains such deadly things. I am not here to judge and will support anyone who "rehabs" themselves. I guess my ex also will be going through a drug treatment program to get a reduced sentance for having to plead guilty to possesion of 99 grams of meth. That is a lot isnt it? I dont know these things... I hav ealso heard it is a very hard habit to kick, and would strongly recommend detox/rehad support group etc for anyone attempting to release this evil from their bodies. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

cinderella2004 · #13 08-21-2004, 08:28 PM

Don't be embarrassed, it will get easier ... and about your mind. I did so much drugs in my teens - that was the 60's (i.e, acid city) and drugs in my 20s & 30s ... guess what? I have straight A's today in school, the only one in my class. See? You will be fine, hang in there and hang tough!

babylove · #14 08-23-2004, 01:36 AM

Relapsing after the baby is born is gonna be the hardest thing not to do and the scariest thought, also my fiancee has been struggling with this drug since he was 15 and hes 21 now, keeping him sober through support will help.

gentlemanbandit · #15 08-24-2004, 03:20 AM

Different people handle it in different ways. Some people have a harder time than others. I use to love meth,crack,pot,coke,blotter...you name it...I did it. Now I don't judge people who do it but I discovered that I can't help those who are actively doing it. I've tried. They don't listen. Your on your way. You will look back and hate it. I don't have any reactions or side effects but some people do. It's been many many years since I did any drugs. I just enjoy a clean mind now.