My mom is down the hall listening to the song "My Heart Will Go On" by Celine Dion--the theme for Titanic. I cant help but feel sad about the whole movie. But, to the same affect, it makes me grateful that Louie IS coming home to me, and that he isn't dying or dead. Anyone else try to think of ways to cheer yourself up?
__________________ 13½ --Twelve jurors, One Judge, ½ a chance.
ya I do.. I listen to music, and I am planning on our wedding, and looking for us a place to live.. I think about our future. Tht normally makes me happy..
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~Jason&Delania~
Together again Dec 1,05
I try to think of ways to cheer myself up all the time! When i watch tv and i see something advertised i run and get a pen and pencil and write jeff.
~the other day they had an ad for a stripper pole in your bedroom for under 200 dollars haha so i wrote him and said we're getting one and going to disneyland! then i think about all the rides at disneyland and get excited.
~Music makes me happy!
~Going to the gym makes me feel happy/sexy! I love the way i feel after a workout, sorta iis a replacement for lovin, cuz after lovin ur all out of breath, sore and feel freaking great you know?
And now I come here to pto, I love it here and ive only been a user for 3 days now. Im addicted already.
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Karen & Jeff
Forever and Always
I reread my favorite letters from him when I need chearing up (although sometimes it only makes me yearn for him more!). Or I just play with my dog - he's so clumsy and funny that in the end I'm laughing and all seems OK.
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No-l
"But, truly, I have wept too much! The Dawns are heartbreaking. Every moon is atrocious and every sun bitter. That will all end when you come home my bay!"
My therapy is to work on myself! Like Karen said above, working out, reading (my friends are starting a book club), going to school (those loans are adding up...) and trying to focus on my own future. I love my man, but I need to have my own life too or I'll have nothing to give to the relationship. I feel like a whole and well-rounded person now. Those moments when I'm lonely I'll look around and there will always be something positive to do for myself.
Going for a drive to nowhere, with the tunes cranked, singing at the top of my lungs... this is one of many things I do to take my mind off things or cheer myself up.
Oh, and chocolate... the cure-all for everything!
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Anne Frank
I have done the endless driving to nowhere, I have done the reading, I have done the just sit and stare at our picture and today...
sat in a nice warm bath and cried for 2 hours!!! this is just driving me crazy. What we do for them.
I have thought about planning the wedding but I have not gotten my ring yet, he got p/u before i got one. That is alright because now I know what I want and knowing that he asked me and I can tell him: its not the ring, its not the wedding, its not all the materials things you can give me,
ITS THE TIME TOGETHER, ITS THE ENDLESS DRIVES THAT WE HAVE TOGETHER, ITS THE PICTURES OF PLACES ON OUR DRIVES,
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God
Grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I cannot change
the COURAGE to change the things I can,
and the WISOM to know the difference.
I have done the endless driving to nowhere, I have done the reading, I have done the just sit and stare at our picture and today...
sat in a nice warm bath and cried for 2 hours!!! this is just driving me crazy. What we do for them.
I have thought about planning the wedding but I have not gotten my ring yet, he got p/u before i got one. That is alright because now I know what I want and knowing that he asked me and I can tell him: its not the ring, its not the wedding, its not all the materials things you can give me,
ITS THE TIME TOGETHER, ITS THE ENDLESS DRIVES THAT WE HAVE TOGETHER, ITS THE PICTURES OF PLACES ON OUR DRIVES,
IT IS JUST THE TIMES BEING TOGETHER AND THE MEMORI8ES OF THOSE TIMES!!!!
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God
Grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I cannot change
the COURAGE to change the things I can,
and the WISOM to know the difference.
My mom said the same thing to me when they sentenced Ralphie. "at least he will be home one day... he not dead" I try to remember those words everytime I feel depressed and lonely. he's not dead, he will be back home soon!
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U R my King!! I will always hold it down, & lift U up!
yeah i party like its 1999....or i should say..i party like its 2011 (his MR date if it comes to that). lol
him being in doesnt really affect me too much. (only cause i didnt know him prior)..but when i am feeling blah for whatever reason...i get drunk...party hearty...ummm..call up a friend & bitch & moan..ill go to my moms house and hang out there (she doesnt know about him or us....but its always nice being around my mom when im in a blah mood). ill watch a movie...(im on a big harry potter ---2nd one---trip..gots 2 have my harry pothead....errrr...potter lol jk). and i continue to tell my stupid jokes & make myself laugh.
I start making plans to do something. Lately it's going to see my baby. I like counting down to things. I even count down from Monday to Friday for work even though i have to start the same routine the next week
~EMINEM!!!!! *u all know that already!* eminem makes me think of joe because the way they both talk is similar etc... eminem is my sanity!!! he makes me very happy! i adore him!
~u guys!!!! all of ya! i love it here! shout out to PTO!!!!
~i like to read old letters also.......and memories. last nite, i was writing to him and i was very depressed but i found, as i thought about memories and wrote them down, i began to feel better.