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ben's girl 04-21-2012 10:26 AM

Missing your man inside? Post your thoughts here
 
Missing your man? And need to just let it out to people who understand? We all go through moments where we miss our guys and just don't have anyone on the outside who understands. Who better than the H/B PTO members to help you out during your difficult time.

So, if you are missing your man and need to get your thoughts off your chest, this is YOUR thread to do so.

Chin up, ladies. We'll get through this together. :)

Klewis 04-21-2012 11:02 AM

Well usually I don't post about how much I miss my Fiance' because I be thinking okay who don't but thank you PTO for letting me get it out. Okay here it goes. I miss my Fiance' so much. I wish he was home so my tears can stop hitting my pillow and instead they would hit his shoulder or he could wash them away before they fell at all. I wish he was here to tell me that everything will be okay and he will hold me as I mourn another family member's death. I wish he was here to comb my hair as I just lay down letting the tears fall. I have not been able to talk to him since April 3rd because TDCJ for some dumb reason said that they have an old number on file so I have to reregister my phone. How is that when I have had the same number for over a year and there has been no problem. Last night I stayed awake crying and missing him so bad that I made myself sick. Now that I am letting it out I am starting to feel a little bit better thanks.

bostonswifey 04-21-2012 11:49 AM

Missing my husband more then I have ever missed anyone in my life. I was suppose to hang out with a friend yesterday and I ended up putting my cell phone and house phone on silent and staying in bed all day. I just didn't want to talk to anyone. I love him so much and its just killing me having him away like this.
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Originally Posted by ben's girl (Post 6717666)
Missing your man? And need to just let it out to people who understand? We all go through moments where we miss our guys and just don't have anyone on the outside who understands. Who better than the H/B PTO members to help you out during your difficult time.

So, if you are missing your man and need to get your thoughts off your chest, this is YOUR thread to do so.

Chin up, ladies. We'll get through this together. :)


mark4ever 04-21-2012 04:06 PM

I miss him sooo much
 
I went to go see my love this morning and today the CO's were being buttholes! Normally we get an hr and a half to 2 hrs to visit. Well today we only got about 55 min :( Now it's raining and thundering which is the perfect cuddle weather! I cannot wait until the day I can just lay in his arms and talk about anything and everything. This weather makes me miss him soo much more! 12 more months...:D

snuggles37 04-21-2012 05:55 PM

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Originally Posted by mark4ever
I went to go see my love this morning and today the CO's were being buttholes! Normally we get an hr and a half to 2 hrs to visit. Well today we only got about 55 min :( Now it's raining and thundering which is the perfect cuddle weather! I cannot wait until the day I can just lay in his arms and talk about anything and everything. This weather makes me miss him soo much more! 12 more months...:D

I knooow those idiiots care nothing about the inmates. Dont they know that they look forward to these visits sometimes a year in advance??!! I hate that your visit was cut short and I pray that you guys had just enough time to love on each other tons!!

cowboyangel 04-21-2012 06:06 PM

I miss my cowboy so much that I feel it in every cell of my body. I ache for him. I long for him. I feel like I am just existing and moving through a cloud in life while I look forward to the day when we will be together all day every day. Colors are dull. Food is tasteless. Emotions are up and down. I can't stand having him locked up. He is made for the open range, for interacting with the community, for working the land and with his animals. My world has been rocked (and not in a good way) by what has happened to him. Sometimes I think it is more than I can bear.

Tookie1132 04-21-2012 08:36 PM

I miss him more each day. Sometimes I don't even want to face the day, but I have to and that makes it so much harder. I don't have any idea yet as to when he will be home, it could be a year or two or it could be 25. I just don't know and it is killing me. I kind of feel that once I have a date it will be easier and the count down can begin, but then again how can I deal with it if it is a very long time? He is truly my soulmate, my heart, my everything. I just don't know how to live without him.

krystal1985 04-21-2012 08:37 PM

Im so sad and missing my honey.. he has moved 3 times in one week..he was only 45 min away and now he is like 9 hrs. So I was so sad I couldn't visit him today I go every weekend.it's a Big difference I have not got any mail either :(... I just love him and miss him so much hope he sends me a letter next week so I know he is ok. He is my better half we are going on 7 months since he has been gone I pray to the lord he will be out in Oct..:(

Olderthanmost 04-21-2012 08:56 PM

I have been so lonely today! It's just a feeling that I can't describe! I miss him and I really need him here! I am nervous about his sentencing date being moved again. I think all the time about "what if". I am trying to prepare myself for sentencing. What if its more than we think? How will I handle it? How will he handle it? I pray and ask God not to let me have another heart attack, even tho I know I have some serious issues going on with my heart. I worry about him getting a diagnosis of melanoma and the place he is is so nasty and they don't care! He is going to have surgery and supposedly chemo and I can't see him or talk to him! We have spent 9 years together. The best years of my life. I want a second chance to live life together! Another chance to reach for that brass ring! :) Thanks for letting me get all of this out of my heart and my mind!

Teddysgurl 04-21-2012 10:10 PM

Wow, I didn't realize how many of us go thru the same stuff at the same time. I miss my man so much today. Most days I can work thru it then cry about it when I go to bed but today I've been crying all day off n on. I miss him like crazy...

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100%Hiz 04-21-2012 11:15 PM

I'm having a really hard time right now. Our kids are getting older and will be gone soon and he's missed it all. He's been asking what I want for Mother's Day and I can't think of anything because I keep finding myself crying because what I want, I can't have and that's to have him home. I need him and miss is strong arms wrapping me up in his love so tight that I feel his heart beating and while mine skips.

Correasbaby 04-22-2012 01:32 AM

ok here it is ! i hate him i hat him ihate him ! because i miss him so much and he's not here to hug me. :angry: latley its getting harder to cope and i cant keep telling myself he"s just a work ( in my head ) cause then i hear a song any song practically and it makes me cry. or one of the kids will pick up one of the play phones and say 'im callin dada' im so angry that he has to be gone , on weekends i miss how he'd let me sleep in and keep the kids from bothering me. i miss his jokes, he's the only one i can fight with and know it will be fine later in the day. im also scared he's not gonna get the counsoling and addiction help he needs while he's there and this will happen to him again. im just kinda in shut down mode , he always took care of us . i miss how he would have the whole house clean and smelling good , his rearraging of the furniture when id come home, but if u looked closer you'd see that nothin was were it belonged ,lol:rolleyes: i just f-ing miss my tonito . i want him to walk through the door smelling like a fajita from workin all night and make me angry cause he just has to watch espn deportes . ok there im done THANKS november better hurry up and get here !!!

JoesGirl3 04-22-2012 08:19 AM

Mine is still in county - we haven't even gotten sentencing yet but we're looking at 10 years. I am hurting so bad. The 15 minutes I get to talk to him every day are no where near enough. My heart hurts that he's not here. I keep looking at the front door waiting for him to walk through it, but it never happens. I'm so alone and I'm hurting so bad.. this isn't fair and I just want him home again...

Oil&WaterAZ 04-22-2012 12:34 PM

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Originally Posted by JoesGirl3
Mine is still in county - we haven't even gotten sentencing yet but we're looking at 10 years. I am hurting so bad. The 15 minutes I get to talk to him every day are no where near enough. My heart hurts that he's not here. I keep looking at the front door waiting for him to walk through it, but it never happens. I'm so alone and I'm hurting so bad.. this isn't fair and I just want him home again...

We just got out of the same situation as you described above miss! I feel for you and your honey. Mine was in county TWO years and he's prob. Looking at 10 as well. He's serving time on another charge concurrently so we won't know till August 2013 if he will get 10 or not??!! The 15 minutes goes by SOOOo fast I know this for sure! You're not alone. If you EVER need to talk or relate pm me! I'm in AZ :) they say it's supposed to get easier and at moments I feel it has but then I have really bad weeks too when I just need him home. My heart and body physically ache too! I feel your exact feelings *hugs* Hang in there!

hisfemale 04-23-2012 08:48 AM

Misssing my boyfriend hardcore
 
So.... my man has been on box visits for 7 weeks now, until late May.
He came to his pa's funeral today, was the first time we were able to touch once he left this feeling of... I guess loss filled me, I felt like I lost him to prison all over again.
Like, a whole day of being able to kiss, hug, hold his hand (even though he was cuffed) plus him being out, so close to home but unable to come home. When he left I instantly felt lost, he only has 6 weeks left, but knowing this Friday when I visit him it will be back behind glass makes it really hard to visit. I'm not sure how to explain it, all I know is the whole feeling of him only having 6 weeks left, than getting to touch him for a day and back to no contact breaks me.

Also... is there a difference between missing your boyfriend and obsessively missing him?
This GIRL I thought was a friend of mine deleted me off facebook a month after he went in. I post the occasional so many months so many days until he is home status, the I miss him's, I love him's, Can't wait till he is home and what not status's... I messaged her and asked her why it was that she deleted me she said she was sick of reading my status's because there's missing your boyfriend and obsessively missing him which I couldn't understand, Fair enough she didn't want to read them, I get that. But for someone who has a boyfriend who she can see and talk to whenever she wants, to tell me that I'm obsessively missing my man who's imprisoned seemed, I guess silly. It's a big adjustment going from spending every day with your man to knowing you will be separated for 6 months with only so much contact, she wouldn't know this... does it seem like a stupid reason or a type of jealousy to you's?

reisha91 04-23-2012 09:00 AM

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Originally Posted by hisfemale (Post 6720698)
So.... my man has been on box visits for 7 weeks now, until late May.
He came to his pa's funeral today, was the first time we were able to touch once he left this feeling of... I guess loss filled me, I felt like I lost him to prison all over again.
Like, a whole day of being able to kiss, hug, hold his hand (even though he was cuffed) plus him being out, so close to home but unable to come home. When he left I instantly felt lost, he only has 6 weeks left, but knowing this Friday when I visit him it will be back behind glass makes it really hard to visit. I'm not sure how to explain it, all I know is the whole feeling of him only having 6 weeks left, than getting to touch him for a day and back to no contact breaks me.

Also... is there a difference between missing your boyfriend and obsessively missing him?
This GIRL I thought was a friend of mine deleted me off facebook a month after he went in. I post the occasional so many months so many days until he is home status, the I miss him's, I love him's, Can't wait till he is home and what not status's... I messaged her and asked her why it was that she deleted me she said she was sick of reading my status's because there's missing your boyfriend and obsessively missing him which I couldn't understand, Fair enough she didn't want to read them, I get that. But for someone who has a boyfriend who she can see and talk to whenever she wants, to tell me that I'm obsessively missing my man who's imprisoned seemed, I guess silly. It's a big adjustment going from spending every day with your man to knowing you will be separated for 6 months with only so much contact, she wouldn't know this... does it seem like a stupid reason or a type of jealousy to you's?


it seems like jealousy to me...who is she to tell you how much you can miss him...maybe she is upset because your relationship is still good and strong and your man isnt home while her's may not be as great as yours...her lost though...and if she was a real friend instead of deleting you she should have been trying to understand your pain and comforting you....you find out who your real friends are when your at your worst or going through something...don't stress it though just continue to be there for your man!!!

InMyArmsInstead 04-23-2012 02:35 PM

I miss my other half badly today. I just need a hug and to hear him say it's all going to be ok. I know it will be but it's just hard right now. Between having to be a single mom and hold it down for us it's exhausting. He just transferred so we can only write for at least 30 days.. His PED it 5/10/12 so I am hoping that he makes parole. I'm not sure that he'll get to see the board though since he just got transferred and isn't processed in. Cross your fingers that he does!! But like I tell everyone else I've been through everything with him for the last ten years, ten good years, and I'm not giving up!

TezzRyane 04-23-2012 08:38 PM

I miss my guy so much today, stupid idiot got in trouble and is on restriction until the end of the week. I know that he is hurting right now too. I just need to hear his voice so bad.... His daughter keeps saying Where's dada and points to the phone, its killing me. I have resigned myself to the fact that he is gone for awhile and that visits are gonna be rare due to visits only on weekends and I work all weekend, but what got me thru was that we could talk everyday......

sfvprincess 04-24-2012 10:52 AM

My heart is just broken. I'm almost 8months pregnant now so I'm sad for our daughter too. I can't even accept it. Going for an appeal. But, sorry everybody. We'll be ok.

flyaway 04-24-2012 02:18 PM

We are certainly short timers in comparison to some. But I have not had my hubby at home since July 5th. His estimated transport to county is May 21st. I know that date is only an estimate and he will have to sit in county and wait to see the judge before he is released (that could be a few days or a week, who knows). Although I am trying hard not to let myself pick a date to count down to I cannot believe that he may be home on only about a month. I am excited and scared all at the same time. I hope he does well when he gets home everything would seem to indicate he has the ability to do just fine. I just wish it were late May already. :)

Turtle83 04-24-2012 08:15 PM

Tre months and one hour ago I asked to his sister: " when I will feel better?" I cry and every day is looks like I am waiting and waiting...maybe is not right say that but I feel locked out too. My life stopped February 10, I am trying to move on,some daysI enjoy but it is still hard because I miss him every day more and more..many people told me that I will feel better when I will start to visit him and that I will be ok!!! I started to ate this phrase " you will be ok" really? Why I feel that I want scream, I will feel better..when.you girls here are helping me a lot and I saw that at the same way I try to give strength to other girls somedays I need their strength. It's hard, I think too much sometimes..I want just him at home..I feel alone also when I stay with people. I am so sorry I should give you strength but today I feel your same feelings..I would run away forget about him..but my took my heart and I can't live without him..

KaydensMommy756 04-24-2012 09:14 PM

you know after 4 1/2 years you'd think id know how to deal with him being gone, that id kinda be used to it, but there are times when ALL i want to do is run to him, and tell him everything thats going on and just to lie in his arms! tonight is one of those nights, things havent been going too great lately at all! and i REALLY need him here with me through all of this, im sure what im going through doesnt even relate to what hes going through in prison....ugh its just overwhelming sometimes:(

Frog88 04-24-2012 09:22 PM

I'm crying over the posts on this thread.

Mrs. DM Brown 04-24-2012 09:27 PM

I just posted to another thread and then found this one. But I just got off the phone with my babes. Tonight I just miss him so much. I hate constantly feeling like this cuz I feel like I'm not making it any better. But I really miss him. Especially at night. He could tell I was getting emotional on the phone too. And his comforting words just made me miss him even more. I had to vent on here cuz I know someone would better understand me on PTO than my friends and family. I just don't see how I'm gonna do this for so long but I know I don't want anybody else but my Mr.

fancherswifey 04-24-2012 09:40 PM

I miss my man so much he's been gone so long and finally got out one day it sux he had to go back I got to hold and touch my baby finally after all those letters and visits it didnt seem real now I'm right back where I was and the state of ky has him now I need him back in my life he is my everything fuck what everyone else says keep ridin for ya man it will all work out.


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