With the holiday getting closer, the depression is starting to hit us all. Mine started at Thanksgiving time, the time my son and I would start our shopping and put up the decorations. That hasn't happened in 7 years, since he was killed. This year my nephew was convicted of murder and the boy who has been my second kid is not here with me like he has been every other Christmas since my son died.
The phone calls are getting sadder and sadder. He is dealing with being locked up for the holidays, I'm dealing with going through them without Adam being here to crack the jokes and make me laugh.
His mother has been sober for 2 months and can't visit because she has a case pending right now. I'm going to pay the ticket so she will be able to see him soon. I don't condone what she does, but he wants to see his mother and I will do this for him. Her phone calls are a true study in depression and I'm taking on that too.
The only thing I want is for him to be as happy as he can possibly be this year. If this is what it takes to make it happen, then I'll do it.
Just something I need to get off my chest at the moment.

Lisa,
I know all about the depression. All I can say is you are in my thoughts and prayers. Be strong and dont loose your faith in the Lord.

ONE

You are not alone - we are here for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers too.

I am sorry you are feeling so sad. The holidays are very rough for all of us dealing with our loved one not here. I too began getting depressed on Thanksgiving Day because my husband was not home. I just cannot seem to get into the Christmas Spirit at all. I have barely done any christmas shopping and I don't even want to get a tree, I am just not into it. My husband called last night and asked if we were going to get a tree and I said no, I don't feel like it. I think it made him sad because he said if I were home we would be getting a tree.

That is really nice of you paying her ticket so she can see her son for the holidays, you are very kind hearted. Not many people would do something like that.

Try and feel better and we are all here when you need to vent.

Laurie

I hear you and feel you on the depression. Mine also goes from Thanksgiving to Jan 2nd.

Just have to take one day at a time and put one foot in front of the other and keep on moving forward. One day we will all be passed this.

My thoughts and prayers are with you as you travel this journey.

Remember Hope is a good thing, it springs life eternal.

I am so sorry for all you are going through. I can't even imagine losing a child. Depression is a horrible thing. I find the holidays really hard also. That is a wonderful thing you are doing for your sister. Just try to stay strong and know that we are all here for you.