Several weeks ago, a friend of mine was executed. He was the first person I knew to be executed, and it was really difficult. I've learned to cope though... still, his family and friends, everyone who was so much closer to him than I was, remain in my thoughts and prayers. I can't imagine how much they're hurting.

But another friend of mine, one that I've grown pretty close to, is scheduled to be executed on Wednesday. And this is so much harder...

I'm just feeling so drained, and I'm so scared that it's going to be the same outcome as Dominique. I'm not sure I can handle that again, and I already know it's going to be so much worse this time around. The thought of standing outside that prison waiting for a miracle or the worst terrifies me. I just keep praying... praying for Anthony, praying for his wonderful family who have stuck with him through everything, praying for a miracle, praying for strength for all involved...

For those of you who have gone through this before, what helped you deal with the days leading up to it? Because what worked for me three weeks ago isn't working now...

I am so sorry Destiny, I cant even begin to imagine how hard this is going to be, but all I can say is I will pray for Anthony and you and all that are involved.

(((Destiny)))

It breaks my heart. I am so sorry you have to go through this again. I will keep you and your friend in my prayers....

I makes me so sad...I really don't have any advice. Hang in there.

Destiny

I am so sorry. My heart feels for you and admires you. I feel very very strongly about the brutality and inhumanity of having any executions.
Its because I don't think I could cope with the emotional stress that I haven't thought of having a penpal on deathrow. Which of course does not help them at all! I really do admire your strength. Wish I could be more helpful. Meanwhile I always hope that it will stop and for each one I hope that that one never takes place.

Titantoo

Nothing or nobody can prepare us for this once let alone twice.Any advice I could offer would seem futile but believe that my prayers are with you all. I will pray for strength for you all.
Skyblue

Oh Destiny,

My heart goes out to you. Although I've never been through this I can imagine all the pain you must be going through. Stay strong darling ...

I've never been in this situation and I cant imagine it. I think that a lot of why you are having a harder time with this one is because the pain from the last one is still very very fresh. I wont say the pain will ever go away, but just like anything else it does get easier to deal with. Right now that wound is still very much open. This upcoming execution is like adding salt into the other one.

((((((HUGS))))))

I'm very sorry but just know I'm thinking of you, God has a plan for each and every situation..No matter how hard we have it seek comfort in him.Feel free to ppm me if you need to talk.God Bless

Destiny

I'm so sorry you have to go through this again. :( I don't know what to tell you, I've never been in this situation so I have no advice.

I will keep you and Anthony in my thoughts.

(((HUGS)))

Phil :(

((((((Dez)))))) I was where you are last December. I put all my faith in a stay, and as you know, he got one. But of course until I knew that I didn't know what would happen. One day I believed that it would all be all right and that they wouldn't kill him, and the next I thought that they would. Sometimes it would shift by the hour, minute. And when I thought they would murder him - I thought about how it would be over for him afterwards. How he would be without more pain - and that we were the ones suffering when it was all said and done. My friend is "safe" for the time being, but I get overwhelmed by fright sometimes, because I know we might face another date some day. We can't prepare for it, and it won't get any easier. We just have to be strong for them, and at the same time let it show how important they are to us, and what a huge impact they have had in our lives. I wish I had some magic words that would take away your pain, but there aren't any. I wish there was something we could do to end this madness right here, right now, but we all know we can't. I know you wish time would freeze so Wednesday won't come, but we can't stop time. The only thing we can do is to be here for you the only way we can. It's a helpless feeling, Dez. Just as helpless as you must be feeling towards Anthony. But Destiny, you make a difference. You do. To Anthony and your other friends on the row. And that is not nothing, it is a lot. I think it is everything for someone who has so little. You reach out when so many don't care. That IS a lot, Dez.

And remember - it ain't over til it's over!

Awwww, thanks so much y'all. Geez, I don't know what I would do without PTO and LV!

I took it pretty hard when they put down Ricky Morrow, cause I grew attached to his family. Now this may be hard to explain, but after the horrible ordeal and the initial shock right after it happened, the family seemed somewhat at peace.. Ricky was no longer hurting and he infact is with the Lord ( he had made peace) . Ofcourse they will always miss him, but they know he is in a better place, and that made it a little easier for me too. The best you can do for your friend is to ask him if he has turned his life to our Creator.. if so, he will be in a better place than any of us! God Bless you!

I took it pretty hard when they put down Ricky Morrow, cause I grew attached to his family. Now this may be hard to explain, but after the horrible ordeal and the initial shock right after it happened, the family seemed somewhat at peace.. Ricky was no longer hurting and he infact is with the Lord ( he had made peace) . Ofcourse they will always miss him, but they know he is in a better place, and that made it a little easier for me too. The best you can do for your friend is to ask him if he has turned his life to our Creator.. if so, he will be in a better place than any of us! God Bless you!
Oh, I'm so sorry for your loss... are you hanging in there?

But thanks... that makes me feel a little better... that was one thing that I noticed after Dominique's execution. He wasn't hurting anymore, and that did ease some of the pain. I think the waiting is the hardest part, by far...

Destiny, I am so sorry hun :( Big (((hugs))) :grouphug:

Destiny, I am so sorry hun :( Big (((hugs))) :grouphug:
Aww, thanks. The support offered here means so much.

Destiny
my heart bleeds for you. i cant even imagine your pain. just keep praying. you are in my thoughts. dont give up. you have all of us. if you ever need anything please dont hesitate to PM me if you need a friend

Destiny, sweetie my prayers and thoughts are with you and his family. I do pray that he gets a stay, I have no advice to offer but just wanted you to know that I am for you. What you and the other penpals of DR do is so amazing. You have more courage and strength than you will ever know. You have to have a inner strength that gets you through this that you have faith or you wouldn't be doing what you are doing. So draw on that inner strength GOD gave and and just hold on for dear life. Love Jeanne