nrgonzales
10-25-2004, 10:23 PM
Hello Everyone,
I am fairly new here, I wish I had discovered this place from the beginning. My husband is incarcerated and has been since 1/04 he is getting out on 2/8/04 and it seems this final countdown is seriously dragging. I met Eric after he got in trouble but before he went to prison. I got my degree in criminal justice and have worked for the courts or law firms for years. I always said I would never date an inmate however love had different plans for me. Nobody at my work knows the truth about Eric, I put up his old army picture and tell people he is in Iraq. My family knows and a few select friends also know; so as you can see I am very lonely. I never thought I would hate weekends and love work. I am in charge of the Domestic Violence division at my court and we are very busy it makes the time fly, its at night and on weekends when I am here pouting all alone that it really gets to me. Eric would have no problem with me going out or to friends but I just dont want to. Not to mention if one more person says "three months left, thats nothing" I am going to scream. Granted I am thankful that that is all we have left but to me everyday is a day too many. I need him home so bad, at night I cuddle a pillow that is covered in his favorite shirt, we write each other practically everyday and I keep all his letters in an album...I try to focus just on the future and the stuff we are going to do when he comes home; even grocery shopping together sounds amazing! Of course I look forward to that first night and lots of love making...I am taking two weeks off work and the joke is that I am going to come back bo-legged and knocked up (neither of us has kids) but truth betold I am most looking forward to that first morning when I roll over and he is there, really there asleep...I just had to let it all out. I try not to cry too much in front of him or let on that I am seriously depressed..I just dont want to make things harder for him...Is anyone else near the end? Do you feel like it is seriously dragging?
Nicole
I am fairly new here, I wish I had discovered this place from the beginning. My husband is incarcerated and has been since 1/04 he is getting out on 2/8/04 and it seems this final countdown is seriously dragging. I met Eric after he got in trouble but before he went to prison. I got my degree in criminal justice and have worked for the courts or law firms for years. I always said I would never date an inmate however love had different plans for me. Nobody at my work knows the truth about Eric, I put up his old army picture and tell people he is in Iraq. My family knows and a few select friends also know; so as you can see I am very lonely. I never thought I would hate weekends and love work. I am in charge of the Domestic Violence division at my court and we are very busy it makes the time fly, its at night and on weekends when I am here pouting all alone that it really gets to me. Eric would have no problem with me going out or to friends but I just dont want to. Not to mention if one more person says "three months left, thats nothing" I am going to scream. Granted I am thankful that that is all we have left but to me everyday is a day too many. I need him home so bad, at night I cuddle a pillow that is covered in his favorite shirt, we write each other practically everyday and I keep all his letters in an album...I try to focus just on the future and the stuff we are going to do when he comes home; even grocery shopping together sounds amazing! Of course I look forward to that first night and lots of love making...I am taking two weeks off work and the joke is that I am going to come back bo-legged and knocked up (neither of us has kids) but truth betold I am most looking forward to that first morning when I roll over and he is there, really there asleep...I just had to let it all out. I try not to cry too much in front of him or let on that I am seriously depressed..I just dont want to make things harder for him...Is anyone else near the end? Do you feel like it is seriously dragging?
Nicole