Jesse's Girl
10-11-2004, 12:19 AM
Well, ladies and gents I have something for all to hear.
After getting a letter from Jesse at winslow I have finally unraveled the mystery surrounding my dilema.
It appears I am at fault for everything that occured regarding the 2 Jesse's.
In December of 2002 the correspondance between Jesse L and I was broken off. In March of 2003 I decided I wanted to start up again, I searched all over for him, and since i could not remember his ADC# I just typed in the name Jesse, it brought up the Jesse who is still incarcerated.
Not knowing that he was not the other Jesse I began the correspondance, hence him obtaining my address. He stated in his letter that it was I who wrote to him first, not the other way around. he figured we must have known eachother since I knew so much about him (good ol adc website). So he wrote back. We corresponded for 1 year and 7 months before I figured out that he wasn't who i thought he was, he had no idea I thought he was someone else, he said some things confused him, but that he never questioned them due to my knowledge of him, his charges and everything.
He also said that now that he knows he can understand why I was so angry, but that he did not intentionally try to hurt me or hide anything from me. he says he loves me, that I am all that matters to him and that he doesnt want to lose me. Even asked if we could just start over. After thinking back on it, he is right, it was me, I did start the correspondance and I gave him my "NEW" address, I had moved since the other Jesse had been released, he could not have given the address because he did not have it.
So for all my ranting, raving and ignorant behavior, I say it now, it was my fault and not his. I did it.
He has expressed his wish to continue our courtship, he feels that it was no accident and that his faith leads him to believe that it was fate we were brought together, I am inclined to feel the same way. Nothing like this happens on purpose, its to complex!
I just wanted to say I was sorry and that i thank all of you for your help, guidence and opinions. he's not the "bad guy" I thought he was. We are writing on a regular basis again and all is going well.
Pam
After getting a letter from Jesse at winslow I have finally unraveled the mystery surrounding my dilema.
It appears I am at fault for everything that occured regarding the 2 Jesse's.
In December of 2002 the correspondance between Jesse L and I was broken off. In March of 2003 I decided I wanted to start up again, I searched all over for him, and since i could not remember his ADC# I just typed in the name Jesse, it brought up the Jesse who is still incarcerated.
Not knowing that he was not the other Jesse I began the correspondance, hence him obtaining my address. He stated in his letter that it was I who wrote to him first, not the other way around. he figured we must have known eachother since I knew so much about him (good ol adc website). So he wrote back. We corresponded for 1 year and 7 months before I figured out that he wasn't who i thought he was, he had no idea I thought he was someone else, he said some things confused him, but that he never questioned them due to my knowledge of him, his charges and everything.
He also said that now that he knows he can understand why I was so angry, but that he did not intentionally try to hurt me or hide anything from me. he says he loves me, that I am all that matters to him and that he doesnt want to lose me. Even asked if we could just start over. After thinking back on it, he is right, it was me, I did start the correspondance and I gave him my "NEW" address, I had moved since the other Jesse had been released, he could not have given the address because he did not have it.
So for all my ranting, raving and ignorant behavior, I say it now, it was my fault and not his. I did it.
He has expressed his wish to continue our courtship, he feels that it was no accident and that his faith leads him to believe that it was fate we were brought together, I am inclined to feel the same way. Nothing like this happens on purpose, its to complex!
I just wanted to say I was sorry and that i thank all of you for your help, guidence and opinions. he's not the "bad guy" I thought he was. We are writing on a regular basis again and all is going well.
Pam