lilonemunchkin
06-13-2004, 03:02 PM
Hi. I posted an intro on the Introduction and Stories forum, for anyone who wants to go and read it, but I'm going to give some background here.
My boyfriend is in prison as a violent offender and will (crossing my fingers) hopefully be home on parole at the end of this month. I am excited and nervous, and am having a hard time dealing with both feelings. I love him dearly and knew him a year before he went in. He's been in jail for ten years now, five and a half of which we have been in constant contact. We have been "together" for over a year, in addition to being best friends for five years. We have had no physical contact in the last five and a half years, though, and weren't dating before he went in. I know he is expecting a physical relationship when he gets out, and I want that, too....but I don't know if I am ready for it the DAY he gets out, you know? I mean, I feel like I need time to get used to having him here...with me, before I am with him that way...am I crazy? I can't say that I need to get to know him first, because I DO know him, better than anyone else, and he knows me just as well...I'm so confused, and worried that my not wanting to jump into a physical relationship with him on day one will upset or hurt him. Any advice?
My boyfriend is in prison as a violent offender and will (crossing my fingers) hopefully be home on parole at the end of this month. I am excited and nervous, and am having a hard time dealing with both feelings. I love him dearly and knew him a year before he went in. He's been in jail for ten years now, five and a half of which we have been in constant contact. We have been "together" for over a year, in addition to being best friends for five years. We have had no physical contact in the last five and a half years, though, and weren't dating before he went in. I know he is expecting a physical relationship when he gets out, and I want that, too....but I don't know if I am ready for it the DAY he gets out, you know? I mean, I feel like I need time to get used to having him here...with me, before I am with him that way...am I crazy? I can't say that I need to get to know him first, because I DO know him, better than anyone else, and he knows me just as well...I'm so confused, and worried that my not wanting to jump into a physical relationship with him on day one will upset or hurt him. Any advice?