I'm reaching out here, everybody. This is serious.
My husband, unfortunately, is incarcerated for something that he didn't do. It was his addiction to drugs that got him into the situation that he's in. Before he was put away, we did alot of things together, drugs included. I was never really bad into them, only recreational. Now that he's been in prison, he's learned alot. He's become aware of all the bad things that drugs can cause in your life. He's totally against them all now. I never wanted to do heroin, but when he started, something inside me said, "if you do some, he can't have as much." So, I did that with him. Fortuneately for me, I did not become addicted to it. As soon as he went to jail, I stopped. Nothing to it.
And as much as I told him, "you don't have to lie, I know what you do," I can't seem to keep my own word. He's against all drugs now, and I'm so proud of him for that, but every time he asks me, "are you doing coke?" I always say no, although I am almost every day. I can't seem to find any other way to deal with the fact that he isn't here with me. I'm totally faithful to him, and I've never lied to him, except for now. I don't feel as though I'm addicted to cocaine, because if I don't have it, I feel fine, but if it's there, I just don't say "no". And I lie to him about it now, like he lied to me about it then. I know as soon as he's home, I can put it away like it doesn't exsist, but until then, I just can't seem to not want it. I feel really bad for lying sometimes, but I know he will be really mad at me if he knew. What do I do?
He's the only thing that makes me happy, and until he's home I don't think I can quit!!!!! HELP!!!!!

If you don't think you can quit for whatever reason, maybe it is an addiction. If you still think you can quit then prove it to yourself. Remove the stuff from where you can get it. Just stop. If you fail, then reach out for help. Have you ever tried an NA meeting? That's my suggestion.

Sheryl

I know it's hard out here to deal with missing your man. Now is the time to dig deep inside yourself be strong for him, but most importantly for yourself. Put the drugs down, before it becomes an endless battle for you.

Try going to an outpatient rehab program. You have to be honest with yourself now and him too. He can be your strength just like you're his strength. I know it is hard without him, it's hard for us all. Don't let the drugs suck you in, it will only had more problems and you might find yourself where he is if you don't stop. Don't mean to sound harsh, just be straight with you. We are all here for you. PM me if you want to talk. Prayers are with you and your man. Take Care.

Shona'

Opalstardust777:

You sound addicted to me.

Follow hotmama77's advice if you can. You DON'T want to end up in prison yourself, having to rely on the "treatments" they provide.

Please, do something. Now.

For you as well as your husband.

abner