As I sit here thinking, remembering
My mind wonders back in time
To when we were carefree
I hear my parents saying, “No one ever said life was fair”
I didn’t know then just how true that statement was
Now I have responsibilities and feelings that I’m not sure I understand
But one feeling I do understand now is love
Although at a loss for words to explain it
That’s when I believe you have found true love
When you find someone, and your feelings are so intense you can’t describe them
Then and only then can you understand love
Now I hear “All is fair in love and war”
But is it?
Love is part of life
And if life isn’t fair, how can love be?
I find flaws in all “old sayings”
“Innocent until proven guilty”…. true?
No.
Now days it’s “guilty until proven innocent”
And because of that, we, those in love with inmates, are made to live an unfair life
Along with unfair love
It’s hard to live day to day not knowing
When and if he’ll be home
But my love keeps me going
Three things I have learned so far…
What love really is
How to have patience
And how to be strong
Because without these…I have nothing
That wall separates, physically, but never emotionally
They can confine his body, but not his heart
His heart belongs to me, and mine to him
We each come second only to God
And how grateful I am that God has come into my life, thanks to him
Daily I pray for his safety while behind that wall
As I know he prays for my safety outside of that same wall
Rehabilitate?
Do they really?
I see forgotten children of God
Not by Him, but by society
Yet all we can do is love them and stand by them
We look for hours, for some loophole
We keep looking day after day
We try to learn about every law that could help
It’s funny; we never find our loophole
But the government always finds theirs
We speak proudly of our love
And we are treated like outcasts
Yet we hold our head high
For “Love will conquer all!”
The only one I can’t find fault with…
Because, even if he doesn’t come home
Our love will radiate and grow
It may not break that wall
But it won’t let that wall break us!
Maybe we are still carefree at heart
As long as there is love
I once feared I would never find love
Now I only fear that love is lost to the rest of the world
All I can do is pray that justice is served
And continue searching and letting my voice be heard.


LOVE TO ALL!!!
~Amber

What a beautiful post Amber.........I feel exactly the same about Wayne..........Thank you for putting the feelings we have into words.....God Bless You!

I was just sitting at work last night and this flood of thoughts and feelings came into my mind...I couldn't stop it. So I started writing it down. I thought maybe just maybe you guys could relate. There has never been a time when I have wanted to give up on this relationship, but there have been times when I wanted to give up on the government. But I try to stay strong, and keep searching...it's all we can do.

LOVE TO ALL
~Amber

Amber, u got it right on....thank you for sharing that with everyone...i can TOTALLY relate to everything you said.

Amber thought i could relate? HA! I live this every day.

Thanks so much for taking the time to post this and share. I am real, i mean REAL angry at him lately for his actions and comments toward me cuz of his feeling of helplessness over the relationship. I plan on discussing its future with him in 2 days at the visit. As i read the post, for the 4th time, it helps me to find a little sense of balance.

My other issue is how hard i is to feel like this love is like some kind of a fairy tale or soap opera on tv. Ya ever hear that song "Delta Dawn" ? That is so me most days. Without visits, letters, calls, sometimes its like it dosent exist except in my head and heart on a daily basis. Not having him in my life is getting increasingly hard. This last 3 months is about to break us. But i am hanging in there...

*Positive thoughts* So my dear friend at work bought me a shirt yesterday! She is "LadySpencer" here in PTO, dosent post but is in chat often. Anyway... on the fornt it says "Jerry's Girl" and on the back it says "God is Awesome!" I plan on wearing it on the visit saturday. I smile when i think of the smile on his face when he sees it
...this is love.

"The Convict & The Queen" Heart & Soul, Forever and always...

Dawn

That was beautiful, and thanks for sharing that. Stay strong, and don't give up. Take care. :)

Thank you, thank you!!!

For some reason, this morning I was just feeling so sick in my heart about our justice system... there are times when I want it all to go away -- the prisons, the courts, the lawyers, the helpless families -- all of it! But you reminded me that it's only when we forget, when people look the other way, that things become so much worse, because no one is watching or caring.

Anyway, thanks for bringing me back to the human side of all this...

This is my life as I know it!

That was so beautiful.. and exactly what i needed to read...
Thanks!
Dawn, have a great visit.. breathe.. and enjoy!

EVERYOne.. have a safe holiday weekend.. enjoy your visits if you go.. i am going saturday was so excited to go.. but i need to discuss an ugly situation could bring the visit down quick:(((( but i want to act positive..

Donna

I'm glad you all got something from this post. I truly didn't know whether to post it or not, but, something inside said do it...so I did. I can't express enough the gratitude that I have for you ladies, in that you are all here for me as I am for you. PTO truly is a God send. We must keep our heads high, never give up hope, keep speaking of your love proudly, and believe that Good things come to those who wait!

LOVE TO ALL
~Amber