Well guys, I'm off to catch my flight. Mark's parole hearing is on Monday. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. He's been waiting 11 years to come home.

I'll be back Wednesday and will post an update on what happenned. I love you guys!!

Good luck girl, I praying for the best outcome possible...

Your Friend,

DeniseJ

Good L7uck and am assumming the PTO position that all goes will for you Guys!!!


GSPack

11 years is a long time Cember and I wish you both the best of luck. I admire your strength and determination to see this through the good Lord has a place for people like you. Chins up I think you will do just fine and this nightmare will be over for you guys...Hope you have a great trip...

Cember I am praying for what is best and for you both to be able to handle whatever the outcome of this is. Best of luck, your both in my thoughts and prayers.

Cember, you put me to shame with your strength and patience. Here I was wondering how I was going to cope with 1-3 years. I wish you the best and I feel that you will bring us some good news!

Cember, your in my thoughts and prayers. Assuming pto position for you and I will be sending positive thoughts your way monday.
have a safe trip.
sue

I'm sorry I missed you before you left, Cember, but you and Mark will be in my thoughts and prayers on Monday. Hope to hear good news soon!! **{hug}}

Cember, Lewis said he met you last night as you was going in for your visit with Mark. I ask him to take care of you and help make things smoother for you. He said that you are a real nice lady. hope your trip back goes well, I know you have some news to tell us, (Lewis told me). ((((hugs)))

sue

hi guys. i just got back. i have bad news. they denied his parole. the parole hearing was such a joke. they didn't even look at his jacket.. it seems they saw he was a violent offender and turned him down just on that fact. they must have been in a bad mood first thing monday morning or something. his dad pointed out all of the courses he's taken, 42 months of sap aftercare,college degrees, etc etc. they looked surprised and said they didn't realise that. but it was after they rendered their decision. they offset him for 2 years, who knows how backed up they will be then so it'll probably be more around 4. i'm sad for him, but i'm more sad that the world won't get to see what an incredibly wonderful and intelligent human being they're being deprived of. he's been locked up for 11 years and has never, not once, gotten written up or a disciplinary. he is the most intelligent person i've ever met and i truly believe he would do a world of good for humanity if he was free. but i guess the alabama doc would rather see his mind rot in a cell.
im sorry to rant you guys, im just so disapointed.. i thought i was mentally prepared for any decision but i guess i wasn't. i hate that i have to start making plans for my life without him being in it, it just kills me inside.. he seems to be dealing with this so much better than i am, i feel like an idiot for him having to be the one to console me! its just so sad that years of anticipation and hope can be shot down with one word, yknow? his dad asked if they suggested he takes a different class or something, they looked over his jacket and said he's taken everything available to him... tell him to hang in there and better luck next time. idiots.
yes, sue, i met lewis. he seems like such a nice guy. he really made me feel better, told the front desk lady to go easy on me. i could tell he was truly disapointed for me when i told him the bad news. tell him thanks for me ok?
im not sure if im going to be mentally capable of coming around here too much for a little bit. i love you ladies, i really do, but its all i can do to just go an hour without crying and trying to bring reason to an unreasonable situation. i just need some time to cope. thank you so much for all your prayers, really, i appreciate it so much. it means the world to me to know that the world isn't full of judgemental parole board members. now i just have to figure out what to do next...

Cember, I am so sorry. **{hug}} I feel almost certain we are going to get denied as well when it comes up, so you and I will likely be doing this together for a while longer.

Hang in there and give me a shout if you need anything, sweetie. ******{hugs}}}}

Lys

I get the feeling they don't bother to look at anyones files that has violent offender attached to it! I'm getting the same run around from them.
Cember my heart is broke for you guys. I'm so sorry.

OMG....My heart hurts for you so bad (((HUGG))). I can't even imagine what you are feeling. I am so very sorry. Kenny and i have lost all hope of anything with the parole board and there madness....

prayers for both of you

DeniseJ

oH CEMBER MY HEART IS FULLLL OF TEARS FOR YOU GUYS. i AM SORRY FOR WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO YOU..SOUNDS AS THO THEY ARENT IN THEIR RIGHT MINDS. iF SHE DOESNT COME BACK DOES ANYONE KNOW IF HER FELLA WENT BEFORE THE SPECIAL DOCKET OR THE REGULAR PAROLE BOARD? bLESS YOU AND MAY YOU FIND PEACE IN THE DAYS TO COME. i AM AT LOSE FOR ANY FURTHER WORDS RIGHT NOW..JUST KNOW THAT i WILL KEEP YOU IN MY PRAYERS.

GSPACK

Cember I am so sorry. My heart breaks for you and all of the rest of us with violent offender loved ones. This isn't good news at all. Big hugs to you. You're in my prayers.

thank you so much for your kind words everyone... ill be around still, just not as often at first... it's so weird, i feel like someone died or something.. i guess that hope just was such a big part of me..

gspack.. he went up before the regular board.. i dont think violent offenders can go up before the special docket board...

again, many thanks.. you guys are the only people who can truly feel for me.. if someone off the street were to ask me what was wrong, and i told them my boyfriend was denied his parole can you imagine their reaction?.. chances are it would be less than sympathetic.. this place is so important for me.. you are all so special to me!...

Cember,

So sorry for you two...I'm only too sure how devastated you are and totally understand why you would need a break...from life in general, let alone PTO. I know these ladies will understand the need to clear and rest your overloaded mind...

I wish I had the words to help ease the tornado of emotions that you are experiencing...Please don't be offended by my suggestion, I don't, by any means, mean to suggest that your pain isn't real...but when I feel really down I go into the Lifer forum and read what these ladies endure...having someone they love in prison..for life...it always puts things in perspective for me, as I hope it will for you. God Bless...

cember, I am so sorry to know he was denied. I have no words but please know that my heart joins all the others in sending you a big hug and deepest wishes for a quick emotional healing (if that's even possible at this point).

Care

Cember I'm so sorry.I felt so sure that he would be granted his parole.I really don't know what to say.I know your heart is breaking right now.We all love you and will keep both of you in our prayers.Again I'm sorry.**{great big hug}}

im so sorry girl, heres a wild suggestion, they approved joe cause im listed as the victim and they said they normally go with what the victim requests and i requested them let him out....is there any way to get a hold of the victims and see if even one of them are willing to let this go? i know it sounds crazy but if you are anything like me youll do crazy stuff when you have to as a survival mode.....i wish you all the luck girl my prayers are wtih you both

Cember,
sweetie, my heart is broke for you.I can't even imagine what you must be feeling. When Lewis told me the bad new's , I cried for you and Mark. if you need anything at all, pm me. take all the time you need to clear your head but please come back and let us know that you are ok. we are here for you hon.
(((((((((((hugs)))))))))))
sue

cember, I am so sorry to hear about this, I want you to know you are my thoughts and prayers also, And like everyone else said I totally understand you needing a break for PTO for a little while. I can't imagine what all you are going through emotionally but just remember that God is always there for you. Check in and let us know how you are doing. Take care (((((((((((hugs))))))))))
Brandi

CEMBER, I CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO IMAGINE WHAT YOU ARE FEELING RIGHT NOW I TOO AM SO SORRY FOR THIS. I KNOW I'VE NOT TALKED WITH MANY ON HERE TO MUCH BUT I FEEL LIKE THEY ARE A GODSEND SUPPORT GROUP. RIGHT NOW DOLL YOU NEED SUPPORT. ALL I CAN SAY OR RATHER ASK YOU TO DO IS PLEASE READ 1st.CORINTHIANS 15:57&58
AND HOLD ON TO THAT. GOD BLESS YOU.

Awww, Cember...I am soo sorry for you (and Mark). I, also, want you to know that you both will be in my thoughts and prayers. We are ALL here for you...okay!
(((((((HUGS)))))))
Selena

Cember, I am so sorry about your parole denial.....I too feel heart broken for you both and I know how you feel because my husband though a non violent offender has come up 2 times in the past 6 months and was denied both times....they didnt look at all the certificates he has gotten in the past 2 years but they looked more at him being a repeat offender and his past record not what he is trying to do with his life now to make himself a better person. I dont know what you have to do to get through to these people though. Again I am so sorry for you both!! Hugs!! Lisa!

cember,
i'm so sorry girl,just hold on, we all know god works wonders and i pray every night that he will help us and our love ones and touch the board members heart so they will let our loved ones go,hold on tight girl its a rough ride but we all will find a way though it,love ya guys,my prayers are with you.
tina

cember..hang in there girl and take all the time you need to get over this tradgedy and let down. I can just imagine how much this hurts. Know that we are here for you anytime you need us..thats the only way some of us get thru r days is to come here and support each other wilthout judgement. As you say those on the "outside" have no idea what its like to watch someone you love suffer as our loved ones endure the hardship of prison and the worry for their families while they are incarcerated.

((((((HUGS))))) GSPack

thanks guys...

lynn... i actually think brian stands more of a chance than mark did.. he's done more time on the same sentence.. and this is his 3rd time up, for mark it was his 2nd....i hope so for you guys..