For some reason I can't stop thinking about my cousin who is in SEATAC fdc in Washington. My brother, cousin and I use to be so close growing up, and then he moved away to Alaska! That place has brought nothing but trouble for him. I want him back home here in NY! But he is all the way on the other side of the US and I can't even visit him. I miss him so much. My brother finally wrote him a letter... and he told me he cried when he wrote it. We use to write eachother all the time, even when he was in the first time. He got married and we hardly talked.. now he is back in for violation of parole! I just had to write, because I can't sleep. Way to much stuff on my mind and that was one of them. I'm sure we all know what it is like not being able to sleep with so much on our minds :( . Thanks for listening.

I know how you feel, my cousin Micheal is my best friend and a very important person in my life. He is the one that I run to when life gets to me, he listens to my heartaches and pain that I deal with in life. I didn't get to grow up with him and got reunited with him almost 4 years ago while he was in prison. Now I can't imagine what I would do without him. He has done so much for me even being in prison. I know that this might sound strange but when him and I was kids during the times that we were able to spend together, I looked up to him, he was strong and brave, my hero and my superman and after 22 years I still feel the same way.I think few of the jerks in my life are going to suffer some once he gets home ha! ha!

I saw your post and understand you completely! My cousin was just sent to the SHU @ Pelican Bay. He will be there until 2007. He's been locked up for a year and a half, and I have been ok thus far. We've been writing constantly and I'm always sure to send him lots of pictures of the family, since I know thats probably one of the things that will help keep his mind positive.
I had recently told my older brother where they were sending our cousin, and my brother could not believe not only that they were sending him to Pelican Bay but to the SHU. After talking to my brother, which has done a couple years time and has a lot of friends that are either in the system or at some point have been, I was then scared for where my cousing was going. Out of curiousity and wanting to know what my cousing would be living like, I started to look up info on the internet and it's been down hill for me since. That was a couple of days ago. The first night(3 nights ago) I cried my self to sleep. I'm finding my self tearing randomly throughout the days when he pops into my head.
Not only am I scared for him, but most of all I'm sad to think that when he's home again, mentally, he will not be the same person.
People dont understand that our loved ones have obviously made some bad choices in there lives, but it doesn't make them monsters! Its just killing my heart! The thought of my cousins lonliness, I just cant take it.
Thanks for caring who ever is reading this post. I'm so glad I have found this site, to be able to communicate with people who really understand.

[QUOTE=feradina]For some reason I can't stop thinking about my cousin who is in SEATAC fdc in Washington. My brother, cousin and I use to be so close growing up, and then he moved away to Alaska! That place has brought nothing but trouble for him. I want him back home here in NY! But he is all the way on the other side of the US and I can't even visit him. I miss him so much. My brother finally wrote him a letter... and he told me he cried when he wrote it. We use to write eachother all the time, even when he was in the first time. He got married and we hardly talked.. now he is back in for violation of parole! I just had to write, because I can't sleep. Way to much stuff on my mind and that was one of them. I'm sure we all know what it is like not being able to sleep with so much on our minds :( . Thanks for listening.

my cousin is in east moline and growing up we were very close over the years we have feel apart and now that he is there all i can do is worry about him i miss him and love him and just want hiim to know i am here for him