since i been with paul from 1995 that's when i went to see him in prison. we started writing to each other again in the beginning of 95. i was a friend of his since 89 and the last time i saw him was in july 91...

from 96 when we got married i knew he loved me... but it wasn't like it is now... we are in love... we really fell in love a few years back.. now it is true... but the beginning years was tough.. really tough... the trial, the move to his parents house then having to move out when they sold the house... then i move in with a room mate, she killed my baby cat midnight... then i got my place 2 years i lived alone but was seeing another person. i questioned the devotion and love for my husband. he was using drugs... the visits were horrible most of the times. all because of the drugs... blah drugs...

but now everything is great... and i have to say i am deeply in love with my husband to stick around..

:hee: WoW Chris! You have been through alot I must say. Since I have joind PTO in October I do beleive, I have followed your post and been inspired by your strength. You know, I am still a baby in this game. My Hubbie has 10 more years to go and some change. When never went through the cheating part but I'll be darn if I wasn't thinking about it during the first six months. When he got settled in the prison, Hubbie told me about his secret drug uses while he was out. That pissed me off for a minute. Because if you lied about that then what else. He swears there's nothing else and I have no reason to not beleive him. All of this is to say, you and a few other members who have that long stretch of tim have been tools in my marrige while Hibbie is gone and I just want to say THANKS!!!!!! Girl, write a book and hang in there.