good day ladies my name is AManda i am 21 years old and was diagnosed with bipolar and i am so confused and i don't know what to do anymore i am losing pretty much everything my family, friends ect the only thing that i really have left his my son Trevor and my boyfriend mike other than that i am all alone and mike isn't even with me yet which makes things even harder for me right now.

i am starting to think that their is nothing left for me to do i feel like crawling under a rock and just dying i give up on everything i can be soo suicidal and emotional it can get to be very badd at times and i am beginning to have troubles handeling my slef at times.

right now i need some friends and some one to tlak to that may understand what i am going through right now because no one especiallymy boyfriend knows what i am going through right now.

please all i ask is for someone to help me by just being their for me i am having a hard time right now please leave me a msg here or pm me thank you amanda

Hi Amanda

I want to welcome you here. I can be here for you to talk to anytime you feel like talking. There is also a live chat, usually we gather up at night for live talk. Try it tonight, there are many people that you will love talking to.
Amanda, your depressive thoughts are normal with bipolar.Give yourself some time to adjust to this, i am hoping you are taking medication. I promise you will feel stability and emotional balance soon. Don't let yourself or your son down. Emotions come and go, allow yourself recovery. I understand the intensity of your feelings and how uncontrollable they may seem now, however i know you will feel like yourself again. It is important that you keep focused on getting well. Keep yourself occupied with activities that are a source of pleasure, or comfort. Try to see a purposeful day ahead of you. It may be hard right now but if you try you will establish a pattern of positive thinking.
There is so much to enjoy, explore, experience and think about all around you. Please allow yourself to bounce back. Peace
PM me anytime

Amanda
Im always here for you, you can PM me anytime, you can call me anytime, just know we are here for you, and things will be ok.
You do need to go back to your doctor,and get your medication sorted out though that is really important.
((((hugs)))) and please stay safe. Type it on on PTO as much as you need to when you are down, someone is always around.

Hi there Amanda, my daughter is Bi Polar. I know what you are talking about in triplicate!!! U can overcome this if you just hang in there. It can be a real pain but, u have to remember there are a lot of people just like you out there. Patty Duke Austin, Mary Tyler Moore, etc. to name a few.. And look at what they achieved!! I'm not saying you have to become a movie star kiddo. LOL Just believe in yourself and your ability to handle what comes your way. And we're here to help.. The chat room is awsome for people who need a lift! See ya there!!
Genile

I'm glad your having a good day Amanda!!!

Amanda,

My husband and my cousin are both bi-polar. I have done a lot of research on it to help support my husband. I also got onto yahoo chat for people who are bi-polar (that might help you). If you have any questions or need someone to talk to PM me.

yvonne

Oh Amanda! I feel your pain. I wish we could get together ...and hang out and we could share some laughs. We really need it!

Amanda,

Hello and welcome to PTO I can't say that I know exactly what you are dealing with cause I don't but I do hope that you get all the help you need I will keep you in my prayers and remember NEVER give up.

Amanda I also have bi- polar and a loved one in prison I know exatley what u are going through. I am here if u want to talk some days it feels like you can not put up with all the prison b.s but hold in there. It will all be worth it in the end xoxoxo Mare

Amanda. i too am bipolar. you must get medical intervention NOW esp. if u are suicidal. are u taking your meds? as prescribed? this is essential just to handle a "normal" life but esp. trying to handle all this prison stuff, and trying to raise a child on your own...way too much stress. u must take care of yourself FIRST. otherwise there is no way u can care for anyone else. you say u are confused...are u having racing thoughts? your meds have got to be managed. if u can not afford your meds or a drs. visit run, don't walk, to your nearest mental health clinic...they are usually free and the meds r usually free too. u can pm me anytime to talk. i hope u are feeling better soon.

Amanda,

I can understand how times can get difficult. I just want you to know that you are not alone. Stay tough kid! I just recently lost a friend to suicide. To be honest with you, he must have thought the world was against him, but he was so wrong. You must know that there are people out here who care about your well being, your happiness. You were put here on this earth for a reason. You must never forget this. And when times get tough for you, you keep pushing forward. There is always something better waiting for you, if you give life a chance. Who knows what God's devine purpose is for you. You have been given special gifts that you must use to benefit others as well as yourself. I know you have it in you to keep looking forward. But most of all Amanda, you must never give up. Always remember that you have your entire life to live, to love and to be loved!