Hi my Name is Barbara
i live in Germany ,and my Son is in Santa Rosa Florida with a 30Year sentence...:ha:
He is only 23 years.....what kind of Futur...
i fell so sad and Powerd out ,don´t know where my head is anymore....
The bad thing about it , I haven´t seen my son in 21 Years because he was kidnapped with 16 months from his Dad, and until December2002 i didn´t even know what happend to him .I found my baby again after all those Years.
So last Year in March I went to see him for the first Time......Two weekends and that was it.
After i left he got in trouble with his Officer and he went on CM and got transferd to Santa Rosa ....so I don´t know how long he still be in there ....to see him i have to wait until they transfer him out of CM again .
I have to say it sure feel good to write all that down, and knowing there are People here that understand...Somehow I fell that nobody understands me.....
Maybe is just in my Mind....

Barbara,

I am so sorry that your son is locked up, but it is wonderful that you were reunited with him...have you written to him lately? Writing to him may help ease the pain that you are feeling...take care of yourself...

dear mayday...I live in Belgium and my friend is in VA with a sentence of multiple life and 20 years...I am sorry to hear your story and all that happend to you and your boy...I am glad you found him and you can be there now for him to help him in these difficult times...I am glad you found PTO...we are all in this together! good to see you here!

welcome to PTO!! :)
everyone here is so supportive and helpful...you have come to te perfect place!! :)
(((((hugs being sent all the way from Texas to you)))))))

Welcome to PTO!! I'm sorry to hear about your situation. It's great that you were able to find your son and go visit him. Like someone mentioned earlier, letter writing definitely helps. Hopefully he'll get out of CM soon and you'll be able to see him again. Those visits mean so much sometimes.

Heather

Thanks to all of you here....it sure feels good to have people who care,
Letters....Yeah i wrote him so many of theme ...because we also have a lot og catching up to do .
But I feel so bad ,even guilty because i wasen´t there during his Childhood to show him the right way...if you know what i mean.
I feel bad because i had to leave him back when i visit him.
I feel so bad and i can´t let it out.
And i know when i go to see him this year is even harder...is tearing my heart out just to think about it

i know what you mean mayday...visits are real bad at times when you live at the other side of the world and you have to turn away and go...I know how that feels...but even though it hurts like hell, you do it, because you have to, because you love him more then that pain...he needs you, you know that, and you need him....and when it hurst, then you have to tell yourself...evefy day you are away from him, is one day closer to seeing him again....you can do this!!

Hi Hilde,
I know what you saying...but ...always that but....here i don´t really have nobody i can talk to .
I have two more Kids ,the feel with me,but i allways have to hold back that i don´t start crying all the Time...i really don´t want anybody know how i feel because i hate People they just say oh i´m so soory,but don´t understand why i do all that stuff to get my son out

yes mayday, I know...people here don't get why I go to prison and write a zillion letters to lobyists and political figures and support groups etc...but I know why....and I do understand your ...buts....I know them well....but, in here you have friends and if you stick around a while, some of these people here can even make you laugh again...I know, I have been there....it is all of us here mayday...I understand you like you understand me...you know you are doing the right thing, just fight for your boy and do all you can...it might make you feel better...you have a lot of healing to do still mayday, and all of that is just too much at times, but time heals many wounds, for all of you....one day, one day soon you will look back and have learned how to deal with all this...just not now yet, but one day....you will be okay with your boy and your other children....do your other kids write theyre brother? just wondering?....so...just hold on and see, you are not alone, never alone...not on here...thats why this PTO was created, for people like you and me...people who hurt and cry and can't see any light.....and then you looik around and see, there is light, I am not alone...and never will be as long as there is a place like PTO....I am just in Belgium...not too far away from you....and I care about you....I know what you feel, I know about people who don't get us...i know....you will learn to deal with that as well.....you will be okay, trust me...it will always hurt and be so hard, but you will be okay...

Well Hilde,what can i say ...thank you for understanding.
Yes my 2 other kids write there Brother,and they can´t wait to meet him.
So he know that he has a family over here waiting for him.
One day ......it will come true
Best wishes to you
Barbara