Well we have about 10 more months of no calls no visits just letters. We are getting closer everyday with our letters. We play silly little games, ask questions, talk about our past, read the bible together etc. I've never been closer to anyone in my life. Nor have I been more loved or cared for by anyone. He told me the other day he may have some good news about the confinement, he didn't want to get my hopes up yet, but he thinks he might be moved closer to me?! He would still be in confinement just closer. But I'm not getting too excited yet, I'll just wait and see what happens in the next couple of months. I can't take another let down or dissapointment. So in a way I wish he had never said anything. Anyway just wanted to tell everyone who has followed my story that i'm doing all right. But I'm not getting use to not seeing him or hearing his voice, and I hope I don't. Missing him gives me strength. Thanks for listening. Spikeswife

I have been going through what you are currently going through and as devastating and hard and heartbreaking as it is, we have NEVER been so close before and we have a 15-year history together...It is so true," What doesn't kill you will make you stronger"

Glad to see that you're staying positive! That's always the best approach. If what MrsMaze says is true, we are a bunch of the strongest people in the world!!!!

Good to know you are making it. I can't imagine no calls OR visits for so long... but you do have something a lot of others in this world only wish for: "Nor have I been more loved or cared for by anyone."

Hang in there!

Yeah I do feel pretty lucky. At first alot of my friends thought I was crazy for waiting for him. But I really have never loved or been more connected to a man in my life. I was engaged before to a man I had known since we were little kids. And I never felt like this before. I think its funny that everyone usually thinks that "Oh he's in prison he's just gonna use you and hurt you!" I'm sure there are men in prison that do nothing but play games with women and some who are pretty straight. I have been with men who have used me and hurt me that were out here. It's just a chance everyone has to take when falling in love no mater where you find love. My last ex boyfriend hit me daily, once I got the strength to leave him I took time for myself to get my self,my life back. But all I found was alcohol and men I didn't care about. Got straight again swore off men for about 2 years wasn't looking for love and I found James we clicked instantly and we've been together for almost three years now and will be together for a live time. Its hard right now but we are making it just one day at a time! Spikeswife

Best of luck to you! I hope that you will continue to stay positive. :)