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Hi everyone,

I wanted to let you know that we stick with our husbands/boyfriends because we love them. I am definitely in love with my husband. We were friends when he was home in 1989 and went into prison again in 91. he did time from 77 to 84 then 85/86 and now since 91... i always knew Paul would be in my life someday. I contacted him again via a letter in 94 his cousin told me he was still there. Paul was suppose to come home last year from doing time since 91... we got really close as friends again. He was with an old friend christine and left her to be with me. so the end of 95 we decided to get married in 96... over these years paul and i are very close and very much in love but it took us years to overcome a lot of things. these past 10 years i did went fast but there are many many lonely nights. I get my trailers with my husband every 3 or so months but years ago there were 2 or 3 times we didnt get trailers when he got in sliced across the face and he overdose. Now that all is in the past and everything is great now i still feel the lonely nights and wonder how am i going to get through the next 10 YEARS....
IT IS HARD... i don't have kids with paul but we agreed that we are going to try because i can't have children and i am going to do something about it. i am starting college for a degree in english and literature. I want the next 10 years to go by quick. I wish now was 10 years ago...
I want to know if we ever question ourselves to leave and how would it be if we left.

chrispro...you are lucky trailer visits I wish!! :) not in the state of Texas!! :)
it's a long ride...but you hold on to each other through all the twist and turns and you make it. When we finally get to the end of the road...you will look back and say YES!!! WE MADE IT!!! :)

I know exactly what you mean about the time and how it flys but some days it seem like it don't move fast enough. I'm a week away from my first trailer visit and can't wait..... thats a whole nother book..... ;-}

I have asked the question of "how would it be if i left" for me,its not even imaginable.i couldnt do that to him,nor myself.. i promised him i would ALWAYS be there for him no matter what..maybe thats giving him to much to lean on..but i am standing by my proimse,because i love him,i want to,he needs me to and he wants me to. I love my Matthew with all of my heart..nothing,and no one is going to come between that. I just hope that the sentences that my baby gets..when they're all done torturing him..goes by as fast as the 10yrs seemed to do for you! right now he has 2 1/2-8yrs..he still has 3 other counties to go threw though..and who knows what they're gonna give him..same charges so more than likely his min will be 10yrs IF they run everything concurrent,and even if we do get married..PA doesnt have trailor visits..:( i miss him..i'll be happy once we get contact visits though..it'll all be over soon and we'll be back together again,it's just gonna seem like a life time till that day comes... i miss him...

~*MatthewsBabyGirl*~

My man is in Pennsylvania as well, and no, there are no trailer visits.... I have never questioned my decision to stand by the man I love with every part of my being... His time, has become my time, and we have about 9 and a half years to our minimum now on a 15 to 30 year sentence. Running concurrently from a 16 to 50 year had it of been consecutively. We have our times of down and out spirits, and we have our times of heartache, but we also know that a crime was committed, and he has to pay for that crime. I have since I met him, never thought of ever leaving after we made a committment. I do all in my power to make his stay in the DOC more pleasant, but I know that really, I cant, other then visiting weekly, and being there for him, as he is for me to the best of his capabilities at the moment. I have accepted my decision to stand by him, as he has, and I have never questioned that decision, and I never will... you see, we just dont work well without each other... so, do I question how my life would be if i ever left? No, I do not. Leaving him, in the time he needs me the most... has never been an option.

It has been 3.5 years and i am suprised at that, i hope this 9 years goes as fast.

After being without him for years and having found him again, there is no way I could even conceive of the idea of being without him. He is my true love ~ he completes me. I'm standing strong by his side for the rest of my life and await the day he is home where he belongs. He's been in for nearly 11 years now, and he really is ready to get on with a new life. We pray for the parole board to be favorable at his next upcoming review.

Trailer visits - we sure do wish. Too bad all states don't have this.

I have to agree that our 12 years together have gone by pretty fast too. I cannot believe that it has been that long. When we met and got married we never talked about his going to the parole board because it seems so far away and now we are less than two years to the board. I guess time really does fly when you are having fun!:D

I'm Looking At 18 Years. Thanks Gov Pataki For Doing Away With Parole! Anyway I Know That My Son And I Will Be All He Has Left When He Does Come Home And I Will Never Ever Leave Him! Ladies Just Pray, God May Not Find A Way To Get Him Home But God Will Give You The Strength To Make It Through.