Hi,
My name is sarah i dont know if some of you remember me but i used to come on here last year after learning my bf had been sentenced to 13 months in prison.
Sadly On the 19th of december 2003 My Jakk died due to having taken herion in prison,My life now as you can imagine has been turned upside down.
I wanted to tell you all this because if i help just one person to stop before its to late i will have done myself and my jakk proud.
Jakk was always such a bubbly, fun and caring bf and i am so glad he became part of my life,I cant understand why he did what he did but i dont think any less of him for it, I used to think that him being in prison was the end of us but now i know he can never back to me.
I remember thinking about what life would be like when he came out and i was so excited he would of been coming out around july 2004 just in time for my birthday.
I dont know what else to say but i love and will always love him so much.

You never know what u have until its gone so even if your loved one is in prison u know that they probably will come home one day.

Thanks to drugs my baby never will.

Love always sarah.

Sarah: Thank you for sharing your heartbreaking story with all of us. I am so sorry for your loss and your pain. I agree with you 100% that if even one person reads this post and decides not to use again, your boyfriend will have left a very important legacy. Please take care of yourself--and thank you again for sharing. That was very unselfish of you.

Sarah,
I am so very sorry to hear about your loss. May Jakk bask in the sunlight of our god. May you know he is with you at all times.
God Bless
Believe in yourself and you will be a creator of your destiny...
Witty

Hey Sarah,
I am so sorry to hear about Jakk. May God be with you and may Jakk's soul R.I.P. Be strong , I will remember you in my prayers. ************************{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Sarah I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Thank you for sharing your story so that others may learn from it.
It is nice to see you back at PTO all though I wish it could be under different circumstances.

Always know that Jakks spirit and the Love you shared will always be with you. I pray that you will be able to take some comfort in that.

Please know that we are here when ever you need us, for a shoulder or to lend a listening ear.

softie

Sarah:

Thank you for sharing with us and I agree that if it helps one person refrain from using again your post was so worth it. My husband has brain damage from using Meth and will be on medications to control seizures for the rest of his life. That is best case prognosis considering the effects of this drug are so new to the medical profession, so prayerfully that will be the extent of the damage. You are in my heart forever, by being strong and unselfish. May the Lord bless you always. Rest assured that Jakk is with Our Creator.

Much Love
Becki

Sarah I am so sorry to hear of your loss. There are really no words that will help in this situation. I understand how it feels to lose a loved one while they are in prison because my uncle died while he was in jail. He was also in for drug charges, but passed away due to lack of medical treatment. It is a very hard thing to live with, but you have to be strong for Jakk.

Bless you and know that Jakk is finally free and in Gods care.......You are in my prayers and always know that PTO is here........

If you feel down and all alone,If your world is all but gone just look up to the sky above and know that you have a friend.
If you feel down and betrayed and your friends have left you cold, just pray to God for the strength to help you carry on.
If you feel down and your lifes a mess and family~friends left you hurt, just praise the lord for all you have got and it will begin to work.
If you feel down and real sad about a loss...just remember that it is all in Gods hands and now you have them both to watch over you......DanniLeigh

Sarah,
You will be in my prayers and I am so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine the pain you must be feeling and I think you are so sweet and so brave for sharing your story with us. May angels be with you to comfort you always.

Sarah, so sorry to hear what you're going through. Christopher OD'd in prison, luckily enough they were able to revive him. I remember how sick I was when I heard what happened.

Feel free to PM me anytime.

Take care,

Sheila

Sarah, Sorry for your loss. (((((HUG))))). Peace

Sarah-
Thanks for delivering a serious message. May God continue to protect you and carry you through these difficult times.

God Bless Him

May you find comfort in the memories you share.

Sarah~ So very sorry to hear of your loss. I too lost my younger sister to a heroin
overdose in July of 2001. I know the pain that you are feeling, but remember that
you were and still are blessed from knowing Jakk, and that he is no longer in pain
from the use of heroin. May god bless you and keep you safe in his loving care....
Suzi

Sarah, I am soo sorry to hear about your loss!!! Thank you soo much for sharing your story with us!! God Bless you and May God Bless Jakk!!!!!

Thankyou for all your sweet replies:
Even though Jakk is no longer alive, I know now that he is at peace,he is my angel and my hero.
I sometimes think its very painful for me to think of our good times because i know that i can never have them back but i am so happy that i met him because he gave me the best and my precious time of my life.
When your loved one is in prison its hard i know it is but u need to get through it if not for you but for them....
The heartbreaking thing is that Jakk died probably alone in a small cell he had no family and no friends around him.
And also Jakk wanted to be a farther more than anything he loved children he wanted to be a daddy so so much,Jakk died at the age of 24 he had just had his 24th birthday,I know that Jakk cant be a dad now but when i have a child in the future i will name him Jakk because if it wasnt for Jakk i wouldnt be the person i am today.

Also when your writing letters plz dont hold back saying something you need to tell them what u feel what u have been doing anything because you never know what will happen.

I thank you all once again
Love always and forever
:) Sarah & Jakk :)

I am so so sorry for your loss. God bless you.

Sarah, I am so very saddened by your loss. I am sure no one could have given Jakk more love than you and for that love I know God will smile upon you. Christ said "For whatsoever you do unto the least of these so have you done unto Me." As you share Jakk's story may God bless you over and over again. ~ WJ

I am at a total loss for words because my eyes are still full of tears. Thank you for sharing all that with us, it must be so painful and confusing for you. That is an issue that is not talked about enough; is drugs in prison. They are dangerous and tempting beyond belief and even though they try to keep them out there are lots of ways to get them in there, especially when there is someone in the system who wants to make a few bucks. I can not imagine at all how you feel, I would imagine you never dreamed that was something to fear. So many of us actually feel relieved in a way when an addict that we love goes to prison if its means they will live another day, but you spelled it out for us, the danger is still there and in some ways more dangerous. Drugs are more expensive by a long shot in prison, but the quality will be worse because the choices they have in what they cut it with are limited or it can not even be cut at all which could easily kill a hard drug addict.
I am so sorry that this has happened to you, and I do hope that there will be some good that comes of it by spreading the word. I really wish I had better words to express how I feel about your loss. You are in my prayers.

Sarah, I am so sorry. Words may mean something at a time like this but the hurt must be nearly unbearable. You will never get over losing him but you will get used to it. Jakk is now no longer addicted. His struggle is over and perpetual light shines on him.

Sarah- I too am at a total loss for words right now.
I can't imagine what you are feeling at this time, but I do know that Jakk is finally at peace now. Hopefully you will be too.
You have alot of courage and love to beable to come here and tell us your story-a story that needs to be heard so desperately.
God bless you Sarah- you and Jakk are in all of our thoughts and prayers.

I am the stars that fill the sky
I am your friend that will never say goodbye
I am the moon that shines at night
Touching your life's, with my light
I am your friend and im here to stay
Through your pain and misery I will find a way.

Though my body is dead
visit the grave where I lay my head
lay some flowers and say a prayer
ask for me and I will be there
Say you love me because I love you too
Together we will see our love through

Do not cry for me because I am here
Always loving you and always near.
Live your life and be happy
Do it for me <[His words to me]

In memory of Jakk Hammer

and the memory will live on in your heart forever,,that is beautiful

That Is Such A Heart Felt Poem