Allison,

I hope you find happiness this Christmas I really wish I could be there with you but I guess we should be thankful for what we do have.

I Love You & I'll be thinking of you on Christmas

at 10 am Christmas morning I'm going to take time to spend with you, so at 10 am close your eye's & think of me.

Love Mark

Bulldogg


Awe how Sweet

i got home from shopping and my daughter hands me two envelopes one addressed to our son Blake and one addressed to me i was surprised because this is the first christmas card he's given me now you know we got together in july 1999 he was locked up the 1st one he was locked up the 2nd one too but we were broke up we got back together like in june while he was in of course got out that oct only to breakup again in late nov and that x-mas was his first one outside in like 8 years and he was miserable because his new little thing took all his kids presents and wouldn't give them back cuz 2 day's before she called me accusing me of calling and hanging up i told her ever try *69 i then asked where dog was but cut her off and said listen little girl i know he's not home and what you need to know is when he's not in your bed he's in mine well she got mad broke up and took all the gifts "oops did i do that " then last christmas we were 2 gether but he was in again he said he got me a card last year but he sent it to his mom ok whatever that means but were still together so it only took what almost 5 yrs to get a card I have given him one every year but i havent even picked one out or designed one with create'a card yet because I 've been waiting to hear something you know he was good he didn't put anything negitive in it like my birthday card which is sitting in an addressed envelope along with a few pictures that I didn't make copies of soon enough for him as soon as i got home from walking out i went stright in my room grabbed it all shoved it in sddressed the damm thing stamp's n all and did i mail it nope it's all ready but you know i know there has to be others out there reading this going wooo thank god i'm not the only one who does all those crazy things or put's up with more shit than we should but if i am i know you all will get me the help i need and fast right?? lol so i'll send him a card it was really sweet you know i really do love the shit out of him i hope it's for real this time but how do you ever really know????

dang girl did you write that as fast as it seems you did!! I am happy that he finally sent a card!! Trust your heart is all I can say!!

Merry Christmas
God Bless

Rebecca

you got it going on ! lol. stand your ground if if your knees are buckling under the pressure.lol

I don't know why you bother with this guy. Is this really the man of your dreams? He sounds like a nightmare to me, my friend. Honestly, from what you've said in other posts, I just think you deserve a whole lot better than this and I hope you realize it soon. He sent you a Christmas card because you walked out on him at that visit where he told you he just needed somewhere to parole to. He thinks that's going to impress the heck out of you since he's never sent one before and you'll keep taking his b.s. so he has somewhere to parole to.

Don't trust your heart on this one. It's not working for you. This time try to see the forest in spite of the trees and keep on walking-------away----far away. You're a strong, loving woman who deserves a strong, loving man who is there for you all the way and not out sleeping around or treating you like dirt.

How do you ever really know it's for real, you ask? When a guy treasures you and treats you with the utmost respect at all times. This guy doesn't even come close.

Please think about this in a really objective way. You say "Hey, we're still together, right?" Being together doesn't mean a woman just coming on back no matter what he does and not expecting fine treatment from a man. It doesn't mean he acts like a dawg and a woman just lays down and takes it. It means he treats you with respect and loves only you, he doesn't trash your birthday card because you didn't do something he wanted you to, he doesn't sleep around, he doesn't tell you you're just somewhere to parole to-----love the shit out of him if you want to, but do it from a distance. That's one thing I had to learn----that I could love a guy, but I didn't have to stick around for abuse from him. I had to accept that it was a toxic relationship and let it go.

PTO is a place of love and support. I know this might not sound loving and supportive, but I care very much about you and what happens to you. Being supportive doesn't always mean saying the sweet and flowery things someone might rather hear. It sometimes involves being truthful where the truth needs to be told straight up. What I've said here is right from my heart and with respect for you. PM me anytime, even if only to tell me to mind my own business. I'm here for you, though, and hoping you won't keep settling for leftovers with this man.

your right i i feel stupid but your right i think i'll for get about that christmas card gggrrrr... mann i hate feeling like this so much time wasted where did i lose myself and think it was ok to be treated so badly ???? i think i'll get a puppy lol.... thank you

Awwww thats sweet, I'm glad you got a card from him. What a neat idea to think of each other at the same time.