FigmansBaby
12-06-2008, 08:11 AM
Once again my boyfriend Jeff wrote a posting to place on here. It was a stressful day and he handled it with all the grace that any of us could have.
My sentencing date finally arrived, what began in November of 2006 was finished November 20, 2008. A long, trying, "take everything out" of you ordeal. I've been through every emotion known thru that time none more so than hope. Hope is something you have to be very careful with, like a narcotic, in small doses it can heal you, help you, and encourage you. But in large quantaties it can leave you crushed, defeated, and broken. A little bit goes a long way, too much will hurt you. So it's by that knowledge I only allowed myself just enough of a dose to keep my head up and spirit intact never taking so much that I lost perspective or became intoxicated on what could be. My comedown wasn't a crash and burn, simply a light fall cushiioned by the support of those that love me.
I received nine years. Nine years for stealing 100,000. Definitely not worth it even if I pocketed the whole sum myself. I have two co defendents and we each got essentially the same. So with two nearly done and time off for good conduct, rehab and half way house, I'm hoping(small dose!) to be home in four-five years. At 38 it's surely not a life sentence but every year counts more than it did at 20.
So it won't be long before I depart Dubuque County Jail on to Des Moines, Kansas and finally whatever prison I get placed at. Not being fond of change and even less welcoming of the unknowns that face me, the next few months will continue to be trying but I'm looking forward to getting settled at a prison and making the best use of my time. I hear much things positive about the educational/vocational opportunities that await but being an everyday practical man I'm really looking forward to putting on some shoes, eating some real food, listening to music, breathing fresth air, getting contact visits, getting better exercise, playing ball and looking back with relief that this stage is done.
Of course I will continue to write, hopefully becoming a bit better at and finding things or interest to share. Staying consistant is important as I want to be read, so If a minute goes by with nothing new please bear with me. It's always on the way. Also I welcome all questions and comments and thank you for your support.
Jeff
My sentencing date finally arrived, what began in November of 2006 was finished November 20, 2008. A long, trying, "take everything out" of you ordeal. I've been through every emotion known thru that time none more so than hope. Hope is something you have to be very careful with, like a narcotic, in small doses it can heal you, help you, and encourage you. But in large quantaties it can leave you crushed, defeated, and broken. A little bit goes a long way, too much will hurt you. So it's by that knowledge I only allowed myself just enough of a dose to keep my head up and spirit intact never taking so much that I lost perspective or became intoxicated on what could be. My comedown wasn't a crash and burn, simply a light fall cushiioned by the support of those that love me.
I received nine years. Nine years for stealing 100,000. Definitely not worth it even if I pocketed the whole sum myself. I have two co defendents and we each got essentially the same. So with two nearly done and time off for good conduct, rehab and half way house, I'm hoping(small dose!) to be home in four-five years. At 38 it's surely not a life sentence but every year counts more than it did at 20.
So it won't be long before I depart Dubuque County Jail on to Des Moines, Kansas and finally whatever prison I get placed at. Not being fond of change and even less welcoming of the unknowns that face me, the next few months will continue to be trying but I'm looking forward to getting settled at a prison and making the best use of my time. I hear much things positive about the educational/vocational opportunities that await but being an everyday practical man I'm really looking forward to putting on some shoes, eating some real food, listening to music, breathing fresth air, getting contact visits, getting better exercise, playing ball and looking back with relief that this stage is done.
Of course I will continue to write, hopefully becoming a bit better at and finding things or interest to share. Staying consistant is important as I want to be read, so If a minute goes by with nothing new please bear with me. It's always on the way. Also I welcome all questions and comments and thank you for your support.
Jeff