tho i go to detox next weeek when they find me a bed I think it isRIDICULOUS HOW THEY TREATT HEROIN ADDICTS LIKE 3RD CLASS CITIZENS.WE DONT ALL KILL FOLKS AND STEAL HELL SOME OIF US LIKE ME CAN MORE THAN SFFORD OUR HABIT.SO F**CK OFF TO YOU THAT THINK WE ARE SHIT

um, I dont think anyone here thinks badly of you or herion addicts.

My baby is a heroin addict also and I understand exactly what you are saying. People think I'm nuts for even being with him (I've never even smoked a joint before).

As Flygirl said though, no one here thinks that way.

Good luck with rehab!

Sheila

Oh Veronica :(

My heart hurts for you. You must be in torment. Your words lept right out to me with such force.

Listen--it does not matter what anyone else thinks of you. What matters most is what you think of yourself. Your life can NOT be measured by moral character judged by others . . .

We are ALL hurt in so many different ways, all the time, and pain will either change us or end us. I hope you will choose change next week and enter detox. For death, on the other hand, is the final silencer. Please get help Veronica. Please choose change.

I hope my prayers will not offend you--but I pray for the best for You--Ameen.

My husband died of a heroin overdose three and a half years ago. I loved him with all my heart and he was such a good person! I don't know what brought on this outburst from you, but I hope it wasn't a result of anything here that hurt you. When you go to detox, give it your ALL! Good luck to you. You can kick it and stay clean if you really want it bad enough. Get in touch with NA while you wait for that bed, too.

Originally posted by Neeophyte
Oh Veronica :(

My heart hurts for you. You must be in torment. Your words lept right out to me with such force.

Listen--it does not matter what anyone else thinks of you. What matters most is what you think of yourself. Your life can NOT be measured by moral character judged by others . . .

We are ALL hurt in so many different ways, all the time, and pain will either change us or end us. I hope you will choose change next week and enter detox. For death, on the other hand, is the final silencer. Please get help Veronica. Please choose change.

I hope my prayers will not offend you--but I pray for the best for You--Ameen.

i would like you to e mail directly will explain why late.it is : would love to talk to you...by t he way my real name is sarah

Hi, I am sorry you are having such a hard time tonight. I have had to delete your email address because we can not use them in the post here at PTO. Love Barb

also to those who dont believe we are mistreated...try going to hospital for a tech shot,being next in kine and having themn put you in back of line waiting 3 hours cos u told them u r an opiate addict..all afraid to touch u thinking u have aids,rolling eyes at you and whispering w/ hostility of you to other doctord.

veronica cole

I am so sorry. Believe me when i tel you that no one here, that i know of, feels that way.
You will be in my prayers.

Sarah
I just got your pictures in email, you are so beautitul, you could be a model. You are a wonderful person, and you will get through this, and we will help you, and you can talk to us and me anytime you ever need to. I am here for you. I dont think anyone here would ever judge you, I think that they would hold you with the greatest respect, for doing what your doing. Society is so cruel, and I am so sorry that you have had to deal with all of that. I hate stigma, and you are a wonderful lady, and never forget that.

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means a lot that people do not lokk down on me....thanx




QUOTE]Originally posted by lulu
veronica cole

I am so sorry. Believe me when i tel you that no one here, that i know of, feels that way.
You will be in my prayers. [/QUOTE]

I pray you go to reheab Veronica. You can beat this addiction, and there are so many out there to help you do this. noone can ever think of us what we feel for ourselves the peice of shit we feel about ourselves being addicted to this drug. This will pass

Good luck and keep us posted how you are doing

HERE I WAS IN TEARS ALL DAY OVER A DEARTH ROW MAN IM IN LOVE WITH(SURE SOME OF U LADIES KNOW WHAT I MEAN)AND I CAME HERE WENT FROM CRYING BUCKETS TO SMILES COS SUPPORT IS ALL I NEED.IM ONLY WAITING ON A BED IM THRU CRYIN OVER A MAN WHO LIED TO ME OR SIMPLY DIDNT TELL THE WHOLE TRUTH.SEE HE TELLS ME HE DOESNT WANT HIS MOM TO MEET ME COS IF IT DOESNT WORK SHE GETS SAD,NEXT EXCUSE IS THAT SHES CRAZY AND I TOO GREW UP W/ A CRAZY ERRATIC MOTHER,NOW I GET THE TRUTH,"O THERE IS ONE GIRL MOM LIKES WHO KEEPS IN TOUCH WITH"...AFTER ALL HIS SAYINGS OF ME NOT SEEING OTHER MEN,BEING HIS,HE LOVED ME WISHED ME WELL......HE NEVER TOLD ME THE WHOLE TRUTH IM SOOOO SICK OF CRYING GUYS.THANKS ALOT,SARAH"VERONICA"

HE ALSO WENT ON N ON HOW HE HATED LIARS U CANT FIX LIES AND SO ON IM DYING TO HEAR HIS EXCUSE...........HE HURT ME TERRIBLY COS IM DEEPLY IN LOVE HAVENT BEEN IN 5 YEARS...IT HURTS OUCH STINGS BITES!!!!SARA"VERONICA"

Hey...Sarah!!! I so feel your pain,girl!!! I am a recovering addict and I know the feeling of being "judged"...sigh!!! Just know that here at PTO...that is not going to happen. We are all here to love and support one another! Unfortunately,heroin is very hard to "get away" from...my X spent two yearz in prison for possession of heroin and when he got out in Oct.,he swore to me that he wuz NOT going back to all that but...sadly within a month he wuz back to using which is why he is now my X. He knows that I am in recovery and I just do not think that I am strong enough to be around all that right now. I do still offer him all my love,support and strength but...until he really wants to stop,well...you know how it is!!! If ya wanna talk PM me...I have not been online much lately but...I usually am here all the time!!!

I GET SOOOOO SICK OF IGNORANT ASSHOLES I SOMETIMES WOMDER HOW THEY SHELTERED LIL LIVES TOOK EM THRU COLLEGE NO OFFENSE I KNOE U ALL ARENT LIKE THAT

I think you just said it all. Until it touches someones life, they rarely understand. Same with prison.

My college boyfriend was a heroin addict. I loved him so much. He was a great guy. Time moved on and I didn't see him for 15 years. Then I saw him. 52 years old, homeless and with a broken spine from injecting heroin into his neck for so many years. He was paralyzed and in a wheelchair with one of those Frankenstein braces screwed into his skull. After six months, he had surgery and they put pins in his neck and spine and he learned to walk again but will always have to use a cane or a walker. I think he's off heroin now. He moved away and we lost touch. Anyway, I hope you can overcome your addiction. It's a very dangerous drug as you get older and your body ages.

Okay, I shot dope every day, for 20 years. I been down that road, some junkies are scum. Some non junkies are scum, but having a habit, even if you can afford it now, doesn't mean that some day it wont put you in a positition to do shit you wouldn't do if you didn't. i have done time, and a lot of it. I sure wish i had the cash I put in the hole in my arm now. Bottom line, it runs your life, money or not. As soon as you get sick, it is controlling you. It took me a lot of years to kick my habit. You can still see my tracks, after ten years. I have a whole lot of dead friends. I miss them. So, my advice is learn early. It gets harder the older you get. Drugs suck. My Baby is doing 18 years, he doesn't do drugs, but they are equal opportunity. You pay, one way or the other, wether the moneys good to you, or the dope is.

did someone say HERION?.....
hello again...im back and yes im clean
on days like today i really would like to walk down the road or nod down it..i never did all those things either i think its because people dont really understand and there scared.
scared it could happen to them. ive been to rehabs and the bottom line is "you" what are you going to do for yourself. and get ready for a battle you against yourself. one and only one GOOD thing is you have all the support from these people they have helped me out a great deal and i even have a "women" sponsor now althrough i hate the word sponeor so i just call he "friend"...and you have lots right here to help you

we just want you you to get better. that is all we want.

hugs to you

THANX I WILL I PLAN ON IT FOR REAL

sarah remember those who judge are really judging out of fear we cant change the way people think or feel but we can change ourselves you do what ever it is you need right now and don't ever be afraid to ask for help and maybe those fearful people will learn something along the way you have to believe in you do you believe we all do !!! best of luck and if you fall get back up dust yourself off and you know ... bye bye Allison

I do not feel that way about herion addicts Sarah. I love someone very much who is a herion addict. He is one of the most amazing people I know, and that is the truth. Besides you are a human being just like the rest of us. You don't need to categorize yourself just because society has decided to make labels for people. I wish you the best of luck with your recovery, and anybody that is willing to fight so a tough addiction is worth receiving high respect.

that was sweet..thankyou........

Veronica, Iam sorry you have received such treatment, but stupid is as stupid does, they who treated you that way have absoloutely no education of heroine or addiction. I am happy to hear you will be going to ttreatment, I surely hope that is not where you got that treatment. I know I am a very good person that was one of the unfortunate ones with the disease of addiction with heroine my drug of choce, and every one of my friends that also chose that drug are all very smart, talented and kind real people, there not the kind that steal your s--- and help you look for it, they help you when your sick because we know the pain it causes, but take this chance and run like hell with it. You can do it and you deserve it. You are gonna be just fine cause I will be letting my higher power know you need help so hold your preety little head up high! God bless & Blessed be.

Well honey, Iam sorry you got that treatment, people can be cruel you are going through a very critical time and need a lot of love and support, beleive in your self and to heck with those who are not educated enough to know anything at all about what you are going through, the main thing right now is positive energy focus on the good people in your life the ones that have good things to say to you. I hold you dear in my thoughts and prayers, I kicked heroine 2 years ago in jail, it hurts, if you have a chance to get methadone that would help alot. In the mean timwe positive energy , you can do this and your life will be so much better, I actually remember things now, Tee Hee! Hang in there God Bless & Blessed be.