What a blessing it is to have this site. When I am feeling down and want to write something to Keith, I just post it on this site. He use to ask me different things about Prison Talk, and what type of things we talked about. Sometimes I would be upset with him because of something another man had did or said to his woman that I read about. But all and all he was happy that I had someone who understand what I was dealing with, and I feel so blessed to still have someone who understands what I am still dealing with. It is so hard to move on. I keep telling myself to go and get a life, but what is a life? I live, I work, I go to church, I praise the Lord, and at the end of it all there is the memory of Keith still so fresh in my mine. I know he is dead and gone, but it is so hard to let go of a dream that you had for years. Planning your entire life around someone who dies is to hard to except. Maybe I loved him to much, maybe that is why it is taking me so long to get over what happened. I still can't go a day without thinking of him. This is an awful thing to deal with. But with all that I have said, if I had the choice to never have met him and not have to go through this, I would not excpept it, I would rather have loved and lost than not have loved at all. Without Keith I would of never knew what real love was suppose to feel like, I would of never known what it feels like to have someone love you so intensly.

Thank you once again for listening to me express my feelings. And to Keith, this song is for you.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bCMSKtAU7Rk

Menia --I am sorry you are still hurting so much, but when you love someone a lot you don't just get over it quicky. He will be with you for many years, and some time be just a wonderful memory without so much pain. But for now, he is still center most in your mind, not only that he is gone, but all the "would have beens".
Be kind to yourself.

Menia,
May I ask how your loved one passed? I am so sorry for your loss!

He died in an automobile accident while in the Halfway House.

I truely am so sorry for your loss! I've been reading some of your posts and from reading them I have gathered that you are a woman of faith... Menia, EMBRACE HIM!! He loves you Menia, UNCONDITIONALLY!! He loves you!! The Lord is calling you and remember HE will NEVER leave you!! You are HIS child... I know that it's easier said than done.. but truely.. He is the only one that can guide you for he will not guide you astray. I haven't lossed my life partner to death but I have temporarily lost him to the penal system and though it is NOT the same.. it is still a loss. 6 years later I am trying to come to terms with it and continue to struggle with him being gone everyday. May God Bless you and keep you during these trials!

Menia,
I'm sorry that your having a hard time, hun. It breaks my heart to see when someone that has a true love, loses them...way too soon. But I'm with BS...the Lord knew his time...He planned for you to go through this....with HIM. God WILL bring you through this and the love you and Kieth shared will continue to be there...making you the woman you are today. God knows your pain so shout at Him...cry to Him...wring your fists at Him and then surrender it all to Him. Kieth will be there...to welcome you with Jesus one day...I know this. Until then...my prayers for His Peace in your life are lifted up!! :)