300 min a month! SICK of it. TIRED of it. Can not wait to be able to call him back. I want to talk to him, when I want and when I don't want to and forever long I want morning noon and night! I want phone calls that are not listened to, I want to say what I want when I want and no limit.


LOL

What are you sick and tired of? Felt the need to rant, anyone else?

Girl...I remember being SICK and TIRED of prison phone calls and the BOP's 300 minutes a month (does it make you feel better that you only have 1 more month till you get 400 minutes a month for 2 months? something like that) Well now that I don't have to deal with that anymore I'm SICK and TIRED of feeling strange when I call him...LOL...I'm sick and tired of his cell company saying "all circuits are busy" I'm tired of other people calling him when he's with me...LOL. I'm still SICK and TIRED of the BOP but we only have 14 days left...2 weeks...2 weeks...then he won't be sick and tired of them calling HIM 6 times a day!

I'm sick and tired of waiting for this to be over.

I'm sick and tired of him being a number, not a human being.

I'm sick and tired of the money going to phone bills and commissary.

I'm sick and tired of not knowing when I'll hear from him next and not being able to pick up the phone myself to call him.

I'm sick and tired of feeling like a prisoner myself and being treated as one as well.

So many things to be sick and tired of. Hope ranting is good and not just me getting all worked up lol

Sick and tired of the worry. Is he ok, why did he not call, is he eating garbage not meant for animals. Is he too cold, is he too hot. Why wont he call, is he alright. It is an endless circle of worry.


huggles to you guys ranting as well!

I am sick and tired of taking care of every facit of life for me and the kids by myself. I'm tired of cutting the grass and cleaning the pool and taking out the trash. I'm tired of having to tell the kids daddy won't be home for a while longer, and I am tired of worrying about money and what the heck we'll do when he gets out. I could handle all of it with no problem if I had him here to share it with me.Working so hard to have a nice lifestyle all those years, just to see it all vanishing away, that is what I am sick of. I miss my husband.

Not knowing. He was sick yesterday and hadn't been to the nurse yet and I just don't know what's going on. He always calls and nothing at this point. Is he alright? Is he in seg/hospital unit because of his sickness? Are they locked down? Grrrrrrrr.......

Oh I hear you. Its all so much at times. I know my tour is almost over, maybe thats why I am venting now, get it out and be down with it.
Oh thought of another one, silly but still...
Sick and tired of buying "Mens" magazines and having the clerks look at me like I am a pervert. No matter how many times I say, Oh its not for me, they still look at me sideways. Sick and tired of not being the magazine I guess LOL

You know, the fact that the families and friends have to go through this just as much as they do is so frustrating. Hang in there as you are almost there. Home by Christmas it looks like. We're hoping for the same here, but we won't know until November.

and...he just called and is okay. Feeling better, but only had 2 mins to talk. That's fine because I know he's alright. Phew.

Im glad he is ok :) 2 min is a lifetime sometimes. We should start a what are we happy about thread lol Your 2 min and my letter I just got saying some of the sweetest things I have ever heard in my life, those are things to be happy about :)

I'M SICK AND TIRED OF THE WHOLE ORDEAL, I JUST WANT THIS TO ALL BE OVER,AND I WANT HIM HOME!!!!!!

So many things to be sick and tired of. Hope ranting is good and not just me getting all worked up lol

Sick and tired of the worry. Is he ok, why did he not call, is he eating garbage not meant for animals. Is he too cold, is he too hot. Why wont he call, is he alright. It is an endless circle of worry.


huggles to you guys ranting as well!

Just so you know my worrying got a whole lot worse when he got out...worried that he doesn't make it home in time, worried that he got in a car accident, worried that he's violated when I don't hear from him, worried that life is just too much for him....it sucks and I'm SICK and TIRED of it...but I'd rather be sick and tired with him home than with him locked up!!!

Great Thread!

I'm Sick and Tired of Mailing things never knowing if he gets them on time or at all....when we have used our 300 minutes for the month.....I'm sick of being happy for the first two weeks of the month because he can call almost everyday, then going for two weeks at the end of the month never knowing what's going on except for Thursday or Friday when I get a letter from him...but its not the same as hearing his voice, hearing him be ok, there's something different about a phone call and a letter....don't get me wrong I love his letters but those phone calls are just my lifeline. And mine is such a baby he can't ration them out, he wants ALL he can get When he can get it......I'd be happy with 10 minutes a day everyday of the month....but he can't restrain himself and I can't deny him what makes him happy....

I'm sick and tired of spending a fortune at the post office by sending anything and everything to help take his mind off be in there and inventing a way to bring him out here, be it jokes, lil stories, funny pictures, I send him a packet once a week from the internet (god bless the internet, huh ladies).....

Again, Great Thread!

Right there with you!! I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired! We need our men/women HOME WITH US!! Can I have an AMEN??!!:thumbsup:


I'M SICK AND TIRED OF THE WHOLE ORDEAL, I JUST WANT THIS TO ALL BE OVER,AND I WANT HIM HOME!!!!!!

To tell you the truth. I am sick and tired of being in this world alone with just me and my son. I honestly tell you i wish i can take my husbands place. Life would be so much easier. My husband took care of me and our son for 16 years of our lifes and now he is away just like that. He now has been gone for 7 months and its so hard! What do we do from here. I have no way of getting a job because i just got in a car accident 3 months ago and my left arm and shoulder is in constant pain. Who can I go to for help. I am already on welfare but they dont give enough. We are toatally BROKE. Can someone give me any info.

Im sick and tired of being a 3 hour drive away! Im sick and tired of not being able to find someone else who also goes to the same facility as I. Im sick of there being limited or no transportation services to prisons out of my state ( Ohio) there use to be people at one time whom charged a fee to travel to state and federal prisons now you cant find nobody! Im also tired of the limited resources online availble to wifes,loves etc of inmates who are incarcerated Did you know PTO is the only site that provides any type of support throughout all the prisions, state, fed, out of the country, etc! I wish there were more support groups in my area. Ohio sucks!

Sick and tired of wishing that the phone would ring and it would be him. And I am new to all of this. He has six more years to go... He was the love of my life 22 years ago, and I found him in a BOP....and he is still the love of my life. Just wish I could feel his arms around me like I did 22 years ago...sick and tired of wishing what could have been

me too. I am sick and tired of him being transferred 4 times in the past 12 months, and each time in the whole 2-3 months each time.. 2 months and counting this time. It has been almost 9 very long year and still have 5 years to go... oh how I wish I had the complaints of those who only have a few days/months to go.. But I am happy for all of you and sometimes I think my turn willl come.. but today, it just seems like an eternity.

I feel all of ya'll! I too am sick and tired of the whole ordeal. hoping that every time the phone rings it is him and then feeling all depressed when it's not. tired if wondering is he okay, what do the doctors say about the different medical things going on with him. tired of knowing i can't help take care of him when he gets sick(we all know that men love to be babyed when they get sick :)) not being able to hold his hand or look into his eyes or feel his arms or cuddle up next to. not having him here to help with kids and laundry and dinner, or being able to go pick out a movie together. not being able to just live life. there is just too much to list about being sick and tired of!

Yes, I am sick and tired of 15 minutes. And 300 minutes shared between me, his children, his mother, brother etc. Grrrr, I am sick and tired of not being able to lay with my dear and hold him all the time. Grrr I am sick and tired of not being able to talk with him when I choose to. I am sick and tired of missing him so. Today I miss him so and do not want to be in bed without him. Grrr Im sick and tired..... Thanks for this posting I know that I am never along here.

I'm sick and tired of the feds having total control of our lives...and I'm sick and tired of the lockdown at Yazoo Medium!!!

I'm sick and tired of waiting for this to be over.

I'm sick and tired of him being a number, not a human being.

I'm sick and tired of the money going to phone bills and commissary.

I'm sick and tired of not knowing when I'll hear from him next and not being able to pick up the phone myself to call him.

I'm sick and tired of feeling like a prisoner myself and being treated as one as well.

Oh my God! You took the words right out of my mouth. It is going on a year since my husband left and I still finding myself almost going to call him to tell him something that just happened. I miss calling him and sharing things with him during the day. I would call him to tell him something funny that one of the kids did or to vent about the kids, and now I just wait for his call. It's so sad sometimes. It's nice to talk to people that know what you are going through. It really helps.

GRRr:blah: and sick of 300 minutes right now! Today was a good day. I got two letters and just got off the phone with him.:cool: I get like 10 minutes every other day and some days like today, I needed more. I wanted to stay with him all night and that is impossible. So right now, I am sick and tired or just really sick without him:(

Sick and tired of the low between mail days, the rush when I do get mail. Tired of stalking the mail man lol Tired of the time it takes to have a conversation in mail, sick and tired of phone conversations that tell all that a mail will tell when I get it two days later then trying to relax till the next mail day.
Tired of my friends being supportive when I know they are rolling their eyes behind my back. Tired of telling my friends "I'm good, I wont freak out again and get all moody." Knowing it aint true, them knowing it aint true and repeating the converstaion at least once a week and promising I wont freak out yet.. again.
Tired of my parents not ever saying his name and when I say it changing the subject. Tired of my mom "Oh I hear San Diego has a lot of men, military you know, bet you could find one ... "
Sick of trying to lose, just 10 more pounds, knowing it aint happening. LOL

So many things to be sick and tired of. Hope ranting is good and not just me getting all worked up lol

Sick and tired of the worry. Is he ok, why did he not call, is he eating garbage not meant for animals. Is he too cold, is he too hot. Why wont he call, is he alright. It is an endless circle of worry.


huggles to you guys ranting as well!




I totaly understand how you feel. It can seriously break someone down feeling like that.

Bzzz,

I feel your pain!

I'm sick and tired of feeling like I'm a burden to someone else because of this situation.

I'm sick and tired of men acting like females (sorry ladies but you know how we can get...fussy, naggy just plain 'ol nasty).

I'm sick and tired of my mother telling me she understands that I have fibromyalgia, but I need to push myself through the pain. I'm tired of her thinking that I'm catering to everyone except for my family (meaning her, my siblings and my kids). I'm sick and tired of her acting as if my marriage isn't real, as if my husband doesn't exist.

I'm sick and tired of being in pain everyday and having to explain why I didn't do this or that.

I'm sick and tired of not being able to be with my husband when I want/need to.

I'm sick and tired of Satan messing with me and my family. Satan you are a liar!!!!!!!!!!
I'm just plain sick and tired......

I am not sick and tired, as when I read this thread everytime I am uplifted and absolutely inspired and I think as a former and soon to be inmate that there are some very fortunate men out there in the BOP that have these REDWOODS of CHARACTER and those trees ladies are filled with branches of an incredible strength and tenacity filled with fruits of LOVE and DESIRE which are all the things that give existing in the system a real KICK in the ASS and all its opressive and limiting nature is cast out the window with these words every time I read them and I on all of the inmates behalf THANK YOU and GOD BLESS each and everyone of you! Via con dios Gotcott P.S. maybe some of you may consider printing this thread and include it in your correspondance as knowing the value of correspondance while inside and the value of it's content.

Gotcott, you sure made me smile. I wont print it but only because it is venting pure frustration and I like to try (TRY lol) and keep my letters to my sweetiepiepumpkinhead free of most venting lol
Sure will miss you and your charm around the forums!

Gotcott, you also make me smile, and today sending you much huggs. :grouphug: thank you and I will. God Bless you also and everybody gets a turn for love and commitment. Thank for all that you give and share with us;)

ditto!!! satam is always lying... because you and your hubby stand for righteousness and he hates that with a passion!! but know you're not alone and no one can bring you out like Our God... He's awesome and He reigns within ya'll... be strong everyone... and right back at me, too!


I'm sick and tired of feeling like I'm a burden to someone else because of this situation.

I'm sick and tired of men acting like females (sorry ladies but you know how we can get...fussy, naggy just plain 'ol nasty).

I'm sick and tired of my mother telling me she understands that I have fibromyalgia, but I need to push myself through the pain. I'm tired of her thinking that I'm catering to everyone except for my family (meaning her, my siblings and my kids). I'm sick and tired of her acting as if my marriage isn't real, as if my husband doesn't exist.

I'm sick and tired of being in pain everyday and having to explain why I didn't do this or that.

I'm sick and tired of not being able to be with my husband when I want/need to.

I'm sick and tired of Satan messing with me and my family. Satan you are a liar!!!!!!!!!!
I'm just plain sick and tired......

Gotcott, you sure made me smile. I wont print it but only because it is venting pure frustration and I like to try (TRY lol) and keep my letters to my sweetiepiepumpkinhead free of most venting lol
Sure will miss you and your charm around the forums!"Sweetiepiepumpkinhead,"LOL Oh Lord I hope he does'nt allow others access to his mail that would be near impossible to live down on the yard,Sweetipiepumpkinhead.LOL Oh yeah he is loved no doubt wait wait,I just have to say it one more time "Sweetiepiepumpkinhead"Ya gotta love it and I'm sure he does too. I needed that wait one more time" Sweetiepiepumpkinhead"LOL I absolutely Love it!!!!!!! Gotcott

oh man. I sit here laughing at you. lol
I could not sleep tonight. I did something I never do, I took out all the letters he ever wrote me and spread them out on my bed and sorted them by month. Man what a pile of them there were.
I started to read them and some made me laugh but most just made me miss him so much my heart hurt so much I just cried and cried.
The wind is blowing like a freak out in tune with how I feel. Of course I could not go to sleep so I flipped on my computer and read this last post you wrote.
You know I think I heard him laugh at YOU and tell me to go to bed. lol
He does tease me on the things I call him. He does get teased at mail call as well. I draw on the envelopes, started doing that last year out of the blue and just kept it up. Have gotten pretty good I think. Sometimes they are very very "cute and girly" He says he likes them as they do make him laugh. So now I think I better get a sweetiepiepumpkinhead envelope started lol
Now I have to print out this thread for him just so he can laugh at me being laughed at, will make his day :)

never could think of anythign to put under my log in name, got one now lol :P

THANK YOU!

ditto!!! satam is always lying... because you and your hubby stand for righteousness and he hates that with a passion!! but know you're not alone and no one can bring you out like Our God... He's awesome and He reigns within ya'll... be strong everyone... and right back at me, too!

I am not sick and tired, as when I read this thread everytime I am uplifted and absolutely inspired and I think as a former and soon to be inmate that there are some very fortunate men out there in the BOP that have these REDWOODS of CHARACTER and those trees ladies are filled with branches of an incredible strength and tenacity filled with fruits of LOVE and DESIRE which are all the things that give existing in the system a real KICK in the ASS and all its opressive and limiting nature is cast out the window with these words every time I read them and I on all of the inmates behalf THANK YOU and GOD BLESS each and everyone of you! Via con dios Gotcott P.S. maybe some of you may consider printing this thread and include it in your correspondance as knowing the value of correspondance while inside and the value of it's content.

I don't view myself as being strong, but with what you said it makes sense and it makes me feel more empowered. Thank you!

you put everything into words that I've been feeling! thanks!

Gottcot,

You are absolutely wonderful!! Thank you very much for the kind words. You have really inspired me.

You most Galliant Ladies are all Welcome, It is my fondist wish and prayer that you all" EACH AND EVERYONE of YOU" are blessed with a lessor wait and a greater outcome than you all anticipate it has been my pleasure in witnessing such an incredible level of strength in all of of you and I thank you for sharing that very relevent view that is rare in the regular world, I want you all to remember there are quite a few of us out here that not only recognize it, we respect it! Via con Dios .Gotcott

Gottcott - You're such a sweetiepiepumpkinhead and I am so sick and tired of knowing that talented and creative people like you and my husband are locked up so much longer than you need to be when you could be out making amends and contributing something positive to our communities. Other than that, I'm ordinarily not sick or tired very much because I just refuse to let the BOP or the USPC get me down or take control of MY life. I choose to go in to visit. I choose to send mail through their mailroom. I choose to accept the phone calls. I choose to spend money in their awful vending machines. I choose to stay with my guy inside. I choose to put up with C.O.'s with attitude who were born after my husband went to prison. I choose to love my sweetie (he doesn't look much like a pumpkin) and not let their rules and regulations, fences and guns, get between us! Z.

Gottcott - You're such a sweetiepiepumpkinhead and I am so sick and tired of knowing that talented and creative people like you and my husband are locked up so much longer than you need to be when you could be out making amends and contributing something positive to our communities. Other than that, I'm ordinarily not sick or tired very much because I just refuse to let the BOP or the USPC get me down or take control of MY life. I choose to go in to visit. I choose to send mail through their mailroom. I choose to accept the phone calls. I choose to spend money in their awful vending machines. I choose to stay with my guy inside. I choose to put up with C.O.'s with attitude who were born after my husband went to prison. I choose to love my sweetie (he doesn't look much like a pumpkin) and not let their rules and regulations, fences and guns, get between us! Z.Thanx Z, ya know they can interupt my rythym but they can never altar the journey's of my heart and mind nor can they affect my soul and I am ready to rock and roll ((9 Days to tour is launched)). Gotcott

Great attitude Zelda :)

Never said I did not choose to do all those things, and more. Just need to vent once in a while, keeps me sane :) Please don't think less of those of us that do find the need to vent little puffs of stram out our ears so our tops do not explode heh

Gottcott - You're such a sweetiepiepumpkinhead and I am so sick and tired of knowing that talented and creative people like you and my husband are locked up so much longer than you need to be when you could be out making amends and contributing something positive to our communities. Other than that, I'm ordinarily not sick or tired very much because I just refuse to let the BOP or the USPC get me down or take control of MY life. I choose to go in to visit. I choose to send mail through their mailroom. I choose to accept the phone calls. I choose to spend money in their awful vending machines. I choose to stay with my guy inside. I choose to put up with C.O.'s with attitude who were born after my husband went to prison. I choose to love my sweetie (he doesn't look much like a pumpkin) and not let their rules and regulations, fences and guns, get between us! Z.
Hell, I dont have to write anything........Zelda said it all
Hope everyone got a letter, phone call, or visit this weekend .......Be Safe

Gotcott- Sending Blessings and Strength your way. Godspeed my dear.

Today...I'm sick and tired of being BROKE! (sigh).

Ditto Mountain Mom!

I'm sick and tired of people asking me, how am I holding up :rolleyes:

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH man,

Just when I thought I was all alone.....thanks everyone and for Gotcott...my prayers are with you--if I am reading correctly--you're going back? Whether you are or not, thank you from the bottom of my heart....I needed to "hear" that today--that what I do or at least try to do does/is making a DIFFERENCE and that some folks are very blessed!!!! Thank you, thank you....so now as I am subliminally wishing that my phone will ring saying "unknown caller" I will remember that all of this is not in VAIN...be strong and know that prayers are being ascended for you--always. Be STRONG!!!!!!

Yes, Softlips - Gottgott had to self-surrender at the beginning of November. Looks like his release date is 12/2/08 though, so he won't be in long. Z.

They give us 400 min. a month for Nov. and Dec. That's nice, although it still sucks. I would love to actually be able to call HIM when I need him, or text, or e-mail. Instead we have to wait for their calls. :(

I am just plain sick and tired of the waiting game, the whole federal prison system.. I really hope that on Dec 11th when they vote they vote yes on the whole retro thing and be done with it...

300 min a month! SICK of it. TIRED of it. Can not wait to be able to call him back. I want to talk to him, when I want and when I don't want to and forever long I want morning noon and night! I want phone calls that are not listened to, I want to say what I want when I want and no limit.


LOL

What are you sick and tired of? Felt the need to rant, anyone else?


not having him home!

I'm sick and tired of waiting. I'm sick and tired of someone else having control of us. I'm sick and tired of being lonely. I'm sick and tired of not having him here when I need him the most. I'm just sick and tired of this whole game and I want it to be over. I just want him home. :(

I'm sick and tired of waiting. I'm sick and tired of someone else having control of us. I'm sick and tired of being lonely. I'm sick and tired of not having him here when I need him the most. I'm just sick and tired of this whole game and I want it to be over. I just want him home. :(

I feel you Tyson's. That's exactly how I feel right now.

I am sick and tired of the whole thing! And I am sick and tired of pretending that this is a cake walk... it's hard as hell and I am sick and tired of waiting!

im sick of the phone companies charging me an arm and a leg to talk to my bf....2 months combined it was $1400..ouch:blah: ...but i cant help it i love talking to him and i know he loves being able to call me whenever he misses me!!!! :(
i just wish canada had a collect call plan like they do in the states:blah:

I am sick and tired of working a part-time with my wages being garnished leaving me barely anything to live off of. I'm sick and tired of this pain that I'm feeling. I am just so sick and tired today that I can't even sleep.

oh wow! good thread ladies!

i am sick and tired of:

no sex
300 minutes a month and 15 min limits
not knowing what is going on with this retro thing - i want a date dangit!
doing everything by myself
worrying about how its going to be when he gets out
of people asking me when he is coming home
of my father not recognizing my marriage or my husband
of people that don't get it
of lying to my co-workers about my husband
did i mention sex?

When I read this thread tears came to my eyes. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I am sick of crying, sick of not knowing and sick of worrying what is next. I am just sick, sick, sick. I am so glad I have my PTO family.

I'm sick and tired of driving to see my husband and abiding by all their rules and still have to sit and wait for 40 minutes to an hour to get processed in to visit - even when I'm the only one sitting there waiting and I can zip through their process in 2 minutes. While the cop eats his lunch, chats with his buddies, complains about his job and his wife and his truck and the holidays.

It must be the time of year! A lot of us seem tired, for different reasons! I think it would be a good time to count all the good we do have in our lives, and focus on that....

Im sick of the waiting
Im sick of looking out the window wondering if theyre coming back
because they forgot something
Im sick of being scared to death everyone someone knocks on the door
or we get a call that we dont know who the caller is...
Im sick of worrying
and im also sick of wondering if he will still love me when he comes home :confused:

It must be the time of year! A lot of us seem tired, for different reasons! I think it would be a good time to count all the good we do have in our lives, and focus on that....

That's true but it also sometimes helps if you just type out your complaint here and then - let it go! We may be sick and tired of things - but we're still standing, still talking, still visiting - and still supporting each other. And that's a good thing!

That's true but it also sometimes helps if you just type out your complaint here and then - let it go! We may be sick and tired of things - but we're still standing, still talking, still visiting - and still supporting each other. And that's a good thing!

AMEN Z!:thumbsup:

I second that Amen Z:)

I am sick and tired today too and so many emotions. I am so glad we are together, and yes I am glad that we have a place to vent. :grouphug:

waiting and waiting and waiting and not knowing and not knowing and not knowing...

I am sooo sick of not being able to talk to him when I want! When I am having a bad day and just want to hear his voice (always seems to be the day he doesnt' call lol). I hate that everyone is so quick to judge us. I am sick of reaching for him in bed and then realizing it's just me. I hate that I still txt his cell phone and then realize... he won't get it. Just can't wait til he is home with me again.

Not being able to let go. My heart is broken. Its been so many weeks since I heard from him. I had a long letter all writen to send him, bashing and blaming, then I heard this song and wrote it out. I won't ever hear from him again, I can feel it now, so tonight is the hardest. You all were all I had that understood and I just had to do one last sick and tired.

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me
You'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right


If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
'Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when
We were such fools
And so convinced
And just too cool
Oh no,
No no.
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything


When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever

And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened


If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again

And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember

But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep

My darling

Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you

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300 min a month! SICK of it. TIRED of it. Can not wait to be able to call him back. I want to talk to him, when I want and when I don't want to and forever long I want morning noon and night! I want phone calls that are not listened to, I want to say what I want when I want and no limit.


LOL

What are you sick and tired of? Felt the need to rant, anyone else? im also sick and tired of 300min calls a month i feel like i wanna say and talk the way i do without anyone listening but i guess its the way its gotta be... oh well i ll survive hell be home in dec....lol

of not having Sundays to lounge around together and watch movies :(

Not being able to let go. My heart is broken. Its been so many weeks since I heard from him. I had a long letter all writen to send him, bashing and blaming, then I heard this song and wrote it out. I won't ever hear from him again, I can feel it now, so tonight is the hardest. You all were all I had that understood and I just had to do one last sick and tired.

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me
You'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right


If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
'Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when
We were such fools
And so convinced
And just too cool
Oh no,
No no.
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything


When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever

And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened


If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again

And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember

But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep

My darling

Who knew
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My darling
Who knew
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Before I responded, I had to read your previous post in wifeys lounge to be sure. Chica, I am soo sry about your situation right now. Yes, your son needs you to be strong. All I can say is that you are wifey material and we have to remember its the lessons that we need to learn in order to grow. Your commitment and dedication will be rewarded in his eyes. Your posting did help me and did a lot of your others, :grouphug: Ann

I'm so sick and tired of pretending I'm strong. I'm so sick and tired of hiding my pain. I'm so sick and tired of people asking me if I'm okay. I'm so sick and tired of just being a shell. My heart is numb from all the pain. I JUST WANT HIM HOME. I WANT TO LAY IN HIS CHEST RIGHT NOW AND LET OUT MY TEARS. I MISS HIM DEARLY.

OMG Tyson's I feel you girl, but like your siggy says "THIS TOO SHALL PASS"! Everything is going to happen in God's time and we must remember that God doesn't give us more than we can bare. I know it's hard out here, but we must perservere. We have too many people counting on us. YOU CAN MAKE IT!!!! YOU ARE NOT JUST A SHELL!! YOU ARE A MOTHER, A WIFE, A DAUGHTER, & A FRIEND. YOU ARE LOVED AND YOUR DAY IS COMING! PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP!! God has not brought you this far to fail you!!

God Bless!!

Shona'

A lot of people don't realize how much words can mean sometimes. This simple post did it for me. It helped me let out all the pain I kept bottled up inside. I cried when I saw your words because I know I will make it through...we all will. You are right God has not brought me this far to turn back now. Thank you for your kind words. God bless!OMG Tyson's I feel you girl, but like your siggy says "THIS TOO SHALL PASS"! Everything is going to happen in God's time and we must remember that God doesn't give us more than we can bare. I know it's hard out here, but we must perservere. We have too many people counting on us. YOU CAN MAKE IT!!!! YOU ARE NOT JUST A SHELL!! YOU ARE A MOTHER, A WIFE, A DAUGHTER, & A FRIEND. YOU ARE LOVED AND YOUR DAY IS COMING! PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP!! God has not brought you this far to fail you!!

God Bless!!

Shona'

A lot of people don't realize how much words can mean sometimes. This simple post did it for me. It helped me let out all the pain I kept bottled up inside. I cried when I saw your words because I know I will make it through...we all will. You are right God has not brought me this far to turn back now. Thank you for your kind words. God bless!

You are quite welcome!!! Anytime. Pm me if you need to talk.

God Bless!!!

Shona'

im sick and tired of all of it and its only been 6 months...not good......
im mostly sick and tired of people saying i cant possibly have a happy relationship with someone in prison...how the hell do they know what its like? My bf makes me very happy and i wish people would reserve judgement until they have walked a day in my shoes....

I agree with all of your sick and tireds. I am already so tired of being a single parent and I don't know how I can possibly make it 5 more years.
I am tired of him being almost 8 hours away and not being able to see him even if I want to because I am not an approved visitor yet. I am also tired of seeing my 9 yr old suffer without his dad...they were really close. I am tired that I am having surgery later today and he will not be here to assist me and I am tired of knowing how miserable he is each and every day.

Thanks for letting me rant.

Gigi

Tired of knowing

that I can't hug and kiss my husband as much as I'd like, whenever I'd like, without someone watching over us. You'd think that after 17 years with this man that no one should have the right to tell me how and when I can hold and kiss my man!
that I can't pick up the phone and call him when something goes wrong in the day or just to tell him that I miss him, love him and can't wait to get home to just hold him in my arms. 300 minutes a month really sucks!
that I have to wait until Wednesdays to see him for 1 hour. This is what really kills me. My kids have to wait until it is convenient for the BOP to give my kids permission to see their Dad! On the upside--I am thankful that I can still visit him because I know it is probably just a matter of time before they completely yank him farther away from us.
that my kids have to go without their dad for a few years. They really miss him.
that I have to go without my husband for a few years. I MISS HIM! :(
that he has to go without us for a few years--he misses us!

I'm sick and tired of CO's who find it so freakin amusing to see visitors wait 2 hours to see their loved one.

I'm sick and tired of my boyfriend being allowed 300 minutes a month for phone calls, yet we pay for them.....as long as we are paying, why should their be a limit on minutes?

My honey has been locked down for 2 years and is set to be release in May 2008. We broke up when he was in the first time and I did not see or hear from him for 12 years. Then he contacted me again, he is in the same prison when we broke up. I love him and can't wait for him to be home with me.

im sick and tired of all of it and its only been 6 months...not good......
im mostly sick and tired of people saying i cant possibly have a happy relationship with someone in prison...how the hell do they know what its like? My bf makes me very happy and i wish people would reserve judgement until they have walked a day in my shoes.... That's usually it...until they walk in your shoes, they will never know. And, honestly I hope noone ever has to walk in our shoes---they hurt! ;-)

:cry: I'm sick and tired of this being my life. I'm so tired...emotionally, physically and mentally. There is ALWAYS a hurdle to jump over. I know I'm strong why do I have to prove myself this way. I waiting and waiting and the wheels keep turning and NOTHING! I don't feel like writing a damn letter I want to be able to talk to you at night in the bed or at dinner or pick up the phone and call when I NEED you. I don't want to be on someone else's schedule. I just don't want to do this life anymore but I love you too much to ever leave. You are my family...we are a family! I want to take us both away from this hell. I don't want to visit and have to turn around and leave you. I want to take you with me. I don't want to worry anymore. I need you right now and I can't take it anymore!

WOW.......
We've all been there :(

I hope your todays are better then your yesterdays

Tyson's wife
You took the words right out of my heart and soul. I am so sorry you are having such a rough time. Hang in there.

I'm sick and tired of the mail room losing books that I pay good money to send my guy - and then "finding" them a month or two later when he files a grievance.

im sick and tired of missing him im sick and tired of wondering if he is ok im sick and tired of feeling like im in jail my dam self and im sick and tired of being broke all the dam time

I'm sick and tired of a Nation that takes these millions of lives and just throws them away. I'm sick and tired of a system that is corrupt - and becoming more so with each passing year. I'm sick and tired of a Judicial system that threatens, bullies and lies to get their convictions and to force a plea. I'm sick and tired of the revolving door our prisons have become. I'm sick and tired of families being torn apart by this monster we have created. Geez...I could go on and on - but I won't. Instead of complaining and hating the system like it is, I am going to attempt to help change it. Maybe if enough of us started pushing for reform- and make our our own demands heard- they will get sick and tired of us!

You go girl!!

Amen Tyson's wife! You took the words out of my mouth as well! I am just tired.. and ready for this to be over.. but knowing that its not, leads me to PTO to find others that know EXACTLY how I feel!

But yeah.. that 300 per month limit is crazy. I know the State Prisons don't have that! UGH!!

:angry:I'm sick and tired of ::angry:
~getting up with the kids, daddy is not here to let me sleep in
~the kids being bad cause they know daddy is not here to correct them
~worrying about why I havent heard from him
~wondering if he something happened to him
~driving 4 hours there and 4 hours back just to leave him behind
~being broke
~not even being able to afford our 300 minutes a month
~the BOP taking their time with any and every thing

I'm just sick and tired of all the crap that comes from him not being here:cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry:: cry::cry::cry:

Sick and tired of batteries, thoughts of him and he is not here, lonely nights, grrr real sick and tired tonight:blah::blah:

I'm really sick of hearing that stupid beep when the phones about to hang up. I hate feeling rushed when we are on the phone. When he comes home he won't be able to get any work done cause we will be on the cell all the time!

SaintsBabyGirl said

~driving 4 hours there and 4 hours back just to leave him behind

Just came back for a visit last night, and this is what makes me the saddest, too. Then I remind myself that one day, I will be bringing him back with me, and then I feel a little better, but not much. :broken:

I love this thread, BTW. Makes me feel like I am not alone. Thanks, everyone.

Yes I feel where you ladiez coming from I get sick and tired of that phone because so days you be wanting to talk to him the make me sick I hate that they only get 300 mins thatb/s

I'm sick and tired of being told I am "so strong" when really I just don't want to have to be so strong all the time. I want to be done and over with the friggin' BOP.

:cry: I'm sick and tired of this being my life. I'm so tired...emotionally, physically and mentally. There is ALWAYS a hurdle to jump over. I know I'm strong why do I have to prove myself this way. I waiting and waiting and the wheels keep turning and NOTHING! I don't feel like writing a damn letter I want to be able to talk to you at night in the bed or at dinner or pick up the phone and call when I NEED you. I don't want to be on someone else's schedule. I just don't want to do this life anymore but I love you too much to ever leave. You are my family...we are a family! I want to take us both away from this hell. I don't want to visit and have to turn around and leave you. I want to take you with me. I don't want to worry anymore. I need you right now and I can't take it anymore!

Tyson's, I am feeling your pain...I am living your pain. The BOP is trying to wear on my sanity, but I won't let it. He is my life and I will wait, but I hate every second of it. The only thing that gets me through each day is that the passing day brings us one day closer to being together.

I'm sick and tired of the mail room losing books that I pay good money to send my guy - and then "finding" them a month or two later when he files a grievance.

...and after they finished reading them!....

Today I am sick and tired of sharing. Today I am sick and tired of us being on 6-8 min calls. Tonight we needed more than that :blah:

I'm sick and tired of the BOP and the incompetent people who work there. Must be a prerequisite for the jobs... I'm also sick and tired of the BOP treating the inmates and their families like idiots.

Im sick and tired of feeling like it will never end......We delt with Military and it was like deployments were a prep for this....I miss him and yet i try to look at it like a long deployment without the extra pay. I'm sick and tired of not getting to get leave to go back to the states and it takes even longer to get a letter or get one to him AND I AM SICK AND TIRED of not getting to hear his voice because I am international. Im sick and tired of having a plan for our lives once he is home and yet we have 7 years to wait

I am so sick and so tired of being without him. I am sick of 300 minutes per month. I am sick of certain visiting days. I am sick of all that damn gas money. I am sick of people asking me where he is. I am sick of him not being here. I am sick of having to wear a bra without underwire to clear the metal detector. I am sick of not being able to make love to him. I am sick of waking up without him, and going to bed without him by my side. I am sick of rushing to the mailbox to mail letters before the daily pick up. I am sick of rushing to the mailbox to see if he wrote me.

I am sick of picking up the phone getting ready to call him and can't. I am sick of getting my hand stamped to see him (who the hell knows what the BOP puts in that hand stamp.) I am sick of having to wait for some slow walking hussy dragging her kids to hurry up and clear security before the escort guards walks security. IF YOU SEE SOMEONE WAITING, YOU NEED TO HURRY UP DAYUM! That really pisses me off. I'm sitting there after clearing security, after getting my hand stamped, the escort guard is about to walk me to the visiting room and here comes some girl and 3 kids, she gotta take their shoes off...Lil' Ray Ray is running around. Okay let me stop venting about that...).

I'm tired of all of this. But I am NOT tired of him. I miss him, and will wait forever.

Him calling me when I'm not home! And then not calling me when I am home. I understand the phones are probably busy at night, but I'm tired of that too! :p

Him calling me when I'm not home! And then not calling me when I am home. I understand the phones are probably busy at night, but I'm tired of that too! :p


Have you tried getting a cell phone? THat would eliminate that problem.

Have you tried getting a cell phone? THat would eliminate that problem.
I could, but I don't want to do that right now. Something is up with him, or at least it seems, and I'm thinking of just stepping out of the situation. Again! I'm sick of hurting...that's for sure.

I am sick and tired of waiting...waiting for the mail to go out...waiting for the mail to come in...waiting for the phone to ring...talking a mile a minute when the call does come to make sure we get everything in...tired of not being able to hold him at night... call him when I want...I am tired of sharing 300 minutes...I am tired of driving 7 hours to see him and spending all the gas money and the hotel...I am so sick of being on someone elses schedule...I am tired of having to hold everything down... Having everyone lean on me...I am tired of people telling me that I am insane for waiting...I am tired of buying subsriptions to girly magazines and I am tired of telling him to write more...I am just tired of this whole ordeal...((((SIGH))))....I WANT HIM HOME!!!! I am just tired of feeling "sentenced" too...Its not fair, I didnt do anything and I feel just as punished as him...and mostly I am mad because he didnt call tonight!

everything she just said on top of me but im tired of getting on these broken down vans to go see him with all of these women lookin at me like im the one who sentenced their men when i get in the van

Aww Laycee (((hugs)).

Mrs.2011 - (((hugs))) to you also.

I am sick and tired of...
- him being in IN and I am in FL (financially, no chance of visitation)
-not knowing what will happen when he gets home
-don't even get me started on how many he shares his 300 min with
-not knowing what he is really feeling, because he doesnt want to upset me
-him not getting to be the father that he deserves, and i know he can be
-trying to hold it down and be strong for him and for our families
-trying not to give up on us
-going to bed without him
-crying in the shower because sometimes I just can't hold it in anymore and my kids don't see mommy cry
:broken:

He's only been gone 2 months, 2 weeks, with 45 more months to go- and I already feel like I have been beaten up and dragged through the mud... if only I was treated by the prison staff like the INNOCENT FAMILY MEMBER that I am when I go visit- wouldn't that be something?

Also, why do they make it so hard on the family- dishing out information and 'how to' rules the moment you need them, with no time to prepare.

I am sick and tired of it already- which scares me, because I am so far away from the end of it... it's a sad night, I miss him a lot today.

GIRL, I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL, I'M JUST GRATEFUL FOR THE E-MAILS I'M ABLE TO GET, THAT REALLY HELPS BRIGHTEN MY DAY.....I'M ALSO IN THE SAME BOAT, I HAVE NOT MET 1 PERSON ON THE SAME UNIT AS MY MAN, IT WOULD BE NICE THOUGH,

GIRL, I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL, I'M JUST GRATEFUL FOR THE E-MAILS I'M ABLE TO GET, THAT REALLY HELPS BRIGHTEN MY DAY.....I'M ALSO IN THE SAME BOAT, I HAVE NOT MET 1 PERSON ON THE SAME UNIT AS MY MAN, IT WOULD BE NICE THOUGH,

You get emails?!? So lucky!
We have to make due with a morning quick phone call and and nighttime call, plus letters every day.
Sucks when I get three letters in the mail on the same day, because I know he writes every day. The same thing happens to him- he'll get a bunch of mine all at once, then nothing for a few days.

Isn't is funny how much comfort we learn to find in some paper and ink???

Im sick and tired of those damm 300 mins and how he manages to waste them with his cousinf talking about cars when he can talk less BS and more love to me and maybe his dad will be less hurtfull to me!! Im sick and tired of his famly looking down on me when Im here with him, Im sick and tired of him getting all desperate when I hav enot make a deposit to his account, im sick and tired of being good to everyone but me, Im sick and tired of the BOP and I want him HOME!!! ( the bad part is I dont have a home to go to!)

I hate to put it this way for I know it is rough for those on the outside. After all I am sick and tired of the way I am treated when I go see my niece. Yet in a odd way I have been lucky enough to know what it is like to be her shoes.

When ever I get angry over the way I am treated on visitation, or when the damned one minute warning comes up and I know that is all the time I have left on the phone with Holly, I remember my parents or Linda bringing my son and daughter to see me, or my oldest daughter flying all the way from Tel Aviv, Israel with my Grandchildren just to come see their grandmother in prison.

When ever you get tired, and the anger, frustration, or the loneliness hits home hard, and I know, I know all those feelings, been there, done that.

But I want you to remember that your willingness to put up with all the petty crap, and that is what it is petty crap imposed on us by the system - punishing us just as much as our loved ones. Back to the Point Patti! The Point is it is because of your love for your loved one inside that you go through this.

You see I can also tell you how much it means to some one in prison to have their daughter fly all the way from Tel Aviv, Israel with her grandchildren to spend two hours a week with her for four weeks. I can tell you what it means for her life partner and parents to care for her children while she is gone. I can tell you how hard it is to stay in their lives even with all the help she had doing so.

I can tell you what it is like to cry yourself to sleep after a two hour visit by you youngest daughter on her birthdays, or Christmas.

I can also tell you what it is like to be alone in prison with no one, let alone family showing the care and love that you show by putting up with all the crap the system puts on you, I have seen it.

You guys are my heroes! You put up with it all and do what is right out of love and care.

I know folks it is hard and you are tired of it , but damnit keep putting up with all the crap for you loved ones.

When you get tired or frustrated come talk to me.

I know how much it is to be loved so much that my loved ones whould not only not give up on me in prison, that they would do whatever it took to let me know how much I am loved no matter what I did.

If it were not for my family, I am quite positive that I would not have been able to turn my life around and make the come back I have. I did the hard work yes, but I owe all to them, because of their love and encouragement!

Patti

Patti,

Thanks for that. You have the unique perspective of having experienced both sides.

We all get tired of this journey and its nice to read a post that tells us how much the person on the inside needs our support whether it's visits or letters, etc.

I am lucky, my husband will be released on Nov 6th to a HWH. We had our ups and downs, but he always, no matter what, tells me how much he appreciates everything I have done for him & our family since he's be in. To me a simple thank you goes a long way.

Ladies, keep up everything you're doing & it does get better, some days are better than others.

Frisco Lady...Thanks for that post. Sometime I wonder how in the world can I keep doing this. Because there is nothing fun about it and by God its a labor of Love, but when I sit across the table from him at visit and he tells me its my faith in him that keeps him going I know that it is worth it. I know I have vented in here before and this is the perfect place to do it but thanks for reminding us vent but dont give up because what we are doing is really making a difference in someone's life.