my husband was a lifer he did 37 years. he passed on my birthday. he had cancer. he put up a big fight but lost but at least he passed away in the prison ward at a public hospital.

i thought i would feel less pain. i'm wrong. i don't think it will ever go away.

i did try grief counsling, that was a joke. they thought i was crazy for being with him that long

i just take it a minute at a time.

storm:)

i thought i would feel less pain. i'm wrong. i don't think it will ever go away.

Losing a loved one IS hard and although the pain is still there, I pray that you still have comfort and peace and eventually less pain...as you go thru your days.... Hang in there!:grouphug:

Stormierainn,

Even thought it has only been 10 mos. I know how you feel. Sometimes it hurts so much. But we must go on. We are going to try the counsleing next month and see, but my husband feels the same way. Hang in there and if you need to talk just im me.

Ragforlife,

Even though I don't feel like it (it's been a rough day) I am going to say this anyway just for you:

What about Chocolate! I love chocolate and it makes me feel so good. You mean its bad for me?

Ragforlife,

Even though I don't feel like it (it's been a rough day) I am going to say this anyway just for you:

What about Chocolate! I love chocolate and it makes me feel so good. You mean its bad for me?LOL...naw, its just not ALWAYS good for you;)

Thanks, I don't think I would have made it through the day with out my chocolate!

Tigger Mom

I am in therapy and actually it does help me. I do the one on one counseling. The funny thing is the therapist and I use to work together at a Behaviorial Health Center. But anyway it does seem to help. Maybe if you have some one on one counseling it will help you. Dealing with the death of someone you love is so hard. I have lost interest in so many things that I use to look forward to. I remember when would come home, I couldn't get out of the car fast enough so I could check the mail. Well the mailbox is the last thing I think about. As a matter of fact I hate checking it because I know that there is no letter from my Keith.

All of us who have lost someone are have a lot of adjusting to do. We have to change so many things in our lives, but we have to do it if we are going to survive this ordeal.

Psalm 18:2 says The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer;
My God, my strength, in whom I will trust;
My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.

Meditate on that, especially when we feel there is no hope.