Well I guess since I was one of the ones who asked for this thread I will start. First, THANK YOU!:D :thumbsup: PTO for giving us a place to go and express our emotions good and bad. Everyone is right there is really no other place where we are understood. It is hard enough on everyone at PTO having a loved one inside, but to loose one to the system and have to fight to get answers is abhorring(sp?)

Just so every one knows from the beginning, my Son was murdered at a state facility last October and we are going thru the battle of finding out what happened to him. We do not have many details yet but hopefully a trial will come about soon and we will get our answers and the right ones at that. As you know things happen in prison and are swept under the rug and as some have said they will have no problem in charging someone for his murder. I just hope I am trusting in the right people to bring justice for my Son. I am putting my faith in Law enforcement and our Justice system and it is very hard to do when all you want to do is fight for him yourself. I trust the investigator and can tell he is honest and takes his job seriously, but I know what he is working with. Well anyway I am getting off the subject.

I loved my Son with all my heart. He was a good boy and loved his family and his church and friends. He just like alot of others here, made some bad choices and was caught. He couldn't get away with anything! I used to tell him this because everytime he did something wrong he was caught, that God was watching over him and wouldn't let him get away with it. He drove without his license twice and got caught not a mile from our house both times. Both times I told him God was watching out for him! He hated that, but knew it was true.

My son was a good boy with a huge heart. He always liked to help others especially the elderly, he loved working with the youth in our church before all this happened. He always gave 100% in everything he did. His employers said they could not have had a better employee. They could trust him and know the job would be done and done right. If he didn't know something he would learn it. He got that from his Momma!:p

When in prison he got a job working in the kitchen (he had never worked in a restaurant) he learned how to cook (at home all he cooked was mac & cheese, pizza and grilled cheese) by looking up recipies in the newspaper and trying things out. I found all the recipies in his bible when they gave me his things. He told me one of the CO's said where did you learn to cook and thought he had worked in a restaurant. He told her he had never worked in a restaurant before. When he died he had just been promoted.

My son was trying to do the right thing by taking his punishment for doing something wrong but he did not deserve to die in prison. :angry: He was only supposed to be in there 18mos!

I really miss my Son:cry: and will for the rest of my life here on earth. Our family will never be the same without him.

Tigger Mom

You and yours are in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry this happened.

I am very sorry for your pain and agony you are going through. Although bringing his killer to justice will not bring him back I hope that it brings you some closure. Life is so precious and we all take it for granted.

I know God is with you and I hope you will be okay....

Take Care,
Stephanie

I am sorry for your loss,your in my thoughts

Tigger Mom, last October my son was almost one of those statistics. The internal affairs officer who investigated was very nice. The lead investigation officer advised me that they opened the investigation as a death. They sent an officer to the hospital for a follow up and found that he was still alive. They arrested two guys. One confessed and signed a plea agreement and is to testify against a 2nd. I do not feel the police got the whole story , but I do feel they did the best they could under the circumstances. My son does not remember what happened and may never do so. Obviously he cannot add any imput to the case. We concentrate on moving forward. Had we not had the availability of helicopters, or one of the best trauma hipsitals around, we would have had a totally different outcome.

I pray for strenth for those who weren't as lucky and even though my son has some residual things to deal with from his injuries I realize everyday how lucky we were. God was truly carrying our family.

I AM SORY FOR YOUR LOSS MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU.

Im very sorry to hear about your loss. I cannot imagine what you must be going through, but I commend you for staying strong as well as for sharing your story. I will keep you in my prayers.

This is so sad. :( I'm truly sorry for your loss.

am so sorry for your loss..I will be praying for your family for comfort strenghth and for you to find out what happened for closure

What a terrible tragedy. I am so sorry for your loss and even more importantly that it was done in prison and now you have to trust that these people are going to give you justice. My prayers are with you and your family. I pray that justice is served for your son and family.

I'm sorry for your lost,so sorry.

Tiggermom I know how it feels to lose a son. My youngest son died at 18. It was the worse pain I have ever felt and I have lost several close family members to death. I do not know how it feels to lose a son to murder though. I can only imagine. My oldest son is serving a long sentence in prison and I do worry something might happen to him. I know the grief you feel will never go away. I just pray for you to feel it ease enough that you are able to find some peace of mind. I hope that the ones responsible for your son's death are held accountable. If you ever need to talk, I am here.

I am so sorry for you, your family and your son. He died though after making lots of better ,more positive choices and we know you are proud of him. He is probably cooking up a storm in Heaven! You are brave to share your story, Thank you!

I am so sorry for your loss, your family is in my thoughts and prayers

I Have Two Young Boys And I Can't Even Imagine Your Pain. I Am So Sorry. I Fear For My Husband In Prison All The Time. I Hope You Have The Support You Need At Home And The Faith In God To Carry You Through The Search For Ansewers.
God Bless.

I pray that you and your family can find peace.
Jeff

your son sounds like he was an amazing person. surely he lives ont through you and others who knew him. God bless.

I am so sorry that this terrible thing happened to your family. My loved one is suppose to be in there for 14 months, i can only imagine what horrible things could happen to him. You are in my prayers.

I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Thank you for sharing your story.

I am so sorry for your loss. I cann't imagine losing a child. You and your family are in my prayers.

beloved i am sorry to hear this may are heavely father hold you and your family close to him and that the truth be bought forward. i to have a son in peison and i pray daily for him and ask my father to watch over him and keep him and all inmates save. that they all just get along in there. i will keep you in my prays.

Im so sorry for your loss. You and yours are all in my prayers and thoughts.

Thank you for sharing Tigger Mom. I pray that the Holy Spirit..Gods' comforter will over shadow you with His love and peace that only He can give and that the truth will be revealed so that you may find closure.

Things like this should NOT be happening in our prison systems.

Thank you for sharing your story may god's shoulders comfort you.

I am so sorry for your loss. I, too hope you and your family can find peace. You are in my prayers.:grouphug:

************************{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}} im soo sorry for what has happened. i hope the person who did this to your son gets caught and you seek the justice you deserve

BIG HUGS!!! I hope your answers will be answered and you find that closure to help you heal your broken heart.

SOrry for your loss. God Bless you and your family.

Thank you every one for all your responses. I really needed it. Today was my Birthday and reading all these messages of support has made my day. I was crying on the way home from work as no one remembered and I missed my son because he never would have forgotten. Thank you for all your support. I do hope we get to the bottom of this.

I also do feel that this forum should be for anyone who suffers the effects from the loss of a loved one or to express their feelings and those who are inside who have lost someone. It would make this forum a real healing forum!

Thanks to all. Gotta go. Vacation Bible School all week long.

Tigger Mom

Tigger Mom,I am truly sorry to hear about the loss of your son. I hope and pray that justice will be served, and that God will be able to heal and comfort you and your family. I also want to say thank you for sharing your story. That was very brave on your part, and it will be very helpful for people who are in the same situation as you. They can draw and learn from your strength and determination.

P.S. Happy Birthday! Enjoy VBS--I did VBC (C for "Camp" instead of "S" for "School) last week at my church. I wonder if you are doing the same theme we did (Sonforce). You will be blessed!

God Bless you and your family. I just said a prayer for you. I cannot even begin to imagine what you are going through. I am so sorry to hear this:(

there hasn't been a thread created for what i have to say yet...so i'll put it here.

i am truly happy that this forum was created as a place of solace and discussion for any and everyone who has a loved one who passed away in prison.

may this forum bring peace and blessings for a better tomorrow.

Hey Tigger Mom my heart goes out to you.......
Sounds to me like your son was very much loved and a young man to be proud of ......

Well y'know I have the urge to ask you ?
You mentioned he had a gift for cooking and had collected recipes ?
Well i would love to have one of those recipes if you dont mind, seems to me like a good way to honour him, to cook good food to share with our loved ones and we here at pto are from all around the world ......

:) Blessings

Oh I just read your post ! Its your Birthday today ! The first since your sons passing ? Those first anniversaries and milestones are the hardest ! they do get easier as time goes by......

Bless You and Happy Birthday
:) With Much Love from Whitebird:)

Tigger Mom, i am so sorry for your loss... I will keep your family in my prayers. That's my biggest fear, losing my husband to something stupid like this before he is released in 90 days. I have nightmares of this happening and I wake up soaking with sweat and so relieved. And you don't get to wake up from this nightmare, my heart hurts for you.

Nancy

I am so sorry for the loss of your son. You and your family are in my prayers. I can not imagine the pain of losing a child. I thank you so much for the courage to post your story. If you ever need anyone to talk to, please feel free to private message me.

i am so sorry for ur lost. may god bless and happy birthday.

Hey Tigger Mom my heart goes out to you.......
Sounds to me like your son was very much loved and a young man to be proud of ......

Well y'know I have the urge to ask you ?
You mentioned he had a gift for cooking and had collected recipes ?
Well i would love to have one of those recipes if you dont mind, seems to me like a good way to honour him, to cook good food to share with our loved ones and we here at pto are from all around the world ......

:) Blessings

I have really wanted to post this thread, but.. didn't have the words.
I truly love whitebird's idea! Don't post much... but, I think this is such a wonderful idea. I hope this isn't too personal but, what a better way to spread his love...
Lots of Love & Prayers,
Stormy

My thoughts are with you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss.

Happy Birthday TiggerMom and thank you for thinking up this thread idea. May God Bless YOU!

My heart goes out to your family. I wish you the best in finding all the answers that you are looking for. Leave it in the Lord's hands he'll take care of it all!:)


Mrs D. Jones

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. May you find peace during this tragic loss

My thoughts are with you... I am sorry for your loss.

Happy Birthday Tiggersmom! A bit late but heartfelt. I'm so sorry for your tragic loss- words are quite inadequate but sometimes it helps to know that others care. We care. God bless you.

May you find out the truth of what happen to your son. There is nothing worse then not knowing the Why? I would love a copy also of his reciepe to send my brother. And to keep.
How about a memorial for him in doing a small cook book in his memory-I would buy one.
The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart--psalms 34;18
God Bless you all.

I am so sorry, may God be with you. One month and 3 days ago I lost my Keith. He was in the halfway house.

God Bless You, Tigger Mom! My heart goes out to you, I'm so sorry for your loss. I pray God gives you the answers and closure you are looking for.
My thoughts and prayers are with you. God will carry you through this.
Hope you had a wonderful birthday.

Be Blessed!
Louise

My prayers go out to you and your family. May justice stand up in this case and may the hand of God cover and shelter you and yours.

Thank you everyone for all your support you have no idea what it means to us during these hard times. As some of you know loosing a child is the worst pain and heartache there is. It is like you have a hole in your heart and it hurts so bad. A part of you is missing. I birthed that child and brought him up from an infant to adult hood. Sure we make mistakes and he made some too, but that dosen't change anything he was my son and no matter what he did I would alway's love him just as I did the day he was born. Even more so as he grew into the young man he was. A good man who cared about others and had a special way about him that attracted the girls! His older brother is very good looking but Jason always got the girls. His personality was just so attracting to them. He had a smile that would brighten anyone's day. Sometime it got him into trouble in school as when he was in trouble he had a nervous smile. I had several teachers call me and say he was mocking them with his smile and I had to explain that meant he was nervous and knew he was in trouble.

Well any way I will look for the recipies. I know there are a couple in his Bible but I have a couple more somewhere else when he gave me some of his things to keep. I don't think I have enough for a book but I will post a couple here. I have Vacation Bible School all week so I will look in the next couple of weeks. This weekend I am going to just sleep. Those kids take a lot out of you. But it is lots of fun helping them to make something and learn about god.

Keith's Mom, I am so sorry about your Son. I don't know what happened but when you are ready share your story with us, it will help you to heal. Just after Jason died I could barely talk. I tried group but I couldn't say a word. This place has helped me know that there are good people out there that are trying to support their loved ones that just made mistakes in their lives. We all have someone we know including ourselves that has made mistakes. Someday I will tell you my Sister's story. It has a good ending though but could have ended up like Jason's. On this site you can share your story in the privacy of your own space and still grieve and get support without going in front of a group or pay the high prices of a Psychologist. The people here have all been in our shoes and had a loved one in prison. They understand so trust them. I have and I think I have come a lot further than had I dealt with it alone or with a therapist.

Thanks,

Tigger Mom

My heart goes out to you and your family. We teach our children to do the right thing and i hope you find comfort in knowing he was doing the right thing as best he could in prison. I am so sorry that you have to search for answers at this time. Its bad enough losing someone dear and not getting answers as to what happen is the most painful thing to deal with.

Hope you get the truth soon.

you and your family are in my prayers, remember he is at peace, with our lord and not hurting for anything.

Happy Belated Birthday Tigger Mom,

I can not imagine the suffering you have gone through these past months since you lost your son. It's so terrible that he was in there to do his time and really seemed to have a chance at turning it all around when this happened. There are no words to tell you how sorry I am that you and those he loved have had to live with this nightmare.

Please feel free to PM me if you just want to talk. Pray for strength and know he is now at peace, no more tears.

Menia....so sorry for your loss. Prayers are being lifted for you also.

Thank you for sharing your loss with us Tigger Mom. I believe your strength will help others. May God wrap his loving arms around the both of you and comfort you and give you peace.

May the Almighty bless and keep you and yours.

I am so sorry for your loss. Can I ask what he was in for? I just lost my mom Nov 06 from a massive brain aneurism. No warning, nothing, by the time the idiots in Sheridan, Wyoming got her to billing, Montana it was too late. Again I'm very sorry for your loss. I hope it all works out for you.

I am so sorry for you loss, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!

Tigger Mom,

I wish I could express what I am feeling for you and your family now. My Jana has been home with God since 1970 and there is not a day that passes that she not in my thoughts.


It is ironic how as time passes how the memories become our most precious possessions - they do. They also remind us - for George - her father and I - those prized memories remind us that we will see her again and this separation is only temporary.

From this Mom to you, you are in our thoughts and prayers.

God Bless you,

Patti

I read your page, and couldnt hold back my tears. God be with you and your family.I have two daughters , I am waiting on house arest to go to prison. I thank god everyday I am here waiting and not in jail. We have one of the worst county jails in Ark. There has been two deaths this year one an older man beat to death. It hurts me knowing there are people like that. They will have to answer to god, You will be in my prayers,
shelldvll

My Heart Truly goes out to you with the loss of your Son and I wish you nothing but the Answers you so much deserve ... The truth of all that happened ... Best Of Luck

I pray for God to bless you and give you peace and consolation. I too have three children, all raised now, but I know how my wife and kids feared so much in my years in prisons.
You have had to face the ultimate reality of the fears we all face when prison becomes a reality in our lives. May you find an outpouring of love and caring here from all.

I loved my Son with all my heart. He was a good boy and loved his family and his church and friends. He just like alot of others here, made some bad choices and was caught. He couldn't get away with anything! I used to tell him this because everytime he did something wrong he was caught, that God was watching over him and wouldn't let him get away with it. He drove without his license twice and got caught not a mile from our house both times. Both times I told him God was watching out for him! He hated that, but knew it was true.

I am sorry to hear about your son...my son was the same way too, he drank once and was caught immediately for underage drinking. He too, drove twice and was cited for driving without a license. I also told him the Creator is watching out for him and he's there to make sure he does not get away with it. He too, is a good cook and loves to create his own meals. He also helps out the elders and disabled. I thank the Creator for blessing me with him, children are truly god send. I hope and pray you will find closure regarding your son's death. I trust the truth will be told.

I Am Sorry For Your Families Loss. May Your Son R.i.p

I am so sorry 2 hear this ....

I have come to this Forum more than once now and I leave because I don't know what to say. It hurts my Heart to read about losing a child in prison. It hurts my heart to think of anyone losing a child. Please know that everyone has my thoughts and prayers. God Blesss all of you!

Faith 'N Hope,
Tracy~

That was really tough to read! :cry:

I express my deepest condolences to you and your family, your story is one of the many harsh realities that we must accept. I pray that just as God watched over your son while alive that he will watch over this investigation and trial and you get the answers that you and your family truely deserve. May God continue to carry you through this trying time and we all know that God has total control and the righteous will prevail. :yes: :grouphug:

Thank you all again for all the support and prayers. I believe we are past the preliminary hearings and now comes the long wait for the trial. I hear in SC it could be up to two years!

We have been looking for a counselor that deals with traumatic death in the Greenville, Sc area. Does anyone have anyone that they can suggest? Or even just a good counselor. I am trying to get my family past this and it is going to be a long haul so I think seeing a counselor to sort out our feelings along the way would really be helpful.

There have been so many responses that I can't respond to all individually or I will be here all night! But I want you to all know that in each and every response there has been something that I can Identify with and it has helped me so much. This really helps that I am not alone in my grief and that there are so many others out there going thru the same or willing to support us. :rolleyes: Thanks again for all your support.

Tigger Mom

Check out wrongfuldeathinstitute.com. Somebody there may be able to help.

Tigger Mom, must of been the Lord that I came across this forum. I usually scroll down to the Parents' one. I think I remember back when this happened to your son. What a heaviness there must be in all your hearts for this to carry on so long. We an rejoice that he is with the Lord, but you still need closure. The unknown can be so unsettling. I pray that the Lord will comfort and sustain you and your family. May He bring forth those promises in the Bible that will carry you through this time.

God says, "Vengeance is Mine." The Word also says that "the Lord will vindicate His people" and that "it is a terrifying thing to fall into the hands of the living God." Whoever did this to your son, will pay one way or another, sooner or later. The Lord is loving, but He is also just.

Here is one of many prayers that I leave with you:

"Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit" Romans 15:13

May your hearts be filled with hope and peace by the power of His love.

I know no words can ease your heartache, but I pray you all feel the Lord's presence and that He can give you a measure of peace that passes all understanding.

My love and prayers are with you.

I am so very sorry, I cry everyday over my son...I know your tears must be endless..how do we as mom's ever live down something so tragic..I cannot even begin to imagine..somedays I wish my life were at its close just so I wouldn't have to feel the hurt anymore. I hope that you find the strength and some answers, and that someday the sun will come out again for you.

Bad*Dreams,

Did you also loose a son? I too have thought the same things but I am only in my 40's and have a long way to go. I will miss him sooo much. I do talk to him everyday along with God and my christian radio station helps me alot on the way into work and on the way home. I keep finding songs that remind me of him or where he is now. He was a christian and had been saved and I know that for sure. So now is the long wait until we can be reunited. I read some where a saying that goes something like this. Our family circle is now broken and we miss you so much but as we go one by one to heaven someday the circle will be whole again and we will all be together again. It helps me some days to think that we will be together again in heaven.

Tigger Mom

Jesus IS coming back soon....the dead in Christ shall rise first and then those who believe in Him shall rise together to meet the Lord in heaven. If you look at the signs of the times you can seen that the earth is getting prepared for His coming again as it says in Revelation.

The rapture is so close it could happen today. Keep an eye on Israel and read Revelation. I pray that the veil will be removed from the eyes of His people and that all people may be with Him in Heaven to live and reign with Him.... Amen! The Lord is near. Keep your eyes on Him.

Tigger mom,
I’m so so sorry for your lost. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.:grouphug: :grouphug:

May our Grand Creator comfort you and your family with peace.
Revelation 21:3,4.

may you find stength in knowing that you are loved by all-and that you are in our prayers-

TiggerMom, im truly sorry for your loss. i have a nephew i raised, he was just deployed to iraq, and all my life i wondered how would i live if anything happened to him. you are a brave woman, and a beautiful woman because you raised a beautiful son...

Thank you for sharing your loss.....I think it is something all of us fears at some point. I am truly sorry for your loss.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. May God bless you and keep your son in a special, wonderful place in Heaven until you are reunited.

I am so sorry for your loss--hopefully they will find out soon what happened and the perosn will be found and punished for what he did. Your son did not deserve to die in prison without his family with him. Again I am sorry.

May our Lord give you strength and wisdom. He will comfort you and will help your heart to find rest...He is the one we shall rely in and put all our trust and hope...
I am very sorry for your loss and you adn your family are in my prayers....

I am so sorry for your tragic loss, my prayers are with you and family.

My prayers are with you and your family, my admiration and respect are also with you, the actions of people like yourself help so many yet without you even knowing, they are the silent thankful......
God Bless.

Thank you all so much for all your concerns and prayers. You will never know how much they have helped me thru this. You are the Therapy I could not afford and the State turned down. Everyday I logon and read and re-read the posts. It really helpls to know that there are others out there that care and are going thru similar situations. Even if it not be the death of a loved one, we are all going thru some type of loss. Just some of us for life. And no I am not strong at all this site just lets me express my feelings and I guess it comes off that way but really I am not that strong.. I do have my day's I want to fight though! And then there are day's I cry all day. He's never off my mind. This boy was me in so many way's and we were so close and it hurts so much sometimes because of that closeness. I miss our long talks at night after everyone else went to bed. I miss his smile. I miss his joking around. I miss the unconditional love he gave to his sisters. Even though they were his step sisters he didn't care they were his to protect.

I LOVE YOU JASON!!!!

Thanks again for all the support and prayers. They mean so much.

Tigger Mom

Tigger Mom, my heart goes out to you. I am so sorry for your loss. Reading your post, I could literally hear your sighs and see your smiles. Your son must have been truly special.

Tigger Mom, I saw you on the SC board and just want to tell you how sorry I am for what happened to your son Jason. I haven't been on the board for 6 months and just now saw it. My son just moved today from Ridgeland to Manning, and what you're going through is every parent's nightmare. I pray every day for my son's safety. Even knowing they're moving him is stressful. I can't wait to hear that he's all right, and learn what the situation around him is like there. The only comfort I have is prayer, and knowing whatever happens he'll be in God's hands. God bless you.

I hate to keep saying the same thing that everyone else has said, but i cant just go pass this post without saying something. "God bless you and your family, I am sooo sorry for you all"

your story has brought me to tears I cannot even Fathom the thought of losing my child. God bless you and I hope u get answers soon!

My prayers are with you. May God give you the strength you need during this time: I leave this prayer for you:

Eternal God, who sends consolation to all sorrowing hearts,
we turn to You for solace in this, our trying hour.
Though bowed in grief as our loved one departs from our midst to enter into peace of life eternal,
we reaffirm our faith in Your compassion and Your ever-present love.
May we bear our sorrow with trustful hearts,
and knowing You are near, may we not despair.
Into Your hands we commend the spirit of our beloved.
Body and soul are Yours, O God,
and in Your presence we cast off fear and are at peace.
"There is no death, what we call death.
Is but surcease from strife;
They do not die who we call dead,
They go from life ... to Life."
Amen

My prayers go out to you and your family. May GOD bless you and your loved ones.

Thank you all for your prayers. We went to a preliminary hearing for one of the boys charged in our sons murder. It was remanded over to a higher court. Now we wait. I think. I don't know much about all this and our only advisors are with the state and they don't commit to much of anything.

vsbaby, Thank you so much for the prayer. I could hardly finish it I was in tears but I know you are right. I just hope God decides to help the investigators find out the whole truth and convict the ones who need to be convicted not just anyone. I just want the truth. I truely believe Jesus was there to greet Jason and welcome him home.

Tigger Mom

I will continue to pray for you all and for justice to be served.

I am so sorry about your loss. You and your family are in my prayers. Stay strong

Im sorry for your loss! As you know he is in a much better place now your than any of us here on earth! One day you will be reunited with your son! Just stay strong and keep your faith!! God Bless

Well I guess since I was one of the ones who asked for this thread I will start. First, THANK YOU!:D :thumbsup: PTO for giving us a place to go and express our emotions good and bad. Everyone is right there is really no other place where we are understood. It is hard enough on everyone at PTO having a loved one inside, but to loose one to the system and have to fight to get answers is abhorring(sp?)

Just so every one knows from the beginning, my Son was murdered at a state facility last October and we are going thru the battle of finding out what happened to him. We do not have many details yet but hopefully a trial will come about soon and we will get our answers and the right ones at that. As you know things happen in prison and are swept under the rug and as some have said they will have no problem in charging someone for his murder. I just hope I am trusting in the right people to bring justice for my Son. I am putting my faith in Law enforcement and our Justice system and it is very hard to do when all you want to do is fight for him yourself. I trust the investigator and can tell he is honest and takes his job seriously, but I know what he is working with. Well anyway I am getting off the subject.

I loved my Son with all my heart. He was a good boy and loved his family and his church and friends. He just like alot of others here, made some bad choices and was caught. He couldn't get away with anything! I used to tell him this because everytime he did something wrong he was caught, that God was watching over him and wouldn't let him get away with it. He drove without his license twice and got caught not a mile from our house both times. Both times I told him God was watching out for him! He hated that, but knew it was true.

My son was a good boy with a huge heart. He always liked to help others especially the elderly, he loved working with the youth in our church before all this happened. He always gave 100% in everything he did. His employers said they could not have had a better employee. They could trust him and know the job would be done and done right. If he didn't know something he would learn it. He got that from his Momma!:p

When in prison he got a job working in the kitchen (he had never worked in a restaurant) he learned how to cook (at home all he cooked was mac & cheese, pizza and grilled cheese) by looking up recipies in the newspaper and trying things out. I found all the recipies in his bible when they gave me his things. He told me one of the CO's said where did you learn to cook and thought he had worked in a restaurant. He told her he had never worked in a restaurant before. When he died he had just been promoted.

My son was trying to do the right thing by taking his punishment for doing something wrong but he did not deserve to die in prison. :angry: He was only supposed to be in there 18mos!

I really miss my Son:cry: and will for the rest of my life here on earth. Our family will never be the same without him.

Tigger Mom


MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU!

Tigger Mom. What a wonderful young man you had in your son. The thought of him must bring a smile to your heart. The memory of his goodness will carry on within you. You are blessed to have had him as your son.

Sending my condolences to you and your entire family.

so sorry, all of us face this possiblity, keep us updated if you can.

I'm speechless...only suppose to have served 18 months....& then to lose his life in such a way. I am so truly sorry for your loss. I hope you find peace in the wonderful memories you hold...the precious times shared together. You'll be in my prayers.

I Am So Sorry For Your Loss; That Doesn't Seem Fair But Life Doesn't Seem Fair A Lot Of Times; If You Ever Need To Talk Please Send Me A Private Message.

I'm sorry for you loss, but you seem like such a strong woman and I'm sure you're son's in a better place. Keep us updated on the trial.

god bless all of thoes that lost ones in prision may the lord carry you throw an strenthen you always i know i lost a son to cancer but not in prision but i never really lost him because he was found by our lord an savior his jouney is just begaining when i see him again love to you all

All the best to you all, Tigger Mom. Stay strong. Sorry to hear about your boy. :(

your son sounds like a wounderful person, sorry this had to happen and happen like this. i hope you and your family get some type of peace and justice

I am so sorry for your lost, I will pray for you and your family.

I am so sorry for your losss. Keeping you and your family in my prayer. Your son did not deserve to die this way

Today it has been one year since I lost my Son Jason. In fact it is the time that they last saw him alive. I can't sleep knowing that this time last year he was living his last moments here on earth. What was he doing, what was he thinking, was he scared, did he know this was going to happen to him, did he fight back, was the letter he last wrote to us his goodbye letter, how was he feeling, how long did he suffer befoe he became unconcious? All these questions have been on my mind for these last days, weeks, months and year. It has been the hardest, the last few days leading up to this time. Tomorrow we will go to his grave and blow up many baloons and we are all going to write how much we miss him and love him and some of his saying on them and let them go up to heaven to him. Our pastor is going to say a prayer at his grave for him and us. My heart aches so much. It hurts me to see my daughter just cry and say she wishes she could bring him back. Today I feel like I will not make it thru this, it feels like my heart is breaking. But I know I need to be strong for my other children and my family. I am so glad I have this site to let things out otherwise I think I would go nuts. I at least know I am not alone as everyone on this thread has lost someone dear to their heart. Thanks for listening.:cry: :broken: :(

Tigger Mom

Dear Tigger mom,

I remember when you first posted. I can not imagine the suffering you and your family have lived through this past year. I know you are forever changed. I do not know how long he suffered before he became unconcious. Yes, he was probably scared if he was aware of what was going on. In that case, I'm sure he fought. It seems it would be human nature to fight.

Still. I believe he hasn't cried or struggled this past year as you have.
If you believe your son is in heaven than surely you know he is free of this world, his pain is gone and his tears have been wiped away. It is those of us left behind that have to go on. I think he would want you to cherish the memories of him that lift you up.

May God bless you and surround you with love. I pray you find Peace.

Tigger Mom-- I will hold you and yours in my heart, thoughts, and prayers.

:cry: TiggerMom, I was thinking of you last night and the days leading up to this day. It's not my son or my loss but believe that I so feel your pain. If it weren't for the grace of God any one of us could be in your shoes today.

Please know that I am glad you know the Lord as all things will be answered some day, but on this earth my prayers for you are that you get the answers to your questions.

Tigger Mom tried to revise what I said but the internet lost it's signal for me and when I got it back I was stuck with what was there, Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you on this day.

i am so sorry for your loss my hear bleed for youer family u hope god his you the streghth to go on with your life and your son would want that.

My deep and heartfelt condolences....:grouphug:

Oh my gosh Tigger Mom, I can not imagine the pain and anguish you must be feeling. Your son sounds so much like my own. My son is just 21 and will be going to prison for 18 months as well. How can something so awful happen to such a wonderful young man, just trying to do what is right and pay for his crime? My son has only been in Jail/prison for 6 months. He has just been transferred to an assessment prison for a month or so, then off he goes to who knows where.
I am thinking about you and your son and my heart just aches for you. I will pray for your days to get easier. You may sound strong, but there is nothing worse than losing a child, and under such awful circumstances. I wish I had more words of comfort for you........there just aren't any, are there? Those that are close to God, and it sounds like you are, say that God has a plan for all of us. Wouldn't it be nice though, if he would at least ask us first?????? Prayers and good thoughts are coming to you today, this most difficult day............

My Condolences 2 You And Your Family! Whatever Is Your Belief Just Know That They Have Your Son In There Loving And Caring Hands. Your Son Is Watching Over You And All Your Loved Ones. Once Again Sorry For Your Loss!

Tigger Mom,

I am so sorry - I will pray for you as you continue to carry that pain.

I feel your pain...I to have lost a child. There is nothing worse than the pain of losing a child...your are in my prayers. Each year it gets a lil easy to deal with you never heal the pain never goes away..you only learn to deal.

yes I too lost a son when he was nine but I cannot even phantom the pain you are feeling at this time My heart goes with you............My Highest Regards Jackie a MOM also

It is heart braking reading what happend,you have gone through so much . Having a child die would be a nightmare that no one should ever have to endure. You are in my prayers and I hope you receive the answers that you need .

I was in tears reading your story..........how hard it must be for you right now. I cannot imagine the depth of your pain. Your son was only supposed to be in there 18 months & he died in there. How aweful. This just tears my heart out. I am so very sorry for your loss.

Sometimes people forget that prison is very dangerous. It is a life & death survival in there every day. We should always remember when things like this happen that it could happen to any one of our loved ones just like this story. Stay close to your loved one in prison & never forget prison is an aweful scarey place to be.

My deepest condolences, prayers & blessings wished for you go out to you & your family.

God bless you and keep you strong.

I feel so sorry for you. On abad day we shouldall think of this and count our blessings. I lost a sister to alcohol and drugs.I believe there is another more peaceful place for them.It is brave to share. THANK YOU.

I am so sorry for the heartache being experienced over the loss of a loved one. I am not good with words in this situation, but I saw on one of the comments where someone had referenced a poem they had read, which stated something about the chain being whole again.

I recently experienced my own loss, the person was not in prison, and I have the poem being talked about. The name of it is A Broken Chain. I do not know who wrote it though. Maybe it will take the place of the words that I do not have but would like to express!

Take care everyone.

The Broken Chain
We little knew that morning
That God was going to
call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
you did not go alone;
for part of us went with you,
the day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories,
Your love is still our guide;
And though we cannot see you,
You are always at our side.
Our family chain is broken
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.

thank you so much for this poem i lost my very best friend in this world my dad, on 12/21/07 and these last couple of months without him have been really hard this poem is really how i feel!!!!!

NewFriend,

Yes that's the poem. Corysbaby is right, it is just how I feel and hope things will be.

Oh, what a beautiful poem!!! Tigger Mom, I hope you are feeling a little better by now. You are in all of our prayers. God Bless you and your family. Corysbaby, I am praying for you too. I know how it feels to lose your dad--lost mine 17 years ago, and it still feels like yesterday. We never forget. God Bless.

I am so very sorry . I can't imagine losing a child, the pain has to be unbearable. To lose a mate, parent , friend is painful but nothing like the agony of your child.
I pray this boy's murderer will be found and justice served
You are in my thoughts and prayers.

may god console you with his loving arms around you i also lost a son at ninteen but not in prision throw the system at 19 eight years ago Feb 23 he would of been thrity i thank the lord for having him for ninteen years praise the lord god who strenths us

Mary 77,

Thankyou Mary. You too, know what it feels like to out live your child.....
It is so heartbreaking. It rocks your very soul. In the poem they are right that he did not go alone for a part of us does go with him and I am very glad he gets to take a piece of home with him. Maybe that explaines the whole you feel inside, with out him here in my life. He is all of a sudden so so silent. The sudden silence really brings you into reality that, he is never coming home again....And in another instant I expect to see him come up the road with one of his friends and say Hey Mom we came by to visit you and the girls and Dad. I wait for the phone call where he needs some kind of advise or me to take him on a new job he has foud out about, or just to sit and talk. He loved to come over and show his friends the little farm we had which would someday be his. He liked to show them all he had done to help out. He always wanted to build an apartment upstairs in our barn. He loved the peacfulness we had out here. He was so much a part of our lifes. And to my girls he was their hero and bigger than life.

Well I guess I am feeling kind of meloncoly tonight. It's late and everyone else is alseep and I finally get some me time and came here to express how I feel. Kind of sad. And missing my son.

Thanks for listening to me ramble on.

Tigger Mom:cry:

Tiger mom, I'm so sorry....

I usually stay in my States PTO Poard and rarely have time to come to the main board. This one caught my eye because I have MANY friends who have lost love one's in the system. Most feel it was medical neglect. These families ( most of them) are now working with groups to help this not to happen to another one's family. I "tip my hat" to those who lost love one's in the system and CONTINUE to CARE!!! I have 2 sons in heaven but not through the "system". I have a Cousin who is ill in a prison and although she is wrongfully convicted she may die in there before she can be exhonerated. To each of you I send BLESSINGS and STRENGTH to go on!!I have traveled down this valley of grief now for over 20 years ..( one son died in 1986, suicide..other in 1990, car wreck, ages 16 and 22)..
I have gone to counseling and have learned a LOT and this has also helped me to understand SOME of the pain of the families who have love ones in prison ( as I do) because THIS TOO is GRIEF, just in a different form..God Bless!!! I will try and come back to this section more often. Time seems to not be on my side to get to much more than my States PTO group. I feel led to work with "Support Groups" of inmates and that is what I like to do. I think a lot of this is because of the path I have been down. The families are hurting and it seems no one really understands unless your walking this same valley or have walked it before. To see or hear of a family who lost a child, sibling, parent or other while in the system just breaks my heart. I DO SEND PRAYERS TO ALL!!!

may god console you with his loving arms around you i also lost a son at ninteen but not in prision throw the system at 19 eight years ago Feb 23 he would of been thrity i thank the lord for having him for ninteen years praise the lord god who strenths us

Mary, I feel so bad hearing that.It breaks my heart when I hear of someone losing their child.

TiggerMom-
I had to go all the way back to the beginning of this thread to read your story which was originally posted almost a year ago now. I feel your pain & I empathize with you & your loss. I lost a daughter nearly 20 years ago myself so unlike some others who have posted - I KNOW YOUR TRUE PAIN!!! BUT (& there is a but here) - YOU HAVE TO MOVE ON OR YOU WILL DIE A SLOW DEATH YOURSELF & IF YOUR SON WAS ALL THAT YOU SAY HE WAS HE WOULD NOT WANT YOU TO LIVE YOUR LIFE THIS WAY!!!!! That may sound really cold-hearted to you & that is not my intentions here. I only wish someone would have been brave enuff to tell me this all those years ago. But everyone around me let me wallow in my OWN self-pity & my own living hell & guilt as a mother. Those that "loved" me, let me go down the dark path of grief, depression, & anger cuz they didn't know of any other way to "reach me". And there self-pity along with my own nearly DESTROYED ME. And nearly destroyed those around me. It is time for you to move past this grief, pain & anger. It is time for you move on with your life & start living again. Like I said before that is how he would want it. You will NEVER have the answers to your so many questions that I know you have. NEVER - not even if someone confessed & was convicted. Cuz only the good Lord above knows why this crap happens to so many of us. I truly believe that my daughter went thru what she went thru so that I COULD LIVE & BE A BETTER/STRONGER PERSON. And because of that "gift" I will no longer sit around feeling sorry for myself or being angry & hurt over it. You have the strength inside of you to move past this and I will pray that you find that strength. Let go of the pain but not the memories. Blessings to you always & if you ever need to talk to someone who has been thru this, just PM me anytime.

My prayers go out to you all who have loss of a loved one...the poem from New Friend touched my heart...thank you for sharing with us on PTO Many Blessings be upon you.

Cat,

I know how you are feeling and how I feel right now is Yes I feel down at times and miss him (and I express those times here where I feel comfortable doing so knowing there are others here experienceing the same feelings) and there are even times that I wonder if we will ever get the truth about what happened.

On the other hand I am moving forward with my life with-out my son and doing things that we liked to do together. I am thinking about what I could do to honor his wishes (he always fought for the underdog-someone who didn't have much and had a hard life) With out his help on some of these projects I am lost but I am taking things one day at a time.

I believe as you do, that they would have wanted us to be happy. So I am trying to do things we would have normally done together and this makes me happy and feel closer to him.

But, there are days that I just need to express my sadness over the loss of my Son. Those day's will never go away completely even though they will begin to be further apart. I have seen this trend over the last 1 1/2 years. The first year was the worst and we were in a fog and just trying to take care of all that needed to be done. I believe that I will always miss my son and I talk to him everyday as if he is still here. He dosen't talk back but I know he is listening. I just think the greiving will get easier year by year.

Now it is spring and things are a little easier. I am wanting to do all the things we dreamed about doing around here. Not sure I can accomplish the apartment thing alone without any construction experience. But I am doing things in my own way.

Don't worry I won't let myself get to that point as I have a strong family and a Son who lights up my life everytime I talk to him. I have children that I have to be strong for. I have a loving church family that cares alot for what our family has been thru and is always there for us and I have a strong and loving husband who supports us, although he can be moody and selfish at times.

We are survivors and we will prevail. Just with one less on our team.

Tigger Mom

Reading this made me feel like all the breath was just knocked out of me...........I am so sorry for your loss....As a Mother that has nearly lost her son while incarcerated, it just brings back so many memories.

I pray that God will bring peace to you and your family....:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

I am really so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine, you poor thing. You're so much stronger than me.

TiggerMom - I was so glad to read your post & know that you are doing better & moving on with life. That's what is important here - moivng on. And I'm even happier to hear that you have a strong support system who will tell you like it is. Plus I think it is great that you want to try & do things that you and your son would have done or was going to do. Something you could do would be to set up a memorial scholarship fund named after him & award it to the "underdogs". Just a thought. Again, it is good to hear from you & I will continue to pray for you & your family.

God Bless you. Your son sounds like he was a very caring person. You also sound like a compassionate person. go to internationalcure.org and find a chapter in your state, there are alot of mothers out there that know, unfortunately exactly how you are feeling. This support group is wonderful and standing together maybe we can keep this from happening to someone else. Just keep looking to Jesus. Hugs to you.

Thanks guys for all the support. I am so glad they created this thread so we can feel free to share our bad days and talk to others who are going thru the same feelings. I have looked for support groups in our area but have not been able to find one like this. It is nice to have this site.

Tigger mom,
I am so very sorry you and your family have had to go through this! Parents should NEVER have to bury their children! I pray God will bring you peace and that you will find everything you need. I have never had to go through this and for that I am grateful. I often worried about it when my daughter was making very poor and often dangerous choices...I worried because I knew that it was a very real possibility and I didn't want it to be...didn't think I could ever handle it. I know it doesn't help but, even if you never know the truth...God does and those people responsible will answer to him...I believe. It was my worst fear when my daughter was incarcerated. I am not even quite sure what to say...no words could ever express my deepest sympathy to you.

I am afraid my husband is going to die soon due to the horrendous medical neglect. But i cannot imagine your pain and sorrow of having your loved one murdered. My 33 year old daughter died of disease a couple years ago, but we could be with her and you were not afforded that "luxury". The only thing that will keep you going is your faith in God and knowing that many will be praying for you. :(

Im sorry to hear about your loss. Its always tragic to lose a child.
My husband's uncle died in prison also. Although he wasnt murdered, the prison could of released him sooner due to his medical condition. His condition was very bad, and the prison got the paper work for him to go to a halfway house. 2 wks before his release he passed away. I found out by going to the OK dept of corrections website. My husband called to see why he no longer had a release date/parole date. We found all this out about 2 wks after his passing.

Melissa this is so sad........God.....what is wrong with this system that they don't even notify family. It is terrifying to me....I am so sorry you lost your Uncle this way......I wish I knew what would give this system a wake up call.....Blessings to your family......~Cat

Thank you. Your right the whole system needs a wake up call. There also needs to be something done about these huge sentences given for what I call "petty crimes" Uncle G was sentenced to 280 yrs I believe, for minor drugs, burg of hab, false declartion at a pawn shop. He got it knocked down to 80yrs (last I heard). He never killed anyone so why give that much time. It makes no sense.

Wow, I got on here tonight thinking about my fiance and was getting ready to go to the forum for my state when this one caught my eye. That poem was just what I needed. My oldest son passed in 06 at the age of 14. There is no pain like that of losing a child. So, Tigger mom my prayers are with you and your son.

~Tigger mom~ :grouphug: to you always.

I'm sorry for your loss of your son. My husband has been incarcerated for 13 years. I could not imagine if it were my own son. We did lose our 1st baby at 6 months though. Your in my prayers!!

Tigger Mom,

I have just read this thread and wanted to let you know that you and your family are in my thoughts. Your son sounds like he was a wonderful man.

Thinking of you,
nortynou

Oh I am SO sorry for your loss.
This has to be my biggest fear!
I am so glad you have strong faith to help you get through it and find some peace and solace through the Lord.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and all of us who have loved ones far away.

I can't express to you how sorry I am. When my son died someone told me, "You'll get through it but you'll never get over it." That simple sentence freed me up and allows me to grieve when I need to. Your Jason sounds like such a blessing in your life and he will live on in the lives he touched.

I also would like to honor his memory. We serve a "Y'all Come" meal once a month (150-200 people) and I would love to use a recipe or two of his. Have you posted any yet?

I am so sorry for the lose of your son!!!! My thoughjts and prayers are with you that you may find peace!!! Take care.

i saw my parents shattered by my eldest brother's death . It's some that should never happen . With kindest Regards ,
Jimbo

thats brought a few tears to my eyes :( i am really sorry about the loss of your son... he sounded like an amazing person with a huge heart and certainly didnt deserve to have his life taken away... i hope they find the person that did this to him and i hope they spend the rest of there life locked up in prison doing hard time... take care...

I am sooo sorry... you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers...

My condolences goes out to you and the rest of your family in your time of grief. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

I am so sorry to hear of this terrible thing that happened to your son!! I hope and pray your pain will be lifted by our sweet Lord! My prayers are with you and your loved ones!!!!!!
With Love Cathy

I feel so sad for you. I am sorry for the loss of your son.

I'm so sorry, Tigger...my son is in prison and I miss him everyday. I can't imagine for a minute the pain you feel, how truly terrible to lose such a wonderful young man. My prayers for you and your family.

I also lost a Stepson in prison. I remember the date and time we got the call Sept. 9th 2003 4:30am. The warden said your son has expired. He couldnt get us much details. This happened in Western Missouri Correctional Facility in Camoron Mo. The Date was sept. 9th 2003. The Doc is so cold and uncareing. Even thougo he was dead the Doc still had control of the Body. He was still serving his sentence in death. He only had 1 year to go on his sentence. He had called us 3 days before his death and said he would talk to us in detail. The Doc couldnt tell us anything. Do you know we still dont have ANY ANSWERS. After his death there was a lot of inmates transfered to differant locations. The weard thing my son was in adseg. so you tell me what happened.
His death is now listed as accendental.
.His name was SEAN A. MITCHELL Sept. 9th 2003

Mom-on-mission,

Our two stories sound so much alike. The called me at 4:30am on 10-06-06. They put the ward on lockdown and they moved guys too. They do that to keep them apart and interrogate them. My son was not in seg that I know of. They did catch two guys but we are still waiting on the rest of the story. It's been almost two years and we don't even have a court date and they have not caught anyone else involved. I know there are more. Don't give up. I called yesterday for an update. I will not give up ever. Let them know that. Also talk to the Medical Examiner and ask for the death certificate. It should show something. You don't die in adseg by yourself! Someone else had to have been there. In the begining I talked to our states law enforcement and found out who was investigating and kept in touch with them. I am about to call again. I know to others this sounds crazy but you can't rest until you know what happened and who ever did this to them is punished. Sorry about ranting but it's been one of those days. I guess I will have them until this is resolved. I will keep you in my prayers.

Tigger Mom

Tigger Mom. I feel an attachement to you. My children were born in Greenville SC, and my son was seriously injured on Oct 9, 06 just 3 days after your wonderful son was killed. We don't know each other but I think of you some days out of the blue and wonder if you have found your answers yet. Today was one of those days. My son finally came home this past Monday, but I sometimes stop and think "but for the grace of God".

You are correct. The DOC is not particularly caring. I was very lucky. The State Police investigate things of a serious nature such as my sons injury and we got a very good, experienced officer. The officer was kind enough to talk with me as freely as possible and update me on the investigation. Ours resulted in two convictions.

It's not vengence that drives you for answers. It's the resolution. Quite honestly I'm not sure we got the whole story. With DOC I'm not 100% sure you ever do and my sons memory of that day is pretty non existant, but we got enough to live with and I pray for you that your family gets the same.

Hugs.

My thoughts are with you at this hard time!!

Mom-on-mission,

Our two stories sound so much alike. The called me at 4:30am on 10-06-06. They put the ward on lockdown and they moved guys too. They do that to keep them apart and interrogate them. My son was not in seg that I know of. They did catch two guys but we are still waiting on the rest of the story. It's been almost two years and we don't even have a court date and they have not caught anyone else involved. I know there are more. Don't give up. I called yesterday for an update. I will not give up ever. Let them know that. Also talk to the Medical Examiner and ask for the death certificate. It should show something. You don't die in adseg by yourself! Someone else had to have been there. In the begining I talked to our states law enforcement and found out who was investigating and kept in touch with them. I am about to call again. I know to others this sounds crazy but you can't rest until you know what happened and who ever did this to them is punished. Sorry about ranting but it's been one of those days. I guess I will have them until this is resolved. I will keep you in my prayers.

Tigger Mom




hey I'm sorry for your loss ive been out for 1 year and six months and ive been in seg or as we call it the hole !!!!! its nothing nice at all they say they caught 2 guys i don't believe that one bit ive seen what these so called corrections officers do our brothers i say brothers cuz we r all in it together no matter were your at, were one big fam in there , they put a large can of mase ... a chain on the door from one door to another to partially open the door they want,they put the canister witch i kid u not is about ah foot tall and let it waste all in the cell causing the person inside to suffocate after the person is down they go in and beat them if they die they cover it up then they bring the camera video to record what happened but they don't show what they did cus the cam was of they tape only what they want u to see ..I'm soooo sorry for your loss and i m sorry to have written this to u but i felt that u needed to no this about what really gos on in ther e ......OH AND ANOTHER THING IN SEG EVERY ONE IS LOCKED UP NO MOVEMENT IF U COME OUT YOUR CELL THERE ARE 2 TO 3 OFFICERS PRESENT AT ALL TIMES AND CHAIN U UP TO GO ANYWARE .....



Take Care

These posts are so hard to read. My heart goes out to the families and loved ones.

My heart absolutely shatters to hear of the loss of a child...but especially while incarcerated! It sounds like you have alot of precious memories to reflect on. I hope you'll be able to gain strength & peace from those memories. God bless you & your family. You'll be in my thoughts & prayers.

Rip

I am so sorry for your loss

Just sharing this.. My step brother died in a Lousiana prison about a month ago. He had heart problems. If there is any good in this it was that he was sent to the same prison as his baby brother for the last 3 months of his life. They were able to talk from their hearts. He was to come home in Oct. 2008. The sad part is that they were exercising outside and the youngest brother saw his brother go down and ran to him and tried to get help. He even carried his brother as far as he possibly could begging for a stretcher and help. That is so sad. I have not been in contact with my step brothers in prison and I feel bad about that. Their Mom and my Dad were married years ago. Both of them are deceased and I just was never really close with the "step brothers". I have a love one in another prison and am faithful in communications and visits with her ( my Cousin). I do plan on ( already began) writing the youngest step brother still in prison in LA.

I know several who have lost love ones to suspicious deaths in prison. I would not trust the death certificate ruling from the state's medical examiner if it was my love one. I would HAVE to pay for a private autopsy. Sorry I do not trust the one's done under the State's hands..

its been almost a year since this thread was sorry, nothing makes it easier,

i am very sorry for your loss.

Dying in prison has to be a very tough way to go. Long ago in Missouri prison (Moberly) a friend of mine died from what must have been a heart attack. He staggered to the door of the wing and fell , it took the guards about 30 minutes to send help, by then Randy Pate was dead. He was only about 24 or so and not doing much time. It was a very sad deal to see someone die without help.

I just read your post about your son. I am so deeply sorry and I will pray for you and your family. Many of us have loved ones in prison. Many of us being mothers with children in prison. There has never been a day that has passed, that I have not worried so about my son in prison. I know many bad things go on in prisons. I cannot imagine losing my son while in prison. I have 2 other children here on the outside. If I lost any of them, I would just lose my mind with grief. I pray with all that is in me, that they catch who did this to your dear son. As one person posted, it won't bring your child back. But, he deserves justice in this and you deserve the closure. Once again, I am truly sorry from the bottom of my heart for this un-necessary loss of your son. Your story brought tears to my eyes. My son will be home in a few months thank God. Then, I will no longer have to worry is he safe or not in the hell they call prison. God Bless You and comfort you during your grief. And give you strength to pursue justice for your child.

TiggerMom, it's nearing October and I always think of you at this time and say a special prayer for you and your family.

God be with all of you.

Hugs.

I'm so sorry for your loss, I know that there is nothing I can say to take away your pain,I just pray that you are comforted.May God Bless You and Yours

I'm so sorry for your loss.

So sad....I remember my son telling me about a man going down in the yard and he had to just stand there while he died. If he had gone to help he would have been disciplined for doing it.

I am sorry for the lose of your son my heart goes out to you. I am so sorry that his life got taken when he was trying to do his time and get out that sadness me cause I always worry about my sweetheart..And tell him to be careful and safe.. I will keep u and ure family in my prayers.. Again I am terribly sorry hunnn I dont know what it feels like to lose a child. I know if someone was to take my baby away from me my world would be forever lost... Ure in my thoughts and prayers!!!!

My heart goes out to you all...I could not imagine losing one of my children, and for him to have died in prison...oh, my God...words cannot express how sorry I am...I will pray for you and your family.

That's a very sad story. I'm sorry about what happened.

I'm sorry for your lost.......

Almost a year and Im sure its not any easier, but I pray for you and your family to get justice and even more so for God to wrap his arms around you and let you find some kind of peace and comfort. You and your family are in my prayers, God be with you....

I pray more care goes into our loved ones while away.I pray this never happens to us and he is able to make it through our 10 yr.ordeal.I will pray for you and your loved ones.To the one above, mabey now would be a good time to build a relationship with your step-brother so he is also soothed with hope for himself as well.He is probably going through a lot with dealing with that.

i am sorry about what happened, Your in my prayers

I am sorry for your loss sweetie. I hope that you have found all of the answers that you needed by now or if you haven't that you do very very soon. You are in my thoughts and prayers. My heart goes out to you and your family.

As most of you know it has been two years today since my son died in the South Carolina Dept of Corrections. It has been a hard two years and especially a hard week for me. The anniversary's of his death do not seem to be getting any easier. We are now at the stage of hopefully going to trial soon (barring any delays) so now I have that to look forward to :( I sure do hope all this ends soon. I'm not sure how much more I can take. I love you Son and miss you soooooo much. Mom

Tigger Mom

Oh Tigger,

I feel for you and right now I ask that God wrap His arms around you and give you peace. I buried my only child...it's not easy.

Oh mama, I pray that all goes well in the trial..that process won't be easy either. But by His Grace, you will OVERCOME! Declare it! Bind up the enemy right now in His name.

God is in Control.

Be encouraged

i know it seems not that long ago god bless you an your family an may god give you the strenth to go throw the grief sorry some times it better to let you said how u feel at this time god bless that why god loves us much we will know sister in Christ you will see your son again this earth only tempoary jesus is the begainning an no end AMEN the truth an the light

I will never know the lost of a son, since I have no children but my brother was killed ( my one and only brother) so I do know the lost of someone close to you and it seems far worse when there are no answers and when its unexpected. My heart goes out to you beause I know its a pain that never goes away you just learn to deal with it everyday!!!

tigger,,and templart,,,Im sooo very sorry,,and I am a mother of two in the system,,and I also have two little brothers in the system also,,and I cannot say just how long I could maintain my mind aand heart,,should I ever have to go thru what you have,,gods love to you both,,may the lord ease your pain,,someday,,I pray,in jesus noame,,amen

God Bless u

May God comfort you everyday and give you the strength to keep carrying on.

this is so sad and my heart goes out to you... it scares me because my husband is in prison and every day and night i worry for him!!

I am so sorry for your loss of a son...... I can't possibly imagine the feeling of such a loss. May God give you the strength to carry on.

i just read about your loss Im really sorry I know how fills to losss a kid, and thats my worry about loss my son there I know you still sad and in pain about your son Im sorry as I was rearing I was crying thinking how many mom will have to still crying for there loss.
mamadesesperada

I have lost my son @Coleman Low. Can not get any info from there. No autopsy report or death certificate. His belongings from there have not been sent home. He died over a month ago. I feel so bad for you. having to go thru a trial will be very hard.

I can not express how this saddened me. We think that our child going to prison must be as bad as it gets, but you have confirmed that is not the truth. I can not imagine how this must crush you every day. Your son sounds so much like mine. My son has to face the rest of his life behind bars. I just pray that by now you have had some trial or at least getting the right information as to what and why this happened to your son. I would feel the same way you do, I have worked in a very political position for over 25 years and I know how that everything can be twisted and turned in the justice department if the right buttons are pushed. I hope that someday you will get some peace in this. :) God loves you

My thoughts and prayers go to you all.

Even through these hard times I hope that God brings you peace. I am very sorry for your loss. Try to stay strong even though it is really hard. God Bless You!

HMW Mom,

I am so sorry for the loss of your son. I know what it feels like to be kept in the dark and not told anything. Have you called your State Law Enforcement for your state. They should be handling the case. Also the Coroner should have a report by now. I hope you get your answers. Feel free to pm me if you have any questions. I will help in any way I can. DON'T GIVE UP!

Tigger Mom

AS the Mama you are...

YOU FRIGGIN' ROCK!!! and know that your pain doesn't go un noticed...bless you & yours tremendously...

-Lamont & Delphine:thumbsup:

im sorry for your lost and i hope they find out who really did it and what hapened to your son. stay positive and good luck.

HMW Mom,

I am so sorry for the loss of your son. I know what it feels like to be kept in the dark and not told anything. Have you called your State Law Enforcement for your state. They should be handling the case. Also the Coroner should have a report by now. I hope you get your answers. Feel free to pm me if you have any questions. I will help in any way I can. DON'T GIVE UP!

Tigger Mom

Thanks, someone from this site has a friend in Coleman and knows of his death. she is going to talk to him. Waiting to hear anything. Can not get any info from prison. Maybe soon I'll have an autopsy report. Time is not my friend these days.

im so sorry to hear.. god bless you and your family!!

have you considered alerting the media?? will that not be in the best interest of you? you deserve answers...

Omg i am so sorry?:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

i have just read about what happened and i want to say although i have never been in your shoes....i cant imagine how you must feel.....the sadness that must fill your heart must be gut wrenching........i am so sorry ....when i think of living a day without my children my heart breaks.......i hope it gets easier for you soon and i have faith that it will ....just stay strong ....my prayers are with you always

Krystal

iam so sorry about our loses may god comfort you god bless the support from pto support for your family i hope u getr a chance to read pslam 23

i cant wait the lord comes back to reclaim the earth all the folks that gone to the greaest peace dont suffer no pain no more an sorrow we will be among the spiritual heavens a we will see our love ones again jesus will be here with open arms we shall shout an praise the lord

This fear we face everyday behind the walls of prison with our loved ones. I am so so sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you. No words can express the pain you have, just know that we are here for you and your family. Thanks to PTO we have support. God Bless

Tigger,
I can't truly feel your pain as my son was never incarcerated but I do know the pain of burrying a child. They say time heals all wounds, personally I don't know about that. It hurts more now then before. I think you just learn to live with the pain. Anniversaries and hollidays are so hard. I do believe the Lord gives us the strength to go on. My prayers are with you!!!!!!!!!

Thank you for sharing your story.

The boy that my brother was arrested with committed suicide thirteen years into his sentence or at least it was listed as suicide; there's been some speculation as to whether or not suicide is the accurate cause of death. I didn't expect it to hit me the way that it did because I personally had never really cared for the boy but he was so intertwined with my brother and the fate of our family that it hit me very hard and the realization that he was so closely linked to my brother that it could have been my brother was very hard for me.

Losing a loved one inside prison due to an act of violence from another or an act of desperation from their own hands...it's our greatest fear and all we can do is pray. My prayers are with you and your family. As Blue Eyes said God does give us the strength to go on. I'm so glad that we all have this place that we can come to and rely upon one another to help us find our strength. We're all here for you; praying for you and believing that nothing happens without a reason. I don't know what that reason could possibly be but I'm sure that someday we'll all find it together.

G

My heart goes out to you. I will keep you in my prayers

i am so sorry for your loss that is horrible, good luck with everything and know that your son now is in a better place & is watching over you now. good luck hun

I want to thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers for our family as we go thru this. We will definitely need them in the comming months as we go to trial. Hopefully if it does not get delayed. I did not know that there were so many on this site that had lost someone while they were in the prison system or otherwise. Thank you Prison Talk again for adding this thread. From the looks of it, it was really needed and not just for those who lost someone in prison but for others also as they know how we feel. Thanks again y'all for all the prayers.

Tigger Mom