My name is Morrigan and I have several beloved friends in correctional facilities all over the country. This past year I attempted to help a very dear friend upon his release from a CA prison. The first attempt was started while he was still incarcerated by getting his parole transferred to my home in a different county. Needless to say that didn't work. So I moved to San Diego to attempt to help him. Unfortunately heroin and being around his family and old places were too tempting for him and he started using again, got arrested and was facing a very long term, this being his third strike. He hung himself in the San Diego Co jail on September 17th, 2001. I could go on and on but it's not the easist thing that I have ever experienced and find that it is still hard to write about it. All I know is that I got no help from this system, and if anything got more blocks thrown at me than I ever had help. In the aftermath of these events I have experienced so much anger and the desire to blame and flame the system and I do actually, but at this point in my life I take it one day at a time and if possible one small "helping" thing at a time. I guess you could say that I came up from this experience fighting, all but quietly and almost softly.

I am terrible at introductions so I believe that I will just leave this be for now. I was very glad to find this place, it's lonely being in this system and very lonely if you happen to find love in your heart for people that this society wants to literally and figuretively put in boxes.

Morrigan

Hi Morrigan. I'm sorry to hear about your friend. So many times drug use ends fatally...wether we OD or become depressed, or cannot deal with the consequences. My husband is a heroine addict (as well as crack) and I am a recovering addict. I have 4 years clean, my husband, under 100 days. Kenny also has put his old friends and addictions above all else, and it is a tough hand to be dealt. I've spent many a night sitting up worrying because he would not even call to let me know he was ok...and he had a pager to boot! If you ever need to tak...even if just to vent, feel free to drop me a line.

hi morrigan

first of all i want to say that i am sorry for your loss
second i want to say do not beat yourself up or feel that your efforts were in vain
the world needs more people like you that have genuine concern for others who few even acknowlledge, much less actually care about
i just want you to know that i appreciate you as a compassionate human being
i acknoweldge your frustration with a system that is designed to punish and forget
also i want to say change is possible
men -and women :) can move mountains if they are unified and strong
keep caring
you m,ake a difference


sherri

My fellow Californian,
My deepest sympathy for the loss of your friend and again for having to deal with the California Correctional system. This state has the largest and one of the most poorly run systems in the country. What we need is to find a governor that does not support prison growth or the prison guard union.
Davis is not the one. He and Wilsons campaigns were both supported by the guards union. they are the largest union in this state. Did you know we built 21 prisons and only 1 college in this state since 1980? SHAMEFUL!
You can go to www.facts1.com for tons of info on this states overgrown prison system.
Sometimes the best way to deal with grief is well directed, rightious anger.
We have to fight back as individuals and as a community as the politicians are destroying are states, our country, and our freedom.
I'm looking at Riordan for governor so far...but still undecided.
Take care..."Puppy"

Thanks for all your words and your understanding. As you probably can know from personal experience when you love and care about a convict you don't get much. One of the things that I know that this system can't take away from me is my heart and I also strongly believe that in the end what comes from the heart will win over what comes from power over others and down right ugliness.

Morrigan

Morrigan:

I don't think I have ever heard anything so very sad. Thank God there are still people who truly care about other Human Beings out here. You are one of those special persons. Don't ever blame yourself for what happened. You did everything possible.
At least your friend had someone to really care for him and he knew that. I'm sure you are angry, but try to get through that.

My prayers are with you my sweet person.

Donna

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Thanks very much for your kind words and your understanding. I am more sad than angry and always have been. I'll be the first to stand up and fight for the underdog but you know I do maintain that you do more good with an open heart even toward the oppressors than you do with bitterness and anger.

Morrigan

How right you are. Keep that attitude about life in General and you will go a long way.

Things always manage to get better tomorrow.

My Prayers

Donna

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