:D IT's just me...DeniseJ....checking on everyone and pray to God that all my friends here are doing well.

As for myself, things are pretty much the same, its been over a year since Kenny finished his 19 year sentence and every day is a new challenge...

hugs and love......to all:dance:

Denisej

Good to hear from you Girl...I am sure that is a relief for you both..maybe now you too can get on the right direction of your life with less hassles.


((((HUGS)))))


Alabama Granny

Glad you came in and did an update! :)

i miss the whole bunch here....things are nothing like we planned they would be, everything is alot harder than either expected. We've made a huge number of mistakes over the past year and sometimes i wonder what i was thinking!!!

Me personal: a complete mess, i only thought those years of "standing by my man" was hard. Dealing with him daily is even harder. Its not that we don't love each other, we do.

I just have huge amounts of security issues or the lack of if. And Kenny is closed book on most every topic.

Its crazy, but i miss the days that i could tell him anything and voice my feelings and worries and afterwards feel like he cared or at the lease understood. Its not like that any more. Most of the time i feel more alone than i did before he came home.

sorry, i didn't mean to pour it all out like that....

(granny....miss you)

hugs and love

denise

Oh, Denise...I'm sorry things haven't been the way you had hoped or planned they would, once Kenny came home. From reading your previous posts, I know you've done anything & everything in your power to make things work!!! I do hope things will turn around for ya'll. Glad to see ya back around here!!!

Hey DeniseJ -- why don't you write him a letter? I KNOW he's home with you. I remember reading a thread here on PTO that some people would still write each other letters even after he (or she) had come home. Even couples that had never been separated due to incarceration, job, what have you, would write to each other.

As for myself -- I'm an introvert. I write much better than I can speak. With letters you can say it, correct it if it doesn't come out right, and all that good stuff.

Just a thought.

Me personal: a complete mess, i only thought those years of "standing by my man" was hard. Dealing with him daily is even harder. Sometimes, this is sooo true. There were times I too felt it was easier to deal when he was inside (but of course, hard for him being there), so it seemed like a catch-22.
Anyway, I hope that things are looking up for you. I understand its definitely a challenge especially dealing with a long termer...I wish you the strength and patience to get thru it!...

oh Denise...I miss you too.....If you still have my number you know the line is always open to you anytime! I sorta know how you're feeling..I feel further from my daughter, after all we did for her, than I ever have...it's like now that she is "out" she doesnt need us(PawPaw) anymore. Some days I feel like I am a doormat that she can wipe her feet on. She never talks to her daughter, but expects to get her anytime "she pleases"....
Mercy I need to hush...its not about me...its about how you are feelin' and how much all of us here love you and care for you. You have always been "OUR" Rock...and I think I can safely speak for all of us..WE ARE HERE ANY TIME YOU NEED US!

Granny"10"Pack......LOL aka AL Granny

Hey just hanging out and your entry caught my eye. Give yourself time. It must be like a whole new and different planet to him after 19 years.....and so so different for you too!!! You are so special for standing by him all those years!!! Do not give up if you both love each other. Funny I have a nephew(Kenny) also who did about 7 years many years ago. He has his own business and 4 grown children. Last summer I watched him stand proudly @ his sons wedding w/ over 250 people. It has been a long,long road for his wife but today they are happy w, 2 grandkids and he is an upstanding person in the community. There ARE successes. Maybe you could find a group that has been where you are> God bless and I will remember you in my prayers.........