HOW DO YOU MAKE YOUR HEART UNDERSTAND WHY THE MAN YOU LOVE AND YOUR KIDS LOVE MORE THAN THEY DO THEIR OWN DAD. TO UNDERSTAND WHY HE WANTS TO CALL IT QUITS
I DONT KNOW WHAT I DID WRONG BUT ADAM WROTE ME A LETTER TODAY TELLING ME THAT IT WAS OVER. HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO UNDERSTAND THAT WHEN I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I DID WRONG OR WHY. HE IS MAD BECAUSE THE STUPID PHONE IS STILL BLOCKED WHICH ISNT MY FAULT I CANT HELP IT THAT THIS STUPID PHONE COMPANY MESSED UP. AND NOW ITS COSTING ME THE MAN I LOVE. HE SAID I LIED TO HIM I DONT KNOW WHAT I DID OR WHAT I LIED ABOUT. HE ALSO WANTED ME TO CALL THIS RADIO STATION AND DEDICATE A SONG BUT I COULDNT GET THRU AND NOW MY HEART IS BREAKING AND I CANT MAKE MYSELF UNDERSTAND THIS HOW CAN WHEN I DONT UNDERSTAND. HOW CAN I MAKE MY KIDS FEEL BETTER WHEN THE ONLY DAD THEY HAVE EVER WANTED IN THEIR LIVES IS WALKING AWAY FROM ME. HE IS MORE OF A DAD THAN THEIR REAL DAD IS.
HELP ME UNDERSTAND SOMEONE PLEASE MAKE ME SEE WHAT I DID--SHEAhttp://www.prisonville.com/images/smile/emo/sad.gif:(:mad::blah::angry:

Shea.. i saw your post.. and wanted to lean a *HUG* your way.
It is VERY hard at times being on this emotional rollercoaster! people sometimes tend to try to push the one they care about the most away( for different reasons) and no one undertansds why.... it is usualy the person that we are closest with .. the one that we trust, and love the most that ends up catching all of the hurt! maybe things are getting to him... doesn't HAVE to be something you said or did, or didnt do. it can just be alot of things adding up and it got pushed your way. I mean i dont know your situtatiion... but i know how upset it can make them when they try to call and the phone is blocked yet again.... then all he needed was to hear yoru voice on the raido, but couldnt( no fault of yours) from expereince... it just adds up on them.. and he may be feeling like no matter what is going on.. how simple or hard.. he just has no voice in the matter. he can't "DO" anything! My advice is...Don't say anything to your kids about what you and him are going through( remember they are kids.. and can't "do" anything) I would write him back... ask him to talk to you.. LET HIM KNOW you are here for him, and even in this hard time you are pulling for him.. call the stupid phone comp.. ( maybe try to set up a prepaid account so that it wont get blocked so much) let him know that you changed the way you pay it.. so that it would help to receive his calls.. maybe get a number to more thn ONE radio station that he listens to.. and try to call in.. * write out the lyrics if need be to him.. and say.. here is my love request to you. i don't know... just trying to help.
i guess the biggest advice would just be, that if this came out of the blue.. remember that it is a emotional rollercoaster.. and there are extreme highs.. with oh so so SO low's sometimes.. and just write him back... and talk to him. let him know you will listen .
I hope that everything will be okay.. and i send my best!
~Snake's Girl~

right now i need friends thats all i need and i need to know how to make him listen to me because the letter i got today was even colder than the one i got yesterday. should i walk way i dont what i need to do--shea

((hugs)) has he told you why he wants to call it quits? Sometimes my hubby gets really down and tells me that me and the kids would be better off without him and I usually cheer him up and he is ok. I don't understand everything that goes on in there (prison) and I know its tuff on him because we are out here and he is in there. Does he have anywhere else that he can call you? I would sit down and write him a letter detailing what you are feeling right now to him. When do you get to visit him next? Maybe you could visit and tell him how you feel about him and find out what he is thinking...

We are here for you anytime....

i get to visit on the 20th of april and i had planned to take the kids somewhere during spring break and thats was a reason why he is mad because he thinks just bc i was going somewhere that i could go and visit well he is wrong because we are not going anywhere now and plus i paid the phione bill today and now it shold all be clear so he can call. i dont understand why he is doing this and thats what makes it hard on me but i am not giving up just yet because he is going to realize that things are not that bad--shea

Don't be quite so sad - be a little angry! Why should he not be trusting you? And why be so cruel? Clearly you haven't done anything that he really knows about, so if he's just firing off at the mouth then that's completely unfair of him...be angry for yourself!

i might be sad and heartbroken but right now i am p***** off and angry and i want a straight answer of why he wants to end things and he knws that i am not giving up without a fight.

i just wanted everyone to know that everything is going to be just fine with me and adam. i finally got to talk to him last night after about 6 months and even though we only had 15 mins we straighten everything out. all it was a misunderstanding so i believe everything is fine. he knows that i wont put up with crap like that again. but we are good thanks for your advice and thoughts-shea:p:D:)

Oh, THANK GOODNESS this all worked out for you! I'm so happy to see that this ordeal has a "happy ending"! I was worried! Good for you for letting him know that this is the LAST time you'll take this crap -- stay strong and keep fighting, girlie! Y'all will make it!!! ::HUGS::

yeah and i am going to go and see himn on the 20th forsure and i cant wait im counting the days 20 days--shea

im glad that you two were able to communicate and fix the misunderstanding.be strong and youll grow stronger!!