i was arrested on feb,20th 2007 for assault in the second degree and endangering the welfare of a child for pinching my son and leaving a bruise just because i got frustrated and all he did was cry and i regret it everyday and i am goin to have to deal with it for the rest of my life my ex girlfriend put a order of protection on me to stay away from her and our son and i havent seen them in almost a month and i miss them so very much and i wish that i can see them and try and get her to understand that i made a mistake and i wanna work things out and try and be a family again but i just dont know if she still loves me or what not and i guess everytime she hears my name and about me going to prison she starts bawling her eyes out and leaves the room we were together for a 1 and a half and half a beautiful 3month son and she has a 1 and a half year old daughter with another man i have been there for them sense the day she was born and everything else and now she is going out with her daughters uncle and she started going out 3 days after we broke up i just dont know how to get her to come around and now i am facing 24months in prison with a permantent order of protection at her request its been on sense the day i was arrested if anyone has any advice i would really apperciate it i just wanna be a family again cuz i love her so much and i love the kids with all my heart and i just dont know how to fight it its my first felony and my first order of protection so any advice will be helpful thanx

I am so sorry but you should be taking Anger Management classes and whatever you can. I have no idea what is really going on but a bruise, as you sAy, should not cause this. It is time you looked within yourself to see the light and get help if needed. Domestic Violence is not always clear. Good luck to you and I am so sorry if I sounded like I was judging.

2year - as horrible as it seems, you are going to have to deal with what is. Regardless of what is past, you have to learn from it - you have either a very short fuse or some big control issues. The question that you don't have an answer to is what would have been your next step. You might well have done far more, and that is exactly what this time is going to allow you to contemplate. You are not ready to be with children if this is the reaction they can evoke from you. As they grow they will do far worse than just cry, and you might well have done far worse, too.
Just because we can make babies, doesn't mean we can raise them well.

I'm pretty vigorous about how children are treated, because in my 58 years I've seen too much of what poor parenting and/or abuse can do to beautiful little kids.

What will come of your girlfriend's order of protection, we cannot know. And you cannot even begin to deal with what will happen in the future. You can only deal with learning how to be a better, calmer person, whatever that takes. Then the future will take care of itself.

i love them so much and i just dont know how to start to fix things between us i just want them to understand that i wanna change and i am getting the help i need

Sounds to me as if she has already moved on. I mean you could write her and express yourself. Thats about all you can do.

everytime she hears my name and going to prison she starts to cry and goes somewere to be alone and she breaks down to her friend all the time and i cant ask her any questions because of the order of protection so i dont understand

Why shouldn't she cry? She's been terrified, she's without someone she loved, she found out that the love was dangerous. Now she's going to have to raise a kid alone. That's a whole bunch of bitter medicine, and she can still taste it.

I am not replying to this to offend 2yearbid or anyone else. But i have to say after reading this that it has made me understand that I must move on without a doubt to protect my child. I hope you get the help you need 2yearbid and I pray that your child never again has to suffer because you have become frustrated.