I am trying to get a hold of Denise at San Quentin to see if David was served his TRO, and custody papers. I can only imagine how out of control he is and I am just really thankful that he is in prison because if he wasn't...id' have had to leave the state by now. I went to a group last night and today i was referred to the witness protection program to see if i qualify about relocation. Savannah is not his daughter and I share joint legal and physical custody with her father, and a big part of this is if I can take Savannah with me or not...I WON'T leave my daughter and I am really in a catch 22...if I keep contact with David's father, I can lose her any way for failing to protect her, and if I stay where I am, we are all in danger...THIS SUCKS!!!!!!so I have some decisions to make...I feel somehow this is my fault...and although i am doing all i can to protect, i feel somehow I will end up being the loser..having to chose. im very angry.

Also, if you all remember, Wayde the little boy who I called cps on? they did nothing, well yesterday all hell broke lose, and I called the police, and wayde was taken out of the home and nita is in jail...the police are putting my name on the report and i told them NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! so either way I look at this, im in danger!!! they will see what they can do is what they told me...well THAT'S not good enough!!

sunnie,

i just recently returned for the last time from vegas, i had a similiar incident about cps, this girl came up to me while i was there last week and said i see your little plan didnt work i still have all 6 of my kids, i kinda froze because i thought it was gonna be on and then her gang boyfriend just looked at me and walked away, they are big time tweakers and probably are paranoid of me at this point. needless to say nothing happened. the decisions you are making now are for the safety of yourself and your children and it sounds like to me you are heading in the right direction. you have made alot of hard decisions in the past few weeks i have been reading your posts. you are a much stronger woman than you know and i admire your guts and courage on all these issues you have faced. you take care and my prayers are with you and the children

carol

Hang in there, stay strong, and take care of you and your kids! At least you have some time to figure it out.

Sign up for the program where they notify you before releasing someone from prison.

And you can call and report something to the police anonymously. You don't have to give your name and everything. You tell them you feel you'd be endanger and that you want to remain anonymous. CPS is not allowed to reveal who turns a person in for child abuse, so you're okay there.

You could relocate within the same general area------just a different county or town-----and then use a PO box and unlisted phone number. That wouldn't violate your joint custody and would still make it very hard for the guy to find you.

nita just got out of jail/psych ward. She went crazy when they took wayde, and she just came over. Started outpatient, and is willing to do what it takes to get wayde back, take anger management, etc...me talking to her wasn't sinking in the way she was treating wayde, and i did what i thought was best, not to be viscious or vindictive, but in hopes they would do what they had to do, to change their lives. She confronted me, and i could not tell her it was me, and maybe one day I will. she has given my name in the hopes wayde can be placed with me..and like i told her, I would do my best to be the biggest support I could be. NIta does not like this worker, and soon she will be switched...and to be honest, this worker is something else to say the least and I can't stand her either..so I pray this new worker they get is more civil. for now, wayde is safe. they are starting to get the help she needs, and she's on a patch to withdrawl from drugs.

As her neighbor, I'm pretty sure they won't put the little boy with you. They choose a foster home that isn't near the parent and that won't give the parent any contact unless they deem it can be had. That's really for the best all the way around because it keeps the incentive alive for the mom to change and gives the most protection to the child, plus it protects the foster parent from harrassment, too. As devastating as it is for the mom, she still may not follow clear through to get her little boy back. I'll certainly pray for her, though, that she can do the right thing.

Sunnie ... I don't have any solutions for you but, I know you are a strong woman who has been through a lot and come out on top ... have you spoken with Savannah's father about this and the dangers involved or would that just prompt him to take adverse action, just a thought ... I will be praying for you.