Its Like I Went To Bed One Night With A Life And Woke Up Without One. I Know For You Who Is Reading This And Have Read My Other Blogs Are Probably Like What Is Wrong With Her Or Are Totally Lost On What I Am Talking About , But This Is My Journal And This Is Where I Am Sapose To Sound Crazy And Not Make Sense Right ! Well I Guess Iam Kinda Exactly That No I Am Totally Fucked Up . I Am Married Legally That Is And My Husband Called Me Crying Telling Me He Loves Me He Misses Me , Needs Me , And Wants Me To Come Home Mind You We Have Been Apart For 2 Years Um Because He Pulled A Loaded Gun On Me And Threatened To Blow My Head Off Spent 2 And 1/2 Years In Prison And Im Left To Pick Up The Peices , To Hurt By Myself To Deal With It All By Myself But He Acts Like His Feeling Matter More Then Mine Or What Ive Been Through Or Still Am Going Through Fucking A He Has Me Even More Jacked Then He Did 8 Years Ago

I wish i could help but iv'e never been in that situation, so the only advice i can really give you is to follow ur gut felling, If you think you should then do and hope 4 the best.

4ever - you need someone to talk to, because you KNOW he's not safe for you. There are tons of domestic violence counselors in Cali, and all you need to do to find one is pick up the phone. They don't charge, and they know this feeling of being hooked on a bad guy. They know how to explain the reason it feels soooooo compelling, so real. They can give you tools to help yourself. If you haven't gone yet, go! It doesn't matter how long it's been since this all went down, they will still talk with you.

find a counselor to talk to cuz it seems to me like your ex is playing on your emotions for what yall had.DONT LET HIM MANIPULATE YOU