for somereason today i am feeling really down and depressed. maybe it is because of the weather or maybe its because i was suppose to get to go see adam on the 4th and now i cant due to him being in lockdown again. and after the letter i got yesterday that makes me feel even more blue. but i know he doesnt mean half of the stuff he says because he has too much time on his hands when he is in lockdown.

We are here for ya anytime..How long is he in lockdown? Tell him he needs to be good..

well im not sure because he got out not even a week agao and because he cant hear in one ear. and a guard told him to back up well he didnt hear ghim and now he has 3 charges on him. i have no idea how long i hope not too long.

well im not really sure how long he is going to be in lockdown. he has three charges against him which he said he could fight it.

Well...I hate that you guys are going thru this....hopefully he won't be in lockdown long and you can see him soon....

i hope so because he goes up for parole in january and im [pretty confident that he will get it all i got to do is stay postive

Well, if he's always in the hole, don't get your hopes up too high about being granted parole in January. To get parole, he has to have a record of having behaved himself - or else he'll have to serve out the rest of his sentence. Sorry you got a letter from him complaining about stuff though. Hope your next letter will be better.

well what you dont know is the fact that he can fight those charges and the warden told him that things were not as bad as they seem so yes he will more than likely get parole. because he is needing surgery on his ear and so that the prison doesnt have to pay for it they more than likely grant him parole.

He does need to fight those charges...keep your head up and stay positive....but they do look at his record (if he does have any citations, disciplinaires, lockdowns, etc...) they will take those into consideration. I do hope he gets parole in Jan.

yeah im pretty confident that he will get parole but it doesnt matter even if he doesnt and its 2009 before he gets out i will still be by his side supporting 24-7 because i love him

I been there and done that, Shea, and not necessarily will they let him out....Terry needs surgery on his shoulder but because of the displinaries and being in the hole within several months of him going up for parole - he got denied. Infact because of recent displinaries Terry has been put off 3 times in the last 5 to 6 years......so, don't count on them letting him out just because he needs surgery and he tries to "beat" the charges...Terry tried that too BUT it didn't work! So, with that said....get prepared for whatever the decision is. 50/50 at this point!

Tammie

yeah i know that. i got a letter from him yesterday and it was the saddest letter i have ever received. its like he is giving up and has no hope. and the worse part was that it he was talking like this was the end and all of this stuff. it really got me worried badly. so i hope and pray he is okay because i am worried. i mean i understand that its just a slight chance that he will get it but i dont know anymore. i cant make him understand though that i am not going anywhere even if it is 2009 he still thinks i wont wait even though i have told him a million times that im not going anywhere. i jsut hope he gets in a better mood because this is what keeps me down is when he starts talking about giving up and stuff like that.

Shea

I think all men go thru that....My hubby's EOS is 2014 and last year when he got denied parole they set him off till 2010 and he asked me if I was gonna stay with him....when he gets down he thinks that i am not gonna be there and I just tell him i am in it for the long haul that he can't get rid of me.....

yeah thats how adam is i mean i dont know what else i can do but keep drilling it into his stubborn brain that i am in this for the long haul i mean it took us 26 years to find each other again and i am not loosing him now that i found him again.

well things are not good here because if adam wasnt in the doghouse i would be going to see him tommorow so i really feel down now.

Shea, just a bit of advice, take it or leave it....don't be so down - I know you cannot help it but when our guys that are incarcerated know we are down too then it makes them even more so - try to stay positive - talk about uppity up things in your letters to him and above all let him know that you love him and you are there for him no matter what...things will be okay. If you are determined to stick by him then show him and he will see that you are there....... It is tough on them when they are there but having someone out here that is there and loves them is better on them, I think!

Tammie

Everything will work out for the better the hot box can drive our loved ones to write some far out and sometimes mean things but remember you know his heart and he knows yours.
Keep you head up! and keep sending love through the mail:love:

Everyone's right, Shea. Think positively and more importantly, stay positive in your letters to him. If he knows that you're down & doubting the outcome (as far as his parole goes), it will only upset him more. We have to keep our heads up & do the same for our guys. If we're positive & hopeful, they will be too. Don't talk about the fact that he's in lockdown or that ya'll can't see each other in your letters. Talk about other stuff that will get his mind off of it...even if it's only while reading your letter. That's better than nothing!!

Good advice, pepper. I'm sure it's very depressing to be in solitary so he surely doesn't want to read negative letters. Doing better today, Shea??

actuaklly things are getting better. thanks for the advice and thats what i did exactly was to show him i am not going anywhere and that i am in this with him for the long haul. i reassure him that things are going to be fine and which i do believe they will be. and i also let him know that like i said i am not gouing anywhere and even if he dont get parole i will be there with him till nov. of 2009 waiting at the gates to get him. staying poistve and strong for me and the kids and especially for him is my main goal now.