MY STORY

HI MY NAME IS LANELLE PADILLA, AND I AM A RECOVERING DRUG ADDICIT. I HAVE BEEN CLEAN SINCE JANUARY 14 2006 TODAY IS AUGUST 31 2006. LET ME TELL YOU ALL WHO ARE IN RECOVERY CONGRADULATIOS:thumbsup: :thumbsup: :thumbsup: :thumbsup: I GIVE YOU PROPS IT ISNT EASY BEING IN RECOVERY BUT IN MY BOOK IF YOU CAN STAY CLEAN FOR 1 DAY AT A TIME BY CHOICE THAT IS A BIG STEP!!!! I HAVE BEEN DOING DRUGS FOR THE LAST 4 1/2 YEARS AND LET ME TELL YOU I NEVER EXPECTED TO BE WHERE I AM TODAY. AT ONE TIME I HAD IT ALL.... THE FAMILY, WHITE PICKET FENCE, DOG AND HAPPYNESS!! BUT ALL THAT CHANGED THE DAY I PUT A PIPE TO MY MOUTH....YOU SEE IN 2003 MY HOUSE HAD JUST BURNED DOWN STEPHEN WAS LOCKED UP AND ME AND MY KIDS WERE ALL ALONE AND LOST EVERYTHING IN THE FIRE.. I WAS PUT IN A DRUG INFESTED MOTLE AND I STOOD STRONG THOSE THREE WEEKS, I WAS BLESSED TO GET AN APARTMENT WHIT FURNTURE AND ASSECORIES BUT WHEN I MOVED IN TO MY APARTMENT MY NEXT DOOR NEIGHBOR WAS AN OL SCHOOL FRIEND, WE STARTED HANGIN OUT AND SHE STARTED TALLIN ME HOW HER EX HUSBAND BRINGS IT TO HER HOUSE SO THEY CAN GET HIGH WELL I DECIDED TO TRY IT YOU SEE ALTHOUGH I WAS BLESSED TO HAVE A PLACE TO LIVE AND MY KIDS WERE OKAY AS WAS I, I WAS STILL SELFISH.... I FELT ALONE EMPTY STRIPPED SO I FIGURED WHAT THE HECK...THATS WHEN I NEVER NEW WHAT EMPTY REALLY MENT. IT FELT GOOD TO GET HIGH TO FORGET ABOUT ALL THE PROBLEMS OF LIFES DAILY STRUGGLES BUT AS THE MONTHS WENT ON MY ADUTTUIDE CHANGED, MY WEIGHT DROPPED DRAMADICLY AND MY KIDS WELL THEY SEEN THE CHANGE ......
AFTER BEING UP FOR 10 DAYS AT A TIME I WOULD START TO GET PARANOID, AND TRIPPIN OF FRIENDS. BETWEEN MY AND MY FRIEN WED DO AN 8 BALL WITH IN 24 HOURS EVERY OTHER DAY I REMEMBER THERE WERE DAYS I COULDNT EVEN MOVE OR GET OUT OF BED BECAUSE ID GET SICK BUT ONCE I GOT HIGH ID BE KOOL AND ON THE GO AGAIN.... MY KIDS WELL THEY WERE ALWAYS WITH ME BUT IN ANOTHER ROOM LIKE I SAID I WAS SELFISH DONT GET ME WRONG I ALWAYS HAD FOOD FOR THEM AND A HOUSE FOR THEM BUT I NEED THE DRUG LIKE WE NEED WATER .....IF IT WASNT FOR MY MOM I WOULD BE IN PRISON ID GET SO SPUN OUT ID CALL THE COPS ON MYSELF TELLIN THEM SOMEONE WAS TRYING TO KILL ME ....ALL I CAN SAY IS THERE WAS AN ANGEL WATCHIN OVER ME....I GOT SOBERED UP BECAUSE I LOST EVERYTJING MY FAMILY GAVE ME TOUGH LOVE THEY TOOK MY KIDS AND TOLD ME UNTILL I GOT CLEANED UP ME OR STEPHEN WOULD NOT GET THEM YOU SEE STEPHEN WAS ALL WAS IN AND OUT OF PRISON AND WE WERE ALWAYS OFF AND ON SO MY MOM AND DAD TOOK THE KIDS I HAD ALREADY LOST MY APARTMENT AND EVERYTHING AGAIN SO I HAD NO WHERE TO GO MY KIDS WERE WITH MY MOM AND WHEN ID FINISHED PARTYING ID WANT TO GO SEE MY KIDS AND MY FAMILY WOULDNT LET ME SO I GOT ON A BUS AND WENT TO SAN JOSE WITH MY COUSIN MARYJANE SHES ON HERE TOO (LOVE YA GIRL) AND SHE HELPED ME DETOX AND NOW I AM SOBER 7 MONTHS I GOT TWO JOBS AND IM LIVING WITH MY MOM RIGHT NOW, AND MOST OF ALL I GOT MY KIDS AND MY HUSBAND (EVEN THOUGH HES IN PRISON) LOLBUT I JUST WANT TO TELL EVERYONE IF YOU CANT DO IT FOR YOUR SELF DO IT FOR YOU KIDS THEY NEED US AS PARENTS TO HELP THEM GROW UP AND BE STRONG MINDED.........I STILL TEND TO GET PARANOID EVERY NOW AND THEN,I GUESS ITS THE AFTER MATH OF METH !!!!!!BUT I GO TO MEETINGS AND IM STAYING SOBER!!!! I CANT AFORD TO LOSE WHAT GOD HAS GIVEN BACK TO ME

Congratulations!!! I am so proud of you!

Someone was watching over you and now you are the insperation for many others trying to make it one day at a time!!

JJT

I am so proud of you!! I don't know you personally but if you are on here...pto I mean, you are considered family to me. I don't know first hand of the addictive life, I have been blessed to not have experienced that feeling of being addicted to anything.....does shoes or sex count....lol..but I have family that I have seen come and go.....more of them have gone so you keep on being strong and I will keep you in my prayers. It is good to hear someone having such a blessed life...I know I am blessed and from your story you are too!!!

Bless you, so wonderful news and I am so proud of you!!!!! You need to give yourself more credit you have got to be a very strong, loving person. Hugs lady, Jackie

I am very proud of you and stay strong girl okay !!! I noticed the bible passage on you thread...so you already know the power of God. I want you to know that as far as I am concerned too...Here at PTO we are all a big family, so... welcome ! I wanted to share a little something too...Though I have never been addicted to drugs or alcohol, my x-husband was. Meth...Weed, Coke.. you name it. Well just about 4 months ago...he was severely burned up while stealing anhydros (however it is spelled) He was in critical condition for a few weeks on life support..and by the grace of God he pulled through. He is however blind in one eye completely and partially in the other. This was his wake up call. Shame it took this to change him...but it did. He, before this incident, had lost any remaining relationship he had with our kids...because drugs consumed his life. He cared about nothing else. Now he and the kids are close again, and things are as they should be. God Bless You.

~Hugs~
Rhonda

THATS GOOD TO HEAR THAT HE HAS A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH HIS KIDS AGAIN. WHEN I MET MY HUSBAND HE WOULD SWEAR UP AND DOWN HED NEVER DO DRUGS I HAD TOLD HIM I USE TO DO THEM BUT I WAS CLEAN FOR LIKE 7 YEARS AND WHEN HIM AND I SPLIT UP AND EVERYTHING HAPPEN I FOUND MY LIFE BACK ON DRUGS AND LITTLE DID I KNOW HE WAS ON THEM TO IN ALL HONESTY WE WERE SEPERATED AND WE HAD THE SAME FRIENDS WE HUNG OUT WITH THEM AT DIFFRENT TIMES AND SO I NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS KNEW THAT HE WAS DOING THEM I MEAN I HAD A FEELING OR SHOULD I SAY HUNCH AND WITH THAT SAME TOKEN, ONE DAY WHEN MY FRIEND TOLD ME THE CONNECTION WAS GONNA MEET HIM IN THE FRONT OF MY APARTMENTS I WAS COOL WITH IT UNTILL I FOUND OUT THE CONNECTION WAS MY HUSBAND I FOUND OUT THAT THE PEOPLE I HUNG OUT WITH GOT THEIR DOPE FROM HIM (MY HUSBAND) HE WAS MY SUPPLYER AND I DIDNT KNOW IT NOR DID HE UNTILL HE SHOWED UP!! YHEA IT WAS CRAZY IVE NEVER SEEN STEPHEN DO DRUGS NOR HAS HE SEEN ME BUT WE BOTH KNOW THAT WE ARE ADDICTS AND WE ARE EACHOTHERS SUPPORT RIGHT NOW AND HOPEFULY WHEN HE COMES HOME FEEL ME :D

Congratulations on your being clean.. I love to hear stories like yours as it gives me hope that addicts can make it... Keep up the good work!!!!!! :) :)

Congratulations on your being clean.. I love to hear stories like yours as it gives me hope that addicts can make it... Keep up the good work!!!!!! :) :)
FIRST LET ME SAY THANK YOU. AND LET ME SAY YES ADDICTS CAN MAKE IT THEY HAVE TO HAVE A WANT A DESIRE THEY NEED TO KNOW THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT CARE AND LOVE THEM YOU KNOW MY HUSBAND TOLD ME THAT EVEN THOUGH HE HAD ME AND OUR KIDS WHEN HE WAS OUT HERE WE WERE SEPERATED AND HE FELT LIKE HE DIDNT HAVE US HE TELLS ME SOME MEN JUST DONT CARE BUT HE REALIZES WHAT HES MISSING SEE THAT MY SON IS GETTING BIG AND MY DAUGHTER IS SPEAKING HER MIND LOL BUT YES ADDICTS CAN CHANGE