When i was 12 i wanted to be 14 (so i could have a boyfriend)and i started having sex way to young to understand what i was doing. when i was 14 i wanted to be 16 (so i could drive)so i started hanging out with people much older then mewho could drive ,ngot introduced to a lifestyle that would consume me for the next 9 years.when i was 16 i wanted to be 18 (so i could get the hell away from my parents house so i could do anything i wanted)so i got pregnot and emancopated n found out living on my own with a baby with no daddy was no fun.when i was 18 i wanted to be 21(so i could go to the bars and be young and have fun and maybe find the man of my dreams)so i met a man twice my age and became his crank whore along with anybodys goodtime that could support my habits (of wich i had many)now i am 25 and would give most anything to be 14 again and know all that i know now about men, sex,drugs,alchol,and how life always caches up to you know matter how fast you try to out run it.today at almost a year n half clean with a son who can finaly trust me to be home when he gets off the school bus i know that us getting caught up saved our lives. i miss my husband, i hate to sleap w/o him at night but when we are together again, it will be real. we wont be killing ourselves slowly like before

I just want to welcome you to PTO. I am an addict too and I have been clean 9 yrs now. I want to commend you for being so honest and open with us here and allowing us to get to know you an alittle about you more. We have a wonderful family here at PTO that offers alot of support for those that have someone on the inside so I encouraged to stick around and make yourself at home and you will find a family and whole alot of friends that really understand. If you ever need to vent don't hesitate to pm me okay!!!!

cherrie from tx

thank u so much, i have spent so much wasted time before and now durring my recovery fealing like i am the only person who feals this way...its so great to know that i am not alone in my recovery or in the waiting game of the time between now and my family being together agian.

Congratulations on a year and a half! Keep strong! Welcome to PTO!

Hi and welcome. Thank you for sharing your story. ((HUGS)) to you and please don't leave before the miracle. A year and a half down and just for today to go.

Good luck and God bless.

Welcome to PTO! You are not alone any longer...

Deb

:) That sounds great, great for you, great for your son, and great for your family when you are all together again...:)

Hello my name is amy and ive been with my husband since 1994 i love and cherish him very much when i met him he was inside and i was very naieve but who in there right mind would come out and say im a junkie or other words cant wait to get out to do a shot of herion and well like i said i was naieve didnt know i was 21 when we met and well i love and trust him. i messed with speed but just small time. We both have put each other thru it here im thinking okay he wont do it he quit and its all over with.........Do i wish i was right. That was a long road understanding that he had a physical addiction and well his upbringing and lifestyle were all about that damn monkey. After about 3 or 4 releases and going back on a dirty i thought what am i doing??? im very young good job and well off with my family who completely disowned him and didnt want to hear another word spoken after we had lost our home together.....only one of the things they knew but i am a die hard i love him and the way he was so loving so kind the only man in my life about respect and very caring and tender well until he caught another case and well i guess i did too instead of fighting it i joined i began shooting the herion and speed boy wow did life turn fast.....well the ride stopped he got picked up and i was left home very sick ooooh wow i never wish that on anyone.......then my lil baby came into my life and she was our savior my granddaughter only 9 months was being mistreated and my stepdaughter wanted me too keep her for a week britney has been with me since march of 2002 and im clean sober and adopting her as my daughter and well his daughter too so i believe god works in special ways and as far as alcohol or drugs go their are alot of us affected by it on a daily basis and if you find your strenghth you will survive my husband hates himself for what he has opened my eyes too but life is all choices and they are not always right no one is perfect and well they are mistakes so thats where you learn...........take care god bless amy

Welcome to PTO pandora! congrats on your 1 1/2 years.
thanks for sharing your story with us. and glad you joined the pto family.

Amy! welcome to PTO and congrats on your recovery as well. and congrats on adopting your grandbaby!..

By the way. I too live in Concord Ca.

thanx Sunnie, i wanted to say something n i know this is probebly one of those things i should post seperate but im just gonna add it to this...i went to a meeting last night and there was two new comers there and as we were going around the table the thought kept commming back to me what did i so need to hear my first time... n all i could rember was the fear that no one there was ever as bad as me...that people as sick as i was never made it. so i just fealt like sayon that (if nothing else to just make myself feal better)we can make it. all of us.

well thanks sunnie wow what a small world.........my husband is in susanville now wow what a drive i have.......