lillostvirgo
07-13-2006, 07:00 PM
Hi there,
I've been writing 2-3 times a week for 3 weeks now... haven't heard a word back. I got a letter my baby sent me, postmarked the first day he was in Wasco... I sent him a stationary packet, and just kept on writing... figuring he'd know I think of him every second of everyday. Now its been 3 weeks, and no word. Nothing. I had feared (deep down in my gut) that in someway... he was kinda homesick... and the home he was thinking about was his cell. I fight the thought, but everyday I start to try and accept the possible reality -he believes life is easier in there, and things "arent so real".
We're engaged, and were to be married at the end of August. He had been on parole for 13 months, and was taken in on a parole hold... no new charges, but the day he was to be released (I waited for his call to go pick him up from county)... he was instead transferred to Wasco.
My knees gave out, I couldnt breathe, my mind went blank... and I'm still in limbo. I dont want to go on and act like he doesnt exist... I cant even fake it.
I guess Usher said it best... "You got it bad".
Any advice?
-M-
I've been writing 2-3 times a week for 3 weeks now... haven't heard a word back. I got a letter my baby sent me, postmarked the first day he was in Wasco... I sent him a stationary packet, and just kept on writing... figuring he'd know I think of him every second of everyday. Now its been 3 weeks, and no word. Nothing. I had feared (deep down in my gut) that in someway... he was kinda homesick... and the home he was thinking about was his cell. I fight the thought, but everyday I start to try and accept the possible reality -he believes life is easier in there, and things "arent so real".
We're engaged, and were to be married at the end of August. He had been on parole for 13 months, and was taken in on a parole hold... no new charges, but the day he was to be released (I waited for his call to go pick him up from county)... he was instead transferred to Wasco.
My knees gave out, I couldnt breathe, my mind went blank... and I'm still in limbo. I dont want to go on and act like he doesnt exist... I cant even fake it.
I guess Usher said it best... "You got it bad".
Any advice?
-M-