howtodeal
05-30-2006, 08:20 PM
THIS PAST SATURDAY I HAD MY FIRST CONTACT VISIT WITH MY FIANCEE!!!:yay: I WAS SO NERVOUS AND I COULDN'T STAND IT, HIS MOTHER AND DAUGHTER CAME WITH ME AND WE HAD THE BEST TIME EVER. HE COMES WALKING IN AND IT ALMOST FELT AS IF I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HIM AT ALL. HE LOOKED SO DIFFERENT THAN I REMEMBER...EVEN THOUGH HE I SAW HIM EVERY FIRDAY AT THE LAST PLACE. IN PERSON HE WAS JUST DIFFERNT. I TOLD HIM HE HAD TO SIT NEXT TO ME AND THAT WAS THAT. HE KISSED ME AND I JUST MELTED. WELL I DIDN'T REALLY MELT, IT WASN'T WHAT I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE LIKE BUT GOD WAS IT GOOD. HE KEPT HOLDING MY HAND AND HE LEANED OVER AND WISPERED IN MY EAR AND TOLD ME WAS HE ALLOWED TO KISS ME AGAIN AND I LOOKED AT HIM AND SAID I DON'T REALLY CARE AND I KISSED HIM AGAIN. I MEAN THERE WERE OTHER COUPLES KISSING AND HUGGING AND I WAS LIKE S&^% IF THEY CAN DO IT SO CAN I!!!!!:dance: :dance: WE TALKED AND TALKED AND THEN THEY DID COUNT AND THAT REALLY DIDN'T GO OVER WELL BECAUSE IT SEEMS AS IF THEY EMBARASE THE CRAP OUT OF THE INMATES...THEY HAVE TO STAND UP AND SAY WHERE THEY SLEEP AND WHAT BED....HOW RUDE. IT TOOK UP ABOUT 45 MINS OF OUR TIME, WE COULDN'T MOVE OR DO ANYTHING!!!!! BUT ALL IN ALL IT WAS GREAT!!!! I CAN'T WAIT TILL NEXT WEEKEND WHEN I GO BACK- I AM SO GLAD IT FINALLY HAPPENED. IT MAKES ME FEEL A LOT BETTER THAN I DID A MONTH AGO!!!! THANK YOU ALL FOR KEEPING MY HEAD UP AS WELL AS MY FAITH!!!!!!