I THOUGHT I WOULD START THIS THREAD SINCE THEIR ARE A LOT OF STRONG PEOPLE ON THE CCI FORUM. I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE CHECK OUR POSTS OUT THAT DON'T HAVE LOVED ONES AT CCI AND OF COURSE THE ONES WHO DO HAVE LOVED ONES AT CCI. I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE GREAT TO HELP SOMEONE OUT THAT IS STRUGGLING AND HAVING A HARD TIME AND ISN'T SURE HOW TO COPE. I KNOW THEIR ARE PLENTY OF NEWBIES TO THE FORUM THAT NEED OUR SUPPORT AND PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN HERE FOR A WHILE WHO NEED OUR SUPPORT AS WE NEED THEIRS.

FIRST AND FOREMOST I TRUST IN GOD. I KNOW HE WILL NOT PUT MORE ON ME, MY HUSBAND OR MY KIDS THAT WE CAN HANDLE. I HAVE THE LOVE AND SUPPORT OF MY HUSBAND. I KNOW HE LOVES ME WITH EVERY OUNCE OF HIS HEART AND SOUL AND WE WILL BE UNITED PHYSICALLY ONE DAY. MY KIDS KEEP ME GOING A LOT OF THE DAYS. THEY ARE THE MOST WONDERFUL KIDS EVER. I WRITE MY HUSBAND POEMS, LETTERS AND EXPLICIT MATERIALS:blush: AND THAT KEEPS ME BUSY AND HELPS ME TO VENT AND GET A LOT OUT THAT IS INSIDE. I AM CONSTANTLY BONDING WITH MY CHILDREN AND HAVING FUN WITH THEM. TODAY I TOOK THEM TO THE ZOO. IT WASN'T TOO EXPENSIVE AND JUST SEEING THEM GETTING EXCITED MADE MY DAY. YES, I WOULD HAVE LOVED MY HUSBAND TO BE THERE PHYSICALLY, BUT HE'S ALWAYS IN MY HEART. I'M NOT WORKING RIGHT NOW DUE TO AN INJURY SO I DO HAVE A LOT OF TIME ON MY HANDS AND IT IS VERY EASY TO FIND MYSELF GETTING DEPRESSED AND SAD. SOMETIMES I DO BREAK DOWN AND CRY, BUT CRYING IS OKAY. IF YOU NEED TO CRY. LET IT OUT. I ACTUALLY FEEL BETTER AFTER I CRY. PTO IS A GREAT HELP. WE TALK ABOUT SO MUCH ON THE CCI FORUM AND I KNOW IF I EVER NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO ALL I HAVE TO DO IS POST OR SEND A PM TO ONE OF THE GREAT LADIES ON THIS FORUM. GOD BLESS ALLOF YOU. IT DOES GET HARD, BUT I KNOW IF MY HUSBAND CAN STAY STRONG IN THE HELL HOLE THAT HE IS IN, I KNOW I CANT STAY STRONG AND HANDLE BUSINESS ON THE OUTS. WHATEVER DOESN'T KILL YOU WILL MAKE YOU STRONGER. GOD BLESS

Hmmmm, you said it in a NUTSHELL.. PRAYER, STRENGTH, TRUST in the LORD and YOUR RELATIONSHIP and a VISION of the FUTURE.. hold on the FAITH.. HOPE is NOTHING... Knowing is EVERYTHING.. and I KNOW that we are gonna be ok.. I barely get thru the days, but then I pray.. and It is all better. Working and school and also PTO is a BIG help.. I also have a vivid imagination, and talk to my husbands pictures as if he were right here((well he is)) but when I am cooking I tend to make extra and always cook what he likes, and then I just LAUGH... My mother is a BIG help too..she is my ROCK!!! so on that note, I get by... and it works out in the end.. !!Good Post Hagan!!!!

Good Reply Bvn. You Always Have Good Insight Ma. God Bless..my Mom Has Been With Me Through All This. It Has Brought Me And Her A Lot Closer. God Bless Moms. I Think It's A Good Post, Too. Thanxs.

**Nods** Foe sho...

My honey wrote to me "Man put me here to think and God put me here to heal". I found that is true for me too. It's been hard and lonely but I've also come to KNOW that there is no one else for me... he is the person God wants me to be with. Sometimes I wonder if we would still be together if he hadn't gotten locked up... So prayer, faith, PTO, work, kids, and planning for him to come home has kept me busy. I also write to him everyday about everything that went on... that helps him stay connected even though there is a delay in the mail. I've thrown myself into work hoping for a promotion, what better time than now when he cant be a distraction right?

Al**** Dont HOPE for your promotion..KNOW that you have it.. I did., and I got a RAISE in less than 2months of being there, and I get all kinds of PERKS.. like LAKER TICKETS..4th row..Holla..and that is because I KNOW the LORD gives me favor..

Every day for me is a challenge knowing that i love my husand and need him here then him telling me how much he wants to be home to take care of me and the family but he gives me all the props he can and he respect my whole get down from working, handling business, taking care of the family, being there 4 him so if it wasn't for the strenght in love it would really b hard but we keep each other strong and we pray alot so we will continue to fightyhe fight........

WE ARE ALL STRONG WOMEN WHO ENDURE THE PAIN OF HAVING OUR BOO'S AWAY FROM US, BUT WE KEEP IT TO PUSHIN AND HANDLE OUR BUSINESS. MUCH REPSECT TO ALL THE WOMEN WHO STAY STRONG AND THE ONES WHO ARE HAVING A HARD TIME IT'S OKAY. TRUST IN GOD AND START POSTING WERE HERE FOR YOU

Amen Hagan u r so right and we must contine to give each strenght and support......

:thumbsup: PTO IS THE BOMB.:thumbsup:

Goodnite boo i :heart: u and i will talk to u in the morning and goodnite to all my fellow p.t.o family...............