48 hours and counting until we see each other face to face for the first time. I met Val in July (i think) of 2005 through a close friend behind the walls. He shot me a letter and I almost didn't write him back thinking..."he want's money, visits, and someone to call." However, I shot him back with a COLD kite. Slowly over the past 9 months we've fallen HARD for each other and here I stand doing exactly what I thought I would never do. I fell in love with this man and we've decided that we're going to be together. So...anyone been in this situation? I've never seen him face to face but through our letters I'm convinced that this man very well might be my soulmate. We can already finish each other's sentances and know what the other is thinking. However, here I stand going to visit him face to face in less than 2 days and I'm scared out of my mind!!!!! I find myself thinking the stupidest things...

"What if he doesn't know which table to come to"
"What if the connection isn't there"
"What if we're not in love and we're just in love with the mystery"

I know that all of these concerns are crazy....He's got enough pictures to start a photo album of me, so of course he'll know which table to come to, The connection isn't physical...it's so much deeper, and I'm grown...I know that I'm in love with the man...and not the mystery of our situation. I've never visited in prison before and I'm wondering if they tell him who's there to visit before he comes down...HE DOESN'T KNOW IM COMING!!! I've been on his list for almost 6 months and we recently had a conversation about how i would be taken off of his list if I wasn't able to make the trip out to see him...I told him that I would probably have to be taken off cause I had no way, but I MADE a way...I'm kind of hoping that he won't know...Want to see his face when he realizes it's me and not his family...

I'm SOOOOO Nervous!!!!

Thanks family!

Congratulations on being able to make a way! Hope you have a nice visit. Did you want to surprise him or it just worked out that you were able to go on short notice and didn't have a chance to tell him?

It kind of just worked out that way. I sent him a letter this morning saying that I was coming to visit and I realize that it was a suprise and I told him how DAMN nervous I am...the way mail usually runs he should get it the day or so after our visit! I have to say that I wish he knew a little bit, cause then I wouldn't be the only one sweatin!

I hope you have a wonderful visit. Good luck and congratulations!

hi Alizentang, the downside to a 'surprize' visit is this: if he is working, he will be called to go to the visitation room. before he enters, he may need to change clothes, or find his boss and ask permission to leave the job. this all spells `long wait` for you, until he makes his way to the visitation area. be prepared to wait a while, unless you forewarn him.

Hope you have a good visit dont be nervous...just remember he is just as nervous as you are....you will be fine :D

Thanks everyone...24 hours and counting...(I'm biting my nails as we speak) In my heart I know that everything will be fine, but it's the anticipation that's killing me!!! This time tomorrow I'll have held my man for the first time!

Hi hon I hope you have an awesome visit. I think it will be a wonderful surprise. Sending good thoughts your way!! Come back and let us know how it goes!!

Girl, just relax. Everything will work itself out.

The nervousness is fine. Enjoy your visit.

I hope you have a nice visit! I think what you feel right now will go away the minute you see him. It's the excitment thats getting you and it would me too! Have fun and be yourself so he will know what a wonderful person you are! Good luck and God Bless

Ok, I leave in about an hour and so far I'm doing ok. My stomach is flipping a little bit, but overall I'm fine. Thank you to everyone who sent me words of encouragement! Look for the update....tomorrow :D

Now you have me here sitting in anticipation to hear how your visit went. :)

You couldn't have said it better! :D

Rebeca

Now you have me here sitting in anticipation to hear how your visit went. :)

Okay so now you have got me worried. How did the visit go? Are you okay?

:jumping: IT WENT GREAT :jumping:

At first it was a little slow and I was really guarded, but after the first half hour we were the normal us, talking about everything that we've talked about in the letters.

Want the good news????

He got his grant approved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He's coming home in 30 days :eek:

We got our first kiss and he said that he wished that he could take me back with him and made me promise to come and visit next week...I'm a do him one better!!! I'm going again tomorrow...now that I know it's only an hour away!!! Thank you everyone for your support...Can't wait to post in the coming home forum!!!

Love to all of you....

Heather

Hey we were wondering what happened to you. I'm so glad you had a nice visit.

Hi hon, Im so glad that you had a good visit. And Congrats on him coming home in 30 days. I pray that those 30 days flies by fast for ya!!!

That is so great!!! Congrats I am happy 4 U

U enjoyed the visit then...so u are stl in love! ha thats great...i wish u good luck!

Congrats!! On the visit and him coming home!!

What if he walks right up to your table, out of so many, just because you are the most beautiful woman he's ever seen and he was compelled to?

What if you both feel the connection so much, the guards have to pry you both appart to snap you out of your endless eye contact and enriching conversation when the visit is over?

What if you both are a little nervous and scared, and it makes you feel more alive than you've both felt in years?

What if love allows you to endure the rough patches, stay together, he's released, you share an enternity of sunrises and sunsets, while loving and taking care of each other as you both grow old smiling?

What if we took the normal what if's that haunt some of us women, and reverse them? Dream bigger, reach farther, think positive, and let ourselves enjoy life a little bit?

I have read many posts about the nasty little what if's, and when I read your post (thank you), I smiled and thought, been there, done that. I have an intimate relationship with what if's, but mine is not a healthy one. My what if's are always full of fears and doubts that usually only restrict me.

If I were the author of this fairy tale, this is how the long story would be written for all of us.

Good luck, I really hope you both make the most of this opportunity.

J. Garcia

Thursdaygurl....Thats so sweet!..u aint alone....what if's....................I dnt even like to think,i dnt even wanna think...what if..umm....filled with fear...neways take it easy and enjoy whatever u have while it lasts!

Thank you everyone for all of your support through these past few months. I can't believe this fight is almost over...10 days and a wakeup!!!:D :D :D :D

Also, Val has asked me to thank everyone for him as well for all the support you've given us.

Can't wait to post in the He's home forum....but will always return here...;)

When i was reading your thread it sounded like my situation. Except for the fact that ur first time meeting will be on a visit and mines gona be when i pick him up in 4 weeks!! ive asked myself all the same questions but my main worry is if he'll stick around after he gets out? is he really only using me to pass the time? but then when Im talking to him, the thought doesnt even cross my mind. So i just wanted to tell you i feel you and im curious to see how it goes for you, i wish you the best! so keep me posted :D

Dopey's... Everything so far has gone just like i had hoped...maybe better. I wish you the best. I'm glad that I got the visit beforehand though. How long have ya'll been writing/talking? Is he aware of you being nervous and what does he say about it? I know that there is a lot of jailhouse game ran, I see it in the visiting room and I've read a lot of it myself...however, if you don't take that risk, then what. A big plus in my eyes is that you're the one picking him up. I think that if he told you someone else was picking him up I would start to question what his intentions were. You're the one that he wants to spend that time with....PM me if you ever need a shoulder to lean on....
Heather

Funny how a few months ago I was scared to see him face to face for the first time and now he's home and I'm engaged and pregnant...Thanks family for keeping my head up!

WOW! Congratulations!!!! Good luck to you both!

I am so happy for you!!!! You go girl

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I WAS HOPING TO HEAR.

BEST OF LUCK TO YOU AND YOUR NEW FAMILY.
Jeanette

Heather ,glad to hear everything went well!!! I am seeing Ronnie 4 the firdt time in 33 days and I have all those "fears" you had. Hope mine turns out as great as yours.