LadyMusicSoul3
03-18-2006, 07:45 PM
So exciting! Okay, Bakari gave his mother and sister my number. Last weekend his mother called me to tell me she was about to visit him and would like me to join her on future visits and have dinner with her the following Friday. This was the first time we'd ever talked and her call took me by surprise. She was very open and friendly. She called me yesterday to invite me to go with her to visit him. I jumped at the chance at our first visit! His prison is about 2 hours from me. His mother and I agreed to meet about an hour from me and she'd drive me to his prison.
We met up this morning, his mother, his younger sister, and I. Since he could only have 2 adult visitors his younger sister and I went. He had no idea I was coming. When we walked up he was all smiles. He knew who I was immediately. He gazed at me. I felt very shy. I'm naturally extremely shy with EVERYONE at first. We talked and talked and talked. It was not a contact visit but he will have those in July. He talked to his sister then we talked some more. We laughed, he sang to me, he poured his heart out. I could see the love in eyes, hear it in his voice. He's memorized my letters. I'm a part of his life now and he's a part of mine.
He's so tall and strong! I think we look good together, like a power couple lol. We talked about marriage (we have a conditional engagement, I set the conditions), children, travel, our letters, my son, everything. He told me he loved me. I told him at the end of our visit. I can't wait for contact visits! I wanted to hold him so bad. I kept picturing him in different scenarios in my future... walking beside me, smiling at our wedding, and my favorite, holding our first child together. I'm so cheesy!
I still can't believe I went. I can't believe it happened. I can't wait to go again. The drive was really quick and the process was very easy. I was pleased in general. I'll be more pleased when he's free. All of a sudden, 2 years seems so short!
Okay I'll stop now...soon. I just have to say that while I was there and we were talking I think I was kind of in shock. It wasn't until I left and thought about him every other second that I realized that I can't get him out of my system, and don't want to. I've dated MANY guys in the freeworld who didn't give a crap about me and made it known. Why pass up a guy who exudes love for me? I know he's thinking about me right now! Sheesh... wedding planning?
We met up this morning, his mother, his younger sister, and I. Since he could only have 2 adult visitors his younger sister and I went. He had no idea I was coming. When we walked up he was all smiles. He knew who I was immediately. He gazed at me. I felt very shy. I'm naturally extremely shy with EVERYONE at first. We talked and talked and talked. It was not a contact visit but he will have those in July. He talked to his sister then we talked some more. We laughed, he sang to me, he poured his heart out. I could see the love in eyes, hear it in his voice. He's memorized my letters. I'm a part of his life now and he's a part of mine.
He's so tall and strong! I think we look good together, like a power couple lol. We talked about marriage (we have a conditional engagement, I set the conditions), children, travel, our letters, my son, everything. He told me he loved me. I told him at the end of our visit. I can't wait for contact visits! I wanted to hold him so bad. I kept picturing him in different scenarios in my future... walking beside me, smiling at our wedding, and my favorite, holding our first child together. I'm so cheesy!
I still can't believe I went. I can't believe it happened. I can't wait to go again. The drive was really quick and the process was very easy. I was pleased in general. I'll be more pleased when he's free. All of a sudden, 2 years seems so short!
Okay I'll stop now...soon. I just have to say that while I was there and we were talking I think I was kind of in shock. It wasn't until I left and thought about him every other second that I realized that I can't get him out of my system, and don't want to. I've dated MANY guys in the freeworld who didn't give a crap about me and made it known. Why pass up a guy who exudes love for me? I know he's thinking about me right now! Sheesh... wedding planning?