Ok, I have been on PTO for about 4 months now, and i check on it pretty much everyday. This feels like my only outlet because pretty much everyone in my life is sick of hearing about how much I miss my husband. I am sick of hearing how I can do better. I am sick of having my friends and even MOTHER try to hook me up with new men. Even though I've attempted to converse with men, they all disappoint me and make me miss my hubby even more. I am from Cali and moved back to my moms out here in Indiana To get away from all the drama... but I learned a harsh lesson... drama doesn't disappear... it ALWAYS follows you.

Anyways, I've decided I'm going to move back to California because I am really unhappy out here. I was going to have my hubby transfer his parole out here, but he is Cali 1000% and if I hate it out here, he would despise it! I am excited and scared at the same time because I've lost everything since I moved out here. My car, my apartment and pretty much everything but my clothes. I feel overwhelmed and I don't know where to start.....

Well.. sorry bout my ranting and raving... but i hate writing when its not a letter to him, and i don't own a diary.. hopefully someone is able to give me some insite on how and where to start! Thanks Ladies:confused: :confused: :confused: :confused:

(((HUGS))) to you, I too am in Indiana and my best friend is in California also. I know what you mean by hating it here as we are so far behind the times in Indiana.
Where are you located? Perhaps before you leave if not to far from me we could meet and talk if you like.
PM me and we shall talk further if you like as well.

Hang in there, soon it will get better for you!!!

Where in Cali are you planning on moving too? Do you have kids? If you have kids, you can apply for welfare and they will help you find an apartment and hook you up with the deposit and stuff. If not, hope you the best of luck. Where there is a will, there is a way.

Hang in there honey (((HUGS)))

Sorry to hear you are unhappy here in Indiana. My sister grew up here, but she is an Oklahoma girl thru and thru now. It took me a while to figure out how that happened, but she assures me she is happier there than here, so I can understand how you feel. Maybe you can get a job short term here where you can save enough money to move back to California and make a fresh start. Feel free to pm me any time. And like TerriB, if you are close enough, maybe we can meet and have coffee or a soft drink. Good luck. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope things work out for you.

HEY GIRL, MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU, AND I WISH YOU ALOT OF LUCK, LIFE ISN'T EASY AT TIMES. I DON'T HAVE MUCH TO OFFER YOU, BUT IFI CAN HELP ANY WAY PLEASE CONTACT ME. WHERE WILL YOU BE IN CALIFORNIA? AND DON'T TAKE THIS WRONG BUT I HOPE YOUR MAN KNOWS WHAT A SPECIAL WOMEN YOU ARE AND CAN APPRICATE YOU. THATS A BIG STEP YOUR TAKEN AND SCARY, NOT TO MENTION ALONE. KEEP YOUR CHIN UP AND DONT SETTLE FOR NOTHING LESS.

I'm moving back to Los Angeles Area, San Fernando Valley. I was going to California State University, Northridge before I moved out here, and I am trying to see if I can get back in.. I'm only 12 credits away from graduation.... Thats pretty much a huge priority for me.

Thank you everyone for your words of kindness... you are all and inspiration to me... and thats real

csusarrah- hey I went to CSUN too! I never quite finished too. Believe it or not I am 1 class (3 units) away from my BS. I need to go back too. Good luck ok.

Girl... you better go back to school! One class???? I'm going back for sure in the fall! Hopefully I'll see ya there!