Hello, I met the man i love very much while he was in prison. I was an officer at the time and another inmate just happened to point him out to me one day because this other inmate was gay and like him and he wanted to show me who he was. Well, we had never talked or come in any contack before. I started working there in 2000 and he came there in 2001, we finally met in 2004. he said he has seen be but he didn't want to kick it with any officers. Well, one day i seen him after he was pointed out to me, and just smiled at him. Then we talked that same day. He is a really sweet guy and very goodlooking. We starting writing eachother through a friend. Then before we knew it we have become really close and fell in love. We don't have intimates but i have been held by him and kissed. He is the only person i have ever met that gave me butterflies in my stomach, everytime i was able to see him i had a smile on my face that couldn't be erased. I love him very much. When i had to quit, i burned off on him because i heard about some other girl coming to visit him and he never told me about her. I got married to someone else, and now i wish i could turn back time. I have never stopped thinking of him and my love for him is even stronger. Once a year had past i finally got up the nerve to write to see how he was, and he wrote back. But he is very upset with me. He did tell me that his heart is still screeming my name. I broke a promise to him, and now i don't think he could ever trust me again. But we still write, and he sent some pictures and wanted me to make him some copies and said i could keep one of him. i sent him a pictures of me and now he is wanting more. I believe he still loves me, but i don't know if he has someone else on the side. THat is my story of how i met the man i love while he was in prison.:)

Wow you've been through alot. Are you still married or are you free to start/re-start this relationship? Or perhaps even though your love is strong you would rather remain friends?

Just wondering,
Patty

Yes i'm still married but we don't live together cause i can't trust my husband, he has done me wrong, but jesse is the one on my mind. My husband has been gone since dec. 28th and i don't miss him at all i miss jesse. I don't think jesse has forgiving me for what i have done. But i do believe he iswilling to give us another chance if i fight for hima nd show him how i really feel, making up for lost times. i have his pictures and i look at it and it hurts just ot see him, and it makes me realize how much i miss him.

Are you sure the girl that was visiting him, wasnt his sister or something?? Have you told him why you burned him off, and given him a chance to explain himself? Where is this other girl now?

yes, i'm sure that she is not his sister, i had looked it up but i didn't say anything i wanted him to tell me, he said she is a friend and that she wants something with him but he don't want any thing with her. He said after that visit where she was claiming to be his girlfriend he said he wrote me but i didn't recieve anything from him, i wrote him asking him about her and is she really his girlfriend, but it was over a month later before i ever heard from him again, by them i have moved on. Last week i wrote him and asked him how did she come in his life and he told me how it all came about.

Babygirlsoto,

It appears that you've experienced a whirlwind. Do you have a trust issue w/ him? If so, you need to let him know how you're feeling. Based on what you've shared, if the two of you decide to move forward, it would appear that you guys might need to explain to the others in your life what the two of you have decided.

Best wishes

well..i think we have trust issues, because we are writing again after a year has past and the way he talks in his letters as if he really don't trust me. He put in one letter that he will give us another chance and that is don't want to go through this up and down stuff with me or anyone. He also told me that i need to show and fight for him. i want to be with him but how do i know if he is for real and not going to leave me when he gets out. I know this one guy that was in there, and he had some pictures and letters of this girl that use to be an officer, and when he got to go home, he was asking the other offender if they want them pictures because he don't care he's going home. I scares me.