I though I would set up this thread for those days when we are feeling Angry, Sad, or for Whatever issue is bringing us down at the moment. I have found great comfort in the encouraging words that my CMC ladies have given me.

So if you need a your spirits lifted.. come on in!:thumbsup:

Let me be first... I woke up in such a good mood and was feeling so positive until...I was on my way out to take the boys to school and we found my car window broken out! I was so upset I just began to cry.:cry: Why would anyone do this to me? The good thing is nothing was stolen.. I just dont get it, though.

So ladies... I need a hug!


Oh and Lisa.. here's one for you. :grouphug: I know you're needing it right now.

Awww Claudia, I am sorry sweetie! And Lisa for whatever you may be needing the hug for here ya go....:grouphug:

Huga bug from me so sorry

I though I would set up this thread for those days when we are feeling Angry, Sad, or for Whatever issue is bringing us down at the moment. I have found great comfort in the encouraging words that my CMC ladies have given me.

So if you need a your spirits lifted.. come on in!:thumbsup:

WOW CLAUDIA, THANKS FOR STARTING THIS THREAD.... I SO DESPERATELY NEED A HUG. IM MISSING MY HUSBAND SO MUCH RIGHT NOW :cry: :cry: :cry: AND I HAVENT HAD A CALL FROM HIM SINCE MONDAY OR TUESDAY AND NO MAIL :hmm: !!!! HE PROMISED TO WRITE MORE BUT STILL IVE GOT NOTHING AND EVERY DAY I GO TO THE MAIL BOX MY HEART JUST BREAKS MORE AND MORE.

WOW CLAUDIA, THANKS FOR STARTING THIS THREAD.... I SO DESPERATELY NEED A HUG. IM MISSING MY HUSBAND SO MUCH RIGHT NOW :cry: :cry: :cry: AND I HAVENT HAD A CALL FROM HIM SINCE MONDAY OR TUESDAY AND NO MAIL :hmm: !!!! HE PROMISED TO WRITE MORE BUT STILL IVE GOT NOTHING AND EVERY DAY I GO TO THE MAIL BOX MY HEART JUST BREAKS MORE AND MORE.

Oh Crystal, Im so sorry that you're upset. I know you're going through such a difficult time right now. Girl you know he's feeling the same way. Those letters will start coming you'll see. Here's a hug for you.:grouphug:

Claudia, Lisa a big hug to you both.:grouphug:

Crystal, a big hug to you too. :grouphug: About the mail my sweetie said that every since the holiday mail has been slow going out and coming in and it's just starting to pick up. Your mail is on it's way honey. As for phone calls he said that the prison was locked down the other day and the ambulance was there etc, he wasn't able to finish telling me because our time was up. He just told me all this about 20 min ago.

Claudia, Lisa a big hug to you both.:grouphug:

Crystal, a big hug to you too. :grouphug: About the mail my sweetie said that every since the holiday mail has been slow going out and coming in and it's just starting to pick up. Your mail is on it's way honey. As for phone calls he said that the prison was locked down the other day and the ambulance was there etc, he wasn't able to finish telling me because our time was up. He just told me all this about 20 min ago.

THANKS CYSREESE, I AM GLAD TO HAVE SOME INFO I KNOW THE MAIL IS SLOW AS ALL HELL BUT GEESH NO CALLS HMMMMMM

Oh Crystal, Im so sorry that you're upset. I know you're going through such a difficult time right now. Girl you know he's feeling the same way. Those letters will start coming you'll see. Here's a hug for you.:grouphug:

OH CLAUDIA, THANK YOU SO MUCH DEAR, YOURE TOO KIND BUT I HOPE HES NOT FEELING WHAT IM FEELING, I DO MY BEST TO WRITE ALOT AND IVE BEEN SENDING HIM VALENTINE DAY CARDS EVERY OTHER DAY ALREADY SO HOPEFULLY HE WILL START GETTING THOSE SOON. IVE SENT 4 SO FAR SINCE LAST FRIDAY AND TOMORROW WILL BE #5 :). WHEN HE STARTS GETTING THEM EVERY OTHER DAY HE'S GOING TO KNOW IM CRAZY (I BOUGHT AN ENORMOUS AMOUNT OF CARDS) LOL BECAUSE I LOVE HIM JUST THAT MUCH!!!

HUGS going out to Claudia... :grouphug:

Some HUGS for Crystal...:grouphug:

And couple HUGS going out to Lisa...:grouphug:

I am here for you ladies-ALWAYS!!!

OH CLAUDIA, THANK YOU SO MUCH DEAR, YOURE TOO KIND BUT I HOPE HES NOT FEELING WHAT IM FEELING, I DO MY BEST TO WRITE ALOT AND IVE BEEN SENDING HIM VALENTINE DAY CARDS EVERY OTHER DAY ALREADY SO HOPEFULLY HE WILL START GETTING THOSE SOON. IVE SENT 4 SO FAR SINCE LAST FRIDAY AND TOMORROW WILL BE #5 :). WHEN HE STARTS GETTING THEM EVERY OTHER DAY HE'S GOING TO KNOW IM CRAZY (I BOUGHT AN ENORMOUS AMOUNT OF CARDS) LOL BECAUSE I LOVE HIM JUST THAT MUCH!!!

I know you dont want him to feel what you're feeling, but you know he's missing you just as much. He's gonna be soo happy to get all those cards, Girl! You are gonna make his MONTH! I last spoke to JB on Tuesday evening and he told me he would see the Parole board on Wednesday.. I havnt heard from him since. Im anxious to hear from him Crystal. I really hate the phone situation over there. Im just missing him thats all. :(

Thank you to all my girls for the encouraging words and all those hugs! Boy do they help!

:grouphug: BIG GIGANTIC HUGS TO EVERYONE WHO'S HAVING A ROUGH TIME....FEEL THE LOVE!!!!!!

THANKS LADIES HUGS TO YOU ALL :grouphug: YOU GUYS ARE GREAT!!!
WELL HE CALLED THIS MORNING AND WE ARE BOTH MISSING EACHOTHER SO MUCH BUT HE SOUNDED REALLY GOOD AND I CANT WAIT TO HEAR FROM HIM AGAIN. AND HE SAID THE MAIL IS COMMING LOL. YOU GUYS HAVE A GREAT DAY.

Guess what girls! My dad is looking for a property to invest in out in my neighborhood. So I contacted my Real Estate lady that helped me with the purchase of my home 6 years ago. Well I met with her yesterday to view some homes. Now I havnt seen here in 6 years and guess what she said before even a hello:

Real estate lady from hell : " OH MY GOD! I CANT BELIEVE HOW FAT YOU GOT! WOW I ALMOST DIDNT RECOGNIZE YOU"

Little Ol' me : :eek:

So I was just a little bothered and after we saw the first house we were scheduled to see 3 more. So then I said: " Well, Im not gonna be able to check out the other properties because I havnt eaten in like 10 minutes and Im starving!" :haha:

Can you all believe that? Im not a size 3 but hey I wouldnt exactly call myself fat and unrecognizable!:blah:

So im posting her picture here.. She doesnt have a six pack herself!:p
Someone give my fat ass a hug please!

Claudia~

I am not from CMC< but I just saw this post and damn I can't belive that lady told you that, I would have been :angry: .. What about all that junkin her trunk???

Here is a hug for you girl :grouphug:

Kristina

Claudia~

I am not from CMC< but I just saw this post and damn I can't belive that lady told you that, I would have been :angry: .. What about all that junkin her trunk???

Here is a hug for you girl :grouphug:

Kristina


Oh girl, you having me cracking up! If someone is gonna call me fat they should be skinnier than me!:D Im a size 5, she swears, she was trying to be mean!

So im posting her picture here.. She doesnt have a six pack herself!:p
Someone give my fat ass a hug please!

ha ha now thats a fat ass and i can talk cause i got one too lol

awwww poor claudia heres a hug girlie and dont worry youre always cute as can be :grouphug: and here you want somma my grandma's peanut butter cookie and sunny d? lol

Claudia - girl that real estate lady has her nerve! She should take a look in the mirror! I hope your father does not give her his business after that comment!!!!! Here's a big hug :grouphug: for that mean comment. You do not look big at all from the pictures I've seen of you! Don't listen to that evil b!%ch.

Crystal - here's a hug :grouphug: for you too sweetie. Being away from your honey has really been hard on you and it's not fair! We're here for you girl and many more hugs are coming your way! :)

Thanks Lisa and Crystal! I feel better all ready. Compliments from hot women such as yourselves has me feeling better!

Some peanut butter cookies and sunny d sounds great! MMMMMM:)

Oh my, I can't believe she would say that to you. You are so beautiful and pretty and she is just a hater-she's a stupid b*tch !! Just shake her off and let weight be her issue. Here's a hug :grouphug:

Oh my, I can't believe she would say that to you. You are so beautiful and pretty and she is just a hater-she's a stupid b*tch !! Just shake her off and let weight be her issue. Here's a hug :grouphug:

Thanks Drena! ok Im gonna take her picture off tomorrow morning. thanks for the Hugs!:)

Claudia,

She has he nerve to be calling someone fat, she has more junk in her trunk then she can handle. Here is a big hug for you. :grouphug: She's a hater.

Crystal, A big hug :grouphug:to you too I know you are going through not being with your man.

Okay ladies I need a hug and a slap. Myself and another girlfriend went gambling tonight and I always play the max, I fuss at them to play it too. Well I thought I was and did not look down at the credits I was playing and won $3800 instead of $10,000:angry:and have beat myself up there and the whole entire 45 minutes home and then some.

I would say I need a hug but I just might hurt the person who hugs me. You would think it was that time of the month for me or something but it's not......I just can't stand him right now!!!

(((((((((((hugs for everyone))))))))))))

I would say I need a hug but I just might hurt the person who hugs me. You would think it was that time of the month for me or something but it's not......I just can't stand him right now!!!

(((((((((((hugs for everyone))))))))))))

bjvbsx2: Here's a hug anyway! Lotsa love!:grouphug:

Cyreese: Here's a hug for you too! No slap though!:grouphug:

I would say I need a hug but I just might hurt the person who hugs me. You would think it was that time of the month for me or something but it's not......I just can't stand him right now!!!

(((((((((((hugs for everyone))))))))))))


:grouphug: Hugs to everyone in need today and I am certainly on that list as well as a member of "the I cant stand him right now" club.

I hope everyone has a better day today than yesterday and definitely a better one than me today.

:grouphug: Hugs to everyone in need today and I am certainly on that list as well as a member of "the I cant stand him right now" club.

I hope everyone has a better day today than yesterday and definitely a better one than me today.

Oh Sweetie.. This is horrible, everyone is really going through it these days. I hope things get better soon for you both. Hang in there Girly.. :grouphug: and hugs for you! And yes.. today has got to be a better day.. lets keep positive!:thumbsup:

I am really in need of a hug right now....my guy hasnt sent me a single piece of mail in over a week and no phone calls either:mad: And after such a great visit I was expecting something!!! And it seems like it happened just when I started going through drama and could use a smile on my face...timing is everything!!!

Here is a BIG HUG FOR ALL OF YOU!!!! :grouphug:

Claudia - I didnt get to see the pic but she must have some nerve, cause to me you are a skinny minnie! LOL

Oh Sweetie.. This is horrible, everyone is really going through it these days. I hope things get better soon for you both. Hang in there Girly.. :grouphug: and hugs for you! And yes.. today has got to be a better day.. lets keep positive!:thumbsup:

Thanks Claudia but its really not turning out that way. First that horrible phone call, no mail and then an even worse letter from my doctor today. When does it end? Is it Wednesday yet?

By the way has anyone heard anything about the mail situation getting better up there yet? Ive been sending cards like crazy and I even sent a couple of letters and he has recvd NOTHING!!!!!:angry:

By the way has anyone heard anything about the mail situation getting better up there yet? Ive been sending cards like crazy and I even sent a couple of letters and he has recvd NOTHING!!!!!:angry:


The mailroom is still backed up about 2 weeks of mail. The mail coming from the inmates to us is running normal. However our mailed we send to them is taking at least 2 weeks for them to receive. :rolleyes:

I am really in need of a hug right now....my guy hasnt sent me a single piece of mail in over a week and no phone calls either:mad: And after such a great visit I was expecting something!!! And it seems like it happened just when I started going through drama and could use a smile on my face...timing is everything!!!

Dont feel so bad I didnt get anything all last week or this one. I spoke to him today and he said all the mail that he sent out got returned because he used 37 cent stamps. The thing is that he mailed them out before the increase to 39 cents! So go figure!!:hmm: Im sure there is a good explanation for you not getting mail. Maybe the same thing happened to him that happened to my man! Here's a hug girl.. :grouphug:

Dont feel so bad I didnt get anything all last week or this one. I spoke to him today and he said all the mail that he sent out got returned because he used 37 cent stamps. The thing is that he mailed them out before the increase to 39 cents! So go figure!!:hmm: Im sure there is a good explanation for you not getting mail. Maybe the same thing happened to him that happened to my man! Here's a hug girl.. :grouphug:



thanks, I'm sure he has a good explanation too...i just really needed to talk to him. But I'll take the hug for now:o

thanks, I'm sure he has a good explanation too...i just really needed to talk to him. But I'll take the hug for now:o


:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: BIG HUGS FOR YOU CHUEYSGIRL :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

Ladies,

Here's a big hug to you all!!:grouphug:

Claudia, thank you for not slapping me. :)

Ladies,



Claudia, thank you for not slapping me. :)

Hey no problem! You're so funny!:haha:

I am in need of a hug I'm going through it right now him being away and I'm missing my mom it's not a good night for me.

But here's a hug for all of those that need it:grouphug::grouphug:.

I am in need of a hug I'm going through it right now him being away and I'm missing my mom it's not a good night for me.

But here's a hug for all of those that need it:grouphug::grouphug:.


Aww poo32, here's a big hug for ya girl :grouphug:! Like I told Crystal, I'm so sorry that Bobby sent that "bug" traveling everyones way....:eek: lol I was cracking up when Claudia said that to me......

But back to the subject at hand, I really do hope things get better for everyone.:)

I am in need of a hug I'm going through it right now him being away and I'm missing my mom it's not a good night for me.

But here's a hug for all of those that need it:grouphug::grouphug:.

Awwww cousin heres a hug for you :grouphug: and heres one for the rest of our group :grouphug: and I pray everyone has a blessed day.

I am in need of a hug I'm going through it right now him being away and I'm missing my mom it's not a good night for me.

But here's a hug for all of those that need it:grouphug::grouphug:.

Poo Honey, Im sorry you're not feeling so good these days. We are all here to support you in the good times and bad. :grouphug:

I am in need of a hug I'm going through it right now him being away and I'm missing my mom it's not a good night for me.

But here's a hug for all of those that need it:grouphug::grouphug:.


I hope sometime soon you can put a smile on your face!!!!

Ladies here is a song my husband sent to me and I think this is something we can all use right now. Enjoy I did :) If you cant click the link below just paste this into your browser and when the window opens it will automatically play the song.

http://www.hearhope.com/

Ladies here is a song my husband sent to me and I think this is something we can all use right now. Enjoy I did :) If you cant click the link below just paste this into your browser and when the window opens it will automatically play the song.

http://www.hearhope.com/


Thank you for that!!! Even though I sat here with tears running down my face that is a true song!!!

Take Care
Amanda

Thank you for that!!! Even though I sat here with tears running down my face that is a true song!!!

Take Care
Amanda

Amanda, youre very welcome. Funny how my honey always sends me the best songs and they always hit home when I need them. I just love that man.

And by the way Lisa he called today and things are business as usual. I got all that I was looking for and though its stressful he came through with flying colors. Thanks for your listening ear :thumbsup:

Here some hugs for all my CMC sisters!!:grouphug: Stay strong ladies and lets all pray, there's strength in numbers!!! Things will be fine real soon!!

Okay ladies, I need a hug and some cicken noodle soup & some orange juice please. :( I'm sick, I have the flu and this is just kicking my butt. I've been here in bed since last night. I have a runny nose my head hurts so bad and my throat is killing me.


So big hugs for me please......I know, I know, I'm being a big baby! :p

Okay ladies, I need a hug and some cicken noodle soup & some orange juice please. :( I'm sick, I have the flu and this is just kicking my butt. I've been here in bed since last night. I have a runny nose my head hurts so bad and my throat is killing me.


So big hugs for me please......I know, I know, I'm being a big baby! :p

Oh Lisa, I hope youre feeling better soon and heres a hug for you :grouphug:
Get plenty of rest, get some ibuprofen and drink plenty of fluids. This too will pass girlie.

Plenty of Orange Juice... Fresh squeezed preferably and take these 2 hugs :grouphug: :grouphug: and call me in the morning! Feel better:thumbsup:

Thanks Crystal & Claudia for the advice. I've been trying to drink orange juice but everytime I swallow it I feel like I'm going to throw up because of the acid.

Ugh...I hate being sick!!! I called the advice nurse and she said it can last up to 2 weeks. I pray I get better soon.....before this weekend.:(

Aww Lisa, I hope you feel better soon! Here is a big hug:grouphug:

Lisa,

A bug :grouphug: to you. Drink plenty of fluids like the ladies said and remember plenty of rest. Have you tried Theraflu? It's pretty good, it's nasty but it works. Drink some, get under the covers and sweat that sickness out in no time. I hate being sick too. I have a real bad toothache and you would think as much as one pays to have medical and dental insurance one could be seen without paying an arm and a leg up front. Take care of yourself!

Okay so he called and mind you I haven't talked to him for a couple of days and he has the balls to tell me he isn't happy. No sh*t!!! What makes him that I am. He is the one that left me to raise two girls on my own, I am the one trying to do everything out here and he wants to say he isn't happy.
So this weekend we shall see what happends. He says we are going to talk, well I am sure there are going to be some tears cause I have no clue how much more I can take.

Okay just had to get it out girls....


Take Care
Amanda

Okay so he called and mind you I haven't talked to him for a couple of days and he has the balls to tell me he isn't happy. No sh*t!!! What makes him that I am. He is the one that left me to raise two girls on my own, I am the one trying to do everything out here and he wants to say he isn't happy.
So this weekend we shall see what happends. He says we are going to talk, well I am sure there are going to be some tears cause I have no clue how much more I can take.

Okay just had to get it out girls....


Take Care
Amanda

Are you visiting this weekend? I hope that you guys have that talk and that all goes well for you. Hang in there girl, and try not to let it bring you down too much. Stay up for your girls. Here's a big hug for you ... :grouphug:

Here's a hug for you Amanda, I know its hard but we as women always do what we must for our children thats why God made us mothers:grouphug:. Stand strong and stay prayer-full Lady, you will make it. I pray your visit goes well.

Thank you guys for you advice but I think which ever way this visit goes I will be okay. If he chooses to keep us together then he does if he doesn't then that is on him. I am thinking it is going to hurt if he ends it but I still have my girls to live for and that is what I will do.

Amanda, honey we are all here for you. Ask God to just let His will be done and believe things will work out for the best in you situation. :grouphug: Love ya!

Amanda,

Here is a big :grouphug: for you. Stay strong and prayerful for you and your girls. We are all here for you.

Well ladies I hate to tell you guys but at 3:00pm I got the call that he wants out of our marriage. He says that he loves me and for me to always remeber that but he can't stay with me because all we do is argue. I love this man so much and had some many dreams to fill with him still but he took that from me. He took 10 years of love away and crushed it.
My daughters hearts are crushed cause they so badly wanted their daddy to live at home with them.
I have no clue what way is left or right. I can't keep the tears from rolling down my cheeks.
I never thought that this would happen to me I thought for damn sure I would have grown old with this man. We would have watched our grandkids grow up. Damn he has just taken my life from me like it meant nothing.
He has asked that me and his daughters not come up this weekend so I am sorry to say I won't be meeting you ladies.

amanda

Oh Amanda sweetie I am so sorry to hear this. I mean it's not just like he's your boyfriend....he's your HUSBAND. I don't get it, how can these men who are locked up tell the women out here who are trying to take care of home, the kids, etc......that it's over and he wants out. I'm sure this has been very hard for you to deal with, especially because your girls are crushed. All you can do is just take it day by day. If he does end up calling back and saying he didn't mean it, you better let him know that he can't keep running in and out of your life. A marriage and those vows should be kept seriously and regardless of how hard times get, if its meant to be then it can be worked on. Good luck to you and the girls......but no matter what you follow your heart okay. BIG HUGS AMANDA :grouphug:

I think I need more than hug...My life seems to have been turned upside down in a matter of a second. First the state took him away from me and my kids and now he wants to take himself away from us. I don't see how one is to keep going after the love of your life, somebody you call your best friend just ups and leaves. I so badly want to go up there tomorrow just like old times but my heart won't let me get out of bed and my tears won't let me see the road to see straight. I never thought he would leave. I want my husband back I want my life back and I want this knife that just stabed my heart to get pulled out.
Which way is left and which way is right. My life is over!!

I think I need more than hug...My life seems to have been turned upside down in a matter of a second. First the state took him away from me and my kids and now he wants to take himself away from us. I don't see how one is to keep going after the love of your life, somebody you call your best friend just ups and leaves. I so badly want to go up there tomorrow just like old times but my heart won't let me get out of bed and my tears won't let me see the road to see straight. I never thought he would leave. I want my husband back I want my life back and I want this knife that just stabed my heart to get pulled out.
Which way is left and which way is right. My life is over!!

No Amanda, your life is not over, dont say that. Your kids need you to be ok. If you're not ok, then they're not ok. Your Husband may be going through something in there. He may not even mean what he is saying. Sometimes they go through weirdness in there and... well I dont know your situation, but it just sounds "off" that he ended it, just like that. I think you deserve a face to face conversation with him.. your girls deserve at least that. I know you feel as if your world is crashing down on you.. but you can get through this. Whether you two get back together or not, its in Destiny's hands. I myself wouldnt be satisfied with that kind of goodbye. Amanda, we are here for you. We women dont know how strong we are until we are put to the test... this is your test. Be strong and be brave... we have your back.

Amanda,

Honey, I am so sorry you are going through this right now. Just as Claudia said it best, they do go through something we don't understand. Sometimes they see things thinking they will make the time we are doing with them easier when they are really making it harder.

Stay strong for you and your girls, pray about it and on it and give it to GOD. If it is meant to be it will be and if not you still have yourself and daughters to live for and make a good life for.

We are here for you and we got your back always. A couple of hugs for you:grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug:.

Well, my drive home was horrible. I was about an hour and a half from home when my driver's side window became stuck. It would roll down but wouldn't go all the way up. So I had to drive down the freeway with the heater blasting and the window down, I was so pissed:angry: !

Then Sunday Nite Slow Jams come on and I start crying until I made myself sick. I could barely see through the tears to drive. I miss my baby so so so so much already!

When I finally get home I find both of my kids sick with the stomach flu:(

Then this morning when I called the guy to find out how much it would be to fix the window he said between $600-$900:eek: because the motor in the door has to be replaced-sound like BS to me.

After that I leave to take my sister to school and I stop at a red light and my car goes dead:eek: ! I had to be towed all the way home. I just sat in the tow truck and cried like a little baby. He then gives me the keys back after it's towed into the driveway. I get into the car and see that he rolled the window all the way down and I pray I can at least get it back to where it was right? Can you all believe the damn thing rolled all the way up! But last night it would not move at all.:angry: :angry: :angry:

I can't believe all this is happening to me. It's time like this when I need my man here with me more than ever.I hope things get better soon because the week just started! Please pray for me:o

Drena, Im so sorry this all happened to you and yes girl you need several hugs and I know youre missing your man but stand strong and stay prayer-full. Heres many hugs for you:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

p.s. Ive had many car problems in my day and that is too much for a motor. Call an auto glass company/the ones who replace car windows and they will give you a better price, that must be the dealer price you recvd. Good luck!

Oh Drena.. you've had such a rough time Im sending you this big hug:grouphug: Crystal is right, I just had my car window fixed, you know the one that was broken out.. well the window on my other car has the same problem.. the window got stuck and it wont roll up. So the guy that fixed the broken window said they could also fix the "stuck window". I heard a big "Crack" sound when the window got stuck and he said that most likely the wires got caught in the motor and snapped them. That price they gave you sounds ridiculous.

May tomorrow be a good day and I hope that your days just get better and better!

Girls.. I need a hug too. I dont know why but today I woke up in this weird mood. I had this dream about a past hurt that J.B. put me through (years ago). I awoke experiencing those same feelings.. the hurt. He called today around 12:15pm and he was in such a good mood. He immediately noticed that I wasnt in that "Lovey Dovey" mood. I didnt tell him what was bothering me but I think I hurt his feelings by being stand off-ish. I didnt bring it up because it is something that we promised to leave in the past.

Do things from the past ever come back to haunt you... and hurt you just like the first time?

Anyhow I cant wait for him to call back.. I need to appologize I feel bad that I hurt him. And to top it off I got a beautiful Birthday card that he drew in the mail today when I got home from work... do I even deserve a hug?

Claudia,

I go through that same thing. Funny you mentioned pass things. I was thinking about some stuff in the pass that my hubby did to me and it all came back to me last night and it really hurt and I started asking myself questionsall over again taking myself through the hurt and pain. Honey, do not do that to yourself or J.B. if you made a promise not to bring it up its good to keep that promise, I know hard but good. We have to move forward and not dwell and soak in that pain because we need to enjoy our lives together with our men. We all have endored a lot while they were home and now while they are gone seems like everything piles up on us. I know look who's talking?!? :) Really though I understand because me and my husband have been married for 17 years but have been to hell and back and we are still standing and not matter what hurt and pain I have went through I know he has my back and I have his. Same with you and J.B. A big :grouphug: to you.

Drena, I know what you are feeling to honey. I went through that today. I had a hard day at work, just horrible, still trying to bully me out of promotion, having meetings when I'm not there and supposed to be, then I get home and it started snowing a little, my girls told me the Satellite went out, first thought was oh shoot did I forget to pay that bill, come to find out I had to get a long ladder, climb on top of the house in the snow, and cover up the satellite, I though gosh I wish my sweetie was here. Honey, you will get through this stay prayerful and strong. Now for that window, he is full of BS..... That is way to much money, I'm like Crystal that must be a dealership price. It didn't cost that much to get my window fixed. I know it was like $100 or under but not as nearly as much as oh boy is trying to charge. Okay, I had one of those moments to come and beat someone down for you for lying. LOL :) Hang in there and keep your head up! A big :grouphug: to you and the rest of my CMC sisters.

Aww....big hugs to both Drena & Claudia :grouphug:.

Claudia, :grouphug: big hugs to you. This week is half way over and you will be in his arm really soon!!


Thanks to everyone for your support! The window is fine now the car just won't start. I am having it towed again to the dealership and my dad said he would handle everything from there. What can I say I love being Daddy's litle girl.

Claudia, :grouphug: big hugs to you. This week is half way over and you will be in his arm really soon!!


Thanks to everyone for your support! The window is fine now the car just won't start. I am having it towed again to the dealership and my dad said he would handle everything from there. What can I say I love being Daddy's litle girl.

Right on! Im glad that your car is gonna be fixed and your Daddy is helping you out. What would we do without our Daddy's? Good for you.. and thanks for helping me out with my dilema girl.. you're the best!:thumbsup:

Awwww it seems like all of my girls are in need of a HUG!!!! :grouphug: Well here you are! I need one too, I layed my ex to rest, it was sooo hard, and to make matters worse, I live directly across the street from a cemetary, that doesnt bother me, what does, is that I can see his grave from my gate.....:( I need a hug!

Awwww it seems like all of my girls are in need of a HUG!!!! :grouphug: Well here you are! I need one too, I layed my ex to rest, it was sooo hard, and to make matters worse, I live directly across the street from a cemetary, that doesnt bother me, what does, is that I can see his grave from my gate.....:( I need a hug!

Hugs to you Girl.. :grouphug: That is soo sad, it must have been very difficult for you. Now to top it off you could see his grave site from your house? Oh Honey, that is just awful.:( We've missed you around here. I hope everything else in your life is going better, Candy.. if anyone has gone through enough for the past few months.. it's you. You definitely need that trip to Miami... Something to look forward to Girl!

(((((BIG HUGS)))))

Candy, I am so very sorry:grouphug: I will continue to pray for you!!!

Candy, A big :grouphug: to you.

Drena, Glad to hear everything is working out for you on the car. I am not a daddy's girl but a granddaddy's girl :)

Well I hope everyone has been getting the hugs thay all have been waiting for. Thank you all for the kind words and everything else. Just to give you guys an update. I have no clue what is going on with my husband and I. He has called a couple of times to make sure I know that him leaving me is my fault. That he has given up so much for me. Well I hate to say it but I don't know what it was that he gave up since I am the one who is and has been sitting here since 2000 raising his two kids and working two jobs to keep our house going. I think for me I am sick of hearing that everything is me me me. He needs to see that he is at fault for some crap also after all he is the one that put himself there.
Sorry ladies if this sounds mean but I am done begging to come back and for him to stay and work out or family!!!

Take Care
Amanda

Well I hope everyone has been getting the hugs thay all have been waiting for. Thank you all for the kind words and everything else. Just to give you guys an update. I have no clue what is going on with my husband and I. He has called a couple of times to make sure I know that him leaving me is my fault. That he has given up so much for me. Well I hate to say it but I don't know what it was that he gave up since I am the one who is and has been sitting here since 2000 raising his two kids and working two jobs to keep our house going. I think for me I am sick of hearing that everything is me me me. He needs to see that he is at fault for some crap also after all he is the one that put himself there.
Sorry ladies if this sounds mean but I am done begging to come back and for him to stay and work out or family!!!

Take Care
Amanda

You know what Amanda... if he's just calling to make you misreable.. dont accept those calls. It's messed up that he does that to you.. Dont Let Him!:mad: As far as your daughters are concerned... you can send him pictures of them and things like that and just keep it about the kids. He's not right for calling to BLAME YOU. You have every right to be angry.. sometimes it's anger that helps us to be brave and face these unfair situations. Hang in there and stay strong!

Amanda,

I have to agree with Claudia. If he is just calling for that reason don't except his calls. Send him pictures of the girls and let that be it. Feed him with a long handle spoon. (I think I said that saying right) LOL Here is a :grouphug: for you honey. Stay strong and know that we are always here for you!

Well I am going up to visit on Sunday. The whole reason is so he can see "our" kids. I think I am better off with out him. As much as I say I love him I love him enough to let him go. I have sat by his side for ten years and let him put me down to much. I don't know where I getting the balls to do all this on my own but I think this is what is best for my and the girls. We can still stay friends but I think the relationship part needs to end.


Thank you all for being there for me. You all have been great friends on here and I truly do wish you all the best of luck!!!!

Take Care
Amanda

Well I am going up to visit on Sunday. The whole reason is so he can see "our" kids. I think I am better off with out him. As much as I say I love him I love him enough to let him go. I have sat by his side for ten years and let him put me down to much. I don't know where I getting the balls to do all this on my own but I think this is what is best for my and the girls. We can still stay friends but I think the relationship part needs to end.
Thank you all for being there for me. You all have been great friends on here and I truly do wish you all the best of luck!!!!
Take Care
Amanda

Amanda, Im sorry to hear you are going thru all of this. You definitely have to find the strength within yourself to move on and do the best you can for yourself and your girls. As parents, especially mothers, we do all we can to protect, nurture and educate our children and thats the best you can do for them and yourself in the long run. If you husband does not want to accept responsibility for his part on what has happened in your marriage "together" then one day he will open his eyes and see the err of his ways, not yours. Relationships do not have a spectator, there are two participants. Good luck to you and yours lady and I wish you nothing but the best. Personally, I feel he should be kissing your feet for trying your best to maintain what you have for so long on your own. My hat goes off to you and much love.
Crystal

p.s. I agree with Claudia, STOP taking those calls!!! Its costing you money and anguish and you dont need the anguish and Im sure the money can be much better spent.

Just to give you all an update.....I did go and visit my husband this weekend and just hurt myself more. I am so hurt that after spending ten years with somebody they can just leave you like that. I don't understand.
I got there at 11 and was our by 1. My whole day sucked. I can't cry cause I don't want my kids to see me go through this. I have always thought that all my dreams would come true with this man. He says that he will always love me and that he hopes we can be friends for the kids but how do you do that when one of you is still in love with the other.
Ten years I gave this man.....ten years....and I am now nothing but an ex wife, babys momma. I am so freakin hurt.
He asked if I would still takes the girls up there to see him once a month, I am not to sure if that is the best thing for me to do but I know my kids want to see their daddy and well me and the mother in law don't really talk. So I am screwd.

Damn I love this man so much and he has just put a knife in my heart and left it there. Why does this thing called love have to hurt so much?

Thank you for hearing me balb on and on

Amanda

Just to give you all an update.....I did go and visit my husband this weekend and just hurt myself more. I am so hurt that after spending ten years with somebody they can just leave you like that. I don't understand.
I got there at 11 and was our by 1. My whole day sucked. I can't cry cause I don't want my kids to see me go through this. I have always thought that all my dreams would come true with this man. He says that he will always love me and that he hopes we can be friends for the kids but how do you do that when one of you is still in love with the other.
Ten years I gave this man.....ten years....and I am now nothing but an ex wife, babys momma. I am so freakin hurt.
He asked if I would still takes the girls up there to see him once a month, I am not to sure if that is the best thing for me to do but I know my kids want to see their daddy and well me and the mother in law don't really talk. So I am screwd.

Damn I love this man so much and he has just put a knife in my heart and left it there. Why does this thing called love have to hurt so much?

Thank you for hearing me balb on and on

Amanda


Oh Amanda, I dont even know what to say. I know nothing at this point will make things better. Im so sorry that you are going through this. The only thing that will make things better is "time". You are gonna have to take some time for you. When a break up occurs, there is a greiving process that goes on. Its like the person died.. but yet they are still alive, you know? The other hard thing about this is your kids. You will always have to maintain contact with him because of the fact that you two have kids together. Whether or not you will be able to take your kids up there is up to you, and to boot... he's specifiying how many times a month to do so? I dont know Amanda, all of it just seems a bit too unfair. You need to take some time for you. I know you are hurting but try and do something to occupy your time. Maybe enroll in a fun class, dance, scrapbooking, Kick boxing or an exercise class, whatever it may be that may peak your interest that will allow you to put your energy and aggression through something positive. I just wish you werent going through all of this. What side is he on.. East or West? I was visiting on the East side. Keep checking in because believe or not this is a form of therapy. You deserve to be LOVED, RESPECTED, AND APPRECIATED. dont settle for less than that!

Amanda, big hugs to you :grouphug: girl. I am so sorry that you are going through this and I'm sure it hurts a lot. I agree with Claudia, time time and more time is how long it's going to take for you to heal.....but you will heal. Like Claudia said, occupy your time with different activites, the gym, classes, etc.... I can't even explain how a man who is behind those bars could get the nerve to tell the person who cares about him the most out here who's waitng for him that it's over! :( You now need to focus on YOU and the kids. His requests and demands go on the back burner girl because YOU and the kids come first!

Amanda,

I am soooo sorry you are going through this. I really don't know what to say and Claudia and Lisa said it pretty well. Take some me time and do things you enjoy doing. Whatever it is and have fun doing it. I know it's hard but you do have to move on and stay strong for yourself and for your kids. You all are what's important now, and I agree with the other ladies, what he wants needs to go on the back burner. You are in our prayers. Here is a huge :grouphug: to you.

Amanda, I am so sorry you are going through this. The ladies are right time does heal all wounds. Right now just go through the motions and find strength in your kids. You can and will make it through this.:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

Okay ladies I think I'm due for a hug now! :( I'm just so frustrated with these darn visiting appointment that I have to make for my non-contact visits!!! You can call up to 10 days in advance to make an appt. Well I called last thursday to make an appointment for this coming weekend (Feb. 11th & 12th) and I was told that all the 11am appointments were filled up? I was like what the heck, I called exactly at 9am when they started booking the appointments so how could they be booked. So fine, I got a later time. So then I had my mind set, "okay I guess I have to call on Wednesday's for the following week." :shrug:

So I called the visiting clerk right now just to make sure that I have to call on tomorrow for my appointment for next weekend and she said NO that I have to call on Thursday! So I was like WTF when I called last Thursday for this weekend, I called exactly at 9am when they start booking the appointments and you told me that all the 11am appointments were booked. So how could they all have been booked up if you start making the appointments on Thursday? All she said was, "well whoever booked the appointments didn't book them right." So I'm going to call on Thursday to book my appointment for next weekend like she said. But if that 11am slot is booked then I'm going to be heated!!!! :mad: Ugh....I hate this!!!!!

Okay ladies I think I'm due for a hug now! :( I'm just so frustrated with these darn visiting appointment that I have to make for my non-contact visits!!! You can call up to 10 days in advance to make an appt. Well I called last thursday to make an appointment for this coming weekend (Feb. 11th & 12th) and I was told that all the 11am appointments were filled up? I was like what the heck, I called exactly at 9am when they started booking the appointments so how could they be booked. So fine, I got a later time. So then I had my mind set, "okay I guess I have to call on Wednesday's for the following week." :shrug:

So I called the visiting clerk right now just to make sure that I have to call on tomorrow for my appointment for next weekend and she said NO that I have to call on Thursday! So I was like WTF when I called last Thursday for this weekend, I called exactly at 9am when they start booking the appointments and you told me that all the 11am appointments were booked. So how could they all have been booked up if you start making the appointments on Thursday? All she said was, "well whoever booked the appointments didn't book them right." So I'm going to call on Thursday to book my appointment for next weekend like she said. But if that 11am slot is booked then I'm going to be heated!!!! :mad: Ugh....I hate this!!!!!

Call on Wednesday anyway girl and try to book, just in case. The worst they could say is call back tomorrow. Its sounds like BS to me though.

Big Hugs ... :grouphug:

Call on Wednesday anyway girl and try to book, just in case. The worst they could say is call back tomorrow. Its sounds like BS to me though.

Big Hugs ... :grouphug:


Girl, they know my voice way too tell. But you're right, what are they going to tell me, "you can't call anymore?" I'm going to call tomorrow and see what they say. Another friend of mine calls on Wednesdays for her appointments so I'm going to see if they give her an appointment and if they do they I'm going to call and make mine and if they tell me NO but said yes to her then I'm definitely calling the Visiting Lt.

Dang I thought for a minute that this thread was going to turn into all about my life...
That does suck about the appointments, I know when my kids dad (or whatever you call him) was at PVSP we had to make appointments and I would keep calling and act stupid. Or I would have somebody else call for me. Do you know when the shift change is so maybe you can call when the other one leaves.

Good luck girl!!!

P.S. Thank you all so much for everything!!! My life just sucks right now!!!

Dang I thought for a minute that this thread was going to turn into all about my life...
That does suck about the appointments, I know when my kids dad (or whatever you call him) was at PVSP we had to make appointments and I would keep calling and act stupid. Or I would have somebody else call for me. Do you know when the shift change is so maybe you can call when the other one leaves.

Good luck girl!!!

P.S. Thank you all so much for everything!!! My life just sucks right now!!!


There's only 1 visitng clerk and we're only allowed to call and make an appointment between the hours of 9am-11am.:(

There's only 1 visitng clerk and we're only allowed to call and make an appointment between the hours of 9am-11am.:(




That sucks......if there is anything I can do to help you let me know. You have been a great help to me so I would love to help you out. But I would call tomorrow and see what happens.

Good Luck

Amanda

Lisa,

Call anyway. :grouphug: Hope everything works out for you.

Ladies, just to update you I took your advice and called today and guess what????? I was able to make the appointment for next weekend! :rolleyes: I'm happy but a little annoyed because if I didn't take everyones advice then I would have been a$$ed out on my appointment. Oh well, bottom line is I got my appointment so I'm happy. :dance: :yay:

Lisa,

Glad that everything worked out. :yay:

Hey ladies, I am having a really bad day. I just made my son an appt to see if he is ADHD. He is having such a rough day and I just don't know how to help him. He doesn't want to go to school because he said it long and boring. He's only 6 and I just feel so bad.

Also, the kids were supposed to go to thier dad's house this past weekend and he never even called to get them. My son asked me if thier dad misses them or if he even loves them. He is such a bad dad and my kids are starting to see how things really are. My daughter ask me yesterday when TJ is coming home and when he gets here can he take her to the park.

I just wish TJ was home to be that dad they are needing.

Ladies, I just need some prays please!!

Take care

Hey ladies, I am having a really bad day. I just made my son an appt to see if he is ADHD. He is having such a rough day and I just don't know how to help him. He doesn't want to go to school because he said it long and boring. He's only 6 and I just feel so bad.

Also, the kids were supposed to go to thier dad's house this past weekend and he never even called to get them. My son asked me if thier dad misses them or if he even loves them. He is such a bad dad and my kids are starting to see how things really are. My daughter ask me yesterday when TJ is coming home and when he gets here can he take her to the park.

I just wish TJ was home to be that dad they are needing.

Ladies, I just need some prays please!!

Take care

(((HUGS))) Drena! I sent you a PM ok? We have your back girl! When TJ comes home, you and your Kids will be so much healthier. Kids really go through a change when they dont have that male role model around. You and your kids will be ok. Stay Positive and Im sending you my prayers. I hope your day gets better. :grouphug:

Love Ya! Claudia

Big hugs :grouphug: Drenna......I hope tomorrow is a better day. :(

Big Hugs Drena, sorry about your kids father. You know the one thing that's hard when your a parent is for there to be anything in their lives that you can't control. And the father end is just one of those things. Trust me my hubby wasn't always the greatest dad, and i think that in itself hurt more then anything. I hope things get better

Drena,

Honey lots of hugs to you!:grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: If you need me to come down there and help you kick his butt when he comes around I will be there. :) LOL
Kids really do go through as Claudia mentioned and it is almost just as hard for them as it is for us except they don't have bills. :)
I am going through that my daughter has been very rebellious and says she doesn't care about being on restriction and that she likes it, or she says when she gets a spanking it doesn't hurt. I finally figured out how to lock my computer so she can't go on the chat lines and now when I leave the house I take the phone with me so she can't run my bill up to $200 again.

Her and her sister are very close to their dad and he has been gone almost 2 years this June and it is hard on them, especially since they don't get to see him often. Honey once TJ comes home they will have the father figure role model and as they get older they will look at him as their dad.

My son does that with my husband who has been in his life 16 years so a year of my sons life and my son doesn't even want to get to know about his real dad or ask about him for that matter he said his dad is his stepfather so hopefully as they get older everything will work itself out.

We got your back girlfriend!!:) I rambled on in hopes that I gave you some encouragement. :) You and your family are in my prayers.

Drena,
I am so sorry for what you are going through with your children. It really does hurt them when parents don't do something that the child knows they are suppose to do. Hang in there girl.

Everyone say a prayer for him he said some are starting to test him and he is running out of patience but trying to stay focused and away from the negative so he doesn't mess up the privileges we have. I know it has to be hard for him because he is not use to not speaking his mind but I asked him to drop a notch and he promised and it's taking a toll on him. Not to back down completely and to do what he has to do but not over jealousy etc. Send me a hug. :)

Cyreese: Im sending you big hugs. :grouphug: And may God give your husband the strength, wisdom, and patience to overcome all the obstacles in his path.

Everyone say a prayer for him he said some are starting to test him and he is running out of patience but trying to stay focused and away from the negative so he doesn't mess up the privileges we have. I know it has to be hard for him because he is not use to not speaking his mind but I asked him to drop a notch and he promised and it's taking a toll on him. Not to back down completely and to do what he has to do but not over jealousy etc. Send me a hug. :)

Lady you know my thoughts and prayers are with the both of you... Real big HUGS!!!
Nenaz
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Claudia and Nenaz,

Thank you both so much. It means a lot!!

:grouphug: hugs for you and prayers for him!

Honey, I know EXACTLY how you feel!!! My son is also 6 and he also hates school..but for a different reason..he says it's too hard..(but we all know how intelligent he is..he can give you the entire lifecyle of frogs and moths)and the big thing is he misses Jon, we have been together (on and off)for about 3 years. Tallin (my son), misses J alot and has even told him (J) that he wants him to be his dad, which made J cry. Now, this man is doing everything he can to get through this and keep his temper(which is one of his main problems). It breaks my heart, to see my son hurting so much..he loves Jon more than his natural father, who by the way, has nothing to do with his son..and I mean, nothing. However, Jon has been wonderful with him. I'll keep you all in my prayers and I wish you and yours every happiness...after all this you deserve it.

Cysreese, you both are in my prayers and he will make it through this. As with everything else it takes time and patience. He will be fine, these are just extemely trying times at CMC.

Drena,Crystal and Shaelyn, Thank you all and you all are in my prayers as well, always.

Ohhhh Ladies I am miserable!!!! Im just having one of those days. Dont know if its pms or the fact that my sweetheart called yesterday with not so good news. Thank God we have a strong relationship and cleave together always. But damned if I dont just need to see his face get one of these good strong hugs and to just spend some quality time with him up close and personal. I just want to get in bed and cry.

I pray everyone else is having a good day and please keep us in all of your prayers.

Aww big ((HUGS)) Crystal, things will get better.. and look at the bright side.. your ticker is looking good!

Im missing my man, too. I just experienced a bank robbery. My Dad, myself and the man that was being held hostage.. we were the only ones in the bank besides the staff. He made us get on the floor.. and it was just horrible. All I kept thinking about was the Boys, and JB. I thought this man was gonna kill us. He got away and thankfully no one was hurt. Im a nervous wreck... I need a HUG!!

Aww big ((HUGS)) Crystal, things will get better.. and look at the bright side.. your ticker is looking good!

Im missing my man, too. I just experienced a bank robbery. My Dad, myself and the man that was being held hostage.. we were the only ones in the bank besides the staff. He made us get on the floor.. and it was just horrible. All I kept thinking about was the Boys, and JB. I thought this man was gonna kill us. He got away and thankfully no one was hurt. Im a nervous wreck... I need a HUG!!

Oh Claudia Im so sorry this happened while you were there. I pray that you are going to fine and here I am having a pity party and you are dealing with serious trauma. Get some rest and Im sure your loved ones were the first thing on you mind. Many hugs to you :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Big hugs for both of you ladies!!!

OMG Claudia.....sweetie am sooo glad you are okay! I can only imagine the thoughts running thru your head! Girl Thank the Lord you are safe and unharmed in anyway. Here is a BIG OLE' HUG! :grouphug:

Crystal, Girl I cant even imagine how you feel, except I know that when Austin first went in we went 10 months without any visual contact, and 4 months without calls. Your counter is getting lower while I know your getting stronger! The day will come and this to shall pass! Hugs to you sweetie! :grouphug:

And a Hug to all my girls! We all need a hug sometimes even when nothing is wrong! :grouphug:

Claudia and Crystal and all my other CMC ladies. I agree with Candy, this to shall pass and we all need a hug even when things are going bad. I am sending lots of prayers and hugs everyone's way.:grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::group hug:

OMG claud I am so sorry, you are in my thoughts hang in there your man will be home in 5 days and he can kiss and make it all better, Id be freaking too there are some crazy people out there,

take care

RG

Beth: Heck yeah that was crazy! Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would experience this. Its funny but when we were on the floor, my dad kept telling me to be quiet because I kept talking (whispering) through the whole incident. I kept saying "whats he doing.. is he coming.. is he looking at us? My dad says that I couldnt keep my mouth shut if my life depended on it! LOL... I could laugh about it now though. Thanks for your concern Girly!!

oh man!!!! LOL I am the same I am a big talker, OMG I am so glad that you are ok. you are down to 4 days, till you man is home OMG I would be freaking out not eating sleeping, Id be on a cloud. let us know how it go's, christal said her and hers would not even make it off prison grounds HA HA Me and Reg would be all over oneanother SMILE

Iam so excited for you