hey all!!!
i just got back from my visit at bedford. Karen was blaming me for everything....i tried to expain to her that i am trying to live my life until she comes back. She yelled at me for being self centered and not being around when she calls me. And paying the bills, and not being able to afford cigarettes for her. "you just fucked me" is what she keep saying to me. she fears for her life now, becasue she owed someone cigarettes.......now is blaming me.............guilt is a wonderful thing!!!!!!!!

thanks for listening!!! lol

erin

erin,

I am sorry that you are going through this... I know that this may sound a little blunt, but you not only have a right to live your life, you should be living your life until Karen comes home... I know that this does not change Karen's situation and I have concern for her too! I know that debt in prison can escalate to create problems...

You are between a rock and a hard place. You are trying to keep things together on the outside and on the indside at the same time.

I never thought that I would be 'supporting' someone at this point in my life but it is the reality.

My thoughts and prayers are with you both!

Keep strong.

Erin,

Hang in there...Is there a way that you guys can set up certain days and times for her to call? Likewise so much money every 2 weeks or so and make everything stuff you can live with?? These kind of things have made life a lot easier for Bill and I...

Deb

SHE'S PROBABLY NOT REALLY YELLING AT YOU, SHE'S JUST YELLING BECAUSE SHE NEEDS TO. YOU NEED TO LIVE YOUR OWN LIFE WHILE YOU WAIT. TALK/WRITE TO HER ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS. BE STRONG!

Hi Erin,

I agreem with denimblue. Karen was probably having a particularly bad day and you were there to get clobbered. Things probably got to be too much for her and everything closed in on her. She probably doesn't love you any less if she's a little jealous that you have a life outside that she can't have. Take it easy and roll with it. She'll have better days.

Yvette

i understand that she is jealous of my outside world. But I didnt commit the crime. I know that she needs me.....and i need her too.....I am trying my best to do what i can for her. But my best was and never will be good enough for her. when i do tell her my feelings, im being self centered becasue she is the one in jail and i have a choice to go to the store or do what ever i want. she doesnt care about my feelings and i "have the easy life now." ( she says that all the time) she keeps asking me why my life is so terrible and how has my life changed.

whatever......nothing else matters.....
~E

being the loved one on the outside is not always the "EASY LIFE at all"!!!!!!Steve&kids

Girl, this woman needs to grow up and deal with her own messes. And you need to move on. There's not any excuse for her acting like that and expecting you to bail her out of her prison debts, then yelling at you and being so ungrateful for all that you do for her. Don't buy the guilt. You need to tell her to either straighten up or she's going to be looking for another flunky. Hope I don't hurt your feelings by being so blunt, but you really have to stop being a doormat for her and move in another direction for your life.