Hello everyone, I was talking with a fellow PTO user about our after visiting blues and we thought that maybe a new thread for this subject would be some help to those who get the blues as well. I know I get the blues and would love to have some support on those hard days after visiting.
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Yup yup!! we had the blues on saturday when they terminated our visits at ISP!!! But im feeling happy now hahaa!!! byeeeeeee

WOW!! what an awesome IDEA!!! I sure did have the BLUES didnt I ladies!!!????? WAS in tears when I hugged u ladies goodbye!! BOY was I glad to see you all out there tho!! arms of comfort hahahhahah!!! well as always when theres a down there is always an UP somewhere so here I am ... happy again!!!!!!!!!! GOd is awesome!!!!!!!! Love you all!!!!!!!!!

Aww im glad to see you happy again Mattz dont let that purdy smile go to waste hahaa!! I dont know if im going up there saturday im having some personal issues of my own "feeling blue" but if not ill go the 19th but still not sure if i ever want to go back!! haha not like that but who knows lets just say i got a lot of iisssh to think about!! ok love ya all

[/URL] Right on Converse--thank you for starting this thread--after visiting blues[URL="http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZUYYYYYYYYUS"]http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_1_38.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZUYYYYYYYYUS)at least that's what I'm gonna speak on right now. Although I get the blues from time to time the worst time for me is after Sunday visiting.:cry: After Saturday, I'm kool and the gang:D :thumbsup: because I just had a great visit and I know I'll be back the next day--but after visiting on Sundays:(--I'm all bummed out. It's always after Sunday when I leave and I know I gotta go do whatever it is I do in my day to day living all by myself starting as soon as I get home--and then the reality of my "special" situation with my man doing an "L" hits me the hardest at that time. Sometmes I ask myself, "self":p, no really I ask myself can I really do this for at least another 20 and then some.:confused: I will usually call his mom--that will pick up my spirits; I don't tell her I'm bummed out or anything, but I suspect she feels my pain and our conversations are pretty cool and she cheers me up.:) And then he usually calls:D before I go to bed and then my week alone officially begins--crazy:eek: huh?
Mattz I'm glad to hear that your in better spirits--
Kali, is everything okay? Let me/us know how you're doing okay?
Luv y'all





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Hey girls! I know how ya feel-them blues!
Raynards I know how that feels Sunday nights crawlin into bed lookin at a photo-that kills me, I was so upset thru Wed. morning. I cant stand missin my baby and knowin about all the stuff he sees in there. Makes me sad and wanna cry! :cry:
Well I'm so happy were all here for each other!:grouphug:

I can feeel you all the sundays are me worst, I don't want to brag but this pass sunday was the worst bieng that we only have a few weeks left of this bs. But maybe it's not blues maybe its excitement that he's coming home to me. I felt bad knowing that I was walking out those gates and leaving him behind I have never felt like that. But I do know that I'm missing him more the last week than I have ever missed him. I can't wait only 14 more long days.

I think it might be excitement and a little anxiety. Him coming home changes a lot of things--it's of course a good thing but it's still a change and by nature change is hard for most. It's a change I wish I could be going through--dn't worry about bragging--shoot girl brag on:D, congrats!!!!

I can feeel you all the sundays are me worst, I don't want to brag but this pass sunday was the worst bieng that we only have a few weeks left of this bs. But maybe it's not blues maybe its excitement that he's coming home to me. I felt bad knowing that I was walking out those gates and leaving him behind I have never felt like that. But I do know that I'm missing him more the last week than I have ever missed him. I can't wait only 14 more long days.

:wave:Hey, Hello :wave:
Awwww... this is a good thread
:yes: I get the blues... No I mean I get them bad!! I hate to Brag but this last
time he was out he was sooo good to me...I mean he was home every night taking care of my needs:dance: :blush: but now I get a kiss n a hug and its like "I want more" More like "Please SIR I want more" Lol
well I can't complain too much cause he will be home soon...
but I hate to say it,:broken: but he might go back :faint: one more time:slap: :help:
I will always stand by him!!!:thumbsup:
:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:
love and Support to us all:hifive: :love: :rock:

I get the blues. But not the after visiting blues. The no visiting blues. It sucks.:(

Well I voted:yes: and I don't have to kick rocks here:ha: :haha: :ha:

The blues is an understatement for me this past weekend--I was an emotional wreck and my girl converse can testify to that. Anywho--I didn't wait until leaving the prison to start crying, I started crying oh about 10:00am. It's just watching everybody in visiting--laughing and talking, trying to get a kiss in here or there. I mean I'm usually in that mix--but Sunday I told my man--this is not normal. I know that adaptability is a great trait but without the humanity element, it's just sad. What abyout rehabilitation? I know there is no such thing as rehab at least not in CDC lingo. My man told me he seen a poster that stated 3 our of 4 inmate children go to prison--CDC calls that job security. Again sad, where's the humanity. Anyway, it's more than a political or even human rights issue--it's just sad. I keep saying sad because I'm not sure what other emotion can best describer it--yeah maybe anger. Anyway I was trippin off of that--then I vented to my man about my own issues of resentment, anger, lonliness, what I go through living in this town--the looks the gossip--most days it rolls off my back and I handle the bs like a champ, but for some reason Sunday hit me hard. Sometimes not having my baby here confirms my strengths--but also acknoledges my weaknesses. Our love transcend what most people cannot even fathom in their wildest dreams. But what we go through is well in a word sad:(.

I didn't get to visit my man for about 5 months not too long ago--no visiting--you're right it sucked!!:( :mad:

I get the blues. But not the after visiting blues. The no visiting blues. It sucks.:(

:thumbsup: this is a wonderful thread!
i'm with you. . . if i stay a whole weekend saturday is all up time; sunday is all down. . . if i just go up friday night and come home saturday i seem to adjust a lot better. its always hard to leave but if i stay 2 days its alot worse so most of the time i only stay one day.
there are days i wonder if i can really handle this for at least another 10 years. . . some days that "L" really doesnt look that big; other days its the size of a mountain.
Im so happy we have a place we can come for support and understanding :D
Right on Converse--thank you for starting this thread--after visiting blueshttp://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_1_38.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZUYYYYYYYYUS)at least that's what I'm gonna speak on right now. Although I get the blues from time to time the worst time for me is after Sunday visiting.:cry: After Saturday, I'm kool and the gang:D :thumbsup: because I just had a great visit and I know I'll be back the next day--but after visiting on Sundays:(--I'm all bummed out. It's always after Sunday when I leave and I know I gotta go do whatever it is I do in my day to day living all by myself starting as soon as I get home--and then the reality of my "special" situation with my man doing an "L" hits me the hardest at that time. Sometmes I ask myself, "self":p, no really I ask myself can I really do this for at least another 20 and then some.:confused: I will usually call his mom--that will pick up my spirits; I don't tell her I'm bummed out or anything, but I suspect she feels my pain and our conversations are pretty cool and she cheers me up.:) And then he usually calls:D before I go to bed and then my week alone officially begins--crazy:eek: huh?
Mattz I'm glad to hear that your in better spirits--
Kali, is everything okay? Let me/us know how you're doing okay?
Luv y'all





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oh my gosh raynards! maybe it was in the air everywhere this weekend!
i sat there, watched 2 couples get married and just cried. i felt so horrible for the wives who had to leave in a couple hours and spend their wedding nights alone; i cried for the kids i saw trying to have a "normal" day with their dads when there isnt anything normal about it. i cried for the women, moms and girlfriends i saw trying to be happy ( imean we are all happy to see them but you know what i mean) and not show too much how much this tears us up inside. . . sometimes you go in and its just a really good visit. other times, the reality and the absolute horror of the situation hits you like a sack of bricks. that was how i felt this weekend.
at one point, he looked at me and just very quietly said "i want to go home". . . yes that started the tears again. how could it not, knowing there is a very good chance that place is home; that he will never be able to come home again?
i got in the car when i had to leave, turning up the music and lost myself in it the whole drive home (5 hours). walked in the house and everyone hit me with a million issues all at once.
i walked back out the door. sat down and just let it all out. i sat out there and cried for a good hour and a half.
and im going back this week. . . . praying somehow the blinders will go back on and it wont hurt so much.
but. . . is this not the most surreal situation in the world? i dont know how else to describe it.
sad
that does say it all.
The blues is an understatement for me this past weekend--I was an emotional wreck and my girl converse can testify to that. Anywho--I didn't wait until leaving the prison to start crying, I started crying oh about 10:00am. It's just watching everybody in visiting--laughing and talking, trying to get a kiss in here or there. I mean I'm usually in that mix--but Sunday I told my man--this is not normal. I know that adaptability is a great trait but without the humanity element, it's just sad. What abyout rehabilitation? I know there is no such thing as rehab at least not in CDC lingo. My man told me he seen a poster that stated 3 our of 4 inmate children go to prison--CDC calls that job security. Again sad, where's the humanity. Anyway, it's more than a political or even human rights issue--it's just sad. I keep saying sad because I'm not sure what other emotion can best describer it--yeah maybe anger. Anyway I was trippin off of that--then I vented to my man about my own issues of resentment, anger, lonliness, what I go through living in this town--the looks the gossip--most days it rolls off my back and I handle the bs like a champ, but for some reason Sunday hit me hard. Sometimes not having my baby here confirms my strengths--but also acknoledges my weaknesses. Our love transcend what most people cannot even fathom in their wildest dreams. But what we go through is well in a word sad:(.

Well I voted:yes: and I don't have to kick rocks here:ha: :haha: :ha:

Thats ok...I can live w/o visits for a couple more months. He will be home........and at least you will still have you're visits. :p

I didn't get to visit my man for about 5 months not too long ago--no visiting--you're right it sucked!!:( :mad:

I am so gald you finally got to visit him though!! You must have been so happy!!!! I hope you don't have to go that long again w/o seeing him!

I can feeel you all the sundays are me worst, I don't want to brag but this pass sunday was the worst bieng that we only have a few weeks left of this bs. But maybe it's not blues maybe its excitement that he's coming home to me. I felt bad knowing that I was walking out those gates and leaving him behind I have never felt like that. But I do know that I'm missing him more the last week than I have ever missed him. I can't wait only 14 more long days.


YAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

I understand the blues on Sundays. I too sometimes look around and see all the small children visiting parrents and it just breaks my heart. I cant wait till my baby comes home. But for all those woman who love and stand by their lifers and long timers-I GIVE YOU ALL PROPS!!! Much love to all of you! This 10 year streach is almost to an end. But I have a feeling I'll be here even after he comes home to offer support to all my ladies.:grouphug:
The blues is an understatement for me this past weekend--I was an emotional wreck and my girl converse can testify to that. Anywho--I didn't wait until leaving the prison to start crying, I started crying oh about 10:00am. It's just watching everybody in visiting--laughing and talking, trying to get a kiss in here or there. I mean I'm usually in that mix--but Sunday I told my man--this is not normal. I know that adaptability is a great trait but without the humanity element, it's just sad. What abyout rehabilitation? I know there is no such thing as rehab at least not in CDC lingo. My man told me he seen a poster that stated 3 our of 4 inmate children go to prison--CDC calls that job security. Again sad, where's the humanity. Anyway, it's more than a political or even human rights issue--it's just sad. I keep saying sad because I'm not sure what other emotion can best describer it--yeah maybe anger. Anyway I was trippin off of that--then I vented to my man about my own issues of resentment, anger, lonliness, what I go through living in this town--the looks the gossip--most days it rolls off my back and I handle the bs like a champ, but for some reason Sunday hit me hard. Sometimes not having my baby here confirms my strengths--but also acknoledges my weaknesses. Our love transcend what most people cannot even fathom in their wildest dreams. But what we go through is well in a word sad:(.

Hey Girl, We all go through all that, sometimes I get the blues that last till Wednesdays! We are here for you! I know I have gotten a lot of support here. Your right-there is nothing "normal" about it. These children dont have normal lives-they too are doing time right along with their parents.
oh my gosh raynards! maybe it was in the air everywhere this weekend!
i sat there, watched 2 couples get married and just cried. i felt so horrible for the wives who had to leave in a couple hours and spend their wedding nights alone; i cried for the kids i saw trying to have a "normal" day with their dads when there isnt anything normal about it. i cried for the women, moms and girlfriends i saw trying to be happy ( imean we are all happy to see them but you know what i mean) and not show too much how much this tears us up inside. . . sometimes you go in and its just a really good visit. other times, the reality and the absolute horror of the situation hits you like a sack of bricks. that was how i felt this weekend.
at one point, he looked at me and just very quietly said "i want to go home". . . yes that started the tears again. how could it not, knowing there is a very good chance that place is home; that he will never be able to come home again?
i got in the car when i had to leave, turning up the music and lost myself in it the whole drive home (5 hours). walked in the house and everyone hit me with a million issues all at once.
i walked back out the door. sat down and just let it all out. i sat out there and cried for a good hour and a half.
and im going back this week. . . . praying somehow the blinders will go back on and it wont hurt so much.
but. . . is this not the most surreal situation in the world? i dont know how else to describe it.
sad
that does say it all.

Awwwww thats too bad you already feel he is going to be leaving you one more time. But at least you will still have your visits.:D




:wave:Hey, Hello :wave:
Awwww... this is a good thread
:yes: I get the blues... No I mean I get them bad!! I hate to Brag but this last
time he was out he was sooo good to me...I mean he was home every night taking care of my needs:dance: :blush: but now I get a kiss n a hug and its like "I want more" More like "Please SIR I want more" Lol
well I can't complain too much cause he will be home soon...
but I hate to say it,:broken: but he might go back :faint: one more time:slap: :help:
I will always stand by him!!!:thumbsup:
:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:
love and Support to us all:hifive: :love: :rock:

Converse you hit it on the head. the kids, the wives, the moms, grammas. . . they are all doing time right alongside the ones they love. and some days it just kills me. at the same time, lifer or not, i cant imagine my life without him. even locked up, he is a part of our daily family life. we talk about him, we all write, when he calls (and its always a miracle in itself that he got on a phone) its a fight for who gets the phone first and for how long. . .
the really crazy thing is, as un normal as the situation is, the actual relationship me and him have is the most normal and healthy one i have ever had. . .
which is what gets me from sunday night - wednesday when i get mail again.
i love the support and understanding on PTO. there is no way someone who hasnt been through it can understand what we have and why we value our relationships so much. . . i dont know anyone on the outside who has that kind of strength in their relationship that us at PTO have in ours. . . i think as bad as the circumstances are, in a lot of ways they teach us how to communicate and lean on each other and not take each other for granted in a way you dont learn when you are out here on a daily basis.
yes. its wednesday which means i will go home to a 6-8 page letter and i am feeling much more positive. . . then its only 2 more days and a wake up and i get to spend time with him again. . . haha

Congrats on your homecoming!!!!


Converse you hit it on the head. the kids, the wives, the moms, grammas. . . they are all doing time right alongside the ones they love. and some days it just kills me. at the same time, lifer or not, i cant imagine my life without him. even locked up, he is a part of our daily family life. we talk about him, we all write, when he calls (and its always a miracle in itself that he got on a phone) its a fight for who gets the phone first and for how long. . .
the really crazy thing is, as un normal as the situation is, the actual relationship me and him have is the most normal and healthy one i have ever had. . .
which is what gets me from sunday night - wednesday when i get mail again.
i love the support and understanding on PTO. there is no way someone who hasnt been through it can understand what we have and why we value our relationships so much. . . i dont know anyone on the outside who has that kind of strength in their relationship that us at PTO have in ours. . . i think as bad as the circumstances are, in a lot of ways they teach us how to communicate and lean on each other and not take each other for granted in a way you dont learn when you are out here on a daily basis.
yes. its wednesday which means i will go home to a 6-8 page letter and i am feeling much more positive. . . then its only 2 more days and a wake up and i get to spend time with him again. . . haha

Hi inalicesworld--you're right maybe it was something in the air and for me it's lingered through out the week. But as I was reading your post this part
at one point, he looked at me and just very quietly said "i want to go home". . .
had me in tears:cry:because my man has told me the same thing. I can't seem to shake this feeling this week for some reason--me and my baby also had what I will call a debate Tuesday night--then guess what? My phone gets cut off Wednesday.:mad: :( What luck--I've been in and out of odd jobs since April, now I got a great job but I still need to play catch up. Well, things will be greater later, just hard to appreciate that concept right now. Sorry I didn't post earlier, my great job is in San Bernadino which is about 160 miles from where I live, so during the week I stay with my girlfriend and her family. I don't usually get on the computer at her house. Anywho I wanted to thank you and also share with you that I also feel that PTO is a great support system.:thumbsup: :grouphug: I'm always in the Ironwood thread--stop in and holla at us from time to time--usually we're quite entertaining:D :p.

I find that I hear this same thing "at one point, he looked at me and just very quietly said "i want to go home". . . I have also noticed that the closer it gets to his date the more he says it. I've even heard him say "my date coming up, is almost to good to be true, I wonder what they'll do to take it away from me" That is so sad. The sadness we as they're families go through and the sadness they go through-I know they did they're crime or maybe they didn't just got caught up in the wrong crowd-either way I think some are given too long of a sentence.

its sooo true ladies, the closer they get to coming home the more scared they get about what can make it not come true........ how sad it truly is that they feel such fear about freedom!!!! well we are some awesome ladies.. to be their strength dontcha think??????

Much love,
J

I agree with you we are what strengthens them.
its sooo true ladies, the closer they get to coming home the more scared they get about what can make it not come true........ how sad it truly is that they feel such fear about freedom!!!! well we are some awesome ladies.. to be their strength dontcha think??????

Much love,
J

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Wll like i was saying i have the blues everday i havent seen my x for a lil over a year and know he's in the bay and that place is so far i miss him so much money is not all that good right know so thats why i cant seem to get up there but i do hope to go soon well thanks for listening about my blues

Well this was a great idea for a thread. I must agree i get the blues bad on Sunday. I live in Canada and my husband is in California so when i go see him i spend 36 hrs on the bus just being excited. The last time i went 2 wekks ago we got married and man that saturday night was so hard. I sat at the motel on the pone with one of my girl friends and drank a bottle of wine. I say sunday is still the worst cause i know i'm headin back to canada and am not going to see him for months :( ...... We will all gettitng stronger and stronger, what's that saying " if it doesn't kill ya it makes you stronger" Damn we all must be like SHE RAH sp sorry
Hope everyone has a good weekend at your visits and to those not visiting hope you all have agreat weekend to

Hey All,
Well it's Sunday evening and yes I have the after sunday visiting blues:cry:. However it's not too bad cause I know I get an extra visit this week--Turkey Day.:D Mamas sorry to hear about you not being able to visit--it is hard when finances aren't right--hope things work out for you soon so you'll get a chance to visit. Missin, Canada? Wow girl that's a long way and the ride back must be very hard. You're right about being stronger! We're still alive and kickin:thumbsup: so we must be hella strong:).
Thing is, right now I'm not feeling strong--just sad and lonely :( but this too shall pass, as it always does.

Wow Tanya that is so far!

I feel very lucky I can see him most weekends, and usually do every week or so.

I heard from my hubby for the first time in 3 months. I finally get to visit him by phone only visit for my first couple of times as I was told. I am scared. Why I don't know. But as for the blues when he called me all I could do for the next two days is cry. I don't have alot of support and I am making this trip by myself. What is your suggestion I should do after visiting so I don't go back to the hotel and be down.

Don't feel bad ladies, I have the "haven't seen my husband in TWO YEARS" Blues. There are some days I don't know if I'll make it through another day but some how I make it. GOD HELP ME, I'm hurting so bad:(!

Converse. . . its hard to hear those words no matter how much time they have left. . . for mine; well, 3rd strike so theres no date for him. . .
i feel for everyone who hears those words no matter if they have a day or life left.


I find that I hear this same thing "at one point, he looked at me and just very quietly said "i want to go home". . .I have also noticed that the closer it gets to his date the more he says it. I've even heard him say "my date coming up, is almost to good to be true, I wonder what they'll do to take it away from me" That is so sad. The sadness we as they're families go through and the sadness they go through-I know they did they're crime or maybe they didn't just got caught up in the wrong crowd-either way I think some are given too long of a sentence.

Hello everyone! I hope everyone had a wonderful "Turkey Day" I did I was so lucky to be able to spend it with my man...this was the first holiday we've been able to spend together in 10 years! Awwwww, Plus the weekend!
I just want to say thank you to the people who have made this past weekend possible and who were there for me! You know who you are! And to my Girl who came to pick me up...I LUV YA! Every time I need you-your ALWAYS there! Thanks a million! I know you wont get this till later in the week, but thank you!
Converse

I'm sure it is so hard for all of the people out there who dont have a date! I give all of you Props! I dont know who you do it but your strength is shown through your hearts!
Converse. . . its hard to hear those words no matter how much time they have left. . . for mine; well, 3rd strike so theres no date for him. . .
i feel for everyone who hears those words no matter if they have a day or life left.

im having a positive day so i will say that i think its just as hard, date or no date. . . even when you have one, it seems like a lifetime.

I have the blues like crazy! I amrelatively new to this and this site helps me to remember, I am far from being alone. I haven't spoken with my husband since he got transferred from county jail, and in fact, I missed the last call he was able to make :( . I moved out of state due to a lot of crazy problems and i moved in with my mom. I am hoping he can get paroled out here and we can start a life together out here and far away from all of his bad influences. We are having our 1st child in March and I have no idea what his release date is... maybe someone can help.. he was sentanced to 2 yrs.. serving 1/2 time i believe and he got 73 days credit.. he was sentanced sept 12th and was transferred to Delano on Nov. 2nd... I'm confused, I called delano and they were no help, they said I had to find out my info from the inmate.. and we have no contact at all! I don't even know if he gets my mail! I get so depressed and I know thats not good for the pregnancy....

oh trust i feel ya on that.... i hadnt seen my man on a contact visit in over a year and then we got one and wow!!!!! after wards i was a mess!!!! i just remember that it cant be as bad on me as him so i need to keep my head up for both of us~

Hey LilMidget13 :cool: I hear that...it is hard for us to leave them, but I'm sure it is really hard for them to leave us. I know my man has said once I walk way from him in the visiting room he cant look back.:(
oh trust i feel ya on that.... i hadnt seen my man on a contact visit in over a year and then we got one and wow!!!!! after wards i was a mess!!!! i just remember that it cant be as bad on me as him so i need to keep my head up for both of us~

we both have an agreement. . . no looking back. i cant handle watching him go back through those doors and he cant handle watching me walk away.

I know I've seen him walk from visiting to the yard...I peeked! and he told me last week he saw me goofing off with a girlie-girl of mine. So he cheated too.:rolleyes:
But it's so hard to walk away I always ask him if he wants to jump in my pocket and come home:p ...but he always replies with "you and I wish, baby"

:confused: Has anyone rated on this forum??? I did, and I think Sherry & Raynards did...

LOL we always make the get in my pocket joke too. . .

a couple weeks ago i got a letter after a visit and he told me he cheated; he stood at the door and watched me walk away as far as he could see me before he went back. . . . said he had to do it for his own reasons this one and only time.

when i asked why, he said he needed to feel how much it hurt him to watch me walk away to remind himself of what he has now and what he has to stay out of trouble for. .. me, the kids, his freedom one day. . . .

I know I've seen him walk from visiting to the yard...I peeked! and he told me last week he saw me goofing off with a girlie-girl of mine. So he cheated too.:rolleyes:
But it's so hard to walk away I always ask him if he wants to jump in my pocket and come home:p ...but he always replies with "you and I wish, baby"

i rated. . . its an excellent thread and i think we all need it! :)

Awwwww I hate it when they watch...I know my man has snuck in more then that one...cause I was sneekin too lol
LOL we always make the get in my pocket joke too. . .

a couple weeks ago i got a letter after a visit and he told me he cheated; he stood at the door and watched me walk away as far as he could see me before he went back. . . . said he had to do it for his own reasons this one and only time.

when i asked why, he said he needed to feel how much it hurt him to watch me walk away to remind himself of what he has now and what he has to stay out of trouble for. .. me, the kids, his freedom one day. . . .

LMAO!!!
i know. mee too.
and i hate when he watches. . . haha the funny thing is his big mouth admitted it. . . i never have :eek:
i like being able to give him crap about it. oh im so bad :p Awwwww I hate it when they watch...I know my man has snuck in more then that one...cause I was sneekin too lol

he admitted it lol my man too
LMAO!!!
i know. mee too.
and i hate when he watches. . . haha the funny thing is his big mouth admitted it. . . i never have :eek:
i like being able to give him crap about it. oh im so bad :p

LOL! they are so great. . . hahahaha
he admitted it lol my man too

YES I HAVE THE BLUES BECAUSE I CAN'T SEE MY BABY AND I DON'T NO FOR HOW LONG.

i was packing, ready to go see my man. the week has beeen so bad for me and i really neeed a visit with him. . . my granpa is in the hospital and not looking good, so i hav to stay close to my phone which means no prison this weekend. :(
now i REALLY have the blues

I will pray for your grandpa! I hope you get to go see your man soon! I wish you well
HUGS!!!!!
:grouphug:

i was packing, ready to go see my man. the week has been so bad for me and i really need a visit with him. . . my granpa is in the hospital and not looking good, so i have to stay close to my phone which means no prison this weekend. :(
now i REALLY have the blues

Ditto-
I will pray for your grandpa! I hope you get to go see your man soon! I wish you well
HUGS!!!!!
:grouphug:


For me when things are rough and stress is everywhere I need a visit and then something happens where I can't even get that:(. Hang in there girl, as I am often reminded and it's true--it'll be greater later.

i was packing, ready to go see my man. the week has beeen so bad for me and i really neeed a visit with him. . . my granpa is in the hospital and not looking good, so i hav to stay close to my phone which means no prison this weekend. :(
now i REALLY have the blues

thank you guys. . .
hopefully i can sneak out of here next weekend.
wouldnt you know; i stayed home and no phone calls. which is good. grandpa is ok right now. . . but still i could have gone :(
Ditto-


For me when things are rough and stress is everywhere I need a visit and then something happens where I can't even get that:(. Hang in there girl, as I am often reminded and it's true--it'll be greater later.

i was packing, ready to go see my man. the week has beeen so bad for me and i really neeed a visit with him. . . my granpa is in the hospital and not looking good, so i hav to stay close to my phone which means no prison this weekend. :(
now i REALLY have the blues

I'm happy:) to hear that grandpa is okay:thumbsup:. Don't fret too much--next weekend will be here in no time--
fret???:confused: I never say fret:no: --ha ha I'm funny:haha: . Well "worry" then, don't worry too much:). Take care:grouphug:


thank you guys. . .
hopefully i can sneak out of here next weekend.
wouldnt you know; i stayed home and no phone calls. which is good. grandpa is ok right now. . . but still i could have gone :(

you all make me sad went you all talk about being blue. i know its hard but let the sun in and shine on you all for one day your man will be home in your arms and then you all will be a happy family. as for me and ray well we got to wait a long time fro that but one day we too will be a happy family right ray ray

I am so thankful for PTO. It's comforting just knowing that I am not the only one going through this ordeal. I miss my man so much, but this forum has helped answer many of my questions. I have only been able to visit him once since he was sent to Adelanto because of vehicle problems. It's hard not being able to see him and spend time with him. He has 114 days to go until he is home once again!!! I get the blues all of the time but then I think of how fortunate I am that he will be coming home as soon as he is. It still seems like a long time to me at times, but I know there are ladies out there that will be waiting much longer than I and my heart goes out to all of them.

converse: thank you ((hugs)))

Raynards: i love the word fret its a wonderful word. and just not used enough!

Thank you guys for all the hugs and support and everything! i got a letter yesterday that said they are starting to let a few people out for phone calls so im hoping like crazy that i will get a phone call here soon. . . well lemme rephrase. imhoping for a lil while of REGULAR phone calls for a while! haha boy wont that be like a christmas miracle! haha

Right On girlie!!! Phone dance for inalicesworld:thumbsup:
:rock::dance: :dance: :fb: :yay: :yay: :fb: :yay: :yay: :fb: :dance: :rock:
:grouphug:
converse: thank you ((hugs)))

Raynards: i love the word fret its a wonderful word. and just not used enough!

Thank you guys for all the hugs and support and everything! i got a letter yesterday that said they are starting to let a few people out for phone calls so im hoping like crazy that i will get a phone call here soon. . . well lemme rephrase. imhoping for a lil while of REGULAR phone calls for a while! haha boy wont that be like a christmas miracle! haha

THANK YOU!!!!
Im soooo doing the phone dance. . . . .
it will work right?????
:D
love you guys!
Right On girlie!!! Phone dance for inalicesworld:thumbsup:
:rock::dance: :dance: :fb: :yay: :yay: :fb: :yay: :yay: :fb: :dance: :rock:
:grouphug:

Well? Did it worK? You do know that there was a nationwide strike of MCI (fyi)--well let us know:D :thumbsup:
THANK YOU!!!!
Im soooo doing the phone dance. . . . .
it will work right?????
:D
love you guys!

ok i have been so wrapped up i didnt know about th estrike.
and no. . . it didnt work!
dance harder!!!!!!
i got a letter that says the rumor is they are supposed to go back to regular program this week
*crossing fingers*
AND *doing manic phone dance*
. . Well? Did it worK? You do know that there was a nationwide strike of MCI (fyi)--well let us know:D :thumbsup:

Okay maybe we accidently did the mail dance:p If your man is on modified program that may be why no call--so let's all hope they get back to regular program real soon-more dancing is in order for the phone!!!
:dance: :yay: :dance: :dance: :fb: :dance: :dance: :rock: :clap: :rock: :dance: :dance: :fb: :dance: :dance: :yay: :dance:
ok i have been so wrapped up i didnt know about th estrike.
and no. . . it didnt work!
dance harder!!!!!!
i got a letter that says the rumor is they are supposed to go back to regular program this week
*crossing fingers*
AND *doing manic phone dance*
. .

YAY!!!!
thank you thank you thank you!
as soon as the phone rings i will let y'all know
im sure you will be tired from dancing by then hahaha
yeah if its modified, someone will call tho. . . if he cant he always has someone call for him.
Okay maybe we accidently did the mail dance:p If your man is on modified program that may be why no call--so let's all hope they get back to regular program real soon-more dancing is in order for the phone!!!
:dance: :yay: :dance: :dance: :fb: :dance: :dance: :rock: :clap: :rock: :dance: :dance: :fb: :dance: :dance: :yay: :dance:

I was able to see my husband for the first time this past weekend. It was such a wonderful feeling to see him, kiss him and hold his hand. I thought I would have the blues really bad. But you know it was okay, My hardest part is making it through this next couple of weeks until I am able to see him again. However, I do keep pretty busy. My husband is in HDSP, and if there is anyone out there who would like to get to know me and car pool that would be nice. PM me.

Hey Missy,
Glad to hear that you had a great visit!:D :thumbsup: Yeah sometimes I have the blues:( really bad and sometimes not too bad at all.:) If course I see my man every visiting day cause I only live 20 miles from him (ISP) so that makes it easier for me at least most of the time--sometimes it's hard to know I'm so close yet so far away:(. This past weekend though, it was one hour behind the glass--hope that goes to regular visits real soon (like this weekend), but we shall see. It appears there's lots of riots and l'd's through out the state right about now--but anyways being busy will help you get through the next couple of weeks and of course PTO is a great support system--take care.


I was able to see my husband for the first time this past weekend. It was such a wonderful feeling to see him, kiss him and hold his hand. I thought I would have the blues really bad. But you know it was okay, My hardest part is making it through this next couple of weeks until I am able to see him again. However, I do keep pretty busy. My husband is in HDSP, and if there is anyone out there who would like to get to know me and car pool that would be nice. PM me.

I've got the non-visiting blues!!!:(
I'm going to Disneyland this weekend and I'm gonna miss my baby...with everything going on and the state wide L/D and all the prayers going out to Tookie! My prayers are with him! I wish everyone the very best (as much as passable) I hope everyone stays safe!
:o

YES I HAVE THE BLUES:( NOT B CUZ OF VISTING BUTT B CUZ I HAVENT GOT A LEETER FROM MY PEN PAL IN A WEEK SO IM TRYING TO FIGURE OUT Y HE HASNT BEEN WRITING ME :angry: I THOUGHT MAYBE THEY MIGHT B ON LOCK DOWN HE IS IN MULE CREEK BUTT I CALLED YESTERDAY AND THEY TOLD ME THERE NOT ON LOCK DOWN SO I REALLY DONT KNO BUTT I GUESS I JUST HAVE WAIT AND C IF I HERE FROM HIM.....I HOPE HE OK....:confused:

converse im with ya girl!
i havent seen my man in 3 weeks now. . . and im praying everything is ok where he is.

how long is the statewide lockdown supposed to be anyway? when i called last night it said they had normal visits, this weekend. with my luck by next weekend they wont have any and thats the weekend i can freaking go!
I've got the non-visiting blues!!!:(
I'm going to Disneyland this weekend and I'm gonna miss my baby...with everything going on and the state wide L/D and all the prayers going out to Tookie! My prayers are with him! I wish everyone the very best (as much as passable) I hope everyone stays safe!
:o

Hey there,
I heard that the statewide l/d was for the 13th 14th and 15th--but that's not confirmed--just a rumor for now.

converse im with ya girl!
i havent seen my man in 3 weeks now. . . and im praying everything is ok where he is.

how long is the statewide lockdown supposed to be anyway? when i called last night it said they had normal visits, this weekend. with my luck by next weekend they wont have any and thats the weekend i can freaking go!

yeah thats what i thought. and of course. i am dying. couldnt go this weekend. again. and have been waiting so impatiently for next weekend. . . i might die. y'all realize that dont you?
:( Hey there,
I heard that the statewide l/d was for the 13th 14th and 15th--but that's not confirmed--just a rumor for now.

so where did this state wide so called ld come from? its the first i've ever heard of one other than when it concerns the security of the cdc system. new one on me.

There were rumors of a State Wide Lock-down in California...
Stan "Tookie" Williams (may he R.I.P.):( http://i11.photobucket.com/albums/a172/twinkllhb21/Ect/tookieRIP.gif

Well I just wanted to jump on in and say hello to all of you ladies! I went to visit this past Sat. and spent 1/2 the visit dealing with a issue I wish we didn't have to deal with. Now I'm thinking of things I wish I would have brought up...I hate that! oh well! I'll write them in a letter.
I hope everyone got mail, phone calls or visits.
:D

converse sometimes i swear we are the same people or something!
i spent half of saturday having to deal with an issue that i really wish we hadnt had to also. . . i was really mad saturday night, and went back to my room and wrote a letter about it; mostly saying how much it sucks that i go through so much to get there to see him and then things like that happen and it takes away time that is supposed to be for me and HIM. . . .
sunday morning i went in and first thing he did was hug me and say baby i didnt sleep at all last night; all i could think about was how much quality time we missed out on yesterday because of that bs. . . haha that was nice, but i still sent the letter too because i didnt want to take the whole day sunday discussing the issue again.

so i hope the rest of your visit was good though!
There were rumors of a State Wide Lock-down in California...
Stan "Tookie" Williams (may he R.I.P.):( http://i11.photobucket.com/albums/a172/twinkllhb21/Ect/tookieRIP.gif

Well I just wanted to jump on in and say hello to all of you ladies! I went to visit this past Sat. and spent 1/2 the visit dealing with a issue I wish we didn't have to deal with. Now I'm thinking of things I wish I would have brought up...I hate that! oh well! I'll write them in a letter.
I hope everyone got mail, phone calls or visits.
:D

:blah: in alices world ,

I'm right there with you girl except my visit was sunday and i swear them being on lockdown got them all thinking and since that's all they had plenty of time to do they wanted to take all there crap out on us man i meet 3 girls there this sunday who weren't very happy when they were leaving i actually left in a good mood because we stop argueing before visit was actually over but i was still thinking about our conversation all night i'm still wondering wear it all came from anyhow hopefully our next visit's will be much better . well nice to meet you bye..

Converse hey girl nice site we really need it, i had a pretty shi... sunday but i'm better now... love ya girl...

yes i have to admit i get the visiting blues, like really bad. I mean im happy cus i got to see my honey but then its like its not enough time with him and we are being watched like hawks. I get very emotional (but then thats probably cus i was pregnant). But he is in Norco now so i havnt been able to see him yet. I MISS MY BABE!!!!!!

doest that just make you want to :angry: at them?
the lockdown hasnt helped; all the bs politics going on over there didnt help either; i get very irritated when i spend money i dont have and go up to see him and hes all distracted by some bs all day. blech.

im happy you ended up leaving in a good mood! we had our lil issue on saturday, so by sunday we were fine. he had been up all night whihc i knew was true because when he came down he looked lile pooh! hahaha i almost felt bad for him, for a second haha
:blah: in alices world ,

I'm right there with you girl except my visit was sunday and i swear them being on lockdown got them all thinking and since that's all they had plenty of time to do they wanted to take all there crap out on us man i meet 3 girls there this sunday who weren't very happy when they were leaving i actually left in a good mood because we stop argueing before visit was actually over but i was still thinking about our conversation all night i'm still wondering wear it all came from anyhow hopefully our next visit's will be much better . well nice to meet you bye..

Converse hey girl nice site we really need it, i had a pretty shi... sunday but i'm better now... love ya girl...

Thanks it's good to see that I am not the only one I have my good days and my bad days but I miss him so much i thinks its harde because when he was in county I could talk to him everyday but now I have not talk to him in a month I think that the holidays are the hardest and the fact that I could not see him on my birthday does it get eaiser because I don't even know his release date. I just feel like crying all the time

i understand that. . . i still miss when he was in ocunty and its been something like 3 years since he left! the constant lockdowns are killng me. one on hand im ok with it because hes safer so to speak that way; on the other hand i want my dang phone calls! i keep praying all day today they will at least give them one stinking christmas phone call but so far. nothing. i tried to sleep the day away but that didnt work so now im on a cleaning binge. its not realy helping either though but its something to do i guess. i feel horrid cuz i wanted so badly to be there with him this weekend and financially i couldnt make it happen. not a chance. *sigh*
keep your head up. this is a great place for support!
Thanks it's good to see that I am not the only one I have my good days and my bad days but I miss him so much i thinks its harde because when he was in county I could talk to him everyday but now I have not talk to him in a month I think that the holidays are the hardest and the fact that I could not see him on my birthday does it get eaiser because I don't even know his release date. I just feel like crying all the time