View Full Version : We Fell in Love all over again! - FCI LOMPOC


CARLAxoxoxTODD
05-19-2002, 08:24 PM
I left my house around 6 am & got to the FCI around 9:30. It was a really pretty drive through the mountains then pop out right along the coast.

Anyhow, when I got in the visitation yard, I had to wait about an hour because they were between moves. I totally caught him off guard.

When he walked in, I stood up but had to sit back down because my knees gave out. When I got the strength to stand back up, we both had this huuge smile that wrapped totally around ours heads!

I just started bawling! All the built up emotions I had just came out. I was also scared that I was dreaming & that any moment I was going to wake up.

Finally, he just grabbed me in his arms & hugged me like he's never hugged me before. The first time we kissed I thought I was going to die!

We spent that day & the next two just walking through this huge visitation area. We grubbed on the food from the vending machines and just enjoyed each other. (Ok Ok so he snuck a feel too - WOOHOO!)

I did good & didn't smoke that whole day. But yesterday & today I did. You can bring in 1 unopened pack of cigs. I brought in gum too (contraband) cuz I wanted fresh breath :)

Anyhow, it was so awesome! I never thought it possible to be able to fall in love with someone all over, but we did. I feel sooooooo connected to him even tho he's there.

We laughed and we shared some tears. But overall, this just confirmed that we are soulmates and are meant for each other. There's no one else in this world that can make my heart flutter than him.

Saturday we got pics taken. He will get them back next Thursday. SO in two weeks I'll have them posted.

I feel so much calmer & at ease now. Next trip, I'm taking my 10 yr old.

I did meet a couple of ladies from Sacramento today. I raved about PTO so hopefully we'll have a couple of new members.

One of the best things was that we were right next to the chapel. In July, this is where Todd & I become offically man & wife.

jdswifey02
05-19-2002, 09:49 PM
Carla....
I am so glad you had such a wonderful visit... thanks for sharing!! Brought tears to my eyes just reading your post... :)
These are the moments that keep us going and sometimes we have to live vicariously through others!!

DJohnson
05-20-2002, 09:15 AM
Carla...

Reading your post brought tears to my eyes! I am so happy for you that you had such a good visit & you 2 connected & fell in love all over again.

It's such a wonderful thing to be able to see the men we love! It makes all the struggles & hard times we go through out here all worth while!

Take care!
Diona

Budwoman
05-20-2002, 01:27 PM
CARLA:

THE VISIT MUST HAVE BEEN WONDERFUL.... I KNOW YOU MUST HAVE REALLY ENJOYED IT... I DON'T BLAME YOU FOR WANTING TO TAKE YOUR 10 YEAR OLD NEXT TIME.....


MY LOVE
DONNA

CARLAxoxoxTODD
05-20-2002, 01:38 PM
The whole "hurry up & wait" was so worth it.

This morning when I woke up, it was the 1st time since his incarceration that I've felt relaxed and at ease. Not the usual stressed-out self that I've become accustomed to.

I now know for sure that I am going to make it through this with flying colors and be Todd's Light at The Tunnels End.

I'm figuring out my budget & calendar schedule to see when our next trip will be. I'm toying with the idea of this weekend.

I thank God everyday for giving me Todd. AND for letting me find you guys. You all have been so wonderful & supportive to me & each other the short time I've been here.

I only wish I could have found you sooner. Thanks David for the opportunity for all of us to find each other!

You are all in my prayers!

Love,
Carla

Shortie
05-20-2002, 07:58 PM
carla
i am so glad that your visit went so well.. it is so nice to know that you connected on such a deep level.. Just hang on to that when it is hard and it will sustain you.

CARLAxoxoxTODD
05-20-2002, 09:52 PM
Thank you for the encouraging words!

I definetly realize that hanging on is alot easier than I think at the time. The visit just reaffirmed that he is worth every inch of the tunnel.

I made motel reservations for this Thursday, Friday & Saturday. I'm taking my 10 & 5 yr old this time.

They are sooooo psyched!

sherri13
05-21-2002, 08:30 AM
CARLA- THNAKS SO MUCH FOR SHARING YOUR EXPERINCE WITH US- WE ALL LOVE TO HEAR ABOUT HAPPY VISITS1 BE SURE AND LET US KNOW HOW THE ONE WITH YOUR KIDS GOES! AND WE LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING THAT PIC!!

CREAMYALMONDZ
05-21-2002, 08:46 AM
Wow sounds like you had a great time. Can't wait to see those pics!

soraya
05-21-2002, 08:49 AM
your story made me smile. now I'll be waiting for the pics!