Went and visited my wife on Monday. It was great for my young daughter and myself to see her. See looked great and said the place is not bad at all. The camp is less then 2 years old so everything looks great. The only thing that is depressing is that since it is the california desert there is no grass. But that is ok since it is only 1 1/2 hour drive for myself and visisting is unlimited so I can visit ever weekend and holidays. The other women are all pleasant and refer to her as a short timer since she will be out in 10 months. After talking with her I believe I am the one the is being punished, but that is my opinion. Taking care of a small child, maintaining the house working full time is taking a toll on my physical and emotional well being. I hope it gets easier soon. But I understand she did commit a crime and this is what the federal government says is best. I will live with that and when it is over are life will be back to a normal life we have not had since this all began. I miss and love her and that is what helps me get through each day, just one day at a time. Thanks for the great site.

Tom

I'm glad your visit went well and that it is so relaxed there. I agree--we are punished in a huge way. Financially, emotionally, physically and trying to do it all ourselves. I get really tired a lot of the time, both physically and emotionally. Sometimes, I get resentful and I can't even blame him as he's innocent. Instead, I blame the system that has done this and continues to do this.

The thing is, though, that we can all make it--A day at a time and we're not alone. Thank god for PTO!

Deb

Glad you had such a nice visit! Sounds like your wife's prison is not too bad a place, sounds like you can count your blessings there. They all suck but some are better than others. Take care, Tom, hope you'll keep sticking around PTO!!!

Lys

I am glad your visit went well I can certainly understand about the physical and emotional toll this takes on you. I have a hard time sleeping myself. Between worrying about what I can do for my wife, taking care of my 5yr old girl,starting a new business,and going through personal bankrupcy I am not sure what end is up. And always in the back of your mind is the fear that she will relapse and all this will have been for nothing. All we can do is have faith in the Lord and faith in your loved one. My wife is a wonderful person witha horrible drug addiction. Pardon the rambling I wanted to ask you how your daughter reacted at the visit ecpecially afterwards on the way home. My little girl hasn't seen her Mom since December as the county jail only had visits through a glass I didn't want to subject Sarah to that and neither did my wife. My wife should be able to have visitors next week and I am full of trepidation about how Sarah will react.