I still have at least a year and 3 months from my husband's earliest release date, but I'm getting a little nervous about it. I've gotten used to handling everything on my own and am worried about him being successful when he gets home. I also keep thinking about all the worries that go with living with a recovering addict and feel very anxious. I hear a lot of women who just can't wait for their husbands/boyfriends to come home and I feel a little guilty. I love my husband, but I'm very nervous about him getting out. Does anyone know where I'm coming from?

I totally get where you're coming from! I just found out that my husband got paroled, and that means that depending on what happens with his new case, he could be home in the next month or so. As much as things suck out here on my own, at least right now I have some degree of freedom. I love my husband very much, but we have a lot of issues. We've been working on them through letters since he's been gone, but I actually kind of prefer the letters to a face-to-face argument. I can't seem to stand up for myself in person so well. So now I'm really nervous about him coming home, and I feel guilty cause I should be happy, but I'm already worried about next time.

I thought I was the only who felt the way that I do. My husband and I also have some issues from when we were together. and i'm not sure if I am strong enuf to support him and deal with the public and work on our problems. It is easier to write about stuff than deal with it face to face. But I do look forward to our visits, phone calls and his letters. I'm confused.

Trophywife & lizzy - Thank you for your responses. I'm sorry you are in the same situation (it is confusing) but glad I have people who can empathize with me.

I am ready for my Honey to be HOME with me! Been ready since the first night he went in. But in a year I might have a different answer I still have a year or so to go. I will let you know:) But I am seriously ready for the love,laughter,making sweet love to one another over and over,eating dinners together,planning our lives together(businesses,marriage,ect.) His sister will be getting married probably not long after he gets out too which will be fun to be apart of:)

Ruddsgrl1:)

i felt exactly like ruddsgrl for the first 3 yrs, but time along with issues(past & present) now im feeling a bit freaked out with facing his out date??its true that people change, i remeber thinkin "not me" & that nuthin could change the way i feel about my man etc.. but i do see things diffrently now, some things i used to be able to look past,or not be bothered by, now i wont even go for. certain things wont fly with me anymore, & i worry that he hasnt grown in the same ways etc.. plus after 71/2 yrs alot of things happen. how will he feel commin into my world. and just to say it im not tryin to hand my world over to anyone, and at the same time im SO TIRED OF BEING ALONE. how confusing the hole thing is huh.

Look at my ticker... I got short time too... SHORT time. And the suspense and anxiety of him coming out is crazy. I can NOT wait 'til he gets out. I'm tired of being alone... I want him out here with me so we can deal with this crazy world together!