cheryl
09-17-2005, 09:52 AM
why is it the people who want control of things so badly- can't control themselves?
why is it so hard to hate the ones we love? even though we watch them slowly kill themselves? wanting desperatley to stop them- feeling helpless to do anything...because anything we do seems to make it worse!
Constantly wondering what did I do wrong...?
maybe if I was a better wife/husband, daughter/son or friend...they wouldn't be like this?!
trying to find an excuse for them- but wait they already have plenty...it's a party, it's the holidays, it's the playoffs, it's a wedding, it's friday, saturday, sunday, i had a bad day, week, childhoold...
praying they wake up (hit bottom) and just stop smoking/drinking/usung/gambling/lieing/using/abusing, and manipulating (which they are so good at) everyone in their lives.
knowing the reality is it may not stop until they die.
wonding what happened to that loving (or even not so loving) person we knew, fell in love with, gave birth too, or had as a dear friend?
we are sad, lonely, tired, mad, upset, guilty because we can't stop them but most of all confussed that they can't see what they are doing is killing a family or relationship. how can they be so blind? oh, that's right... because they are not sober!! we are.
we are all here for a purpose- whether or not we want to believe it- a Higher Power has a plan for us- yes all of us! it's just too bad he doesn't share it with all of us when we are put here; or even when we are old enough to do something about it. i don't think we are here to make each other miserable- though sometimes that's what we do.
all of us are stronger than we know, smarter than we know and wiser than we will ever admit.
so now it's time to be...
Honest with ousrselves.
you are the only one who is responsible for your own happiness! if you give up that control there are plenty of people willing to take that from you. Realize (as long as they are adults) you are not responsible, i repeat not in charge of their happiness! only your own!!
you can't change the past- only move forward with your future. we all have problems- some worse than others-
isn't it time we quit blaming other people for our problems?! so you were abused as a child, your mom likes your brother/sister better than you, you were teased in school, ugly, fat, sick, whatever...
GET THE _____ OVER IT!
WAKE UP OUT OF THAT HAZE ... REALIZE WHAT YOU HAVE BEFORE IT'S GONE! BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU HAVE!!
JUST GROW THE _____ UP AND MOVE FORWARD! PLEASE.
why is it so hard to hate the ones we love? even though we watch them slowly kill themselves? wanting desperatley to stop them- feeling helpless to do anything...because anything we do seems to make it worse!
Constantly wondering what did I do wrong...?
maybe if I was a better wife/husband, daughter/son or friend...they wouldn't be like this?!
trying to find an excuse for them- but wait they already have plenty...it's a party, it's the holidays, it's the playoffs, it's a wedding, it's friday, saturday, sunday, i had a bad day, week, childhoold...
praying they wake up (hit bottom) and just stop smoking/drinking/usung/gambling/lieing/using/abusing, and manipulating (which they are so good at) everyone in their lives.
knowing the reality is it may not stop until they die.
wonding what happened to that loving (or even not so loving) person we knew, fell in love with, gave birth too, or had as a dear friend?
we are sad, lonely, tired, mad, upset, guilty because we can't stop them but most of all confussed that they can't see what they are doing is killing a family or relationship. how can they be so blind? oh, that's right... because they are not sober!! we are.
we are all here for a purpose- whether or not we want to believe it- a Higher Power has a plan for us- yes all of us! it's just too bad he doesn't share it with all of us when we are put here; or even when we are old enough to do something about it. i don't think we are here to make each other miserable- though sometimes that's what we do.
all of us are stronger than we know, smarter than we know and wiser than we will ever admit.
so now it's time to be...
Honest with ousrselves.
you are the only one who is responsible for your own happiness! if you give up that control there are plenty of people willing to take that from you. Realize (as long as they are adults) you are not responsible, i repeat not in charge of their happiness! only your own!!
you can't change the past- only move forward with your future. we all have problems- some worse than others-
isn't it time we quit blaming other people for our problems?! so you were abused as a child, your mom likes your brother/sister better than you, you were teased in school, ugly, fat, sick, whatever...
GET THE _____ OVER IT!
WAKE UP OUT OF THAT HAZE ... REALIZE WHAT YOU HAVE BEFORE IT'S GONE! BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU HAVE!!
JUST GROW THE _____ UP AND MOVE FORWARD! PLEASE.