Well ladies...I just found this poem and I thought I would share it with you...it's rather long...but I am sure many of you can relate with it. I know I can...from BOTH sides of the mirror! The poem is off of www.lovelandia.com

From the first time I laid eyes on you
I knew you were the one
To have for better or worse
In sickness and in health

Together we will always be as one
We have lost so much through the years
And have learned our lessons through our tears
All the hurt and all the lies have left us in despair
For this obsessive love you have for the dragon
The love you have makes your blood run cold
The kind that controls your body, your mind, and your soul
I have cried many nights, with no one to hold
Leaving blank feelings; the feelings of being alone
The one thing I dread; just one of my horrors
To wake next to you; as you have gone cold; for you have departed;
How could you be so ruthless, how could you be cold-hearted
You have taken a piece of my heart along with my love for you.
I thought I really knew you, I thought are love was true
I didn’t think you had it in you, how could you be so cruel?
As depressing as it sounds, it was to be predicted
That this dragon has come for your soul,
The passion you have for this dragon;
The sting and heat from the venom that rushes within your blood
The power and control, this dragon has over your head
I could never understand; I will never comprehend
This dragon is so evil, and wishes your demise
This dragon knows your love; it sees the glimmer in your eyes
For demons that birthed from this dragon;
Know your fears, your pleasures, and your pain
The love you have for this “Faceless Affair”
Are leaving feelings of hatred and despair
For this love you have, I can not compete
I can‘t handle the hurt, the sneakiness, or deceit
As it is tonight, I look to the stars above me
Only to be granted, just one special wish
I wish to awaken from this terrifying dream
To my husband, I choose to stay, in your time of need
Standing right by your side, where as a wife should be
Some feelings I have, I in fact have to fight
For your love for this dragon, have two different frights
For the fright of the venom, even more for the bite
I will not watch you die; I will help you through this fight
My faith in you is ever so strong
For only you can fix what has gone wrong
You’re the love of my life, which you will stay
For our kind of love happens once in your life
So cherish our love that can’t be taken away
Hold close to your heart to what you have now
For you will never know what will be from day to day
So live for today, for it may be your last
Learn how to forgive, we all have our pasts
For this self inflicted disease that you call a habit,
Has taken us to hell, because you just had to have it
We all have our skeletons, we all have our faults
But this disease has our dreams, bringing them to a halt
For you sold your soul to the devil, only he will choose the time
Unless you change your perilous ways of life and the life of crime
You are stronger than you think; as I will never know your pain
You need to pray to the lord above, and ask him for one last time
To help you defeat these demons that run through your veins
They hunger for your soul; for it is your soul they will come to claim
The one and only true love, this man I chose to marry,
To stand by as your wife, the weight that I must carry
The love I have for you, will always give me courage
To help you get through these darkest of days
I pray to God, these demons won’t take you away
I miss your smile, the glimmer in your eyes, your gentle touch
The way you kiss and caress me and the way you hold me tight
Your special way with loving me, it truly means so much
For these are the precious moments that I think of every night
The only thing to do is to wait, until you do your time
For your love for the dragon has brought you to a life of crime
For then we will be together until the end of time
Only you can save us from the pain and hell that haunts us
For I am the only one who really knows you, the only one who cares
We are together for eternity; for evermore I am your wife
You are my one and only true love, the only one for me,
I will support you through this dreadful voyage
To find your self-esteem, to help you find the courage
Forbid the demons take your soul; make sure to win the battle
Forever you may have to battle; to conquer the demons that have taken over
This battle you will struggle, will be a fight over your life
To My Husband:


Submitted by addicts wife

blondie

What a peom ;) I can totally relate to it for Travis is a heroin addict. He in prison for possession of the stuff and also charge with intent to sell on school property. Right now and the next 2 years or so he will be sitting in jail cause he has a disease of addiction.

If you don't mind me asking, is your husban/boyfriend is in jail cause of his addiction to heroin?

TTYL

Jen

Hi Jen...well my man isn't in prison for that ish...but I was a herion addict...and he used to use too. But this poem actually reminds me of my past relationship...b/c my ex and I were running partners....and that was a hard time!!! I am sorry that your man is in for possession...I am in NJ too...and it seems like that ish hit BIG up here!!! I hope your man can overcome his addiction and he doesn't use when he gets home!! Keep your head up! Hugs:p
-Jackie

Hey thanks for the poem. My boyfriend has that habit and is trying to kick it.

Wow, That was a good poem. However thanks to god I haven't ever experienced that situation but i was in a relationship where my x husband turned into a crackhead. sad story.

Wow, that really hits home and brought tears to my eyes. So many exact things that I'd rather not remember but can't get out of my mind. I wish I would have had this 2 1/2 years ago to send to him. Now that he's been clean 2 yrs, he really doesn't like to get into too much detail of the past. He knows how I feel and how hurt I was, but am the only one who has stuck by his side 100% down this road.

I just wanted to bring this back up so more people can read it. Hugs:p
-Jackie

This poem really hit home for me. My husband is a herion addict and has been for a very long time. He has been in and out of jail, rehabs and group homes since he was a teen. He currently is in prison and has 11 more felony charges on him....all dealing with crimes to get the money to get the drug. when I met him he was on a medicine to keep him off and then he went off of it. I had not met anyone prior to meeting my husband, who was a herion addict so I did not not the signs. I have been with my husband for 2 years and it seems like 20. I have been through so many bad times with him as well as good times. It seemed like my life revolved around his addiction. If he had a good day, it was ok and if he didnt have the drug, then it was filled with what could be pawned off, sold or yes, stolen to get it. I dealt with him getting sick and yes emotional. It has been a roller coaster ride. all I know is that I love him so much and I know the person he is without it. I also know his struggles. I have educated myself on herion addiction and was wondering if anyone had any info inregards to herion addiction and mental illness. I mean herion is a mind controling right? when you are on it you CANT reason with right or wrong. all you know is that you need it mentally and pysically. I think its wrong for him to be locked up in prison for years when he should be getting help in a long term rehab facilty. I know he would have never commited these crimes if it wasnt for the drug. I am not defending him 100% cause he has a problem but another problem is the system. Most rehabs are only 30 to 90 days for state and most families can not afford the long term ones. I dont think throwing them in prison is going to solve the problem. If it did my husband would have never went back to using after he served 18 months a few years ago. He went through DART in prison. I just dont know. Any advice would greatly be appreciated. Thank you.

wow..that says it all

just a response two your answer i agree that prison is not the answer for there drug problem but that what seems two happen they just toss them back in there with no help my daughter spent almost a year in prison then let go but know is back in the system again because of the drug addication with out no help i think the reason they dont wont two help is because all they wont is that money thats payed two them from the state .but there not helping them at all your right new charges go along every time i wish i could find a way two help these drug addictions cause locking them back up is not the answer i have been fighting this for seven years and still no help because our system is falling us they just wont the money they dont care about the person