Just wanted to leave a quick note that I have been clean 21 years today!!

I nearly forgot!! LOL

Either May 7th or May 26th!! A lot of things were going on 21 years ago, but I know it is one of those two dates!!

Besides, I need a reason to celebrate and feel good about myself!! So this year, I am celebrating on the 7th!!

That is just wonderful :) I knew there was a reason I liked you so much :) I am so happy for you :) :) :) Love Barb

Bravo! That's terrific.

Aloha,

Freya

Rejoice and Celebrate!!!!!! That's a great accomplishment!!!!! You should be proud!!!!!!

Mel

CONGRATULATIONS ... How about this .. we will celebrate again on the 26th. Why you might ask because we are jsut that proud of you. I wish you nothing but the best in your future.

OHHHH Mama, I am sooo proud of you!!!!!!! This is so wonderful.. I love to hear good stories!!!

See told ya you were the best!

Wooooooohoooooo!!! :dance: :dance: :dance:

:D I am cheesin for you!!! That is grrrreat 21 years!!! Here is to another 21 years!! :hifive:

Well Congrats! I celebrated 30 days clean and sober on the 29th of April! Had two years in '98 but went back out to do some research - :eek: ! Believe me it hasn't gotten any better out there! So here I sit as a retread! :D But as a good friend told me "don't worry about the years, just do it a day at a time"! :thumbsup:

My Higher Power - I'm His and His Only,

Syvia

Well Congrats! I celebrated 30 days clean and sober on the 29th of April! Had two years in '98 but went back out to do some research - :eek: ! Believe me it hasn't gotten any better out there! So here I sit as a retread! :D But as a good friend told me "don't worry about the years, just do it a day at a time"! :thumbsup:

My Higher Power - I'm His and His Only,

Syvia

21 years is just a long string of 24 hours put together.

30 days is much to celebrate!!! I am proud of you!

I will look forward to a 60 day Post or PM from you!!!

Congratulations
:yay: :yay: :yay: :yay: :yay: :yay:

Congrats! That is so great....What a wonderful accomplishment :)

Congrats to you !!!!

That is so awesome!!! YEAH!!! for you!!

:thumbsup: Congratulations! I am very proud of you because that is one big accomplishment and here's to you for doing it!

Congratulations!!!! way to go......... that's Big Blessing

YEEHAW!!!! That is wonderful!!! HUGS!

Congratulations, JJT!

That is so fantastic--congratulations! Me I'm just celebrating 30 days of sobriety, but it's been the best month of recent years. Miracles do happen. Peace! Ralph

Ralph!!! I am so proud of you!!!! Keep up the good work. I want to see a post or a PM on your 60 days!!!

JJT

This is my 14th year of sobriety. Sure has been a long rode cause I still miss it. No i'm not in a dry drunk. Got a bad liver and i'll only drink when i'm ready to die. Don't need alocohol in my life just want it. Thinks me look at it like a close friend has died. Can't have him back but i'm always thinking of him.

Congratulations rtee, JJT, & Houtex Angel,
I was clean for 4 years & had to go out to relapse also. It is one day at a time & any clean day is cause for congratulations. Because that's all we have. I have been sober this run for 86 days. The camp my husband was just transferred to has 12 step meetings & a SAP program. He is in prison for drug charges so this is our higher power doing for him what he can't do for himself right now. But I truly believe if he trusts & works his program this will be positive for both of our lives & futures. Again I say congratulations to all on a new beginning & a new way of life.
reneabolt

Good for you! 38 Special

Congrats to you!!!

Iam SO proud of all of you that have made amazing changes in your lives!
By reading these posts, it gives me faith.
You have done wonders for yourselves by staying clean, but you have done wonders for those of us who wonder if it really can happen. (Can I say wonder one more time???? LOL)
CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you for giving me hope- :)

Hey there. What drug did you quit? I am 11 days clean from meth. I'm going to Narcotics Anonymous. But i'd really really like to know, how you did it? thanks.

JJT - I am late on this but my congratulations is no less meant sincerely. You have MUCH to be proud of!!! I know after 21 years keep it up one day at a time sounds almost silly, but those of us who've been there or whose loved ones have been there understand. Congratulations again and happy late BIRTHDAY :)

I was lucky... never got into the meth. I loved the uppers and the nose candy. Oh, my... did I just date myself with those terms!! Do they even say uppers and nose candy anymore!! LOL

There were really 2 things that I can say helped the most for me:

1. Total and complete seperation from my drug friends. I even moved 5 miles away. doesn't seem like much of a move, but it put me into a new environment!!

2. My son. One day I woke up, had no idea where I was, had no idea who I was with, could not remember the last 2 months, and had no idea where my (toddler age) son was.

I am so proud of eveyone!!! 30, 60, 86, 11 days, 14 years!!! This is awesome!!!!

When you go to the meetings... talk, talk, talk and then talk. Sounds dumb, but the more you talk about it, the more people you have in your support group, the more posts you make, the easier it will become. It never goes away, but it does get easier.

It's funny some of the same coping techniques you need for sobriety and being clean are the same as overcoming depression. Refocusing your thougth patterns, learning new habits, finding the strength inside you that you are sure does not exist!! It does, it is there. You can and will make it!!

Stay away from the cliches (and those who use them) if you can. The one I hate to this very day--- 'What doesn't kill you, can only make you stronger.' God, how I hate that saying!!

Another thing that I don't feel is spoken about enough is the grief factor. You are leaving a part of your life behind!! A huge chunk of you you were, your lifestyle, your friends, etc.. There is a level of grief. I have found an excellent book on how to deal with grief.

I don't know if it will go against PTO policy to post it. It is called The Grief Recovery Handbook, by John W. James and Russell Friedman. First thing it does is kill the cliches!!! See why I like it!! It is mainly focused on losing a loved one to death. Just replace the "loss of loved one" to loss of drug, lifestyle, etc.

Well. Hope something I have said helped.

I am in your corner. PTO is in your corner. Together, we are power. Keep me posted with how you are doing!

JJT

Thats wonderful!:rock: i wish you many more years!!

I don't know if it will go against PTO policy to post it. It is called The Grief Recovery Handbook, by John W. James and Russell Friedman.

Sharing valuable books and info and resources, especially in a forum like this, is NEVER against PTO policy, JJT....

JTT,You have alot to be proud of,many many congrats to you.

Hey, I was just on my way to the California Forum, and I couldn't help but notice the sign on your door announcing "21 Years Clean Today", so I just had to come by and say CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! :thumbsup:

Thank you NuB!!!

Every day is such a gift now. I had 15 years and started taking sobriety and health for granted, then lost both for no reason at all except my own laziness in the program. It took another trip to jail to get me back into AA & I love my life now, even though jail time is in my near future. I'm grateful for a strong support system (which I'm still building) and for various "angels" who appear regularly in my life these days. Yesterday I visited a guy in ICU, comatose and in critical condition after years of drinking, and I left my name and no. for his family if there was anything at all I could do. This morning his brother called me and asked me simply to pray that Stanley would regain consciousness. I assured him that I'd gladly do that--but my real gladness was in being able to get out from under my own little problems and think of others for a change. It's as if God sends these little signals to me as reminders of what a blessing life is. Hugs to all! Peace. Ralph

Ralph... I will hold good thoughts for Stanley and his family too. How wonderful it is that your lifes path put you on this journey. Now you have access to 21,000 people who will pray and send good thoughts to someone who needs it!

JJT

I'm late with this, but congratulations to you for 21 years, JJT! I just celebrated my 19th anniversary on May 5th, so we almost shared a birthday, didn't we?

And congratulations to all the others here, especially those of you who have started over again. I've done that a few times myself and it got harder to "get it" with each time back, but this last time, I just stuck to "one day at a time", doing the best I could with each day, and they stacked up.

All of you are in my prayers and I trust you'll keep me in yours, too. It's good to be here with you all.

Aloha Toi,

Congratulations and may you have many more beautiful anniversaries. It is good to have you here with us!

Love,

Freya

Hi and congrats!! I celebrated 3 years on May 5th (Congrats to Toi Ama also, we share the same b-day!) That is also my belly button B-day.... but I am only getting older in AA years :)

Thank you everyone!!! More importantly ---- Congratulations to everyone else!!!

Man I LOVE this thread!!!!!!!!!

I love it too Jeni..Congratulations to all of you,your all winners and you've given me hope that maybe someday my sons can do it too.

Congrats JJT!!!!!!! :fb: I relapsed for a 2nd time and have been clean for 5 days as of today.

5 days is great-congratulations and good luck! Ralph

Congrats JJT!!!!!!! :fb: I relapsed for a 2nd time and have been clean for 5 days as of today.
Proud of you for making the commitment to get clean again.
Double proud of you for letting us know!!:yay: :yay: :yay: :yay: :yay:

Thankyou JJT and Ralph. :) it's been awhile since I checked this tread. I now have 49days.:yay: I've finally found my Higher Power, God, this time around. I call my sponser daily, attend meetings daily, and i'm on my 3rd step (NA), just about done with it. I'm a recovering Heroin addict and it's one of the most difficult things i've ever contended with, but I know I can get through it with God. Thanks again......Jraysgirl

You go girl...very proud of ya! Me too, been clean for 19 years and counting!
:yay: :yay: :yay: Love, Suzi :thumbsup:

Congratulations on your success and may it continue! :D

You are a role model for many people!!! What a wonderful and beautiful thing!! :)

Ok....clean and sober for 1 year today all!! It's been a battle since hubby's arrest was in the summer and I was tempted MANY a time to pick up that booze...BUT...key word here......I didin't!!!!:D

My arrest for a DUI 1 year ago yesterday was the "brick" that I needed to hit me in the head. All the charges were dropped and dismissed .....a blessing, legally, however it was just what I needed to have happen to wake me up!! No alcohol for a year and it's getting easier every day. :thumbsup: They say you cannot help someone until they want to be helped and that was me....I saw no problem....therefore I continued. I have feelings that I want a beer, or the social life of a bar on occassion, however, when I really think about what I will feel like afterwards...NO THANKS!! I'll keep my sanity, safety and love of my family, thank you very much!;)

The courts DID re-open my DUI case in September:( , and I went to court on October 8th. It looks like I will do some time, and I don't want to, but we have to pay for the choices we make. Next court date is November 9th and I have a different public defender so we will see what happens. The man I had last year was wonderful and did a great job!!

We shall see!!

Cheryl

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!:hifive:


I pray that everything goes well for you in court and you don't have to do anytime. Good luck!! And stay strong!!

Congrats on you're year... good luck in court.

You know I'm praying for you, girl! Congrats on the one-year mark - you are through the toughest days now! And I know that you can make it through the rest of them! Best of luck to you and you know where to find me if I can do anything at all for you!

Love ya!

My little graphics aren't working :(

But HAPPY BIRTHDAY! What a miracle you are! Keep up the awesome work!!!!

One day at a time Baby! (((HUGS))) and best wishes to you!

Congratulations :)

It feels good to be "clean" after a long time of hardship with "the drink". ;) One day at a time is right, though!! Every day is a new one and holds a new challenge...and anyone that thinks they can't do it...here's a thought....think of every day as your last....live it the way you feel you should, and with those you love, and you will never regret it!!:D .

Sooooooooooooo....I can do a dance to celebrate...I think I will......LOLOL
:yay: :dance: :yay: :dance: :yay: :dance:

Yep yep....I feel better now!!!!!!:clap:

Cheryl

Oh Cheryl - I think I'll adopt that as my "new philosophy" - live each day as if it were my last - I'm just coming out of a BAD (for me) relationship and think I like how that sounds! (Sorry to "barg into" your thread - just liked your "thought") :D :thumbsup:

This philosophy has worked for me for a while now....brings new light into the picture!!

Cheryl

First CONGRATS on the sober for a year. That is so wonderful. You keep taking it one day at time and know that we are all here for you and wish you the best.
I wanted to say that your philosophy live each day as it were your last. I have been doing that lately or at least trying to. I have always been one of those "what if I am not here tomorrow what would be the last thing I said to the loved ones." Well I drifted away from my son in a sense as far as not doing as much stuff with him. But now I am going to start again living like its my last. I just wanted to say Thank you for the reminder that philosophy works for a lot of things.
Sorry to go on about my life. I wish you many many more years of being clean, and said a prayer for your court date. Please keep us updated on it. It is good that you accept the fact that we make the choices and have to "pay" for them one way or antoher, May God bless you and fill your heart with joy and happiness. Keep up the great work
Hugs,
Brandi

Congratulations, Cheryl, that's a great accomplishment - a year of sobriety!!! :yay: Yay!! If you do have to do time (hopefully you won't), you will probably be able to help others. Keep it up, One Day at A Time!

Congrats on one year!!! Wonderful job!
No matter what happens, if you have to do a bit of time or not, you can be happy knowing that you have turned your life around! Again- congrats! You are an inspiration to so many!

This is great news--I just had 6 mos. and felt wonderful. The jail time I did for my 2nd DUI (the one that got me sober) was a valuable part of the healing process, and I found a peace while inside that's stayed with me in the months since. Peace to you--and congratulations! Ralph

Congratulations to you too!! And to ANYONE with an addiction to anything, for staying clean and sober for one day......or 20+ years....my heartfelt congratulations!!


Yes, being as mine is a second DUI also, it was definitely an eye-opener!! I don't always learn from my first mistakes....and this was a prime example for me. BUT....I am well on my way to my new destination........wherever that may be :D

Cheryl

congrads on the one year.

Today 8 years ago I quit drinking and doing drugs.....It was the best thing that I ever did. I get to go tonight and pick up 8yr medallion. My sponsor will give it to me......It is cool because I can get through my husband being in prison, my granny dying and don't have to drink or drug. It is no longer an option for me today. I wanted to share this with you all because you guys are my other family. You all are my other support besides AA and Church. Love jeanne

Today 8 years ago I quit drinking and doing drugs.....It was the best thing that I ever did. I get to go tonight and pick up 8yr medallion. My sponsor will give it to me......It is cool because I can get through my husband being in prison, my granny dying and don't have to drink or drug. It is no longer an option for me today. I wanted to share this with you all because you guys are my other family. You all are my other support besides AA and Church. Love jeanne
Yay! Congrats :D

Way to go, Jeanne! I didn't know that you had a problem in the past and I think it's fantastic to get through what you have and not slip a bit!

Congrats and keep on keepin' on, girl!

Love ya!

WOOO HOOO!!!!!!
congrats jeanne!!! i am so proud of you! 8 years is a long time that is great!!!!
girl you go, be proud of that medal smooches...ashtynn

What a happy, happy anniversary!! savor it!

Thank you ladies, Ash---you bring tears to my eyes. Love ya girl.....Jeanne

i just know what a HUGE HUGE accompishment this is for you. i really really do. i am VERY proud of you and respect all you have been thru and the struggle and power alcohal can have over you. jeanne you overcame that. you should look back in awe of how determined and strong you were and still are. girl what you have accomplished says alot about you . i love you!

THAT'S GREAT!!:D :thumbsup: :yes: :yay: :bow: :clap: :hifive: :grouphug: :rock: ALL OF THIS APPLY! COULDNT PICK ONE! CONGRADULATIONS!!

Congratulations!! That is terrific!!!!!!

I am so happy for you! What a proud day for you and for those who love you. Your strength is an inspiration.

THAT IS SOOOO AWESOME.. keep going girl!~~

(((((((hugs)))))))))))to ya..

Peace
Donna

((As a friend of Bill W. myself)) I am very happy for you!! It is amazing how our lives change and we grow as people when we put ourselves on the right path. I commend you for your hard work!! I know for me, the hardest part is dealing with daily struggles....I don't sweat the BIG stuff, it's the small stuff that can make me backslide. Take care of you!! I am so proud of you....and if you ever need me....don't hesitate to PM me. Day or night!!! Keep up the good work!!!!! Hold that medallion close to you, you earned it darlin'!! (((KISS))) :thumbsup: :dance: :yay: :yes: :hifive: :rock: :grouphug: See, I could not pick just one either!!!

Happy Birthday Jeanne!
8 Years :yay::yay::yay:

:yay: CONGRATS!!! YOU SHOULD BE REALLY PROUD OF YOURSELF!!! :thumbsup: YOU MUST FEEL REALLY GREAT, KEEP IT UP!

I am on my way to my AA meeting and I had to check back. Man I didn't expect this repsonse. I am sitting bawling.....The love and support that I have here just leaves me speechless.. I LOVE ALL OF YOU SO MUCH......JEANNE See all of you in about an hour and half.

Congrats :) That is wonderful!

Well I got my 8 year mediallion tonight. It was so bittersweet. One because Herb could not be there for it. Two my sponsor handed me her eight yr medalion that was given to her by a gentleman in the program that had several, serveral yrs that passed away this year. When she put that in my hand and told me whose it was, I completely lost it right there at the meeting. I didn't think I would ever stop crying....
I am really blessed that I have all the friends that I have.
Tonight, you guys have made this the most special anniversary that I have ever had and I will never forget this night for as long as I live.
Tonight you all have filled a hole that only Herb could have done had he been home.
Thank you so much for allowing me to be apart of this beautiful family.
I love all of you Jeanne

I think this is truly the best kind of anniversary that there is out there... A big huge congratulations to you! I hope there are many more years for you to come!

A belated Congratulations - that is such great news!

Thank you mlg78 and DLM, soberity is the best gift that I have given myself. Love to both of you Jeanne

Peace....jftazzy...this is great news...proves that so many things are possible. Stay Up. Blessings...

Thanks Chinikfb.

just one more big (((((hug )))))) to you. i am truly so proud of you, i know herb is too. he was there in spirit jeanne. smooches! love you ~ash

Jeanne, sorry I am late on this one.
I am happy for you. You have come along way and have went through so much. Just keep going forward, we are all behind you. I know Herb is proud too.

Friends For Life
Pauline

I love you Jimbo's lady (Pauline) and we are friends for life. ******{HUGS}}}}

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That is just fabulous news!!! I am so proud of you !! As a fellow "fighter" myself, may your sobriety gift keep "giving" to you every day, week, month & year!!!:thumbsup:





Cheryl

Thank you Eric's homegirl :) I now have 102 days and am on my 4th step. I am very committed to my 12 step program. It's saved my life! Congrat's on you're 19 yrs.:yay: That's a beautiful thing and someday i'll have that by having Faith and Trust in God and staying clean one day at a time. Take care

That is so GREAT, JJT!! :yes:

Well - I have made it a week without meth in my life - it has been a struggle and this week is a big jump! Many things have helped - A. cutting everyone out of my life who uses - the temptation no longer there to pick up the phone because they are gone. B. Thanks to many who have pulled in and have given words of encouragement and support - from friends, family, my DR penpal, My HUNNY:p , several from PTO who have PM'd me, etc. I have not even had the desire to do it this last week. I know it will come back and full force - but each day of not wanting helps me gear up the strength to stay away when it does creep back in my mind to use again. Hopefully - this time will be successful and I can get my life back on track for myself, my kids, & the love of my life! Thank you!!

I want to say that i am very proud of you.. Stay strong for it will be all worth it. You can do it and you will conquer this demon who has plagued your life.

Brook, that is excellent. I am so proud of you. One week is a real big step. Just take it one day at a time. You can do it. If I can you can. I just celebrated eight years monday. My prayers are with you everyday. If you ever need to talk, feel like you want to use pm. I will be happy to give you my phone number, my email address. What ever it takes I am here for you. Love Jeanne

Congratulations! This is a very big step and it seems that you are doing it the right way! One day at a time!
Again- congrats and please keep us updated! It is wonderful to hear stories like this! It gives other people in similar situations hope!

I am so proud of you. Most of my bf and brother's problems are directly traceable to meth. My SIL is so far gone, she's lost both her kids and her life is a mess. I know how hard it is to kick and you are so brave for getting this far!!:thumbsup:

I am very proud of you!

I know how difficult it is to stay off, I have been sober for ten years.

You do it one day at a time and each day clean is a Victory for you!

Stay strong and know that we are here for you!

Patti

Wow This is huge!! I am very proud of you. You have realized some things ( staying away from those who use ) some never do. Keep up the fantastic work, and keep us posted!

This is just the best news I have read all day!! You can do it!! And when you feel you are faltering, get right back online here with us and we will be here to pull you through!!!:thumbsup: keep it up and don't let that "devil" get you!!

Cheryl

Congratulations!!!
Fantastic!!
Wonderfull!!!

I am so proud of you!!!


JJT

Thanks Tigger, you all have made this anniversary so special to me. I can't thank you enough.

Jeanne - you give me hope, because my boyfriend who is an addict who tried to beat it but didn't make it before it got him back in prison. CONGRATULATIONS AND THANKS for being an inspiration for everyone still caught in the cycle. I send him stories about people who made it, to help encourage him. He wants to get where you are!!!! Your Herb must be PROUD of YOU!!!!

Thank YOU Brooksangel for what you are doing. All of us who love an addict know what a gift you are giving to yourself and your loved ones, a gift ONLY YOU can give, and NO ONE can replace YOU in their lives. Keep it going!!!!

Yes - my hunny is sittin in Prison, my best friend in County, and other friends on probation cause of it... Even with all that - I still went back. I was so proud last night when 2 of the people I used to hang with called me and one offered to "wake me up" if I wanted. The little devil said - "come on come on... one time won't hurt... " Thankfully it was on the phone and not in person cause I would've fallen hard... I know that. I told them - nope - I've cleaned out and I don't use anymore... needless to say their interest in talking to me wained and they hung up!!:thumbsup: I really think I can make it this time.... Stocking up on the energy drinks right now though!! Ha!! Thanks so much everyone - you are all a big support - and I know my KIDS who are MY LIFE - are so much happier having their momma back!! I am emotionally there now... not just a body around the house!! :p Brooks has even commented on how much better I sound and is glad to have me back! We are both clean - for the first time in our relationship - and very much in love... his due to incarceration, but he has really made some changes to better himself - and we have a chance now together with both our heads straight!! Next week - I will definately be back to let you know I made it 2 weeks!! THANKS EVERYONE!!

Congratulations from me too!! A little late - but still the same heart!!

Peace....You have no idea how happy I became after reading your thread. You go girl....you continue to stay strong and possitive. Have worked with so many on that path and do believe that it is one day at a time. Congrats!!!!! Blessings...

I want to thank eveyone of you....Getting this eight yr medalion is really special. It belonged to my sponsor, who had it passed to her from one of our old trimes, who we just adored. He died and she wanted to pass it down to me....Love Jeanne

Well - I knew it was too good to be true... the cravings have been hitting like a b*** the last day or two and I feel are only going to get worse through the weekend.... I can taste the s*** in my mouth - sucks... I am doing ok though... This weekend is a hard one as my little boy turns 5 and I won't get to be a part as my ex took off and won't allow me to see or talk to my little ones... this unrelated to the drugs... that is the excuse he uses and it is a good one - but it is all a control issue - I know that sounds like I'm trying to advert the responsibility from the drugs and I'm not - there are just many issues and things as far as his behavior goes - that if looked at shows what I am saying... N E ways it is hard - cause my heart is torn apart and I know that if I did use - I just wouldn't feel the pain... I know I can't use.... and it hurts to go through this... but when things get into court - at least I can pass a drug tests - and hopefully once the whole truth regarding the case are brought out - I will be re-united with my babies.... I'm holding in guys.... will keep you posted... Again - thanks so much!!

brooksangel....

You are going to make it though the weekend. Just take it one moment at a time.

Remeber, there are things in life you can control, and there are things you cannot. Focus on what you can control, and let the rest fall to the side.

When I was getting clean, the one thing that was still in my control was making my bed, the rest of my situation was out of my control. I would make my bed over and over and over. Changed the sheets a dozen times a day if I needed to.

I am so proud of you for reaching out and sharing your journey with us.

JJT

Brooks,
If you are not already attending may I suggest NA. In my town they have many many meetings each day. You need a sponsor and you need new friends to help. Are you seeing a counselor? There are antideprassants that supposedly help with the cravings.

I wish you the best--take one day at a time. Get into NA/AA it works!

One

Stand up, put your arms in the air (yep stretch it out), now breath deep , and exhale letting your arms slowly lower to your sides. Repeat!!

I know this weekend will probably be a hard one for you but maybe you can try this....

Buy a small cake,( invite a couple of friends or have it alone whichever you are more comfortable with )and have a little party for your son. Sing Happy Birthday and light the candles, all 5 of them, then make that wish and blow them out, serve a slice and enjoy. Write your son a note and stick it in a card and save it for that reunion date we all know you will have one day soon.

I'm sorry you are having trouble this week, but I can remember it so well especially when hubby was extradited to another state and I was so down and alone. Keep yourself strong and like I said before, keep coming back here when you feel you are needing support and we will give it to you, I can promise you that!! You can pm me anytime you want....I will be here for you!! :grouphug:


Cheryl

My name is Amy, I am an addict. I have been clean 5 days, or 123 hrs to be honest. I hope so much to double this. Fear has been taking control of my life for so long. This is my first time being an adult. I am trying hard, faliure is not an option.

Amy

Amy I applaud your success. This is such a great undertaking you have ahead of you; but I know that you can do it. Just take one day at a time and you'll be fine!

Good for you, Amy! I am sending you lots of good thoughts and love.
You CAN do it. ((hugs))

Congratulations. I am very proud of you. I just celebrated eight yrs on nov. 1st. You can do this. I know you can.....If you need anything I am just a Pm away.

Congratulations!!!!

:dance: :yay: :dance: :yay: :dance: :yay: :dance: :yay:

I am so proud of you!!!


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Keep up the good work!!

JJT

:thumbsup: :thumbsup: :thumbsup: :thumbsup: :thumbsup: :thumbsup:


One day at a time.

You have made the first and most vital move. Keep it up. :hifive:

Amy,

Congradulations and good luck. My son also is recovering now and has been clean for 9 months. He feels much better about himself and I know you will too.

I will say a prayer for you.

-Cheerz

Amy- congratulations! Stay true to yourself and take it one day at a time! You can do this!!!
I am glad that you have found this site as we are here for you 100%! If you need anything at all, just ask!!!
Again, keep it up and congratulations!

Congratulations!!! You can make it! I really hope you are attending AA/NA--it does help. Any time you want to talk PM me.

ONE

I want to say congratulations - you can do it. Keep your head straight and remember - your not alone...

Good for you!!! YOu can do this...just keep your mind on the right track!!! You have tons of support here!!!

Peace....I, too, will join the ranks of those applauding your work....it really is work....how are things going on this day? Take it one day at a time...Be Blessed!

Amy,
I am very proud of you!!!
YOU GO GIRL!!!!!
as the others say.. take it one day at a time or one hour at a time. You hang in there and keep us posted, maybe we can all help if ever you have a down time and need to talk :):):):):)
SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!

Good for you and I am raying that you can double your time... Stay strong.............

Congrats Amy! Wishing you continued sucess

Amy , you have already did a great thing by staying clean for five days. To someone that has a addiction to drugs that is a long time. I teach parents with children on drugs and I tell them all each moment without drugs give the brain time to heal. Remember the triggers and stay away from them. It will be tough but you can do it girl. Find someone who loves you and you only. Most true friends are not of the party world. You are special and as the hours go you will feel that within your self. Good Lluck. you will find when you have a craving turn to prayer believe me your prayer will be heard.

It has now been a month. I am doing well. Thank you all for your support.
Amy

:thumbsup: :fb: :wave: :yay: :hifive: :grouphug: Congratulations on being clean and sober for a month. I am so proud of you. That is a great accomplishment. If you ever need to talk just pm. Love Jeanne

That is wonderful news !!! Keep up the good work!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thats so awesome, congratulations!! I'm so proud of you!!! Take one day at a time and you will make it sweetie. We're always here for you!

Peace...Way to go....you are Blessed! Blessings....

I am so proud of you. I have watched it keep my family down for too many years now. I would love to see you stay clean and move onto bigger and better things for yourself. Love ya Angie

:D Congratulations!!!!!!:thumbsup:
:thumbsup: Keep it up!!!!:D

Good luck with the bright future you are moving towards!!!


If you ever need to talkI am only a PM away!!!

Congratulations!!!!!

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

JJT

Congratulations!!! Keep It Up!

Congrats!!!! Little steps turn into big one's. Your doing great, I'm proud of you!!!

Amy,
You have taken a huge step in the rest of your life and the rest of your families lives!! Congratulations, the road is not always easy, but with hope, prayers and determination you'll do it!! Been there, done that!! Getting through the Holidays is tough, but remember you have one HUGE family here at PTO to get you through. Blessings to you...

Well guys - since my last post in here - I fell and fell hard. I had an awakening after Thanksgiving though and my world crashed. Someone FINALLY told me what I already knew and it finally stuck - I can't even walk into court and ask for visitation if I can't pass a test. 90 day hair follicle - and that I am fooling myself by buying the shampoo and thinking that bleaching and recoloring my hair will work. It finally crashed around me that I am sabatoging myself and have no one else to blame. I cut off all my friends - that was a hard one as I struggled to still have my friends around. I have not talked to any except 3. 2 use - but will NEVER give me anything if I begged and screamed bloody murder - our time is limited though as I don't partake in it. 1 doesnt - I am bugging the sh** out of them!! Ha ha! I then ended up in the hospital with a kidney infection that had moved to my bloodstream - I blame meth. Had I been clean - I may have noticed the fatigue as a symptom. Or maybe caught it sooner - not been dehydrated, etc... I had no signs that I knew other than back pain when I knew something was wrong - maybe it didn't cause it - but it sure didn't help it. I used to fight to stay clean for 5 days - but I can now officially say that I have been clean for 3 weeks today! I will have my 30 days next week!! I am so excited and I feel so much better - other than getting well from my illness!! My kids are happier, I am happier. I also read an article that often kids go through with withdrawls as their parents as the smoke settles on things in the household - even if your locked in the other room... that helps me deal with my children better as they may be going through the same - not mentioning the emotional upheaval we have all been through. I take it day by day! Last night was a hard one - I had cravings, and for the first time I had a "dope" dream. It scared me - because in my dream it was so easy to go back and I told myself the same lies and excuses I used to, and I was high as a kite.... thankfully it was just a dream. One day at a time.... 3 weeks down... a lifetime to go!

Get your fanny to a meeting...find a sponsor...tie a knot inthe end of the rope and HANG ON! You can do this lady. You deserve to be clean and happy...we're here for you! I'm so proud of you for trying to better yourself! Sending you lots and lots of love and all the strength I can muster! You are in my thoughts and prayers!

Hugs,

You Rule! Keep On Headed Toward Your Happy And Bright Future!

I did start going to meetings - about 2 - 3 times a week, and I also do online meetings with LSR every morning after I take the kids to school. My 30 days is TUESDAY!!! I am sooo excited!! Thanks everyone for your support!!

YOU GO GIRL!!! Where in Texas are you? I'm about 100 miles east of Dallas in a little hole in the road called Mt. Vernon. If ya need an ear or a swift kick I'm here for ya!
Keep up the good work and keep your head in your meetings. They help.

This is great!
You know you can do it....you know you will be much much better off and a saner person. I am following you all the way....I don't really know you at all but if it helps pm me any time. I will give you all the support I can. Big Hug.
There can be no better way to start the year!

Hey ya'll...I have to ask this: How many of you have a loved one in prison who has been clean and sober (drugs) and is still going strong? I know that sounds like a weird question, but I've been so extremely scared lately. My baby gets out in less than 3 months and I'm just so scared that life isn't going to be enough for him to stay clean. He seems to really want to make it, but I don't know what is wrong with me. I am just so scared that he'll get out and it will be good for a bit and then it will all fall apart. I was just wondering if any of ya'll knew any success stories about someone getting out and staying clean. He knows how many people he hurt and he knows he'd lose me if he started up again, but it doesn't mean he's not going to have a life long battle. I'm just scared, I think....I mean, he'll be out soon and I'm so unbelievably scared. He's everything to me and I love him so much, but I won't stick around if he does drugs again...he knows that too. I was just wondering if anyone had any success stories. Thanks for letting me vent and question ya'll.

I dont have experience yet, but I can say that you should find a local AA/NA facility and he should attend once he is out. Like he should go the day he gets out or the next. When we discharge people for the detox unit we suggest 90 meetings in 90 days then continue at least 4-5 a week. Also you may want to find a drug counselor in your area. Its almost impossible for an addict to stay clean on their own. NOT SAYING YOU CANT. But the daily struggles in life can decrease your chances of being clean.

I wish you the very best and I cant wait til my counter says 84!!!

ONE

1dayatatime:
Haha, ya, my counter is looking good. Ya, he's in a program that has him working through for 90 days, and then after that I may consider seeing if he wants to do NA meetings. He's pretty strong willed and he seems to want to stay clean, but I'm not stupid and I know it's a struggle. He's not letting on as much as he could, but I'm not going to push him to talking about something he really isn't comfortable talking about. He just needs to know that I love him and I'm supporting him, even if I do worry. He's got that program and then I'm hoping he'll go to meetings once a week or so....I just worry all the time, but I could never let him know that. I would never want him thinking that I don't believe in him.

Don't you worry honey, your counter is getting less everyday too! You're going to be at 84 before you know it!

I think what you are feeling is normal. It kind of reminds me of the insecuritues they have while in there. They hear so many stories of us leaving them and they see it happen all the time. They start to think that its going to happen to them.

Well on the outside we hear a lot of stories how guys dont make it or relationships dont survive that we start to get insecure. It doenst mean its going to happen to us, but when you hear the stories you cant help but be scared.

Just like when they were in the only thing that helped was lots of time and proof from us that we werent leaving. Well thats about all that will help us when they get out. Lots of time and proof that things will be ok

TNC:

You're right, I just have to let him prove it to me. I guess I'm just scared because no one seems to have good stories....I will just keep my head up and keep myself strong, the best way I can. He has no way of proving to me that he's going to make it, while he's in there and I have to give him the chance to prove it when he's out here. I just have to keep myself strong...for me and him. Thanks!

I left that part out--I agree what you are feeling is normal. We all wonder what its gonna be like when they come home.

Stay strong.

ONE

He has no way of proving to me that he's going to make it
And he has not done anything yet to make you think he wont. All you can do his stay strong and have lots of faith in him. I know when your scared its hard to be strong, but I think as long as you continue what you are doing then you will be fine.

One day at a time...don't even look at the days down the road. If he does the next right thing then down the road will take care of itself. I can't recommend AA/NA strong enough. That will be a major source of support for him. And a sponsor with atleast 5 yrs of sobriety is essential. Also it needs to be someone he can't snow. Someone that will be straight up with him and not let him manipulate, rationalize, or justify negative behavior. And you really should go find a good Alanon group. It will help you tremendously. This I know from personal experience. Good luck with it all. Remember...baby steps...don't dwell on the past...don't look too far into the future...live for today.

Girls, thank you all so much. You're all right...it's one day at a time, and then whatever happens, happens. I'm going to recommend NA eventually....see if he'll go for it. If he's willing to stay clean I'm sure he will. We'll just have to see how it all goes for him really. Again, thank you guys. I really appreciate all the kind words!

tanya that couldnt have been better put, i needed that :)I think what you are feeling is normal. It kind of reminds me of the insecuritues they have while in there. They hear so many stories of us leaving them and they see it happen all the time. They start to think that its going to happen to them.

Well on the outside we hear a lot of stories how guys dont make it or relationships dont survive that we start to get insecure. It doenst mean its going to happen to us, but when you hear the stories you cant help but be scared.

Just like when they were in the only thing that helped was lots of time and proof from us that we werent leaving. Well thats about all that will help us when they get out. Lots of time and proof that things will be ok

Allow me to clarify because I know a few people are a little confused about what I've said here...I'm not going to bring up NA meetings unless he's voicing concerns about not being able to make it. If he thinks he can't make it after his rehab program I'll suggest NA meetings. However, I will not do that unless he is having problems. I don't want him to think that I don't believe in him and I don't want him thinking I doubt his word. If he says he can make it, then he can. I'm here for that extra support he needs. He doesn't need to think that I'm freaking out for no reason. My concerns are between me, my best friend and PTO members. Yes, I worry about him, but that doesn't mean I don't think he'll make it. I think he will and I won't tell him anything about NA unless he thinks he can't do it. Then I'll suggest it. Until then I have to stay strong for both of us.

Hey ya'll...I have to ask this: How many of you have a loved one in prison who has been clean and sober (drugs) and is still going strong? I know that sounds like a weird question, but I've been so extremely scared lately. My baby gets out in less than 3 months and I'm just so scared that life isn't going to be enough for him to stay clean. He seems to really want to make it, but I don't know what is wrong with me. I am just so scared that he'll get out and it will be good for a bit and then it will all fall apart. I was just wondering if any of ya'll knew any success stories about someone getting out and staying clean. He knows how many people he hurt and he knows he'd lose me if he started up again, but it doesn't mean he's not going to have a life long battle. I'm just scared, I think....I mean, he'll be out soon and I'm so unbelievably scared. He's everything to me and I love him so much, but I won't stick around if he does drugs again...he knows that too. I was just wondering if anyone had any success stories. Thanks for letting me vent and question ya'll.This isnt really a success story but its my experience dealing with the same thing you are...only my husband liked the alcohol. Ultimately that is why he sits in prison now. Last April I told my husband after he went to jail for pushing me down and breaking my arm that I was leaving him. He thought he lost me. I wouldnt accept any calls from him for a week. He wrote to me begging me to forgive him and please take him back. He said he didnt blame me if I wouldnt take him back but he would never stop trying to get me back. He tells me I am his savior(You will understand why in a minute), he calls me his angel. I then gave him an ultimatum...he needed to say good bye to me or the alcohol. Well he got out in August and tried it the first weekend he was out. I left and wouldnt have nothing to do with him! He found out that I wasnt playing. He didnt touch it again!!! He was unfortunately locked up again in 27 days because he didnt make it to the alcohol assessment thing, the car broke down. That didnt work...even with the repair slip. They locked him up at 3:30 that evening. I left the courtroom in tears. His PO yelled for me to wait up and tried to talk to me...it was useless...I told her that you can send a man to rehab but if he doesnt want to stop he wont! I said Jimmy wants to stop and he did...for me! He now sits in a super max prison cell!

Your feelings of concern are normal trust me! I was scared to death he would go right back to the drugs once he was free but he hasn't and I don't think he will.Granted it has only been one month that he has been home but he said he never wants to go back to that life and I believe him

Allow me to clarify because I know a few people are a little confused about what I've said here...I'm not going to bring up NA meetings unless he's voicing concerns about not being able to make it. If he thinks he can't make it after his rehab program I'll suggest NA meetings. However, I will not do that unless he is having problems. I don't want him to think that I don't believe in him and I don't want him thinking I doubt his word. If he says he can make it, then he can. I'm here for that extra support he needs. He doesn't need to think that I'm freaking out for no reason. My concerns are between me, my best friend and PTO members. Yes, I worry about him, but that doesn't mean I don't think he'll make it. I think he will and I won't tell him anything about NA unless he thinks he can't do it. Then I'll suggest it. Until then I have to stay strong for both of us.

Sweetestsin by reading what you have posted, I think that we all have those fears about our men that are addicts, It is away of life for them. It is a long road to stay sober.. I have all ways had some addict in my life if it was not me then it was a family member, my kids father or my man now. It is all most like learning to walk again. They have to change there way of thinking and friends, to learn that who they think are ture friends are really not. You say that you will not suggest NA unless he feels like he can not do this. NA is alot like this site it is for support for them and they can talk openly about what it is like for them to go day to day to be sober, they will make new friends that really understand what they are going though. Sometimes in order to find a place he is comfortable at he will have to keep going to different meetings until he finds a home there.Alot of recovering addicts will tell you that they would not have made it for not going to meetings. I have been to meetings and I have watched my aunt (may she rest in peace) totally change herself and be sober for 14 years before she passed away.. It is possible but it is something that they have to want for themselfs.. I'm going though something with my man, the issuses are there and we have to talk them out but he is one that has to make the change to keep him out of prison and to save his life.. I wish you and your man the best of luck..

My hubby gets out April 27th and I am a nervous wreck too. Kind of like Jimmy's Girl. Cowboy liked booze as well as he liked drugs, in fact, I think he did the drugs just so he could drink more. As we all know, they can get anything they want inside as well as outside. Mine has done over five years now and hasn't done anything while down, so I'm going to give him the benefit of the doubt. Having been on my own and suffered as we do right along with them yet here for them when they walk out that door, I will not put up with any BS this time around. Geez, I hope he believes me - he should. I've got the patience of Job, but once I have finally had enough, I've had enough and then there is no turning back. He'll find his Cowboy a-- on the street. I'm not going to be the mistress to meth or vodka. Meanwhile, one day I'm sky high with excitement about him coming home and then the next I'm sick to my stomach worrying. That's not what's happening for any of us. Let's try to believe and practice what we preach - one day at a time.

I went to my first alcohol class the other day. I was the only female there. The court ordered me to attend a few classes, it was the same for all the guys there. So, we all were there because we had to be, but I can actually say I enjoyed it. The counselor kind of gets you thinking. I'm one of those people who can stay sober for awhile, but then when I fall, I fall HARD. I just wanted to share this, I can't believe I actually enjoyed the session. Thank you to you all who gave encouragement to me when I posted about my arrest awhile back.

Glad you went and enjoyed it! Wishing you continued success

Keep Going..lots to learn...every day it gets better and better....

GO YANA!!! I think you are going to give and get a lot out of it. Hugs from somebody who should probably be sitting next to you

My husband has been in for 3 years on a six flat. He doesn't use drugs in prison so it's not even a concern when he's in. Kids are scared of the boogey man -- he's scared of a dirty urine and for others in there to see how he and his composure change because in there, he's the man. In society you can get lost and nobody know who you are -- after every release he has relapsed. That makes me feel like "so what on earth is there to make me believe he won't when he get out this time?"

I don't even have it in me any more to fear what he will do fars his addiction when he get out as I am so past that. The point where I am with it now is there will be no more addiction when he gets out because I am praying for him often. My only choice at this point is to believe that God will save him from himself because I know my husband will try to work his recovery satisfactorily but my gut wretching feeling is "give him up to 6, 7 months" and he'll be back actively using again. I refuse to allow myself to think that way. The only way I'm thinking now is "God gon fix my Baby" because that's my last and only recourse.

Ever since my husband has been in prison I found myself drinking more. I recently moved states & find that I am drinking even more than before. I’m sick of doing that, as all it gets me is more depressed & lonely. Today is Superbowl Sunday & when most people will be drinking, I have resolved to stop. I’m just so sick of it and it can’t be good for my health either! My husband has expressed concerns around it as well. I don’t think this will be an easy thing for me to do but I need to do it. It has been my crutch for a while now. My husband gets out in 4 months & he can’t drink so I figure now is a good as time as any to quit. PLUS, I really feel like I am doing this for ME, as I am just sick of it. There is no wine in the house (that’s what I drink) and I intend to keep it that way. I’m not sure why I am actually posting this, I guess when you voice it, you are more likely to stick to it. Thanks for listening!!

Congratulations at deciding to sober up! It's a hard thing to do. Have you thought about going to AA? There is so much support there and you might make some new friends too.

Hang in there and keep us posted!

Congratulations on your decision not to drink anymore. I surely can relate to what you are saying. I did the same thing when my ex was going through rehab, but then it dawned on me that I had to do it for me. Well now that my Husband is in prison (not the ex) I don't have to do that. I have been through many things: deaths, divorce and my husband in prison and drinking is no longer an issue.

Drinking doesn't solve our problems, all they do is enhance them. If you need anything, support or what ever I am just a PM away. I will even be happy to give you my home number so if that urge hits you all you have to do is call before you pick up that drink. Love Jeanne

Good for you !! I wish you much success

Ever since my husband has been in prison I found myself drinking more. I recently moved states & find that I am drinking even more than before. I’m sick of doing that, as all it gets me is more depressed & lonely. Today is Superbowl Sunday & when most people will be drinking, I have resolved to stop. I’m just so sick of it and it can’t be good for my health either! My husband has expressed concerns around it as well. I don’t think this will be an easy thing for me to do but I need to do it. It has been my crutch for a while now. My husband gets out in 4 months & he can’t drink so I figure now is a good as time as any to quit. PLUS, I really feel like I am doing this for ME, as I am just sick of it. There is no wine in the house (that’s what I drink) and I intend to keep it that way. I’m not sure why I am actually posting this, I guess when you voice it, you are more likely to stick to it. Thanks for listening!!
I'm told that recognizing the problem is a huge part of the solution. My own experience is that, by the time I was ready to admit I had a problem, I was in the grips of my alcoholism.

I wish you good luck--you are not alone! I promise. Please reach out to those around you who can help. I tried over and over to "John Wayne" it--be a man and handle my own problems. Over and over that didn't work.

Thanks for getting into the solution.

Mike

Thank you all for the kind words!!! Yesterday was o.k. & this morning I got up & went to the gym...I find that I need to keep myself busy! I just moved & don't have a job yet so I am hoping somrthing will come along soon..too much time on my hands is NOT a good thing!!!! That is just too much time to think about everything & get down. I am online now looking for work...I hate not working, besides I need the $$$$$ as you all know, having a loved one in prison is NOT cheap!

P.S. Thanks a lot tazzy for the offer, I may take you up on that :D

Congratulations on your first day! :thumbsup: Hang in there and you know where we all are if you need an ear or a shoulder to lean on!!!! :yes:

I wish you the best. I also suggest AA. It will be great to have a sponsor and its also something to occupy lots of your time. I hope you are feeling ok. Be careful--get to a hospital if you start with shakes or severe headache. YOU CAN DO THIS!

ONE

I know it's tough, but you can do it. Best of luck!

Good for you!! Congratulations!

I am in Carrollton, Texas - North Dallas. Well - to update everyone! I am still clean and sober - Thank God! I have 79 days today! It seemed the first couple of months was easy - and temptations are raising now. I still go to my meetings and know these urges will pass with time again! I feel much better, and am more productive in my life at work, and most importantly at home with my babies! I am so happy I finally pulled out from under the grip of meth....

Congrats on 79 days! Every single day counts

I agree with 1dayatatime you should get into a program of recovery weather it be AA or NA. I am proof it works i have been drug and alcohol free since 2/7/2004. I just dont agree with using drugs to help you get off drugs. If you are like me you would beat one addiction and gain another, but that is my personal experiance.

Oh rock on girl!!!! I am so proud of you!!
Keep doing what you are doing, and if you need help, get it!
You can do it! You are doing great!

I will have 90 days Saturday! I am excited! Just thought I'd let you all know! Thanks to all of you for your support and encouragement!

Congratulations - i am happy for you and also for your kids.

93 days and counting right?? :)
You go girl!

brooksangel ---
I am so proud of you!!!
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
Congratulations!!!

JJT

Yup - 93 days and still going strong! I told Brooks tonight when I talked to him and he was so proud of me! I feel great! You all have been a big support in my success!!

Congratulations, I am so proud of you. You are doing great....Love Jeanne

Yay, yay, yay. So very proud. Keep it up and thanks for all of your help!

I juist wanted to share with you all that as of yesterday May 16, 2005 I had exactly 11 months clean from any mind altering drug. It feels awesome to have that monkey off of my back it really does. I just wanted to give someone hope maybe someone who is struggling with the disease of addiction!! It is possible to get off of that stuff and to have a great life in the process.
It is great to be free from that **** that used to control my every action and thought. I just wanted to let you all know that if this dope fiend pictured in the picture below can kick it anyone can!! You just have to be sick and tired of being sick and tired!! I hope maybe that I can be an inspiration to someone who is struggling!! If you would ever want to talk about what you are going through I am here feel free to PM I would love to share with you my story and let you know that there is help out there and I am proof that you can change your life for the better!!

Love you al!!l thanks to all of you for support I have on this site!!

Pita McNasty

Congratulations to you!

I just wanted to say, "GOOD FOR YOU" that is so awesome that you are clean. I can only imagine your struggle that you have been through. Stay strong and enjoy life and everything around you.

:yay: :yay: :clap: :clap: CONGRATS to you, that is wonderful news!!!!

One more month and you'll be clean for a year, that is totally awesome!!!!

I am really proud of you:D :D :D :D

Mel

Thanks guys for your support!!

Hey Pita!!!! Congratulations, 11 months is HUGE!!!! Great Job!!!!!

Congratulations girl!!!! Almost a year, that is awesome and proof it can be done! :)

:yay::yay::yay::clap:

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

:yay:Congrats, Pita! That is awesome news!:yay:
:D :yes: :ha:

that is great going for you. I love to see when addicts get sick and tried of being sick and tried!! Keep up the good work!!!!

Way to go Pita, we are proud of you and know you can keep it up. You have made such improvements. you should celebrate, get a manicure or a massage something to pamper your self with.

Thanks Ravenslove and yes I am doing something for myself I am joining a gym!! I think that is the best thing I can do for myslef!! I cant wait to get back into shape!!

Hey Pita!! I'm so proud of ya!! CONGRATS GIRL!! :)

Congradulations!!! :thumbsup: It works if you work it and you must be working it!!! Keep on keeping on. I am just so happy for you and I do not even know you, that does not matter. :hifive: And just think, you are almost a year. The best is yet to come.

Congratulations Pita. What a wonderful tribute to what recovery from addiction has done for you. You are a reminder to anyone that it can be done.
May you continue to have and live a drug free life.

Thnks you guys really all ofyou thanks!! I would love to think that I could inspire even just one person to get help it is an ugly disease!! But unlike so many other diseases there is a cure and it is so unbeleiveable. If you think you might possibly have a problem take it from someone who knows you probobly do!!! I mean it when I say if you wnat someone t talk to that knows where you are at I am here and I would be more than happy to do whatever I can to help you out!! We are all like family and you guys have been there for me and I will be here for you in any way i can!! even if it is just to show you that there is a bette way of life out there!!

Pita,
I don't know you, but when I see someone change their life for the better it really affects me. I have had so many people in my life struggle down the path to sobrity. I know it had to be difficult at first, but you did it!!! Congrats and keep up the good work.

Hey Girl!!!

I am so proud of you!!!! I pray that you continue to succeed!!!

ONE

Congrats 100%. Mom had 7 months in from drinking. She felt lonely and went out for a weekend. which ended she ended back in prison. I pray for her everyday to over come the disease. I am very greatful for people like you who show IT CAN BE DONE!

So Congrats again. Keep up the Great work! Im proud of you and I dont even know you!

Beth Ann

Fantastic!!
:D
Congratulations!!!
:D
So proud of you!!!

JJT

THat is Awesome..
KEEP GOING GIRL ONE DAY AT A TIME!!

Donna

"A grateful heart knows many joys"

ROCK ON GIRL!!!
:thumbsup:


You ARE an inspiration to SO many- including me!!!!

Keep on keepin' on!

I juist wanted to share with you all that as of yesterday May 16, 2005 I had exactly 11 months clean from any mind altering drug. It feels awesome to have that monkey off of my back it really does. I just wanted to give someone hope maybe someone who is struggling with the disease of addiction!! It is possible to get off of that stuff and to have a great life in the process.
It is great to be free from that **** that used to control my every action and thought. I just wanted to let you all know that if this dope fiend pictured in the picture below can kick it anyone can!! You just have to be sick and tired of being sick and tired!! I hope maybe that I can be an inspiration to someone who is struggling!! If you would ever want to talk about what you are going through I am here feel free to PM I would love to share with you my story and let you know that there is help out there and I am proof that you can change your life for the better!!

Love you al!!l thanks to all of you for support I have on this site!!

Pita McNasty
Conradulations! I recently just celebrated 1 year of being clean on February 23, 2005. I am very proud of myself. Addictions are hard to kick. Good luck to you Pita!

heather, i just saw thgis...i am SO proud of you...i know what a struggle this has been, but you are such a trooper and continue to march on. you deserve a big pat on the back for this, as i know how hard it is to even ATTEMPT to kick an addiction, so kudos to you and keep on keepin on :thumbsup: use this thread as a check in spot!!

I will thank you Ashtyn and everyone else!! I will for sure keep checking in and let you all know how I am doing!! And I would love anyone else who has stories of addiction and how you are doing to check in as well!! I think it is so important to support one another through staying clean and sober.

Also, showing others that no matter what happens in life I dont have to pick up a drink or drug

Thank you Zigan04!! Congrats on your clean time that is awesome!! It looks to me like you have a great reason to be clean and sober. Your baby girl is absolulty precious!! Keep it up and please check in with us periodically to let us know how you are doing!!

Great job

Thanks, my daughter is a reminder every single day that their are way better things is life than drugs. She is my everything. I am currently in an Intensive Out Patient Program that was court ordered last fall, from when I got arrested over a year ago. I am doing good, staying clean and taking it one day at a time. Good Luck to all!

I WAS THINKING OF HAVING A THREAD WHERE WE CAN CELEBRATE SOBRIETY BIRTHDAYS OF OUR OWN AND OR OUR LOVED ONES. LETS ALL PARTICIPATE:) :thumbsup:

Way to go girl!! 11 months already!!! I am proud of you!!

I will start :)

3/30/97

Who is next? Wooo Hooo!!!!!

My turn!!

May 7, 1983

July 23, 1993...
for me.. thank you god!

Donna

PS.. Great idea..

D

10/12/96...one day at a time. :o

:yay: :yay::yay::yay: Let's keep this going!!

Wow! There is a lot of time on this board. In one of the stickys on top of the board why not tell your stories? I shared mine. Also if anyone has anything to offer or advice to help this site along, let one of us know.:thumbsup:

Congrats, keep striving tp live a drug free life. You can do it.

Congratulations! I remember that feeling well... I'm coming up on 11 years clean in September, but nothing has felt so much a milestone or a victory than every step in that first year did. Hoorah for you, seriously, from the bottom of my heart.

Good for you and you must be so proud of yourself !!!!! I can hardly remember how I felt the first year but I know it was the hardest year and I'd never want to tackle that again. Congratulations !!!! I guess its actually 11 months and 10 or so days now, frig you are so close to a year !!!!

Big Hugs,

Witchlinblue

That is really fantastic for you - Something to be really proud of. :)

9-19-02 that's mine. Thank you Jesus

Good going you all :) Congrats!

12/19/83

Deb

Wanted everyone to know - as of Friday June 3 I will have 6 mo clean and sober! :p

I would like to publicly congratulate you for all of your accomplishments. YOU ARE AN AWESOME LADY and I have the utmost respect for you. Keep up the good. You have the right priorities in life now!!

JCD

February 23, 2004

November 24, 1992



But for the Grace of God, there go I.



Vertigo

Tomorrow (6-10-05) I graduate from my Intensive Out Patient program in treatment. It was 6 weeks of classes 4 nights a week and going to two AA/NA meetings a week. I will now have to attend weekly meetings then monthly. I have been clean now for 14 months and going strong! I was just excited about graduating and wanted to share it with someone thanks!

Congratulations ..so Proud Of U

Congratulations!!
Well Done to you!
:yay::yay::yay:

Congratulations and you are so very right to feel so proud !!!!!!!!

Congratulations!!!

JJT

Congratulations!!!!!!!

You should be so PROUD OF YOURSELF!!!! I am proud of you. Keep up the good work!!!!

Congrats!!! That is awesome...you should be very proud of yourself!!

I am so proud of you--I must say I got chill bumps reading this. I wish you the very best in your clean and sober life!

ONE

Zigan04- Congrat on your sobriety and graduating that is so huge!! You are doing the deal girl that is so awesome and I am so proud of you.
I am getting a year (god willing) 6 days from now!! ANd I cant believe the way my life has changed (all good) this past year.
Well, I am so happy for you girl really that is so great!! Keep it up and most of all keep coming back!! LOL!!

Take Care and be prud of yourself that is such a big deal!

Love and Respect,

Pita McNasty

Thanks everyone, it means alot to me that you all took the time to congradulate me. You are all awesome. I do feel pretty proud of myself. I've be working hard on my sobriety and am going to continue to do so. Thanks again everyone! And to Pita~ Congrats on your one year coming up. Keep up the good work. And I really appreciate your kind words, it means alot!

WOW!!! Keep up the good work...EVERYONE!!!!!!!!! :dance: :dance: :dance:

Congradulations!!!!! Keep up the good work!!!! I am proud of you.

Well I graduated Friday from my Intensive Out Patient program. I received a certificate of completion and a coin that says "One day at a time" under praying hands and has the serenity prayer on the back. I was really excited about receivng my coin and wanted to share it with you all. Thanks for letting me share everyone!

That is wonderful news :) Congrats on completing your program!
heather

Just wanted to share this with all my friends here on PTO!! I cant beelive it is my birthday today!! It is so exciting and humbling I also am to report to my probation officer today for a compliance meeting!! And the cool thing is I dont have to trip on anything, I got my **** straight I am clean and I feel great!!

Just wanted to share this miracle with you all!! I love all you guys So Much thanks for all the support and encouragement you guys continue to give to me!!

Pita McNasty

:yay: :yay: :yay: :hifive: :hifive: WOOOHOOO Pita was to go girl, I am soooo proud of you!

Pita,
Congratulations!!! Bet you can hardly believe it yourself huh? Keep up the good work!
Take Care,
April

:hifive: CONGRADULATONS! :hifive: Keep it up! :hifive:

Way to go girl :grouphug: :grouphug: :hifive: :hifive: :hifive: :yay: :yay:

congratulations to you well done

That is SOOOOO GREAT!!!!! You should be so proud! WTG!!!

Congrats to you!!!! We are all so proud of you!!!

Congrats, You "reformed" Party Girl Lol!!!! Keep Up The Good Work!!

congrats that is really something to be proud of. Way to go girl!

YOU GO GIRL!!!!! :thumbsup:

((((Pita)))) :clap: :bow:

Wow! Where do I start?!?? You are truly an inspiration to many girl!! I am sooooo proud of you! We need to throw a lil PTO Party for you!!! :grouphug:

Congrats and always remember it is YOU who is in control!!! I love ya girl and never forget we are here for you!! Now treat yourself to something special for all your hard work and dedication! :p You DESERVE it!!!

JW

Congratulations!!!

Congratulations. I have been following your recovery and you know that I am so proud of you!!!!

Happy Birthday!!!
Congratulations :thumbsup:
I am so proud of you!!!!
Keep up the awsome work :yay: :yay: :yay: :yay:

THAT'S GREAT!!! I AM SO PROUD OF YOU TOO! YOU SHOULD BE VERY PROUD OF YOURSELF!! YOU GO GIRL!! :)

Congrats, Pita! I'm so proud of you!

That is awesome.. keep goin on keep on

Donna
god willing 12 years in july

CONGRATSSSSSS PITA!!!!!!!!! :yay: :clap: :fb: I'm soo proud of ya girl!


and I agree wit JW, we need to throw a lil party for ya!! :D

HOLLA AT PITA WHEN YOU SEE HER ON THE STREET!!!! ;) :) :D :p :cool:

Congratulations, Your Doing Great :)

Good for you! :) Congrats! :)

THAT IS WONDERFUL NEWS!!!!!

I am so happy and proud of you !!!! That is an amazing acomplishment!!!!!!

Congratulations, you should be very proud of yourself

Congratulations,I am so happy for you!!!!Be proud girl,I know its tough,but you did it!!!!:D

Happy Happy 1 year :) Congrats! We are all proud of you girl! HUGS

That is great! I am proud for you. Keep it up. Happy Birthday .

Many Congratulations!!
Well done!
:D

Congratulations, Totally proud of you !!!

Congratulations, that's great!! :)

Go Pita, Go Pita... It's your birthday, It's your birthday..... You truly are an inspiration!!!

Congrats! I'm proud of you, and you should be proud of yourself. It's such an awesome feeling to achieve that first year mark. Keep up the good work!

congrats girl......that is a big accomplishment....I know ....my two year is coming up on July 9th and it is still a struggle at times...keep up the good work!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Robin

Whoo-hoo!!!!!:yay: :yay: :yay: :yay: :yay:

Congratulations girl!!!:rock: That is quite an accomplishment, you should be so proud of yourself.:thumbsup: ;)

We are all so proud of you and happy for you!!!!!
:hifive: :clap: :clap: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :clap: :clap: :hifive:

TJ

:hifive: Good for you! Way to go!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!

THAT IS AWESOME.

Great going! Let's all be around for your second birthday!

Great Job Pita, I knew you could do it. Keep up the great work and remember I am just a pm or phone call away should you run into trouble and need an ear.

love ya lots

maria

Oh my godsh I am so touched. I wish I could respond to all of your posts but I just want to say thanks to you all for your support you guys are all great and yes I know you guys are here for me if I need it and sometime I might take you up on that.

I love all of you guys I really do and I hope you all know how much PTO is part of my life I would not be able to make it without your love and encouragement!!

Much Love and Respect,

Pita McNasty

Pita,
I just wanted to say CONGRATS!!! That is a very big accomplishment. I am so proud of you

Way to go Pita :yay:
Congrats and keep up the good work.....take care! :grouphug:

This is WAY WAY cool! Congratulations and keep up the good work.

Lately I've been doing a lot of reading about meth and have come to learn so much about it. I'm not an addict myself so it was extremely scary to learn about meth and what people go through when they or a family member is addicted to it, especially the children of addicts. I also learned how freaking difficult it is to get off and stay off of it.

I am so proud of you. I literally have tears in my eyes as I type this. I don't know you or really anything about you, but I do understand what a great accomplishment it is for you to get clean and it is truly inspiring.

Congratulations. Your children deserve a mother. And you deserve a real life.

It is hard to walk away from and even now at 7 mo clean and sober I still have urges to use. I try to busy myself during those times or go to a meeting... I never realized that even with 7 mo clean - I am still just as close to falling off as I was at 1 day clean. Thankfully I realized that, because that is where the battle lies now - being proactive to ensure I don't relapse. :)

I hope you are as proud of yourself as all of us at PTO are. It takes a toll to get clean, and only you can do it for yourself. If you ever have "one of those days" please please come online, there is always someone to help and always someone to talk to. You are in my thoughts.

Hang in there. You are doing really well. Be strong like you are. And know that you can do anything you want to if you set your mind to it!!!! I'm proud of you.
Love, Sheila:thumbsup: :yes: :wave: :dance: :yay: :clap: :hifive: :beer: :grouphug: :rock:

Well.. I relapsed about a month to the day... It was a one night binge, and I beat myself up pretty bad over it. Then I realized I can keep beating myself up and falling back in the same shit or I can pick myself up and start over which is what I have done. I will get my 30 day tag again on the 4th... I technically could get it before then, but I am counting from when I walked back into the doors of my NA group and fessed up... I do thank everyone for their encouragement and support - it really means a lot to me!

Well Ive pretty much stopped counting how long its been but I usually say 17+ years these days. Ive been clean since the summer of 87.

On Jan. 5, I reached the one year mark. This is the longest I have remained sober for 13 years.